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We Went To The Moon In 1969

1:12PM – We went to the moon in 1969…..

Yet another WONDERFULLY WONDERFUL Wednesdy with my one and only (almost) Topher!

So he took off work so taht I could spend the day with him, which I thought was totally sweet of him. I actually kinda feel bad, like I’m costing him 70 or so bucks everytime we hang out! But I suppose if he really wanted to go to work, he would.

So since he was so sweet, I thought it would be nice to buy him flowers. I didn’t get roses… they are a bit cliche, plus I thought I’d wait for something more special before I buy him those. So I just got these white flowers, I dunno, I thought they were pretty. Drove to Ames, speeding lol so that I could get there because I wanted to see MAT (my new name…. meaning My Almost Topher.) hehe I thought it was funny.

Anyways, I get there and give him the flowers and he seemed pleasently surprised by them, which is good. THough I guess me giving them ruined some surprise he was planning for me, so now I feel really bad. I hope he follows through on it anyways, because I don’t want to actually have ruined something, plus I like Surprises!!!

So we talked and put them in a vase, sat on his bed and talked about our day, and made a CD for me.
Talk about a fun CD! The CD has Marilyn Manson, Ace of Base, 50 Cent, Sonny and Cher, Erykah Badu, Justin Timberlake, The song from the Disney Channel…. such a varied mix. I really like it though. Fun times.

So we did that, and Chris got a few kisses for it.

At one point we had a discussion about patrons lol. We talk about the oddest things sometimes.

pa·tron·ize ( P ) Pronunciation Key (ptr-nz, ptr-)
tr.v. pa·tron·ized, pa·tron·iz·ing, pa·tron·iz·es
To act as a patron to; support or sponsor.
To go to as a customer, especially on a regular basis.
To treat in a condescending manner.

Just for you Chris! Now you kow what it means 🙂

So the we decided to go to Reiman Gardens which was TONS of fun!!! We walked around inside for alittle bit and looked at all the pretty butterflies and I told Chris about the butterfly with the 12 foot wingspan. I’m not sure that’s true, but it’s some giant ass bug. lol. We walked outside and it was so totally cute b/c we were walking with our arms around each other and we’d hold hands too.
It really said a lot to me that Chris isn’t afraid to show that type of display in public. It was totally sweet. We stopped and kissed under this thing, which would’ve been a lot more romantic had it not been right on the highway. “Beautful Reiman Gardens, surrounded on both sides by highway…” So yeh then we walked other places, stillholding hands and creeping out these stupid breeders who were raking the “lake.” We stopped under a covered bridge, and I tried to teach Chris the dance move that Court and I always do. I’m not sure he got it… but it was cute.

Then we walked more and sat on a bench and held hands and kissed and made fun of the breeders and just talked. So nice.

We left b/c I was cold, but I felt bad for wanting to leave. But I was cold!

Then we went to the mall, non exciting really.

Then we went out to eat at Village Inn, and I was a total blargmonster with 3 plates out! Woo! But it was soooooo good and Topher man is such a sweetie for paying!!! I’ll make sure to give him a little something extra *wink* hehe.

We sat there and talked for awhile about gifts from Exes and whatnot. Lots of random shit. We left and poor waitress girl didn’t get a tip. Eh. oh well *shrug*

After Village Inn, we went to Best Buy, where I was gonna buy the CD Skip Fixer thingy, but didn’t b/c it was 30. I figured I’d just get it offline somewhere. So then we went to Target to see ift hey had thatand FFOrigins for cheaper. Well, Target didn’t have it at all, so we went BACK to Best Buy, and I felt dumb when we saw the guy who greeted us the first time. I bought FFOrigins, yay so now I have 2 MORE FF’s to play, in addition to 7, 8 and Xenogears and whatever else I wanna play.
I also stopped and molested Xenosaga Episode 1 again lol.

After that, it was back to the Toph’s apartment to just do random shit. I told him to put on Enya, b/c I enjoy that as background music. So he did, and we layed there kissing and cuddling and being cute. He’s riht, thy SHOULD make a movie about us… perhaps I’ll write a script and we’ll see what can happen.

