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Old Time Movies!

So yesterday turned out pretty good.

I went home shortly after noon.. I had worked 3 hours Tuesday night, and had more to do last night. Plus as I said, I was feeling pretty shitty.

Got home and went to the gym and for some reason my key didn’t work, so I just went home and did situps and then played Sim City 4 for a few hours. My region now has 500,000 sims! How exciting! 😀

I also did some hard core cleaning last night, I haven’t cleaned since before I left for Iowa way back in Dec… So you can imagine how filthy my house was. I got everything cleaned except for the bathroom, which needs the most work. I need to hire a maid!

Austin called me in there somewhere, cause he got a job offer.. I asked him if he wanted to go out to the Boom to celebrate and he said sure, so we made plans to meet at 10 at his house. So I sat around the house till then, showered and packed an overnight bag to stay at his place, cause I Was planning on drinking.

Got there and we sat around talking about sim city and other random things. He’s encoding all his home movies from when he was a child onto DVD, which is really cool. I wish that my parents had made videos when I Was a kid. We just have lots of random pictures. And I’m not even sure where most of those are! We watched a few of those and they were funny/cute.

So it got to be late and I was like, “So when are we going” and he just said he’d rather just stay there. Which was honestly fine with me, I was just happy to be out hanging out with him again. So we ended up just staying there having a few drinks and we watched Wayne’s World. It was pretty funny, I’ve never seen it before.

OH, I forgot to mention that he said he was going out of town this weekend to someone’s baby shower, and he invited me to come along… I was quite surprised, and wasn’t sure how serious he was being. He said I could go as his date… I think it would be kinda fun to go, but I also feel like it would be wierd, plus like I said, I’m not sure how serious he was being or if he was just a little tipsy.

Anyways, we went to bed at 1:30 and I woke up sometime in the middle of the night from this horrible dream, but I can’t remember what was going on in it. Then I woke up again at 5:30 cause my body was like. “TIme to get up you lazy bitch”… Finially got up at 7:30ish and just laid in bed talking till 8 when I showered and then headed into work.

The roads were horrible, it was clogged like crazy starting at Camino Capistrano, so I just took the toll road, which even that was kinda backed up and plus the idiots there don’t know how to drive!

Oksy invited me to this huge concert in the desert in April… I’m not sure if I want to pay the $165 for tickets, but it does look fun. And we could stay at my aunt and uncles for free! 😀 Not to mention I would get to see my wife!!!

And that’s the story, Adios.

WTF Austin…

No, I’m not OK, and I’ll tell you why…

You are the one who’s been telling me all along, “This guy is creepy”, ” I wouldn’t hang out with him”, etc, etc etc… And yet, now that I’ve caught him in a major lie you go and still hang out with him and you’re acting all like nothing’s wrong and he’s this great person now.

I’ve feel like I’ve been deceived for the last 6 months about who he really is, and what’s really going on. Who knows if he even REALLY lives in bakersfield any more?! Can you imagine how pissed off you would be if you felt like someone had been deceiving you for so long, that someone who you spent a lot of time trying to help out and be friends with and put a lot of emotional time into this has been deceiving you for so long? You probably have no idea at all how pissed I am.

And now to add insult to injury, I feel like I’ve been punched yet again by you hanging out with him… Oh, and not to mention the part where he claims you said you loved him (I assume that’s what he’s talking about because he said, “Austin said something that took you three months to say”… which would be that.)… Who knows if that’s true or not any more, but if it is, then yet another punch because again… you were the one who was constantly saying. “This guy is creepy”, “Stay away”….

So WTF? goodnight.

