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So… It’s been one hell of a weekend for me.

Lets go back to Friday, Austin was in the area when I got off work, so we went over to Fashion Island and ate lunch. He got annoyed with me because he didn’t think it was very smart to just ride over in one car. But he seemed ok with it all by the time we were over.

Drove back to my house and the traffic was pretty bad. Got there and the first thing he did was jump into my bed and take his shirt off and say. “Come lay with me for a while.”… So I was like thinking yay, you know he wants to cuddle and it’s going to be a good hanging out again.

So we end up laying in my bed from like 4 to 8 watching this movie, Beaches. After that we get up and I’m hungry so I start making dinner and he’s like, “Well I’m going to go home, I need Austin time and I can entertain myself more.” So I get really offended by that, I’m sorry that I have to take a minute to FREAKING COOK MySELF DINNER. Plus I was pissed because I was really hoping that he would spend the night again. :'( We haven’t slept together in forever, and I like that. I LOVE SLEEPING with people! Grrr.

So get into it and he leaves and I’m all pissed off, we had a big long convo about it once he got home and he said:

9:13:28 PM austin: i like you a lot, but i don’t think ur the guy for me

9:20:36 PM austin: i feel like i need someone more dominating

9:21:08 PM austin: more controlling

I’m not sure WHY he wants that though, those things never freaking work out. The controlling person always gets mad because they feel like they are being too motherly and the other person always gets mad because they eventually feel like the other is being too controlling. I’m really hoping that it’s just that he does have a job and is feeling lost. But who knows.

Anyways, I went to bed about 10 and slept horribly. Got up at 8:30 and cleaned up my house some and then met Robert for a bike ride at 9:30. We did that and I got home about noon and showered and tried calling Mark, etc to figure out plans. Everytime I’d call him he was like, “I’ll call you back in a minute” But he never did, so that was annoying. FInially Austin and I said we’d just go up there and hang out. Thankfully as we were heading out to meet each other Mark called back and we got the plans made.

We met up at the mall and he came up and hugged me which was nice. He ate lunch and we had a good talk then headed up to my house. Got in my car and started driving and he got all pissed at me because I didn’t have any music in my car and I just like to listen to the radio. So we drove there without really saying much to each other.

Got up there and I had a really good time. Skyler (with his wierd spelling) and James were both there. It was fun seeing them again, but I wish that they would have come out to dinner with us that night. James is so yummy! Too bad he’s uber straight! lol.

So we hung out at the conference and had a good time, talked to lots of random people and learned alot. So that was good. We went to this “Weakest Geek” thing and it was pretty entertaining.

Mark and Austin really talked a lot while I was off talking to other people, so they were getting along and it seemed like Austin was enjoying himself.

Oh, somewhere in there we picked up this guy named Brandon who was also family and kinda cute in a really geeky way.

So after the weakest geek we all pile into Scott’s truck and headed up to Santa Monica to Thrid Street. We found this nice Italian place and got right in without a problem! We all sat around drinking and talking and having a really good time and the food was amazing! We were there for over 2 hours, and I had 2 martini’s and Mark was nice enough to pay for everyone, it was like $60 a person too!!

We headed out after that to West Hollywood. Somehow Mark ended up between Austin and I in the car and they were being all cuddly and to me it even looked like they were giving each other little kisses here and there… Thus began my being pissed off for the rest of the fucking night.

So we get to The Abbey. We get in there and on the way there, Austin runs into someone he knows.. Which annoys me a bit. Then he starts talking about how he was there for new years and went home with this random guy. Which PISSED me off even more. So we get in there and the place is fucking PACKED like crazy.

We walk all the way to the back and buy everyone a round of drinks. Then on the way out Austin runs into this other guy he knows, and I’m just so annoyed with him by that point that Brandon and I just keep walking. We get outside and stand under this heat lamp thing and this cute little lesbian comes up and starts talking to us, so we chat with her for a bit and I bum a smoke off her. She eventually leaves and Austin, Mark and Scott STILL aren’t back, so Brandon and I go find a spot to sit down because I was starting to have this crazy break down and started crying.