Oh I did tell him that I Couldn’t hang out Friday b/c of things with Courtney, and I Felt really bad. But I really think yesterday was worth it. I had such a wonderfully amazing day with him. He seemed ok with it, so I’m sure things are fine. I’m sure we’ll be together most of Saturday and Sunday so it won’t be a big deal. *sigh* Though how I’d LOVE to spend the night with him again….
Anyways, eventually I had to leave, and hewas holding me, and I Just wanted to roll over and go to sleep with his strong arms around me. I was about ready to be like fuck it all, I’m staying!! But I Couldn’t and of course eventually I had to leave.

We stood kissing for a looong time…. It’s just really hard to let go. And these crazy breeders were making lots of noise, I was like hey dumbass breeders shut it! Oh why are they so stupid? lol.
Oh we also went to Chris’ MIS meeting, which was cool I guess. I didn’t really get it at all, so I just looked around. I think I’ve decided that I reallywant to go to a big university. Hmmm such a tough choice.. I mean TECHNICALLY I could still go to Iowa. But I don’t know.

Anyways, thats beside the point.

So I really like Chris eh? I can’t wait till Sat. when I get to see him! And of course I’ll be thinking of him in the meantime… how can I not? I’ve got pics all over of him at work at home, everywhere!

I really hope he liked the flowers. My intent was that everytime he sees them, he will remember that there is one little gay boy in Waukee who is thinking about him. Perhaps I need to pick up something a bit more substantial (and somehing that won’t die so quickly) so taht he can remember me always! Not that he won’t anyways I mean HELLO. lol

Oh, we also figured out that between Chris’ ass and my ego, there isn’t enough room on the bed for anything else.

LoL.

Oh Topher. Hope you smiled as you read this! Because you are beautiful when you smile…. well, you are beautiful always.

Have a great day!

BREAK!

Current mood: awake

Flowers!

So, yet another GREAT GREAT Wed night with Andrew. Ohhhh, what a great night!

So I decided that I wasn’t going to go to work at all. So I sat around here paitently waiting for him to arrive. He finally got here about 12:30ish, I was looking out my peep-hole (Why’s that sound so bad and wrong?), and I saw him carrying flowers. I was like, “OMG, ::tears:: how nice.” I had to wait a second to hold them back before opening the door. He came in and handed me the flowers. I was so in shock, and a warm fuzzy feeling that I just didn’t know what to do or act. It was such a special thing for me! No one’s EVER got me flowers before. Sooooo nice. I’m almost in tears just sitting here looking at them, and reading his card…”Topher – Thanks for being you! You mean the world to me! -Drew” They’re so pretty, I wish that I had my digital camera so that I could take some pics of them! Although now he’s kinda ruined a surprise that I’ve been planning, oh well….. Maybe I’ll just do it anyways!

After that excitment was done we came into my room where we sat and talked about how our day was, etc. Made him a CD which was really amusing. Although my CD burning software wasn’t working quite right, so I had to do alot of manual labor to get it done right. Bah! But it was tons of fun. After that we made plans to go out to Reiman gardens.

Went out there and there were a bunch of old crazies working there. First the lady taking money was like “How old is your friend there” and I was like 18. And she was like, “He could pass for 17.” and then she talked some more, and I handed her the $5 that I had, she took it and we went off. We were looking at the hatching area, and Andrew bitched about her saying that he could pass for 17, and then taking the $5 cause we figured she would only make us pay the $2. Well, a couple minutes after he bitched the lady was like… “Here I only rung you up at $2.” I was like, “Ohhh, thanks” I bet she heard Drew Bear bitching.

So Reiman was TONS of fun! We walked around inside, and then went outside…. Yet another place that I wish we had our own little photographer walking around with us! So many cute little thing happened there. First we walked over to this big bell like thing, I dunno what it is, but we stood under it and kissed. SOOO cute! And so much fun! After that we walked around some more. Stopped at this covered bridge type thing and kissed and hugged. God, we’re so CUTE! I just can’t get over it! Weeeeee, so great. You really have no IDEA how great it is to have someone that I care about, and I’m not ashamed of. Someone that I can go out in public and kiss, and hug, and hold hangs, and not be embarrased. Drew and I have had more PDA’s TODAY then Adam and I did in the whole 16 months of our relationship. So great!

After the bridge, we went up to this little hill thing and sat there on a bench and held each other, and kissed some more! We sure do alot of kissing! There were breeders and I think we scared them some… Eh, who cares!