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chris

im really sorry i logged off on u. i already feel bad about it. i don’t want you to hate me for this whole situation.

i don’t know blake at all as well as you do.. so its not like i’m a good judge of character. i can go off of what you’ve told me.. but you are the one who has experienced the friendship with blake.

if this lieing thing is an issue then maybe you should talk to him on the phone and figure it out. I have no idea what to say. And i don’t think i’m a two faced person.. i was judging blake after hearing he was getting in fights all the time and blah blah blah.. and i told him not to get into fights anymore because i thought it was stupid.. and was like ok and so he stopped getting into fights.

maybe he paints these stories in order to create an image of him that he wants others to believe. His lies don’t affect me. He wanted to come down here.. it was nice talkign about high school memories and living in bakersfield and talkign shit about the same people we know.

so i’m sorry i’m too tired to strand logical thoughts together. i don’t want you to stop being my friend 🙁

bye

austin

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Austin,

Honestly I don’t want to hate you either… I really like you a lot, just as a friend, since that’s all you want, but I do like you, and you’ve been a great friend so far… I’m sorry that I’m being so emotional, about this whole thing, it’s just that I’ve been through so much for blake, like i said, i was worried to death about him all through christmas vacationwhile i was back home, i nearly broke down in tears on christmas day because i was so worried about him. And then to find out that all of this shit could possibly be lies. To find out that he’s possibly made up two completely fictitious people. It just pisses me off so much and hurts me so much… I tried to get him to talk about this whole thing and to find out what’s going on, he refuses to call me, always has some lame excuse, refuses to let me call him, refuses to get jake to call me. It’s all just too much right now, on top of other things that I’ll get to in a minute.

When we first started hanging out and you were backing me on this I felt that maybe I was justified in being suspicious about these things, that maybe it was time to start really digging into it. Then when I caught this thing, I was hoping that you’d back me, but I just felt deserted when you continued on with your plans to have him down… And I’m sorry, i’ve just been sitting here stewing in my own anger now all night and I was just taking it out on you rather then trying to get information out of blake. I still want to trust him, but until i get some sort of hard proof that he’s not lying, I have to just assume that everything he says is a lie. I have nothing to judge him on like you do of stories about bakersfield, if he says a falsity of bakersfield, i wouldn’t be able to catch him on that, whereas you would. Thus this really gives him even more room to lie tome about things.

To reference your point of you told him to stop getting into fights, he really hasn’t though. He continues to tell me about fights that he gets into nearly every other day. He claimed he got a black eye just this past friday or saturday. So again, I’m not sure if he’s lying there or just not telling you about these fights he’s been getting into.

You said that I was trying to control who you can and can’t be friends with, I’m not trying to do that at all. I don’t like people to tell me what to do, and I don’t want to tell other people what to do, you should be free to live your life how you please. Andrew and I went through a lot of control issues when we were doing the LDR thing, and I know how controlling some people can be, I don’t want to be anything like what I went through with him during some of those times… And definitely not to my friends! You can be friends with him as much as you like. I’m going to try and talk to him about this and maybe work something out. I’ve put too much into it already to just throw it away, so I will see what can be done to rescue it, perhaps I will meet him next week and we will have a long chat.

I’d also like to reference you’re thinking this has anything to do with you not wanting to kiss me.. Because it doesn’t. if you don’t want too, then that’s your own whatever, I have no problems with it. Sure I’d like to be able to kiss you, but I’m not going to hold it against you for not wanting to. You’ve stated that you only want to be friends with me and that’s fine. Although, i’d like to know if you’re being completely honest about your reasoning for not wanting too?

My last issue is that it’s really hurting me that you’re getting so upset with me about not having a job, and when I try to help you get mad at me.. I’d like to help you out as much as I can, it’s my nature to help people that I like, I go way out of my way for a lot of my friends, and do things that most friends never would. So I hope that you will take my help and not get mad at me for trying to help. I only want the best for you and all my friends. I know that it’s probably very frustrating for you, I was freaking out in January about not having a job lined up for August, so I do know how you feel.. I just wish that you would not take it out on me, and that you would let me help you out.

To close, I’d like to re-iterate that I don’t want to loose you as a friend.. Out of ALL the people that I’ve met since moving here to the OC, you and I have clicked the best by FAR, I don’t want to loose that friendship, and I’d like to continue building on that to become better friends. I hope that we can hang out again soon, I do miss it. And I’ve been craving to watch some Sex and the city with you!

