House, Travel, Projects

I can’t believe I haven’t blogged in nearly a month. It’s been so busy to be honest. Moving, new house, shopping, etc.

After my last blog post Jeremy came. We had a good time, but it confirmed that long exposure to him annoys me. If you tell someone to freaking plan out stuff for you to do, don’t go fucking changing it all in the last minute! Ugh. He told me to plan stuff for him to do after the climbing. So I planned all this stuff so that he could see some of the great things in LA. So we were out climbing and all of a sudden he starts changing things. So annoying! Ugh. Sunday he and I walked around the south bay.

I went down to Mexico the day after he left. It was a great trip. Very fast, efficient and good meetings. Good food, good times. As always. Drove home with hector and got major secondary at the border. That was a PAIN!

The next two weeks I’ve had LinkFresh in the office the whole time. So been working long days and not really doing much.

Last weekend I went out to this party with leigh. Saw eric there. It was very awk. The party was nice. Met some great people but sadly I suck on follow through so I didn’t make any new friends. Ugh. Really need to work on that. Would have loved to hang out with some of those boys again.

This week has been all busy with work. Calvin comes in like 20 days. I can’t WAIT for it to go down and for him to get here.

He’s so fucking amazing and adorable.. Ugh.

Calvin…. Lima and NYC

I’ve been traveling way to much this month.

But let’s start with the house. It’s mine, at last! After so many headaches and “today”, “today”, “today”. I own a house! We finally signed the paper work for the day before I left. I haven’t even seen it yet since it’s officially mine! I can’t wait to go and spend a night there. Though I’m not really sure when that’ll be.

So we left for Peru a while ago getting there and all that went off without a problem. Delta flights were nice. You get more food for free, free checked baggage, etc. It was a nice flight. Arrived in peru and was met by Diego and Raul. I’ve only met Diego a few times and he had always been very nice. But this trip he really pissed me off. He’s one rude asshole. We sit around and wait for an hour or more for Mac and Hector to get there. Finanlly we all walk out to Diego’s car. I’d figure for such a big group that they’d rent a car or van or something. Nope. We go out to a mid-90’s era Nissan Sentra. I ask, “Are we really all fitting into that thing” the reply, “Yes”.

You have got to be kidding me.

Met Hector for the first time even though he’s been with the company for months. He’s a good guy he liked to complain like I do so it was good to vent to him the whole trip.

We all go check into the hotel and I went to sleep. The others all went out drinking.

This whole trip was just a huge mess. Nothing and I mean NOTHING was planned at all. The next day we were supposed to have our meeting, go to some sheds, I was told I’d have a full packed week and that I’d basically only have 1 day to myself. Turns out that I had only 2 days of real work to do and had the rest of the trip to myself. Ugh. So We putzed around the city, did some random “work” then just went back to the hotel.

Saturday I rented a taxi for the day and did a nice tour of the city. That was the highlight of the week in Peru.

The presnetation that we went down there to do sucked. After all the work I went through to get mac up to date with everything eh didn’t even DO the presentation. He had Diego do it. Diego knows NOTHING about PTI. All he did was read the damn slides. _I_ could have learned enough spanish to do that!

Met up wth the two Gourmet Offices down there. They are of course a mess. I am not sure how anything in that country gets done. When I suggested that they do things differently I was told. “Well he just doesn’t have enough time to do all that”.

Finally the trip was over, I was headed to NYC to Calvin. I was super excited. I had all this cute romanitc stuff planned out that we were going to do. We were going to have this amazing time, which we did, but something stepped in the way….

I woke up Thursday morning puking my guts out. I got about 10 feet from Jeremy’s door when it started. I threw up about every 10 minutes between there and the bus station. Then continued throwing up for a while while waiting for his bus. Finally I decided that I was in no shape to greet him at the bus. So I left. On the way out of the bus station… I didn’t make it to the toilet. Threw up right in the middle of NYC Port Athority bus terminal.

I arrived back at Jeremy’s and was puking in the toilet when my phone rang. It was that beautiful voice of his saying “I’m here”. I buzzed him in and ran back to the toilet. He came in and saw me. Rubbed my back while I was throwing up and gave me some napkins when i was done.

He came in and cuddled with me all day. Helped me, got me meds, Held me. He was amazing. I’m not sure most people would have stayed after seeing something like that. At one point I had the MOST horrible, painful leg cramp I had ever had in my life. Calvin was amazing in helping me through that too. Holding me, massaging my leg, etc. I was probably screaming bloody murder at him. I took some magic “yellow” pills that were chinese in nature and those made my stomach feel better. I had my meeting with the guy then we went out walking in the city.

We got to see some nice parts of the city that night. I honestly can’t even remember what we did. I think that was the night that we saw this italian market, met up with both Jeremy and Oksana. Didn’t stay out late and went back to Jeremy’s place.

