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Dialup!

OMG! Dialup is fucking killing me!

Grrr…

Gma and I went over to corning last night to see Charlie and the Choc Factory… It was either that or that movie with the car, what’s it called? That was the one in Creston… So we went to corning. I was hoping that David would be working, but he wasn’t. I left my number with his dad though and he said he’d give it to him next time he talks to him. So hopefully I can hang out with him while I’m back.

Got home and checked my e-mail. then went to bed.

Got up this morning about 10:30 and have been shampooing carpets ever since then. Going to have dinner here soon… Noodles and roast! Yummy!

It’s been raining here all weekend, which kinda sucks. But at least it’s keeping the heat down. I want to get some sun though so I can go take pictures around town.

Adios all.

Andrew and sex

So, just found out that andrew has made out with 7 people while over there in europe. Blowjobs with 2 and fucked one…

That really hurts. It just kinda pushes him over into the slutty column for me… I mean he’s always been a little easy, and that just did it.

And then the following conversation kinda makes me feel like things are completly over with him and I.

It just really hurts.

6:49:31 AM blackc2004: yes.

6:49:33 AM blackc2004: what’s up?

6:49:40 AM squall0112: not much chilling in spain

6:49:47 AM blackc2004: chilling?

6:49:49 AM blackc2004: lol

6:49:58 AM squall0112: actually sweating to death

6:50:03 AM blackc2004: lol… join the club

6:50:04 AM squall0112: haha my mom emailed you after i talked to her earlier

6:50:17 AM blackc2004: She’s one crazy woman

6:50:21 AM squall0112: yeah

6:50:28 AM blackc2004: so what’s up?

6:50:28 AM squall0112: hows work

6:50:31 AM squall0112: i cant find the question mark

6:50:35 AM blackc2004: boring.. i haven’t done shit all day

6:50:35 AM squall0112: nothing, im spending the day by myself

6:50:40 AM squall0112: sounds fun

6:50:41 AM blackc2004: why by yourself/

6:50:52 AM blackc2004: not really i’m working 10 hours m-w… and have NOTHING to do

6:50:55 AM squall0112: well for one, no one is around

6:51:05 AM squall0112: and for two, ive had enough of people and just wanted some alone time

6:51:13 AM blackc2004: Ahhh

6:51:16 AM blackc2004: well i’m sure it’ll be fun

6:51:17 AM squall0112: so i wrote a paper in this really cool temple ish fountain thing

6:51:21 AM squall0112: then sat under a tree and read a book

6:51:23 AM squall0112: well im almost done

6:51:31 AM squall0112: im going back to the ship after im done with the computer

6:51:36 AM blackc2004: yeah.. i forgot it’sl ike 4 or somethihng, eh

6:51:41 AM squall0112: yeah almost 4

6:51:51 AM squall0112: plus, yo uread my email i sent– im so tired of travelling

6:51:59 AM blackc2004: i can imagine

6:52:12 AM squall0112: luckily its over

6:52:15 AM squall0112: well not luckily

6:52:23 AM squall0112: i dont want to be here, but i dont want to go home if that makes sense

6:52:25 AM blackc2004: well it’ll be good to have you back around here to talk to

6:52:32 AM blackc2004: yes, i know what you mean

6:53:01 AM squall0112: yeah i probably have 87093287493 stories

6:53:15 AM squall0112: though i must say, im now very jealous of you for where you got to go in mexico

6:53:28 AM blackc2004: lol… well we’ll have to use skype to talk about it all

6:53:29 AM blackc2004: why?

6:54:07 AM squall0112: skype?

6:54:13 AM squall0112: cause the guggenheim had this huge aztec exhibit

6:54:21 AM blackc2004: Ahhh. yes.

6:54:21 AM squall0112: and the stuff was so cool, now im dying to go see it for real

6:54:26 AM blackc2004: I’ll explain skype when you get back

6:54:33 AM blackc2004: well maybe we can go see it.

6:54:44 AM blackc2004: but only if you take me to europe somewhere.

6:54:52 AM squall0112: czech republic maybe

6:54:58 AM squall0112: or norway again

6:55:07 AM squall0112: or any of the places ive been again really, id love to do all of them over

6:55:15 AM blackc2004: yeah.