So we find a spot and sit and talk and I poor my guts out to him and then FINIALLY Mark and Austin show up and Austin starts being all cute with me and stuff and asking if I’m pissed and I just pretty much ignored him. So we stay there till like 2 and finially we all leave and Mark and Austin sit next to each other again and AGAIN it looked as though they were giving kisses. Grrr.

We get back to the hotel and Austin’s all talking about just going up to Scott’s room and sleeping there. But he doesn’t. So Mark and Austin get into the same bed, so I just take the other one, then they somehow both ended up in the bed I was in, but those two cuddled all night and I just kept my back to them. I was SO FUCKING PISSED AT Austin.

Got up at 8am, still drunk and drove back to Aliso from LAX.

We get back just as my Aunt’s are calling me saying they are there… So Austin meets them for a second and then goes home. We go into my place and I shower and head out for a REALLY long day with them.

I took them up to Top of the World and thankfully it was clear, cause when I was up there Saturday morning it was all cloudy and nasty. They all seemed to enjoy that. They we drove around downtown laguna for a while, then headed up to Newport Via PCH. Took them up through there and then showed them my office since we were driving right past it. There was some girl there with a group of really cute guys and we all took the same elevator, but she couldn’t get her key to work and stuff. It was funny.

After that we drove up to Long Beach and went to the Aquarium of the Pacific which totally isn’t worh the $20 to get into there! Blah.

From there we headed back to Newport to eat lunch and at Hamburder Mary’s. They really liked it, but our waiter was kinda an idiot. After lunch (well, it was like 4). We went off to Newport Pier and walked along the beach for a while. My aunt is crazy and she stopped and asked this guy how much it costs to rent a one of the beach houses in that area. And he said it was $6,000 a WEEK during the summer! How fucking insane is that!

Once they got bored with the beach we came back to my house and they left. I stayed up till like 7:30, but was laying in bed and then finially just couldn’t stay awake any longer… And went to sleep. lol

I’ve got another date with the same guy from last Thursday… tonight. I’m not sure how I feel about that.

Well, I’ve written a book, so I’m out.. Adios!

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Blah, I haven’t been sleeping worth shit the last 3 nights… Wake up every 1-1.5 hours and just lay there in bed. Then this morning I decide… “I’ll sleep in till 6” but then I realized I had to get gas and shit, so I’m 45 minutes late to work. Oh well.

Everyone is going to Santa Monica for a bowling/drinking party tonight, they are leaveing at 11:30, so that’s probably when I’ll head out as well, though i’m not going to Santa Monica.

They installed a Meter at the On-Ramp that I take home from work.. VERY annoying. I had to wait 10 fucking minutes yesterday just to get onto the fucking freeway. I don’t know WHY they did that, there’s NEVER been any problems at that onramp. Just another thing that makes California stupid.

Speaking of, I read somewhere that there’s a bill, either in the California, or Fedral not sure which. But basically since Hybrids use less gas, and thus they get less tax revenue for road projects from them, they are going to implement an additional tax when you purchase the car… WTF?! So you’d be getting both a tax WRITE OFF and an EXTRA tax all at the same time?! Why don’t they just fucking cancel the tax write off… Yet another reason why our government sucks.

Had another meeting with GT yesterday. I get to write a daemon to handle some stuff with the project I’m working on. That’ll be fun. (Not). Also he was like, “We’ll talk about the design later.” it’s like, “NO, I WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE DESIGN AS I’M DESIGNING IT!” It’s easier to move things around when it’s a blank page. Grrr. He also added 4 new tables yesterday, of which I have no idea what they do. I only asked him to add two new tables! WTF?!

I made a paris slideshow last night, I’m going to search for some good ass music and then post it here.


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How was your day?

You what really annoys me sometime…. It’s when people don’t ask you how your day is. You know, if you’re friends with someone, I just feel that upon greeting them that day, or specific time you should say, “Hi, how are you doing” or something like that. Maybe it’s just the fact that I’ve been raised in a customer service home. You know, being raised at the store, you welcomed everyone with ‘Good Morning so-and-so, how are you doing today” It was just the nice thing to do. But what’s happened? How come people don’t ask you how you are doing? Blah. I just think that if you’re going to be friends with someone, you should ask them how they are doing.

