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Happiest Place On Earth!

Ok, even though I was single on Valentines day this year, I have to say that it was probably THE BEST valentines day ever! And probably one of the best days I’ve had since I moved to California.

So I came into work and worked for 4 hours and then headed out to Disney with Austin. We get there and go to Denny’s for brunch and have a good chat about random things. Then we head off to the real park.

Get in there to California Adventure and walk around. The first thing we did was Muppets 3D, which was kinda retarted, but still mildly amusing. It was expected.

They played the 1812 during that though which got me thinking about the band “Bond” and thier version of it. So we started talking about it and Austin really likes that band too, which is kinda random because they are such an odd band. It as just cool and random.

From there we walked around a little more and did the Monsters Inc ride, which was COMPLETELY retarted and the damn thing broke like half way through our ride! So we had to sit there and wait for them to come escort us out of the thing. It was so random.

After that we went and did our first rollercoaster, which really wasn’t all that bad. It was the Tower of Terror, which I’ve been on once before down in Florida. So I knew what was going on. From there it was off to California Screamin’. That was a good one. We went upside down. 🙂

As we were leaving we went found this thing called Soarin’ California which Austin had heard was “bad”.. As in good. So we went on it. It was really pretty cool. Basically a quick fly by of California things to do. I really want to go do some of those things! IE, the Hot Air Ballon rides over the Napa Valley, etc. JonJon and I always talked about going up there and doing a long weekend at a bed and breakfast and doing that. But I never really wanted to do it with him. I’d want to go with someone I actually gave a shit about. lol

So after that ride we left California adventure and went over to the real Disney park. (We got same day park hopper tickets, which I highly suggest!)

Ok, the rest of this is in no particular order, because we walked all over the park and around and around and it was crazy, but tons of fun!

But we did the Pirates of the Caribbean ride, which wasn’t all that exciting, but it was still cool and relaxing. Plus we cuddled in the front of the boat in front of all the straight couples. It was funny.

– Big Thunder Railroad, which was crazy. It wasn’t the most exciting of all the rides, but it was still cool.

– Splash Mountian we did after dark, which was a BAD BAD idea. First because we got SOAKED and it was SOOOO COLD! Second because we came over the top of the 50 foot drop and you couldn’t see the bottom, so you had NO IDEA where you were going, it was so scary. Third because we sat in the VERY FRONT of the boat. I’d have to say that was one of the best rides the whole day.. Thrill Wise.

– Indiana Jones, which was pretty cool. Again we sat in the front, and it was pretty good.

– Tea Cups. Standard issue, but still fun and cute way to end the night

– Space Mountian whichw as CRAZY because it was completely dark and you had NO IDEA where you were going!

– Star Tours. A fun ride for being so old, it could have been way better

We counted them up on the way home and we did 12 rides, but I’m only listing 9 or 10, so I dunno where the others are. But we also did the train ride all the way around the park, It was after dark and we cudddled on the train. Again, very cute.

It was also cute because the on all the rides he would hold my hand and stuff. It was adorable.

So overall, we were at Disney from noon till 8pm. Drove back to my place and he came in and spent the night. We had a talk about his high partner numbers… Come to find out there was a bit of a mis-understanding, he has had 50 partners, but most of those people he’s just done like Mutual J/O with. He’s only had 8 actual sex partners, which isn’t that bad. And he said that the VAST majority of them have NOT been one-nighters, which makes me happier about the whole situation, but still not thrilled about it.

Our discussion did get a bit heated though because I feel that SEX is something that should be shared between two people who LOVE each other, and you should be comfortable and MEANINGFUL of telling someone you LOVE them before you have sex with them, whereas he views it as more of a “fun” activity. I just dunno what to think.

But, he did actually kiss me on the lips a few times, which is again just confusing. He says that he just doesn’t feel ready for a boyfriend, mentally and emotionally, because of the whole job thing, and he needs someone more dominating, so that’s cool. But I just want to keep pushing him and make him do it. He said at one point that we’re practically like boyfriends, he said like, “psydo-boyfriends” or something like that.

Arg, like Vero said, it seems like he’s jerking me around a lot. I’m not sure if he’s just not sure what he wants, or if he’s doing it on purpose. Grr! Why are these things so hard.

