Category: My Life

I Like You! – Amy Sedaris

I just finished reading the book “I like you” by Amy Sedaris, the star of the show and movie Strangers with Candy. I really liked the show and the movie and always found her to be pretty funny, so I was excited when I received her book as a (vary late) birthday present.

I LIke You - Amy SedarisI went straight to reading it and was very surprised by the book. It wasn’t exactly what I was expecting and the first 20 pages were the best part of the book. From there the commentary went down hill pretty quickly. To me it seemed as though she got bored with writing it after those first few pages and just started to throw shit in to fill space. Over all the book reads like Martha Stewart on LSD. And that may be an understatement.

I will have to say that my favorite part of the book was the wacky and random photos that are interlaced throughout the book and used as backdrops for the recipes. However there are a few photo montages that just go on for way to long.

I like a lot of the recipes and will be trying them out at the next dinner party I have but the book just keeps going and going and going. I’d definitely check this book out of the library or borrow it from a friend, but I’m not sure it really needs to be part of my book collection.

Rock Climbing!

So this weekend was a little dramatic for me, as you can tell from the previous crazy post. Anyways, the rest of the weekend was alright. Even though I didn’t do anything really.

Saturday I was planning on doing a 40 mile bike ride up Stradella, but I didn’t sleep worth shit on Friday night and I woke up very sore so I didn’t go. Instead I spent 3 hours debadging my car and then washing and waxing it. It looked very pretty, up until about 15 minutes ago when a huge bug splattered all over my window! I also watched this really neat 3 hour special about Jesus: The Complete Story on the discover channel which was very interesting.

Sunday I got up early again and went rock climbing with a few of Constantine’s friends. I had a really good time with them. We were out there from 8:30-12:30 and by the end of it my muscles hurt so much that I couldn’t even wrap up the rope! lol. I wish I had taken my camera out there. From there we went to lunch at the Souplantation which was fun. Lots of interesting topics there. Today my muscles are very sore from the climbing, but it’s odd because it’s not muscles that I thought I was using while doing it! It’s mostly my back and sides that hurt and not the arms/legs like I thought they would happen.

Came home and went crazy and then went to bed.

I didn’t sleep well again last night, this is getting really annoying. There’s maybe 4-5 nights a week where I get very little sleep and just lay there tossing and turning. I did however have a very strange dream where I had 3 dogs and MooCow had a litter of kittens. Crazy, I know.

Today, Const and I start reading together. Our first book is Call Me By Your Name. Hopefully it’s good!

Ok. I’m off to start the week! Later.

I’m a Jealous Asshole…

//Warning: Major drama to follow…..

Ok, so not only am I the biggest asshole in the world. I’m also a very jealous asshole. And I HATE long distance relationships.

UGH! I feel myself slipping into the shit that Andrew and I went through back in the day. UGH. The last two nights Const has gone out with friends. One night just to coffee and then a movie, and then last night to some bar. I get very very jealous and annoyed. I hate this feeling and I know I shouldn’t be. But I am and I do.

Then to top it all off today, his phone is broken and I have not talked to him since 5pm yesterday. So I am getting VERY very annoyed and pissed and of course my mind always goes to. “Oh my god he’s out fucking someone” or “oh my god, he’s going to call and break up with me”…. Mostly that’s because it’s what happened with the last long distance relationship.

We got into a huge fight yesterday about a lot of stupid annoying shit that bugs me. I know I am completely at fault for it all. A) because I don’t bring them up when they first bug me and B) because then I dwell on them and make the issue way bigger then it really is.

Today it’s really annoying me that he never left a message on AIM or has tried contacting me at all in any way. Again it’s all because I’m insecure and worry that something bad is happening and that I can’t get it out of my mind and every minute, every second that goes by without hearing from him makes me even more crazy! I’ve probably called him a hundred times today and it always just goes straight to voice mail. I know his phone is broken! But anything, any sort of communication would have helped. A message on AIM, a txt message, borrowing a friends phone to call me.

I _HATE_ this feeling and I hate being this way. Like I told him yesterday, he’s the best boyfriend I’ve had so far, and lets be hopeful that I’ll ever have, but I still can’t help but feel this way. I _KNOW_ that ultimately he’s probably just out with friends again, maybe at a movie, buying a new phone, who knows. But that NOT knowing is what drives me nuts. I always try and let him know what I’ll be doing if I am not around when I should or normally am. I let him know last night that I was going rock climbing today, which meant I was not home all morning. But UGH.