From Reiman it was off to the mall because I heard that AE and Gap got new shit in. It didn’t look as if Gap did, but AE did. So that was fun. After that we went and ate at Village Inn. Good food there, I paid! From there it was off to Best Buy, where Andrew purchased FF1&2, the originals! I’m sure he was excited. Saw Andy Beatty there too!

After that back to my place where we sat around and talked, and kissed some more. Again such great times. What I really love about kissing him is after wards leaning back, and in that second before he openes his eyes, he’s so CUTE! So Adorably cute, and then he opens his eyes, and you see those big, sweet, caring brown eyes looking back and you, and you just feel so great and this warm tingly feeling flows throughout your body, oh so great! I wish I could take a picutre from my eyes so that I could see that all the time!

One thing that we talked about at Village Inn was all the gifts that we had given Ex’s. And it really pissed me off cause I realized how much money I had spent on Adam. I mean, we’re talking TONS of fucking money. And what did I really get in return, he never did anything sweet like I did (Ie, cards on car, etc), he never got me flowers, he never bought me tickets to some show that I wanted to see, he never did SHIT! Pretty much everytime we went out for food, I paid. Arg, it pisses me off to much. I wish I could block that 16 months from memory!

Anyways, back to much happier things. At 7:30ish we had to go to campus for a group meeting. That was amusing and only lasted like 20 minutes. Good time though, Andrew looked as though he was bored as hell! lol.

After that we came back to my house and laid in my bed with Enya playing in the back ground. They should make a movie about us cause we’re so CUTE!! Damnit. so fucking cute! We kissed and talked and kissed and talked some more. It’s getting so hard to leave him! I dunno what we’re going to do if we ever can’t have a Wed together.

And speaking of, he’s not going out Friday night, which is sad. But also understandable. I was reading XY today, the relationship section of the new guide thing, and it’s like…Ok, so I can’t think of exactly what it said right now, but basically is said that in a good relationship everyone has to have a night or two out with freinds that are just thier friends. And that there should be some non-shared friends. Anyways, I’m glad that he’s going out with girl. Even though I find her funny cause she almost acts like she’s his GF or something. So crazy! But I’m sure he’ll have fun, and I’ll find something fun to do too!

So eventually it came to the point where he had to leave, and it’s so hard. Of course it always takes like 20 minutes to get him out the door, and I feel kinda bad for pushing him… Cause I feel like I am. But he has to go at some point!

Tonight shall be filled with sweet sweet dreams, and I’ll be smiling all day tomorrow!