Adios!

EDIT:// I forgot to mention that on the drive home, Austin put on this Playlist on his iPod, it sounded a bit lovey dovey too… I think he planned it. He held my hand and it was so cute all the way home.

And when we were first laying in bed, he kept saying…. “Chris… Chris… Chris… What am I going to do with you”… Etc, etc. What’s going down!

Sushi…Best In Small Portions

So, yesterday I had a good date.. Went out with Michael again. Went down to this sushi place in Laguna, it was all you can eat.

We get there, and he just orders everything since I have no idea what’s going on. The first thing was this Tuna Sushi. Which was pretty good. But I think they put a bit too much wasabi on it. After that we got this crunch roll which was HUGE, he wasn’t expecting it to be so big, so that was the last thing we got.

There was this crazy Asain lady and her white husband sitting next to us and they had like 7 plates of sushi JUST WHILE WE WERE SITTING THERE, and we talked to them and they had been there befoe us! And we’re not talking SMALL plates either. It ws crazy that the TINY little asian girl could pack away that much!

Drove home and he held my hand the whole way, but towards the end of dinner it got a little wierd cause we were struggling for things to talk about.

Austin and I are going to Disney today, so that should be fun. I got us free tickets.

I meant to talk about the fact that he’s had 50+ partners in his life… That really freaks me out. Granted he’s been active since he was 15, but STILL! Arg, I just don’t know. Plus he said he’s cheated on a BF before. :'( In Iowa, he would have been a member of the sluts club. It makes me sad.

Adios, yall.

Busy Busy Weekend

So… It’s been one hell of a weekend for me.

Lets go back to Friday, Austin was in the area when I got off work, so we went over to Fashion Island and ate lunch. He got annoyed with me because he didn’t think it was very smart to just ride over in one car. But he seemed ok with it all by the time we were over.

Drove back to my house and the traffic was pretty bad. Got there and the first thing he did was jump into my bed and take his shirt off and say. “Come lay with me for a while.”… So I was like thinking yay, you know he wants to cuddle and it’s going to be a good hanging out again.

So we end up laying in my bed from like 4 to 8 watching this movie, Beaches. After that we get up and I’m hungry so I start making dinner and he’s like, “Well I’m going to go home, I need Austin time and I can entertain myself more.” So I get really offended by that, I’m sorry that I have to take a minute to FREAKING COOK MySELF DINNER. Plus I was pissed because I was really hoping that he would spend the night again. :'( We haven’t slept together in forever, and I like that. I LOVE SLEEPING with people! Grrr.

So get into it and he leaves and I’m all pissed off, we had a big long convo about it once he got home and he said:

9:13:28 PM austin: i like you a lot, but i don’t think ur the guy for me

9:20:36 PM austin: i feel like i need someone more dominating

9:21:08 PM austin: more controlling

I’m not sure WHY he wants that though, those things never freaking work out. The controlling person always gets mad because they feel like they are being too motherly and the other person always gets mad because they eventually feel like the other is being too controlling. I’m really hoping that it’s just that he does have a job and is feeling lost. But who knows.

Anyways, I went to bed about 10 and slept horribly. Got up at 8:30 and cleaned up my house some and then met Robert for a bike ride at 9:30. We did that and I got home about noon and showered and tried calling Mark, etc to figure out plans. Everytime I’d call him he was like, “I’ll call you back in a minute” But he never did, so that was annoying. FInially Austin and I said we’d just go up there and hang out. Thankfully as we were heading out to meet each other Mark called back and we got the plans made.

We met up at the mall and he came up and hugged me which was nice. He ate lunch and we had a good talk then headed up to my house. Got in my car and started driving and he got all pissed at me because I didn’t have any music in my car and I just like to listen to the radio. So we drove there without really saying much to each other.

Got up there and I had a really good time. Skyler (with his wierd spelling) and James were both there. It was fun seeing them again, but I wish that they would have come out to dinner with us that night. James is so yummy! Too bad he’s uber straight! lol.

So we hung out at the conference and had a good time, talked to lots of random people and learned alot. So that was good. We went to this “Weakest Geek” thing and it was pretty entertaining.

Mark and Austin really talked a lot while I was off talking to other people, so they were getting along and it seemed like Austin was enjoying himself.