6:55:24 AM squall0112: guess what the picture count is?

6:55:38 AM blackc2004: I told you ben moved there for 6 months, no?.. i wish I had got that chance!

6:55:40 AM blackc2004: 2,000?

6:56:11 AM squall0112: no i didnt know he moved there

6:56:13 AM squall0112: 3300

6:56:21 AM blackc2004: wow

6:56:26 AM blackc2004: thats a ton dsgit

6:56:47 AM squall0112: mm hmm

6:56:52 AM squall0112: its over 3.7 gigs

6:57:05 AM squall0112: there are a lot of repeats

6:57:08 AM squall0112: but they are all so fun

6:57:14 AM squall0112: when are you coming to see them?

6:57:42 AM blackc2004: i dunno yet

6:57:53 AM squall0112: ill send yo ua few teasers

6:57:54 AM blackc2004: we both have a three day weekend the week after you get back

6:57:59 AM squall0112: and youll be DYING for the rest

6:58:02 AM squall0112: oh thank god

6:59:12 AM blackc2004: but I dunno if I’ll come back or not… i would have just got back from there!

6:59:29 AM squall0112: why not just extend your vaca a day or two

6:59:40 AM blackc2004: because I already have the flight

7:00:33 AM squall0112: itll cost much less to change than to plan a whole other trip

7:00:49 AM blackc2004: yeah, well i’ll talk to my boss about it… but I don’t think we can work that out

7:01:08 AM squall0112: ahh sadness

7:01:18 AM squall0112: so is anything happening in your life? your emails are sparsely detailed

7:01:23 AM blackc2004: yes…. so are you ever going to answer my question?

7:01:38 AM blackc2004: that’s because my life is sparsely detailed… like I said, I sit around on my couch all day

7:01:58 AM squall0112: ill answer your questio if you tell me why you want to know

7:02:04 AM blackc2004: because I do

7:02:36 AM squall0112: that isnt an answer

7:02:42 AM squall0112: i will reveal all if i konw why

7:02:46 AM blackc2004: yes it is… I want to know what you did.

7:02:49 AM squall0112: and if you tell me what you did with the boys youve beenseeing

7:03:01 AM blackc2004: i haven’t done anything with any boys.

7:03:07 AM blackc2004: i haven’t even made out

7:03:35 AM squall0112: ahh

7:03:42 AM squall0112: i think im done after this trip

7:04:09 AM blackc2004: done with what? And what did you two do? and how many boys did you make out with in spain?

7:04:22 AM squall0112: only one

7:04:52 AM blackc2004: so that’s like a total of 5 or 6 now?

7:05:00 AM blackc2004: did you get one in every country then?

7:05:11 AM squall0112: total of 7

7:05:12 AM squall0112: nope

7:05:13 AM squall0112: 2 in russia

7:05:16 AM squall0112: none in poland

7:05:23 AM blackc2004: well russia made up for it.

7:05:24 AM squall0112: or norway

7:05:29 AM blackc2004: so what did you and mark do?

7:05:55 AM squall0112: i dont want to get into any arguments over aim, so please just tell me why you want to know

7:06:00 AM squall0112: i hav eno problem telling you i just want to know why

7:06:07 AM blackc2004: just because I want to know

7:06:11 AM blackc2004: that’s the only reason I want to know

7:06:21 AM squall0112: you best not get mad then

7:06:47 AM blackc2004: i already am mad that you made out with 7, i’d just like to know what all you’ve done… so just be honest

7:06:57 AM squall0112: why are you mad??

7:07:16 AM blackc2004: that’s not important, i don’t want to get in a fight… i’d just like to know please

7:07:24 AM squall0112: i made out with 7, hooked up with 3

7:07:33 AM blackc2004: hooked up with… meaning?

7:07:47 AM squall0112: you want details?

7:07:56 AM blackc2004: well i want to know what all hooked up entails?

7:08:08 AM squall0112: with one guy it was blowjobs

7:08:22 AM squall0112: another one blew and rimmed me but i didnt do anything to him

7:08:54 AM blackc2004: and?