Oh My Topher

Oh my Topher. Or “Will soon be” my Topher. lol.
So I have had an absolutely fabulous day!
Both my parents were going to be gone Tuesday night so I told Chris that if he wanted, he was welcome to spend the night. He declined, claiming he had to go to school, and I contested that school wasn’t important, but that it was ok.
He called me Tues while I was at work, and asked if I still had that offer up. I sure did, so he headed on down.
That night, we went to the Dispute Part which was dumb as hell, but we managed to have a good time. Mainly by chanting “Where’s the pizza? Where’s the soda?”
Then we came home and got ready for bed. We slept in Jaime’s room b/c the bed is bigger. We layed down, and we spent a lot of time kissing, licking etc…. I now have hickies on BOTH my arms! lol. But BOY does he know what he is doing…. I was dying…. literally lol. It was wonderful.
Eventually I decided I needed to get to bed b/c I had school in the morning! So we were laying there, and he said something to the effect of “This is heaven.” Or something close to that and I Melted and it was really sweet. He held me all night, and I felt so close to him, and so calm, and so at peace with everything that is going on. When I get held, I just feel so safe and I feel that things will be ok after all! It was a really special feeling, and I am so glad that Chris brought it on.
Unfortunately, the morning came too quick.
We got up, after some more kissing, and I got ready for school, and he followed me around. lol.
OH yeah, he also mentioned during the night that he hasn’t missed one class this year (or semester, one of the two) and that this was the first one he missed, so I better feel special. Well, let me tell you, I really did.
Anyways, so he watched me get ready, then after more kissing, I left for school and he stayed at my house. School was too long.
I got home, and got changed, and we went to the Y to work out. That was fun, I was watching him use the machine while I was working my arms and he was just so adorable. I wish I would’ve videotaped it! Lol. So cute. THen I ran next to him and we were both really sweaty and gross.
So then we went home. He threw me in the closet and kissed me, then told me I smelled. 🙂
We both took showers, then went out to Subway so I could get my free lunch. While there, we ran into Court, Erin, Jenny Goodall, and Rachel LeValley and talked to tem for a few minutes. Then we came home and ate, me having my Subway and a piece of old pizza, and him eating a sandwich. Good times!
After that, we watched “Drift” which is officially the dumbest movie of all time. Very dumb, it had like 3 endings, so weird. So yeah Chris held me the whole time, and that felt wonderful yet again.
He said a lot of really sweet things to me… but since I have a terrible memory for those things, I have forgotten them. But I do know he said them, and I remember feeling very special and cared for on more than one occasion.
After the movie, we made out some more lol. He thought that me sitting on him and kinda grinding a bit was funny… I didn’t QUITE see the humor in it that he did.. maybe I missed something *shrugs*
After awhile, we decided we should actually do something, even though we agreed that doing that would be fun to continue with. But we ended up going to deposit my check (Waited forever in line!) and then we went to the mall, where I bought a belt, 2 shirts, and a pair of sandals for 30 bucks. Not a bad deal. We walked around and then went to Target and walked around, and then went home.
When home, we kissed some more, then finally I was forced to set up a game for Chris. He played FF8 for awhile, he definitely isn’t a natural, but its ok 🙂 Mother called at this point and was very obnoxious “Oh so Chris and you are alone? Not cool.” Yeah you are right Mom we had TONS of hot sex. Whatever… it kinda pissed me off.
Then we ate dinner, we had some pasta salad that Kelly made. After that downstairs, to just sit, and kiss and do sweet things until he left. He held me a lot, and we attempted to take lots of pics, though I’m not sure how many of them will actually come out b/c I think my arm kept getting in the way. It was really fun, we just talked about a lot of things, and that’s where the “Almost my Topher” thing came up. I atfirst said “Potentially almost my Topher” and he was like “I think you can drop the ‘potentially’.” So yeah that was a good sign 🙂 He told me I was sexy, yet another good sign.
We just had such a nice time. When he left, I really didn’t want him to, but I was afraid that John would come home and then things would be a bit weird. We took probably 10 or so minutes attempting to say goodbye. We just kept kissing and thanking each other for the wonderful day. That is when he said he couldn’t stop kissing me and I wholeheartedly agree. So tough to let go. Eventually we had to though, and he left.
Now I am sitting here, alone. I know I’m a big loser, b/c I miss Chris already. We have spent about 24 hours together, and now that he’s gone, I’m like “eh, what am I Supposed to do now?” I really just want his arms around me, I’m actually to the point of being sad that he isn’t here. God help me, I’m falling too fast for him.
I’m trying to hold myself back.
But I can’t help it……. oh why does my (almost) Topher have to be so grand?
Well, I don’t think I should ramble on any longer and scare him away, so I’m gonna email him this since he won’t get ittill like tomorrow anyway.
Oh yeah, he also kept saying I was a dork and a nerd for playing so much Final Fantasy! Well, it isn’t my fault that Squaresoft makes such great games!!! lol
Send me yours Topher!

Welcome Back, Kotter!

So, this weekend was pretty damn fun…

Friday night we were supposed to hang out with Andrew, Adam, Mike, Beak, Scott, and Me. Perhaps more, but who knows. Anyways, Adam called me and said that he didn’t want to hang out, and we assumed that he was going to go hang out with Scott. So Andrew and I met up, and waited around for Beak to show up. Whilst doing that Court and crew called and wanted us to go bolwing, then Dustin called and wanted us to drive to IC. So in like an hour period plans changed like a million times. Ended up driving to IC, tons of fun out there, even more fun back! Got home about 1:30ish Saturday morning, and then went to bed about 2:30 or so.

Saturday was also VERY hectic. Got up early and drove to Perry. Helped Beak move more shit. Got my fitness thing. (Which is still in a pile in my living room, must set that up tonight). Drove from Perry to her house on the south side. From there to Adam’s to pick up more shit and say “Hi.” From there to Ames to drop off my thing. Then Ames to Waukee to see Andrew before he went to prom. Rarr at him in a tux! Men that dress up are so fucking hot! Then from Waukee, Beak and I went out to supper. Thanks for buying BEAK!