Oh, somewhere in there we picked up this guy named Brandon who was also family and kinda cute in a really geeky way.

So after the weakest geek we all pile into Scott’s truck and headed up to Santa Monica to Thrid Street. We found this nice Italian place and got right in without a problem! We all sat around drinking and talking and having a really good time and the food was amazing! We were there for over 2 hours, and I had 2 martini’s and Mark was nice enough to pay for everyone, it was like $60 a person too!!

We headed out after that to West Hollywood. Somehow Mark ended up between Austin and I in the car and they were being all cuddly and to me it even looked like they were giving each other little kisses here and there… Thus began my being pissed off for the rest of the fucking night.

So we get to The Abbey. We get in there and on the way there, Austin runs into someone he knows.. Which annoys me a bit. Then he starts talking about how he was there for new years and went home with this random guy. Which PISSED me off even more. So we get in there and the place is fucking PACKED like crazy.

We walk all the way to the back and buy everyone a round of drinks. Then on the way out Austin runs into this other guy he knows, and I’m just so annoyed with him by that point that Brandon and I just keep walking. We get outside and stand under this heat lamp thing and this cute little lesbian comes up and starts talking to us, so we chat with her for a bit and I bum a smoke off her. She eventually leaves and Austin, Mark and Scott STILL aren’t back, so Brandon and I go find a spot to sit down because I was starting to have this crazy break down and started crying.

So we find a spot and sit and talk and I poor my guts out to him and then FINIALLY Mark and Austin show up and Austin starts being all cute with me and stuff and asking if I’m pissed and I just pretty much ignored him. So we stay there till like 2 and finially we all leave and Mark and Austin sit next to each other again and AGAIN it looked as though they were giving kisses. Grrr.

We get back to the hotel and Austin’s all talking about just going up to Scott’s room and sleeping there. But he doesn’t. So Mark and Austin get into the same bed, so I just take the other one, then they somehow both ended up in the bed I was in, but those two cuddled all night and I just kept my back to them. I was SO FUCKING PISSED AT Austin.

Got up at 8am, still drunk and drove back to Aliso from LAX.

We get back just as my Aunt’s are calling me saying they are there… So Austin meets them for a second and then goes home. We go into my place and I shower and head out for a REALLY long day with them.

I took them up to Top of the World and thankfully it was clear, cause when I was up there Saturday morning it was all cloudy and nasty. They all seemed to enjoy that. They we drove around downtown laguna for a while, then headed up to Newport Via PCH. Took them up through there and then showed them my office since we were driving right past it. There was some girl there with a group of really cute guys and we all took the same elevator, but she couldn’t get her key to work and stuff. It was funny.

After that we drove up to Long Beach and went to the Aquarium of the Pacific which totally isn’t worh the $20 to get into there! Blah.

From there we headed back to Newport to eat lunch and at Hamburder Mary’s. They really liked it, but our waiter was kinda an idiot. After lunch (well, it was like 4). We went off to Newport Pier and walked along the beach for a while. My aunt is crazy and she stopped and asked this guy how much it costs to rent a one of the beach houses in that area. And he said it was $6,000 a WEEK during the summer! How fucking insane is that!

Once they got bored with the beach we came back to my house and they left. I stayed up till like 7:30, but was laying in bed and then finially just couldn’t stay awake any longer… And went to sleep. lol

I’ve got another date with the same guy from last Thursday… tonight. I’m not sure how I feel about that.

Well, I’ve written a book, so I’m out.. Adios!

More Dominating.

9:03:19 PM miklaustin: hey

9:03:20 PM blackc2004 (Autoreply): I’m in bed… Call my cell if you need me.

9:03:25 PM blackc2004: hi

9:03:32 PM miklaustin: i called ur cell thrice

9:03:40 PM blackc2004: it never rang

9:03:57 PM blackc2004: did u leave a message

9:03:58 PM miklaustin: chris what do u want me to say

9:03:59 PM miklaustin: no

9:05:22 PM blackc2004: i’m just saying, we crossed a line the other night with the wwhole jacking off thing, and now i’m getting too attached, so either act like you enjoy hanging out with me or don’t. stop getting so pisssed at me because it makes me feel like shit…. and something did change after your mom left… you’ve been really different towards me, and i’m just wondering what the change was and why?