Take care, and with love…

Cj B

Listen, and Understand!

I’ve been meaning to post this for a while, I thought it was funny shit:

I’m very annoyed with this woman who I’ve been trying to write a fucking report for for a while now. I’ve got the damn thing automated, I did that before christmas, but as we know, that wasn’t the report she wanted. So I re-wrote it, and sent her a sample report. Last week she called me and I spent like 30 minutes on the phone explaining to her WHY the report she got that week was empty. (Simple answer: no one fucking entered anything that regarded the report)

Anyways, THIS week comes along and ALAS! Still NO ONE has entered data that would have been included on this fucking report. So then I get this damn e-mail from her complaining that “I know people worked on this project, so why didn’t I get a report with data. I want to come there and meet you and JT”. Well it was MUCH more detailed and complainy, but whatever. So I do a manual report out of the system and send that onto JT. This woman gets on my fucking nerves. The reports ARE WORKING!

Austin and I might be having lunch today, he’s got an interview right down the street, so he’s going to come over here after. That should be entertaining. lol.

MacWorld starts today, rumors are of new Intel Powerbooks, along with Frontrow on more systems! Woot!

I also finially ditched MiNews for Feed… MiNews was always such a fucking memory hog, sometimes using as much as 500Megs, it seems that Feed is much less of one and also allows you to browse feeds while it’s updating. MiNews would lock down and you couldn’t do anything while it was updating. And since I have over 100 feeds that it updates every 30 minutes, well. That takes a while. lol

I’m going to play with it for a while longer, but I already see some things that annoy me about it. The fact that there’s no way to force the newest posts to the top. (You can sort by date, but since the feeds are from all around the globe, they have different time stamps, thus the newest are not ALWAYS at the top).

There was something else that I wanted to bitch about, but now I’ve forgotten.

Goodbye.

Edit:// I remember what I was going to say now! My fucking mythtv box needs to be upgraded BAD! Now that I’m hosting websites there, everytme somone uses a site there at the same time I’m recording something, the damn recording freezes! Grrr.

Mind Eraser?

I wish I could have one of those cool mind erasers like they have in MIB, but one that only erases my regrets. There’s lots of things in my life that I both regret doing, and things that I regret not doing.

But for me, they build up, and bug the hell out of me years later. I can’t seem to move on from them. Last night I was kept awake for hours because of something I didn’t do (or maybe it was something I did, depending on the way you look at the situation) when I was 12! God damnit.

Either way, as yesterday’s post stated, I was lazy as hell. I did work my full 8 hours though, and I got some stuff done. But not as much as I could reallly have gotten done. I applied to a few part time jobs. Extra money is always nice. An extra $400-500 a month could do a lot for me. 🙂

After I got home I was going to go biking to start burning off the fat that I gained at my parents house (which is very visiable), but then I got home and decided that it was still too cold to go out. God I’m lazy. I need to get my ass back going to the gym and doing the biking thing. Gah, why is staying healthy so much work?

I ended up sitting on the couch chatting with people online all night, I met someone who’s from Bakersfield, and he started talking with Blake, and then we got into this random three sided conversation. It was crazy. He and I might be doing lunch. I’m going to give him some business contacts cause he’s trying to find a job, and since I keep getting job offers, I figured I’d just pass those people onto him. (Speaking of which, I got ANOTHER call yesterday for a job down in SD)

I also met this guy who graduated from ISU in 2003 and is living in Dana Point. He seems cool, but we haven’t talked too much. I met this other random guy who apparently knows Nikki and JonJon and who was dating Matt at the SAME TIME that Matt was dating JonJon.. Very crazyness. I want to contact Nikki to get her side of the story, because of course his story makes him out to be the victim. I just like hearing both sides. 🙂

And lastly, I’ve been e-mailing this guy back and forth for like a week, he’s been wanting to hang out. But since I’ve been in Iowa I clearly couldn’t. Well last night he indicated that he wanted to hook up as well as hang out. Well I knew I had seen his profile on MySpace and could have sworn it said he was in a realtionship, so I looked and YEP, that fucker is clearly in a relationship, and his boyfriend posts like every other day that he “loves him” on his comments and shit. It’s like, WTF? What is WRONG with the gay community that they want to hook up with random people, EVEN WHEN THEY HAVE A BOYFRIEND ALREADY!?!?!?! God I hate homos.

