New Job!

4 years and 10 days at after I started here at this company, throwing up on my first few nights, being alone in Califorinia, working midnight to 8am, to being promoted through all the ranks to someone who has done and could easily do nearly every job this company has. I will be leaving my position in just a few short weeks now.

A week ago, I received a call from a company called Gourmet Trading. They had a job for an IT Analyst and wanted me to come in to interview. I figured I’d go in and then just use the job as leverage against my current company when my yearly review came up. Well, amazingly, they offered me the job, at MORE then what I make now, plus it’s more of a management job.

Soooo last Wed, I talked to the VP and let him know that I need a review ASAP. He said he’d talk to the CEO. Well I didn’t realize that he was out of town all week! So Friday afternoon I talked to the CEO and let him know what was going on. He said that he’d think about what he could do over the weekend.

This morning he comes in and the VP and CEO talked for over an hour and then called me in. The CEO basically said. “We think that it’d be best for your career if you just took this new job, there’s not really going to be an opportunity for you to move into management here.” So there it was. My 2 weeks!

Scary! I have been freaking out all fucking weekend about this shit! I am not sure how I feel at all about this. I am so scared to leave my current job, it’s so safe and comfortable! 🙁

Anyways, this weekend I was very busy even with a gimp leg!

Friday night I went out with Sirin and we watched Sex and the City which was TONs of fun! I really enjoyed the movie. After that we drove home like crazy drunk people! It was sooo funny, we had all the windows down, blasting Mika, singing along and going 70 down Artesia/Aviation!! 😀 After we got home, Kris came over and brought a bottle of Crown Royal and Dr Pepper! So we drank all that. He was here till nearly 3:30, we watched a few movies and talked. Had a great time.

Saturday morning I got up and went house shopping with Sirin, we found some REALLY cute places! The one she has an offer in on is uber cute as well. Maybe I will consider moving in with her! Got home from that and took a nap, then went out to the street fair and ate a really late lunch and had a great time. Came home and took some drugs for my foot and napped again! That evening I went out to 1984 (the play) at the Redcat. It was not so good, but I did have lots of fun going.

Got home that night and watched the movie Zerophilia. Which was actually VERY good.. I would suggest watching it.

Sunday I got up at like 10 and just laid around the apartment all day. I was so stressing over this job thing that I really didn’t want to see/talk to anyone. I did however go out to lunch with Erick, so that was fun. I spent the whole day watching Season 1 and 2 of Weeds. Which is just fucking hilarious! I cannot believe I’ve never seen this show before in my life!

Anyways, so with this new job. I will not have any vacation time for the next 90 days. So I decided that I am just going to use the fucking tickets to Houston and go. I’ve already been chatting with some people who sound really cool so I am sure I can find people to hang out with while I am there. I am excited to be going, but it’s going to be hard to NOT call you know who…

WHICH by the way, reminds me. Back in early March, he said that he would add me to his XM so that it would be cheaper for both of us. I told him to just let me know how much I owed him. He said, “Don’t worry, it’s my gift to you.” Well I just got a letter in the mail saying that it went to collections! Little fucking asshole.

So Alone..

I feel so alone right now… I am not sure why. I have met some really fun new friends here in Redondo Beach. I’ve been keeping really busy with things, I went out all night Friday night, was busy all day Saturday except for a few hours where I took a nap and then will be busy pretty much all day Sunday.

But I still feel just so alone.

I keep killing myself, yelling at myself for not going back to Iowa sooner when things were getting worse with my grandpa. I feel like such an asshole to wait and get work done and not spend the extra money.

If only I had gone a day earlier. I could have had a day with grandpa. If only I had spent the extra $300, I could have had an hour with him… If only. I hate myself for not going. For not getting the chance to say goodbye. For not getting the chance to tell him how much I am going to miss him.

I hate that he’s gone and that he won’t be at my wedding, to meet my boyfriends. He won’t be there to tell how they shoved a camera up his dick. lol. It hurts me every time I call my grandma and he doesn’t answer the phone.

I just feel so alone…

Broken Ankle!

So, a lot has been going on. Friday I had dinner with a bunch of friends, then we went out to The Factory and I got very drunk. Had tons of fun. Saturday I spent the day around the house doing stuff that I have been putting off. Sunday I went rock climbing…

Where I broke my fucking ANKLE!

I have a cast on it now! 🙁

I cannot believe this! I have so much planned for the next month! Now what the fuck am I going to do!!! I have to cancel everything, and Now I don’t know about going to Houston or not. I am not going to gimp around down there! UGH! So fucking annoying!

Other then that, not much going on. I watched a few movies on Saturday. First I watched Mandragora which was HORRIBLE. It’s about gay prostitutes in Prague. It did make me really miss Prague though! Then I watched The Ten. Also HORRIBLE!

I was going to write a big long entry about other stuff. But it’ll have to wait.

Later.

The Last Picture…

Yesterday was very hard…

I got home from work and there was a box hanging from my door. It was from one of my Aunt’s.

In it, there was a letter which said:

Hello….

In 1994 shortly after my dad died… I received a surprise….from a complete stranger.

This stranger gave m the very LAST picture ever taken of my dad while he was alive. The picture meant the world to me…it was taken just a few weeks before my dad died…in fact it was taken at a trap shoot…doing what he loved to do…Shoot! 🙂

Well…. I am so pleaaed and honored to send to you….the very LAST picture ever taken of Kenny while he was alive!

The picture was taken on May 4th, 2008, at the Tiger Den. Mom, Kenny and I went there for dinner….and I took this picture. You will notice that he is not wearing his oxygen. I told him that I was going to take his picture…and he took the oxygen off….

Hmmm…wonder what he was thinking?

I am so happy to be the person who can send this gift to you….I have no doubt that you will treasure it forever…..just as I will!

I love you all very much!

Love,
Deb.

After reading the letter, I was bawling my eyes out… But there was the picture, wrapped and wrapped and wrapped! She had to have used a WHOLE roll of tape on this thing!

Here’s the picture that was in there…

Thanks Deb! This will be treasured!

Des Moines is FLOODING! & 4 years!

Des Moines is flooding! The water started going over the emergency spill way last night at Saylorville. You can view new stories about it here (for now). They even talk about my home town being flooded in one of them. They pump the water up and out of Big Creek into Saylorville, once the water levels get to high in Saylorville, the pumps can’t handle the pressure, so they shut down. So now they are trying to put in a ton of emergency pumps to keep our town from flooding. My parents said that the neighbor’s garage is almost under water and that our backyard is flooded. Scary stuff! They haven’t seen this kind of flooding since 1993. Hopefully this time the DM water works doesn’t get flooded out!

Also, it’s been 4 years now since I moved to California… Nothing really new to report in that area. It’s a love/hate relationship!

I am happy about my new 300gig hard drive in the laptop!

UPDATE!:// So my f’ing landlord just called and says he hasn’t received my rent for the LAST THREE MONTHS! WTF?! How does that happen! I have cleared checks from the bank showing that he HAS! I just have to order “official” copies to prove it to him!