Make this feeling stop! Please. I wanna be the most amazing boyfriend and I try so hard. But days/weekends like this make me feel like I fail so badly at that and makes me feel like I’m a horrible boyfriend and horrible person to know. It makes me realize that I really don’t have any good friends around here, because well. I’ve sat at home all weekend. I only went rock climbing today because of Const’s friends! Not even my own friends.

Yesterday when we were talking, I broke down crying a few times because I just can’t believe how fucking stupid and crazy I am sometimes. And living here and hanging out with certain people has really ruined my feeling of being in a real relationship. A lot of things that I used to have done by this time in a relationship I haven’t done yet with Const because those people always make fun of me and make me feel horrible for wanting to be a “WE”. I don’t tell Const as much as I should that he’s a great boyfriend, and honestly I don’t feel that he tells me that enough either. I try and show it as much as I can for him, but when we’re doing the LDR thing it’s hard to show how much you care for someone.

UGH! I’m sorry for the dramatic post. I just had to write……

It’s HOT!

It’s F’ing HOT out today! I just got back from a 12.5 mile bike ride around the backbay.

Anyways, it was bloody HOT! I was sweating like crazy and my muscles are starting to scream at me and say…”STOP WORKING OUT!” lol. I’ve been biking like crazy lately and working out, I did my first personal trainer session which wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be, but I was a bit tired after. I am excited for the next one. But my muscles haven’t had a day off in nearly two weeks! I was thinking of doing a 45 mile very hilly ride this weekend. But I am not sure if my legs can take the punishment. Perhaps I will try anyways.

This morning I came in and was very bored at the office, but then I got a really fun project. Sadly that only took me 30 minutes to do. 🙁

I got my taxes back. I should be getting nearly $2,000 back! Yay! $500 of it is already spent on two trips to Houston, and I am hoping that I can arrange something with Const so that the rest of it can go towards a ticket to Russia for a week in August. ::hint hint::

Speaking of hints, he’s not very good at catching onto them! haha.

I talked to the CEO the other day. I have been denied any further Oracle training. I’m pretty pissed about this. When he spoke to me about it in December, he said they would be spending nearly $20k on me for training. Which means the full education courses, we’re talking months of training, etc. Well I sent him an email to see if I could try and arrange the next course so that I could be in Houston. Well he tells me that he thinks that now that I’ve been through the first two main classes (which only cost them $6k) that’s enough. UGH! Very annoying. This was one of the reasons I put my MBA on hold because I thought that I would be going through this training for the rest of the year! Now I have nothing to do… OH well, just gives me more time to prepare for my GMAT test when i do take it!

I got to have lunch with Nick and Dustin this week as well. That was very nice, I haven’t seen them in so long. I miss having them around, and I wish there were still a place in OC that we could go clubing toooooo!

This weekend I am supposed to go rock climbing with Const’s sister and one of their friends. I am a bit nervous about hanging out with them without Const being there. You all know my odd issue with bf’s hanging out with the bf’s friends (do you understand that?). Anyways. It should be fun, they are going to be going up to the Poppy Preserve in a few weeks so I want to go on that.

Sorry for the rambling, I’m just bored! Adios!

XM vs FM

So, ever since I bought the G35, I’ve had a free subscription to XM radio with Traffic Nav.

At first, I didn’t really like it. I liked having my road updates every now and then when listening to the radio and I liked hearing the local news on the hour. But then I started playing with it more and more and I am in love with XM now. So many listening options that I can almost always find a song that fits my mood.

Traffic is a nice to have, but for some reason the G never seems to re-route me if there’s an accident or bad traffic ahead. It seems a lot of other people are having the same issues. So I’m not sure it’s worth paying for each month to get the traffic. Though, I do like being able to get in my car when I leave the office, hit “Go Home” and then have it tell me if I can expect any traffic. That way on the few occasions when there’s a bad accident, I can just re-route myself.

Its very annoying though that it can’t re-route you automatically via side streets, etc. It’s an expensive option! It should be able to do it.

Anyways, on Friday, my free subscription ran out. And I am DYING over here now. I cannot stand listening to FM radio any more. The constant annoying jabbering by the Djs, the stupid callers, etc. I just want to cut my ears out. And they are still playing music from 2 years ago and calling it. “New music from…. Snow Patrol!” blah blah blah. It’s NOT NEW any more!

I want my XM back! I’m very surprised that I did not get anything in the mail warning me that it would expire…