9:06:36 PM miklaustin: ok

9:06:46 PM miklaustin: i’m sorry

9:06:57 PM miklaustin: i want us to be friends

9:08:34 PM blackc2004: Fine, then act like you like hanging out with me, don’t tell me that i’m not fucking entertaining you enough… and then more more acting sexual towards me.. cuddling and laying around is fine, but grabbing my cock, etc is off limits then

9:08:46 PM miklaustin: okay look

9:08:57 PM miklaustin: ur the one who was like ‘oh i did wayyy more with my friends in iowa

9:10:03 PM blackc2004: Yeah, I made out with them, which you don’t want to do with me… Justin and I were the only one’s who were sexual and there were very strict rules that went along with that.

9:10:21 PM miklaustin: making out is ‘waaay more’????

9:10:49 PM miklaustin: i didn’t mean u weren’t entertaining

9:10:55 PM blackc2004: YES YOU DID!

9:10:56 PM miklaustin: i said i’ll entertain myself]

9:11:11 PM blackc2004: Which means that I clearly wasn’t entertaining you

9:12:05 PM miklaustin: i dont even know what to say

9:12:11 PM miklaustin: just cuz i don’t wanna hang out with u one night

9:12:21 PM miklaustin: i feel like ur upset

9:12:41 PM blackc2004: Fine, whatever the point is that I’m starting to really like you, and you’re constant changing of ways you act is just driving me crazy.

9:12:52 PM blackc2004: And it’s not just one night.

9:12:59 PM blackc2004: but whatever, i’m going to bed. I’ll call you tomorrow.

9:13:10 PM miklaustin: wait

9:13:16 PM miklaustin: OKAY LOOK

9:13:20 PM miklaustin: well lets resolve it right now

9:13:28 PM miklaustin: i like you a lot, but i don’t think ur the guy for me

9:14:12 PM blackc2004: Fine, you’ve said that. I understand… But I can’t help that _I_ still like you, and you keep flip-flopping the way you act and it’s just confusing me.

9:14:16 PM miklaustin: and i know we cuddle

9:14:29 PM miklaustin: but sometimes i feel weird like i don’t want to lead you on

9:14:45 PM miklaustin: so maybe i’m cautious about being overly nice

9:15:26 PM blackc2004: By biting my head off because I try and be nice and want to go out to lunch and hang out, and by acting like I’m a complete idiot for suggesting we go hang out at downtown disney?

9:16:03 PM miklaustin: ok

9:16:27 PM miklaustin: i think ur taking those things a bit too personally

9:16:55 PM miklaustin: i don’t think ur an idiot

9:17:02 PM miklaustin: i just would rather not do that

9:17:04 PM miklaustin: i’ve been there

9:17:08 PM miklaustin: it didn’t seem very exciting

9:17:29 PM blackc2004: Well I’m sorry, but you practically YELLED at me for wanting to go to fashion island and hang out… and I’m sorry, but you DID act like it was the stupiest idea in the world to go hang out at downtown disney.. i’ve heard it’s a fun place to go AND YOU complained about not going out, so I wanted to go check it out and see

9:17:51 PM miklaustin: OK I’M SORRY

9:18:30 PM miklaustin: i’m cynical and crazy

9:19:08 PM miklaustin: what do u want me to do

9:19:39 PM blackc2004: Fine, one last question, what about me is it that makes you think I’m not the right guy? just wondering…

9:20:36 PM miklaustin: i feel like i need someone more dominating

9:21:08 PM miklaustin: more controlling

9:21:28 PM blackc2004: lol, why do you want that though?

9:21:37 PM miklaustin: cuz i feel completely lost

9:21:56 PM blackc2004: Maybe you just feel that way because you are out of work?

9:22:05 PM miklaustin: yeah maybe

9:22:22 PM miklaustin: ive got lots of problems over here

9:22:31 PM miklaustin: it could be all sorts of things

9:22:45 PM blackc2004: Well, I want to be ther efor you to talk about your problems… But either way…….

9:24:23 PM blackc2004: My problem recently has been that we crossed that line and you’ve just been flip-flopping so much and confusing me.. I miss hanging out with you as much as we did earlier, and I miss sleeping with you…. I’d like to still do that, but we have to cut out the sexualness of it…. It (the sexualness) won’t work between us because I like you too much, but I’m sure we can work with cuddling, etc.