7:09:19 AM squall0112: and i had sex with marc

7:09:27 AM squall0112: for like 5 minutes

7:09:42 AM blackc2004: ok

7:09:52 AM squall0112: youre mad

7:10:09 AM blackc2004: i told you i was already mad… so it’s not a big deal

7:10:20 AM squall0112: yes and now its yoru turn to tell me why you are mad

7:11:21 AM blackc2004: I don’t want to fight about this, because then you will just blame me for ruining your last days on your trip.. so don’t worry about it.. It’s not a big deal

7:11:52 AM squall0112: i guarantee you it wont turn into a fight, my days will not be ruined

7:12:00 AM squall0112: just tell me and then we will switch the topic to something else

7:12:37 AM blackc2004: my opinion of you just isn’t very good right now.

7:12:44 AM squall0112: why

7:13:22 AM blackc2004: because you’ve made out with more people in the last 2 months then I have in my life! And if we were to get back tother, i’d like someone who’s a little less loose.

7:13:42 AM squall0112: less loose, what does that mean

7:13:57 AM squall0112: you konw im still less loose, or whatever, than most other guys you know

7:13:58 AM blackc2004: not a slut.

7:14:07 AM squall0112: im not a slut

7:14:20 AM squall0112: kissing a few guys overa summer in europe makes someone a slut?

7:14:20 AM blackc2004: well now we’re fighting about this.

7:14:23 AM blackc2004: so change the topic

7:14:34 AM squall0112: im not fighting at all, im merely asking

7:14:35 AM squall0112: im not pissed

7:14:51 AM blackc2004: yes, well I am.. and I’m at work and about ready to just cry. so I want to change the topic. please

7:15:03 AM squall0112: do you want me to call you?

7:15:13 AM blackc2004: no. I’m at work

7:15:18 AM squall0112: ok

7:15:26 AM squall0112: well you can call the ship if you want

7:15:44 AM blackc2004: we can just talk about it when you get back

7:16:13 AM squall0112: well just answer me this… were you looking to get back together once i return ?

7:16:26 AM blackc2004: I was

7:16:45 AM squall0112: even though we live far away?

7:16:57 AM blackc2004: that’s what you asked me to think about wasn’t it?”!

7:17:12 AM blackc2004: that’s why I haven’t done anything with anyone all summer.

7:18:28 AM squall0112: but we dont live close to each other

7:18:39 AM squall0112: weree you going to move? were you going to tell me about this?

7:18:51 AM blackc2004: obviously I was going to talk to you about it once you got back

7:19:04 AM blackc2004: we haven’t had the best medium for talking about things like this all summer, have we?

7:19:31 AM squall0112: no but i thought you wouldve mentioned it

7:19:41 AM squall0112: you didnt answer aboutt he moving

7:19:49 AM blackc2004: i’m still looking for a job

7:20:46 AM squall0112: ok

7:21:11 AM squall0112: sorry i dont know what to say

7:21:30 AM squall0112: but dont be pissed, you knew i was gonna make out with boys on the trip

7:22:08 AM blackc2004: i didn’t think this many, nor that you’d have sex with them either

7:22:22 AM squall0112: well with marc it was different though

7:22:32 AM blackc2004: different how? you knew him like 4 days

7:22:56 AM squall0112: liek i said it was only a few minutes, and i actually liked him

7:23:04 AM squall0112: liek i said it was only a few minutes, and i actually liked him

7:23:08 AM squall0112: yeah but it snot like we met at the bar and i went and fucked him

7:23:27 AM squall0112: that would be bad, but we liked each other and went on dates and it ended up happening

7:23:31 AM blackc2004: I thought we were not going to talk bout this anymore

7:23:42 AM squall0112: you have no room to talk cause you and jon had sex and you werent dating

7:23:47 AM squall0112: and at least i was honest with you about marc, you lied to me

7:24:03 AM squall0112: so weve had sex with the same amount of people

7:24:21 AM blackc2004: we’re not bringing this up now! jonjon and I ended up dating.. you’ll probably never see marc again!

7:24:37 AM squall0112: not true, he wants to visit iowa

7:24:54 AM blackc2004: yeah, and you think there’s any future relationship there?!