On the other hand though, it does ANNOY the hell out of me when some people ask me how I’m doing. IE, There’s this guy who works in the Santa Monica office who IMs me like once a week with some stupid problem. I always know that when he IMs me he’s got a problem. I’ve NEVER met the guy in person, I’ve NEVER talked to him on the phone. I only talk to him through AIM, But he ALWAYS blabs for a while, you know “HOw you doing” blah blah. In these cases, I know the guy doesn’t give a shit about how I’m doing, so why bother asking? You’ve got a problem, IM me and say, “I have a problem” don’t waste my time with “How are you”, etc!

But I do think that people who should care, should ALWAYS ask how one is doing.. It took a while to get Andrew to do it all the time, but now he’s good at it. Just have to push the rest of my friends to do it. lol

You might notice that this post is a little late in the day for me… I usually post shortly after I get to work…. Well let me start with last night…

I ended up working from home till 5:30 or so, then stopped because I was asked to push things back to 6:30. So I tried getting on at 6:30 to work, but the network here was down because they were doing work. So I didn’t do my work last night and just planned on doing it this morning. Since I had already put in 3 hours extra yesterday anyways.

Well I went to bed about 9pm.. And lately I haven’t been sleeping too well… More on that later… Anyways, I go to bed and then some jerk calls me at 10:30! So I get online to find out who it was, Find it it’s the guy that ALWAYS calls people when they aren’t on call… (I should really add his number to my phone so that I know who it is). So I get online and am kinda bitchy to him, because I’m NOT ON CALL this week! And then go to bed. Of course I couldn’t get back to sleep. 🙁

Well I wake up about 4:30 and still couldn’t get on the VPN, so I figure maybe it’s just that that’s not working, so I lounge around the house for a while and then get ready and come in about 5:45ish. To find out the WHOLE NETWORK is down! So I go upstairs to the network room and find that one of the UPSes had blown it’s fuse. I reset it and the 7th floor’s network starts working just fine, but for some reason the 15th floor still isn’t working. So I look into that, then I find out that the RT box and the local webserver aren’t up. So I have to start working on those!

Eventually our network guy got here and he took over looking into the network issue (I never would have figured it out!). And I dig into the rt/webserver problems. I eventually had to reboot both them off the CD’s and then fsck the hard drives! That sounds so dirty! Anyways, after that the webserver came up ok, but the RT box didn’t come up. By this time I had a few other things to do, so one of the other SAs took over the RT box and got it fixed pretty quickly. Ended up being some error with the LDAP connection. (Which i supected, just didn’t know how to fix).

So hat’s been my day so far. I’m going to take off here soon to make up for the time yesterday. Hitting the gym and then making tacos for supper. 🙂 Yummy!

Anyways, about the sleeping. I’ve been reading up on this whole Chemo/Radiation stuff that Blake’s been going through. It just depresses me so much and makes me so sad that someone as amazing as him has to go through this at such a young age! I mean, if it were me, I probably would hav egiven up by now and just said screw it…. Hell, I don’t have anywhere near as big of problems as he has and sometimes I still feel like giving up…. I dunno what keeps him going but i hope he keeps fighting it and I hope that he wins soon.


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So we had a tsunami aleart today.. that was funny.

Here’s something else funny:

SANTA MONICA, California (AP) — Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger’s return to his alma mater turned into an exercise in perseverance when virtually his every word was accompanied by catcalls, howls and piercing whistles from the crowd.

Schwarzenegger’s face appeared to redden during his 15-minute commencement address Tuesday to 600 graduates at Santa Monica College, but he ignored the shouting as he recalled his days as a student and, later, his work as a bodybuilder and actor.

“Always go all out and overcome your fears,” he told the graduates. “Work, work, work. Study, study, study.”

Inside the stadium, the drone from hundreds of rowdy protesters threatened to drown out the governor’s voice at times. Many in the crowd erupted in boos when a police officer pulled down a banner criticizing the estimated $45 million cost of the November 8 special election that Schwarzenegger proposed Monday.

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