9:24:45 PM miklaustin: ok

9:24:54 PM miklaustin: i didn’t know jacking off was such a big deal to u

9:25:04 PM miklaustin: and i’ msrorry we wont do it again

9:26:08 PM blackc2004: It’s ok, I didn’t think it would effect me so much, but it has… I get the feeling a lot of the time that you want to do a lot more then that too, which adds to it.

9:26:20 PM miklaustin: well i’ll stop

9:26:30 PM miklaustin: since ur feelings are getting involved

9:27:42 PM blackc2004: I’ve never been one for random things, I’ve only had sex with bf’s and besides them the only person who’ i’ve done a bj with is jenks… So I get attached when I start doing those things…. And with you I feel that we connect on so much more that it’s just a million times easier to get attached… but friends it is!

9:28:41 PM miklaustin: ok

9:29:33 PM blackc2004: ok, well off to bed for me. enjoy your night

9:29:36 PM miklaustin: well i’m sorry to have hurt ur feelings

9:29:56 PM miklaustin: i’ll try not to do it anymore

9:30:01 PM blackc2004: It’s fine, mine are always hurt… i’ll call you tomorrow.

9:30:06 PM miklaustin: ok bye

Austin went away (9:30:10 PM)

Away Message: I am away from my computer right now. (9:30:11 PM)

The Real question is why? WHY does he want someone who is more Dominating, those things NEVER work out! One person always ends up pissed at the other because of something. Either one is being too controlling or the other one ends up being pissed because they feel like they are being too motherly, etc. IE, Adam and I. Blah!

What the fuck. I just hope he gets a job soon and decides he doesn’t need that. Or I can just change and be more like that. I really like this boy! … Maybe?

Two Dates….

So last night was pretty good… I had another date, amazingly.

This guy was cool. We’d hung out once before, but this time we went and saw the new Queen Latifah movie and it was just the two of us in the theater, so we laughed and talked all the way through the movie! It was HILARIOUS.

I left after that and went down to San Clemente to hang out with Austin and go to the Boom Boom. We had had this HUGE converstaion earlier in the day about how he likes going out and I don’t and that’s a problem and blah blah blah. But like the last few times I’ve asked HIM to go out, we always get together and then HE ends up saying. “I just want to hang out” so we don’t go. And he was blaming me, and made me feel like I bore him.

Well this time was NO DIFFERENT. I get down there and we talk and we head out, then he’s like. “I want to buy some drinks before we go.” So we go to Albertsons and buy drinks, then we drive to the Boom, and it looks dead. So then he’s like. “Well I don’t want to go”. So we go back to San Clemente and try finding a bar there, and we drive by these two that are actually kinda busy looking and then he’s like, “Well I’m not in the mood any more.”

SO we end up going back to his place and this was like midnight, so I’m just like… “Well, I’m going to go home then.” And he gives me this evil look, so I try asking him what he wants me to do, and he’s like, “Well, I’m just going to read and go to bed, but you can stay and drink”

But it’s like, well I don’t want to stay and drink if all you’re going to do is read and then go to bed… Plus he had JUST COMPLAINED THAT DAY that he doesn’t like just hanging out there because he feels like he has to entertain me!

Gah, so he’s so confusing! So I get ready to leave and we’re standing there next to the door and he’s giving me this evil look with his arms crossed, and I say. “Can I have a hug.” and he just sighs and gives me this even more evil look. So I’m just like, “OK, no, see you later” and left.

I was SO ANNOYED!

Ya know, I really think that maybe this boy is in love with me (or REALLY likes me) and just doesn’t want ot admit it, because when I told him about these dates he was all annoyed sounding. AND when I wasn’t back late on Tuesday he CALLED me at like 10:30 to find out where I was. AND when I told him about this one he was suddenly all wanting to hang out.

BTW, if you’re on my LJ friends list and haven’t been seeing posts by me lately, hit up my site and read what you’ve missed. There’s been a bug in the LJ Crossposting plugin that I use and I just got it fixed last night, thanks to the plugin maintainer! 😀

Adios, yall.