7:25:02 AM squall0112: im not saying there is

7:25:10 AM squall0112: if i lived in ireland or he lived here, yeah

7:25:19 AM blackc2004: i thought we were CHANGING ThE TOPIC

7:25:25 AM squall0112: you knew jon for like a week or two when he fucked you, did you know there was a relationship there?

7:25:35 AM squall0112: ok change topic then

7:25:58 AM blackc2004: NO, but at least we knew each other like a MONTH is more the correct time frame.. .and he LIVED HERE

7:26:51 AM squall0112: ok well drop it–like you told me when i found out you lied for 9 months–it happened and i cant change it now

7:27:15 AM squall0112: and i think considering what you did, this isnt any worse by any means

7:27:45 AM blackc2004: we’re even for what I did… did you forget the night you came clean of all your shit too?

7:28:03 AM squall0112: and yet none of it was near as bad as lying for nine months straight to my face

7:28:07 AM squall0112: or physically hurting me

7:28:26 AM squall0112: i dont want to talk about this

7:28:34 AM blackc2004: yeah, that’s what I said forever ago!

7:28:41 AM blackc2004: and you still wouldn’t drop it.. just like always

7:28:46 AM blackc2004: now you’ve opened the can of worms.

7:28:48 AM blackc2004: thanks a lot

7:28:51 AM squall0112: i have to go because im paying for this — i want you to email me and tell me what it is thats going on

7:29:02 AM blackc2004: fine, have fun.

7:29:03 AM blackc2004: bye

7:29:16 AM squall0112: well you just had to know what i did with marc even though you knew it would hurt you

7:29:31 AM blackc2004: and you’re the one who wouldn’t fucking drop the conversation!

7:29:36 AM blackc2004: JUST LIke ALWAYS

7:29:53 AM squall0112: well if im always doing things like this, why do you want to date me?

7:30:03 AM blackc2004: well now I’m wondering if I do.

7:30:12 AM blackc2004: we haven’t talked in months and the first thing we do is get in a fight,

7:30:15 AM blackc2004: so maybe I was wrong

7:30:17 AM blackc2004: maybe I don’t anymore

7:30:27 AM squall0112: we fight b-c you had to know what i did

7:30:34 AM squall0112: it didnt have to be a fight, you are the one who called me a slut

7:30:36 AM blackc2004: no, we fight because you wouldn’t drop it

7:30:56 AM blackc2004: we fight because you are bringing up things that we’ve reconciled long ago!

7:31:03 AM squall0112: well its dropped now– id like you to email me and tell me what it is thats been going on in your head this summer

7:31:09 AM squall0112: if you dont want to, then fine, but its only fair

7:31:21 AM blackc2004: i’m not going to. we can tal about it when you get back

7:31:32 AM squall0112: fine YOU bring it up then

7:31:55 AM squall0112: and for gods saks dont make it during our first conversation, the week i get back will be stressful enough

7:32:02 AM blackc2004: fine

7:32:09 AM squall0112: will you stop saying fine

7:32:24 AM squall0112: you wont have any contact at all with me for at least 2 weeks so try and be nice

7:32:34 AM blackc2004: ME? ME? you try and be nice!

7:32:49 AM squall0112: im trying, but one of my friends just called me a slut

7:32:58 AM squall0112: and i was already having a bad day

7:33:27 AM squall0112: i have to go the things at 2 euros and i have to catch the bus

7:33:33 AM blackc2004: ok

7:33:38 AM blackc2004: have a good rest of the trip

7:33:40 AM blackc2004: goodbye

7:33:44 AM squall0112: thak you

7:33:47 AM squall0112: take care

7:33:48 AM squall0112: bye

Why…

He’ll give me his favorite sweatshirt. (especially after he put his cologne on it)

He’ll stay home with me and watch Disney Movies.

And the only person he would ever watch it with would be me.

He’ll call me at 3 AM and ask me what I’m doing.

He’ll tell me he couldn’t fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice.

And he always whispers something sweet in my ear.

He’ll take me to a concert to see his favorite band.

And he won’t get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends.