After that back to PC to watch Drift, STUPID fucking movie. Although it was like watching my life, but the ending that I want wasn’t there. (Three endings, one of those things). It looked like they had taken Porn actors (Not even cute ones!), A porn screen play, and a PBS director. It was absolutely horrible. Although, I’m going to make a few more people sit through it before I return it! lol. I’m so evil.

Drove Beak home about midnight, hung out at her house for a little bit, then drove home again. Such a long day!

Sunday got up, met up with Adam about noon and then did random shit. Left there about 3ish and met up with Skinny and Andrew at MH Hy-Vee. From there we went out to eat, then to the Drag show…

We got there and there wasn’t anyone else around, apparently there wasn’t actually a drag show last night. We all sat there looking at each other for a bit wondering what the hell to do now… So we went to JJ’s and hung out tell about 8ish.

It was good to see Mike again, not as wierd as I thought it would be.

On the way home I had to pee so badly, I was taking the interstate and got just south of Ankeny and there was fucking Road construction for like 2 miles. We went 10mph or LESS the whole way, I HAD TO PEE SOOO BAD! ::whines::

By the time I got home I peed for like 30 minutes, I’m sure you all wanted to know that!

Anyways, I had a REALLY good weekend, and Sunday was by far the BEST day. And for once it wasn’t a depressing Sunday! 😀 Amazing I know.

Must get back to work now….

Expect changes sometime in the future, who knows how long though. I finally have b2 working right with 0.6.1, but there’s a few more coding changes I want to make to that before I finalize it. Also doing a few visual changes.

Laters!

A Memory In Time.

Ok, so updates about the weekend will happen later. First we much update about the ABSOLUTE best part of the weekend.

Tonight there was supposed to have been a drag show. Andrew, Skinny and I were all going to go. (Skinny as our chaperone because apparently we’re 5 and need someone to watch us). We got there and it was deserted. Crazy.

We went to Java’s and hung out for a while, then got bored. Skinny left so Andrew and I were like… “What now?”

I suggested going to the lake, so we did.

Got there and drove around a while, talking. Looking for a good place to watch the sunset. We eventually found one, about half way across the damn, down by the water. Such a great spot. We both sat there on this little rock, cuddled, held hands and talked about random stuff for a while.

We also kissed alot, just randomly, we’d be talking, and then suddenly kissing. It’s so nice to kiss him. Because as we talked about, they’re meaningfull kisses, not “lets get it on” kisses. So very very touching.

It was so nice to just hold him in my arms, and to caress his legs, and his arms. To rub his back, to kiss his face, his neck, his ear.

After a while of sitting there side by side, we moved so that he was infront of me, so that I could wrap my arms around him and hold him close. Again, so so wonderfull. And it was so nice to just sit there with him and take some time out of or hectic lives, and go to somewhere peacefull with someone that you really care for, and just hold them and kiss them, and watch the sun set. We talked about the Canyon and the great sunsets there, and Frankel Field at camp, the best place to watch the stars. Hopefully this summer we can spend lots of time there, going to all the places that I love going to there at camp and watching the sunset, or gazing up at the stars.

I’m such a romantic sometimes. It’s crazy! lol.

Eventually the sun had set, and we were there embracing each other, kissing, talking, hugging. So nice, I didn’t want to leave at all. It was getting cold and we stood up, hugged, kissed. Standing there on the rock, the sky purple, the “waves” breaking on the rocks behind us, it was like a movie. A nice romantic movie. Times like those I wish there were a photographer around.

Eventually we did leave, and we walked hand in hand back to the car.

Drove back to MH Hy-Vee where my car was. As we pulled in I saw Skinny’s car. We pulled up next to him, and he’s like “Where you two been for the last 3 hours!” So funny. We decided that the story was that we’ve been at Java’s all night with Skinny if Adam asks.

Skinny left, Andrew parked and we hugged again, Kissed again. I didn’t want to leave, I just couldn’t stop kissing him and hugging him. It was so sad to go.

But it’s been a wonderfull memory in time, and time takes all but memories.