J was awk this whole trip. I’m not sure what his deal was. There were a lot of weird things that bothered me. First example we’d be walking down the streets and if you didn’t keep an eye on him he would just disappear. Like turn a corner without saying “hey we need to go this way”. Stuff like that. it gets really annnoying. Also he can be so prying sometimes. And most of all that night going to bed. We had discussed it before, he said multiple times that Calvin and I could have his bed. But in the end we ended up sleeping on the couch together. WTF. It wasn’t horrible. It was actually fine, but still. WTF. Another example is that when we’re walking around the city we told him 4-5 times “let’s go straight to XXXXX” Well after about 20 minutes of round about walking and back and forth on the blocks we’d be there. That’s not going “Straight” there.

Friday I woke up feeling much better but stil sickish. We laid in bed till noon then went to the MET. Came back and napped then Jeremy came home. We were going t go to dinner and a show. Well Jeremy also has this horrible problem with timing and listening. So dinner and a show turned into “let’s walk around the highline”. We did that for a while then eventually got a Quick dinner and got to the show just as it was letting in. I had told him MULTIPLE times that i watned to be there at least 45 minutes early so that we could get good seats. That didn’t happen. Also the show wasn’t that great.

Though I’m pretty sure that Calvin really enjoyed his first improv. We went back to Jeremy’s place after that and got yogurt. Then the second horrible part of the weekend started. Calving started throwing up!

He threw up all night long… Saturday morning he was being a strong boy and we went out for a bit. I suggested stuff, Jeremy rolled his eyes and suggested other stuff. It was really annoying trying to agree on something. I mean really, I’m here visiting. Don’t roll your eyes at what I wanted to do. Calvin and I BOTH wanted to go to the botanical garden. We didn’t get to. We ended up walking around and around in the damn city. Taking a water taxi and going to a food vendor thing. ALL stuff that is NOT good for Calvin’s stomach! And I had to keep telling jeremy to slow down while walking.

I think that Clo enjoyed the day but I could tell he was just being a strong trooper. He went home after dinner and slept while Jeremy and I went to this Flying Burlesque show. Again I told him I wanted to be early so that we could get good seats. Again we were late and ended up standing. Only stayed an hour. I’m sure if we had seats and stayed longer it would have been more fun.

Got back and slept my last night holding Calvin. Running my fingers over his face, kissing his forehead, his back, his arms. He’s so beautiful. So amazing, so nice. We got to know each other in such an intimite setting this weekend. So closely so quickly.

We woke up on Sunday and packed and left. Breakfast was a sad affair and then I took him to the bus stop. At least this part of the trip went as planned. The one part that I wish had been fucked up, missing bus, late bus, cancelled bus, tickets for the wrong day, etc. Anything to keep Calvin in my arms longer.

But it came and went. I stood with him in line, holding his hand, kissing him until he got to the door. I gave him one last tight hug and kiss and sent him off. Not knowing when I’ll next see him. I teared up a little while waiking away from him there.

This weekend, even with all the sickness, annoyances, etc has been amazing. Only having him here, seeing him, getting to know him so much better. He’s such an amazing person. I can’t wait to see him again. I only wish I knew when that would be.

I can’t wait to get home and skype him to see his face again!

That afternoon Jeremy and I went bouldering in central park, saw billy elliot, went back to his place. It was all pretty solumn and sad without Clo there…

Why is it that I find guys I like that aren’t accessible long term to me.


I’m scared… Really scared. But I can’t show it.

This whole HIV thing is scary. Having an amazing bf has helped a lot.

Eric’s been tested multiple times, he’s still neg. We’re going to wait a couple months and test again. Hopefully that will still be negative.

I’ve been dealing with it but I am still scared and depressed.

I’m just not sure.

Things with Eric have been great. He’s amazing. Of course there are times when I just wanna tell him to shutup. But then I remember how he always comes straight to me to kiss when he gets home from work and all the other super cute little things he does every day that are just great.

Work has been work. I’m in Miami right now and can’t wait to get home. There’s nothing open in the terminal other then starbucks.. so I’m starving.

So much other stuff to write about, but nothing seems important enough now.

Sj Eats, Poker, etc

Again it’s been a while. I suck at updating this blog any more, no one reads it other then about 2 people and it’s become a hassle to keep updated with all the stuff that’s been going on.

Like I said, things have been really busy, we got hacked, a few times at work and I had to clean all that stuff up. The new guys that took over Aaron’s customers have not been very helpful and now they want to start charging me for the stuff that Aaron did for free. I did the math and they are making about $1,200/month off our account. I think that should be enough for them to spend helping us when there are major problems. It’s not like I’m calling them every day and bitching. I should just make my own company and bill GTC and pocket the $1,200!