When I cry he’ll tell me I’m too beautiful to and he’ll kiss every tear.

He’ll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me.

All of his friends will know we’re in love because he’ll talk about me to them.

He’ll stay up with me all night when I’m sick.

When we’re walking together he’ll stop and pick up a flower and put it behind my ear.

He’ll love everything about me and tell me that I’m perfect.

We always end up laughing about silly fights.

We won’t get mad for making fun of each other because we crack up at every bit of it.

Even if we’re a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me…every time he kisses me.

He’ll tell me he’d die without me.

He’ll surprise me by bringing me over my favorite food when I’m having a bad day.

He would think I was beautiful if I dressed so crappy it was classy.

When we go out for ice cream, he’ll put some on my nose,then I’ll put some all over his face. And we just never stop laughing.

He wouldn’t be scared to cry in front of me– and would hold me when I cry…

He’ll introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he’s ever met.

We would have contests of how far we could spit our gum, or how far we could jump off a swing.

He would grab my waist and kiss my neck.

And we’d always take pictures in photo booths.

He’ll let me go places with his mom.

We would play tag and not care whose watching.

We’d kiss in the rain.

And when I hear him speak, I’ll fall in love all over again.

I want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me, and than go totally soft when I got sad and apologize.

I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars.

Someone who will squirt me with water guns in the house.

When we kissed our hips would be pressed together.

I want someone to be there no matter what … always and forever.

I’ll be his everything.

And he’ll be even more to me.

He will love me for always.

Why did I ever let it go when I already had it? Stupid fucking me.

Sunrise II

So I went and saw the sunrise this morning…

It was amazing. Going and watching nature always makes me happy… I got there about 5:00…

And sat there and watched as the sky got brighter and brigther…

As the first hints of sunlight came over the far off mountians, I began to sing the prayer of the Oglala Sioux. As I did the coulds rose up and kissed my feet. I sat there, as if I was on top of the world. I felt like I could walk on the clouds.

I could hear the birds begin to sing, and the earth around me came alive.

I sat there, and marveled in the begining of a new day, a beautiful new day. Which will bring with it so much happiness and so much death.

I let it all out, I let my stresses go, and remembered the days of my time on the Oglala Sioux Reservation and how they loved mother earth… I sat there, and said the prayer again, and wished I could stay there all day, and wished I had someone there to share the beuaty with.

Check out all my pictures from the morning here

O’ Great Spirit, whose voice I hear in the winds, and whose breath gives life to all the world, hear me! I am small and weak, I need your strength and wisdom.

Let me walk in beauty, and make my eyes ever behold the red and purple sunset.

Make my hands respect the things you have made and my ears sharp to hear your voice.

Make me wise so that I may understand the things you have taught my people.

Let me learn the lessons you have hidden in every leaf and rock.

I seek strength, not to be greater than my brother, but to fight my greatest enemy myself.

Make me always ready to come to you with clean hands and straight eyes.

So when life fades, as the fading sunset, my spirit may come to you without shame.

–An Indian Prayer from the Oglala Sioux

Why I love Iowa

This was just posted by RyanD…. A reason I LOVE Iowa, they actually have WEATHER!

I just watched a storm roll in and it was really cool. It went from blue sky to so dark that the street lights turned on at 7 oclock… all of this happening in 15 minutes. It started off with these black clouds rolling in, but it had a white ribbon in between large clouds all the way across the sky and it was perfectly straight. I took a picture because it was so picturesque.

As the ribbon passed over head, it was like a shockwave of wind that nearly blew my plants over by the window. I looked down to see dust swirling all around and when i sat down at my desk, its was covered in white grit and sand. So ofcourse, closed the windows. I went on the balcony to watch the storm better. It started pouring by then. Big huge drops. But with the wind, it was nearly falling horizontal. I looked at the parking lot across the street and you could see the rain falling in bands, that it appeared to be waves crashing on a shore. It had started to die down, so I went back inside. Turns out we had 70 mph winds and that power lines were down and semis were blown off of hiways. I saw inside and watched the rain fall. It felt like I was inside of a fish tank with the rain pouring down my huge window… and I was the fishy =)

God, I miss storms.