My mom also called last night and asked how Blake was doing, cause I told her about him being in the hospital, I had to talk to someone about it. Anyways, I thought that was very nice of her. She’s got her up days. lol.

I started researching investments again for this next year, I’m looking into other companies besides T Rowe Price, and I REALLY like Vanguard. If you want to invest something, you should also check them out. I think I will open a few accounts with them this year. They have much lower Expense Ratios then TRP, which is nice. I also am enjoying my new Orange account. 🙂 I need to find a bank around here to cash my EE Bonds for free though. Since Principal doesn’t have an actual location and you have to be physically present to cash them, I can’t just mail them in like a normal check. But WF charges you to cash them if you aren’t a customer, so I have to call some other banks. I’m thinking a credit union would be my best bet. But now even THEY are statrting to charge non-customers for services. I fucking hate banks.

OG installed WP2.0 the other day and it’s very cool. I really need to get my ass in gear and update as well. Maybe this weekend, but probably not.

Christmas is Over

Well, christmas’ are all over now. We got home last night and opened all the presents from the parents. I got some good stuff, but I don’t know what it is with my mother she always seems to pick out the things that i want least on my list. Oh well. It’s all good stuff. 🙂 Drank some more wine with my mom and we watched ‘Christmas with the Kranks” I was bawling by the time that damn movie was over with. I can’t wait till my damn period is over with! Grrr, seems like it’s been going on for months now though.

Went to bed and read some of my new suze orman book. Good stuff so far! Went to bed about midnight and couldn’t get to sleep. Woke up about 2:30 again though cause santa was making way too much noise!

Got up again at 8:00 this mornin g and showered then we did santa. I got some more good stuff but nothing too important. I was kinda surprised that this year my parents didn’t go very hard out. But I guess my brother is really draining them of money, the stupid little fuck. There’s a chance he might have to go to jail. hahaha.

After that we all lounged around and then headed out to the farm. Got there right as the other aunt was getting there. So at least we weren’t the first ones. Seems like everyone hates going out there, it’s funny. My grandma was actually so late, she didn’t get there till right before we started eating. And that damn aunt makes everyone pray. She’s the only fucking religious one. Debbie and I actually got along pretty well and we might be going to germany this spring. Woot!

The stupid aunt also bought all her food from hy-vee in one of those pre-made things. Lazy bitch. Paper plates, plastic silver wear. That’s not fucking christmas!

Anyways, after that we all did christmas. My grandma told me to grab a certian present, but the bitch aunt changed up the way we do it so I couldn’t get the one she told me too. But I like what I got. Plus I got $40 from my grandma for christmas and my birthday, so that was nice of her. 🙂

Now we’re on the way home.

Right after we got to the farm though I got some really bad news and that really put me in a sad mood all day. 🙁 Jimmy txted me and said that Blkae was in the hospital. I’m really sad by this, I hate thinking that he spent christmas in the hospital. Though I’m sure he’s surrounded by people that love him still.

I’ve really been thinking that I might stand by to go back early. He’s supposed to be in the OC area for new years and it’d be great to get to see him. Though I wonder if he’d be free enough so that I’d have someone to kiss at midnight or if he’s going to be sutck with his dad or what. I just know taht I want to see him so badly again.

I think I’m really over Iowa now, I still hate the OC, and I still love Iowa, but I’m over moving back. I’m ready to go somewhere new.

Also after driving 400 miles with my dad in the last two days, I’ve realized that even though my mom is the one who TAUGHT me how to drive, I LEARNED from my dad. lol

Adios all.