There’s been some issues between ECH and I. We’re past the do no wrong state for sure and into the figuring things out stage. He’s an awesome bf, but sometimes he’s just so one sighted. A couple weeks ago I had my house warming party (a huge success). That weekend there was also Daniel’s dance party and Peter wilson’s house party. He wanted to go to both of them on Saturday. After we already had a busy long night friday and a busy day saturday.

I just don’t get what his obsession is with constantly going out to parties. He says he was depressed and just wants to meet new people, etc. I get that, but three parties in one weekend I think is a little excessive. Plus since it taks him so long to orgasm we never have sex because there is never any “time” for doing it. Well there’d be time if he didn’t insist on being constantly busy with other stuff. Then before daniel’s party we went to dinner with some of his friends which caused us to be nearly an hour late. I was so pissed.

At the party I put my foot down and told him no to going to pete’s party. Then he told his friends we couldn’t go because we were going to go home and have sex. Not something I think he should be sharing with people. Ugh.

We went and saw Thor and then Something Borrowed the next week. Thor was amazing, Something Borrowed was horrible. Thursday we went to poker. On the way there I was open and honest with him about how nervous I was, how I didn’t know any poker, told him he’d have to explain everything. He said. “Don’t worry they’ll explain everything.” So we get there, hang out for about an hour talking in which a couple people said directly to him “I thought you said he’d never come to poker”… WTF does that mean?

Then also he started randomly introducing me as “Christopher”. WTF! His reply was “it’s funny”. No it’s not funny.

So then we started playing. We had specifically asked the leader if we could be on the same table so that he could teach me.

Well that didn’t happen. We sat down next to each other and then they all just started playing. We did about two hands and ECH hadn’t explained a damn thing. So I dropped out. Then the whole rest of the game he just ignored me instead of teaching me what was happening. The whole point of this was so that I would feel more included in HIS life. And here we are at something the “loves” to do and he just ignored me completely. Fuck.

We left early.

This past weekend we went up to SJ Eats in San Jose. Stayed at his parents house (in separate bed rooms). Met his parents, they were nice but it was so awk. Went out saturday day to SJ eats and walked around downtown SJ. HIs friends up there were so nice. I like them a lot better then the people he knows here in LA.

That night he had a family dinner that I wasn’t allowed at. So I had to entertain myself. It’s so funny seeing the family dynamics. Like my family, if we had stayed with them, my dad would have had breakfast ready for us when we got up, they would have insisted that ECH go with us to the family dinner, etc. Yet his family was just the oposite. Very odd.

Anyways, that weekend was very good and that’s basically been it. My months are quickly become busy until September now. So much for staying less busy and working on my body and personal life.

I’ve also been feeling a lot more anxious lately about new things. I’m not sure. Maybe I should see my doctor about it. Poker, dodgeball, etc are all the same.



I’m sick… Back from Caborca. It was a really long week. It went fairly well but of course there were the headaches.

One shed we walk in and he says that our system is shit and he doesn’t want to use it. I tell him the minimum requirements and then say let’s go. He gets all pissy about it and tries arguing with me that I’m mad AT him. Which I’m not mad at him I was just frustrated and ready to go. Apparently he was mad at the company as a whole because of something else and he was taking it out on me. Either way because of that I had to go back the next day and waste another few hours holding his hand.

A couple sheds didn’t have their hardware yet. All the people in LA’s fault. I handed them a pallet of over $20,000 worth of hardware. You’d think that they would track it a little better. Apparently it got to El Centro and then never crossed the border. So we had to waste time tracking those down and looking for them, etc.

Another couple sheds after we were there they called us back saying nothing works. We go back to the sheds and it’s because THEY had unplugged shit that we had told them NOT to touch! Ugh.

I got really annoyed with the two guys we were traveling with. First on Monday I saw them at 5pm at one of the sheds. Told them we were headed back to town and to call us to let us know what the plan was for dinner. Never heard from them. They told us breakfast was at 7am. They never showed up. Told us breakfast was at 7:30 one day. They didn’t show up till 8:30. Told us they had a meeting with a buyer. Found out they went to dinner with the rest of the caborca crew and left us to get our own dinner. Just the lack of communication was really frustrating. Plus one of them got me SICK! Ugh.

I’m so glad to be back in the USA and can’t wait to get back to LA. I really need to focus on getting skinny again. I’ve put on so much weight and I feel like shit in general.

We’re watching some fishing show right now..

Things with ECH are going good. The gang is finding out slowly. We’re “steady”. I’m excited to get back home and see him. He’s such an interesting boy. Still so much to find out about him.

I’m not sure if I can go to Austin now. Huge issues in LA while I was gone. The USDA came in and shut own our warehouse completely. Will have to see what happens when I get back on Monday. I hear that we are already back open which kind of sucks because it would have been a great way to get things out of GLC’s hands and show our CEO how an outside warehouse could really get things going better.