Author: Cj B

Unmotivational!

I’ve been very unmotivated lately to really do anything.

I’ve had a string of bad/annoying clients lately with the whole freelance thing, so that’s put me off. I seriously cannot believe how stupid some of these people are. IE: one guy was bitching because i sent him a link to his site that didn’t have “www.” in front of it. The same guy was also trying to watch STREAMING VIDEO from his website over a fucking AOL Dial up connection! What a twat!

Then at work, I’ve been feeling very un-needed because of this whole new “project lead” shit that one guy got. I’ve been struggling with trying to get something very simple done and my clients at the office are being VERY slow to reply! Then I just spent 2 days doing a whole new menu system that I hand coded on the corp website, only to be yelled at by the CEO because we purchased a menu system that took me about 10 minutes to implement. Also I feel that they are going to forget about the whole Oracle training again. I just asked and the CEO said that he’ll “let me know when the time is right.” UGH! Very annoying. If they are going to be serious about this, then they would be doing them back to back. I am going to FORGET EVERYTHING I learned in the first one before the next one.

I have also been studying for my GMAT and I am so going to fail this test. Everything in the book is so hard. I finished all the vocab stuff and most of what I thought was right is wrong! :'( Maybe I’m just not cut out for Grad school. But I really want to go. I have officially sent in my application and everything, I just have to get the fucking GMAT taken.

I’m also feeling very broke. Now with a $1,000 car repair bill, the cost of a rental car, an additional $400 that I have to pay for insurance because I reduced my deductible, the cost of doing my taxes, what I will owe for my taxes and a 6-month gift for Const. I am just flat broke right now. I did a quick 1040EZ the other day and based on that I will owe about $1,000 more for taxes this year as well! Hopefully my tax woman can bring that down. If I’m eligible for this rebate check the government is sending out, it’s not going to get far with me, it’ll probably just go right back to them!

I’ve also been wanting to redesign my blog, I just haven’t had the energy to actually do it! I have some ideas. Just nothing that seems good.

Plus to top it all off, Constantine leaves in a month! :'(

Andrew’s Mistakes

I sent this message on Facebook, but thought I would post it here as well so people would know…..

Hi all,

I write with some potentially disheartening news. As some of you may or may not know, ever since I have been at Austin going to grad school, I have not been exactly thrilled with school and with living here.

This is really hard to write, but basically I’m leaving my program. I’m sending a big message because I can’t really handle explaining it to everyone individually. I’m at a point where I cry at any given moment.

I realized last semester and now this semester that this is not what I want to do with my life. I definitely like Art History, but you have to more than like it in order to get an advanced degree in it. I find myself dreading going to classes, I have a very difficult time understanding the assignments, and in general, I just feel like I don’t care enough to push through it. I just don’t think Art History is my thing, which means I should not waste anymore time/money/energy/stress working towards an advanced degree in it.

Ever since moving to Austin, I have been more unhappy than I have been in years. I cry all the time, and I am away from the people I love the most.

Therefore, within the next week or so, I am moving back to California. Hopefully that will excite some of you Californian folk. I will be staying with Steve’s family this semester. They have graciously offered to take me in and let me stay there. So that is where I will be. I hope that everyone in California can help keep me busy for awhile so that I can try to take my mind off this.

I really just need this time off to figure out what is going on in my life, and what path I want it to take. I hope that no one is disappointed in me. I really feel like I gave it my all, and bottom line, I’m not willing to sacrifice my happiness for a degree I don’t even really want.

Any responses and comments are welcome.

Andrew

Andrew posted that on myspace. I think it’s really funny to watch him make all the same mistakes over and over again. He’s already been through this once. And it’s so funny to see him do this shit. I mean you just wasted 4 years in college getting an art history degree. Now what are you going to fucking do! Idiot!

No Birthday Presents for me…

Hmm. It’s been a long weekend. Thursday I worked from home and picked up my Aunt from the airport. It was raining so there wasn’t much to really do around here which was sad. I showed her around the area. Constantine came over and we all went out to dinner and watched a movie here at my place.

Friday night got off to a rocky start. I was a little annoyed that Const spent 4 hours at a work thing, and then still had to go home to his dad’s birthday. We were supposed to have been celebrating my birthday that night with all of my friends. But instead he spent 4 hours at this work party. blah blah blah. Either way, we ended up going out to The Factory and having a really good time. I was also pretty annoyed that Jason got Constantine a preset for his brithday, but not for mine. Umm. Jason has known Const for 6 months. He’s known me for a year and 6 months. WTF!?! Jason’s such a fucking asshole. Why do we even bother hanging out with him!

Saturday we got up and went out to the mountians to play in the snow, but traffic was so bad that we ended up just going to Constantine’s friends house. The guy was nice, we went hiking and had coffee. I’m starting to get very annoyed with him about the fact that he never lets me to his house. I mean, why can’t I at least just GO IN once! REALLY!?

We came home that night and had dinner with Jason and then went to ice cream and watched Devil Wears Prada. Came home and went to bed. Got up Sunday and we did laundry. Const left about 4 and I just laid around the house.

Today I took my car in for repair. The estimate went from $700 to $2,600!!! Can you fucking believe that! WTF! It was a fucking CONE! A FUCKING CONE! Oh my god.

UGH!

Later.

Happy Birthday to ME!

Happy Birthday to me!!!

Yesterday was my birthday. It was a pretty good one. This year I haven’t really been feeling my birthday too much, but in the end I had a good one.

Constantine and I met up at the gym after work and we worked out, went home, showered and then went to HT Grill for dinner. Delicious! I had a Maple Apple Pork loin and he had Gorgonzola Flat Iron steak! My mouth is watering just thinking about them!

Went home after that and he gave me my gifts, I got a new battery for my laptop which was BADLY needed. Some cupcake mix from Sprinkles and some Olive oil and Vinegar! I can’t wait to try those out on the next italian food night!!

He’s such a great guy! 🙂 He even txted me “Happy Birthday” at exactly the right time! (6:41am!)

I was a little disappointed that one of my grandma’s didn’t even call me, but I guess she’s always very forgetful.

At dinner we had a discussion about work though. I have been working on this project for months and months now with our lead developer and one of the VPs here. Well the VP has been acting as the project lead, however now he is being pulled off onto other projects and no longer has the time. Well they picked a new project lead and I absolutely HATE this guy. He’s a total DOUCHE bag! I mean seriously, WTF! Why was _I_ not chosen for it. I have YEARS AND YEARS more experience then he does. Besides, he’s supposedly PACKED with other projects, I have a lot of projects, but could have EASILY fit this one in. It’s all very annoying because I see things like this happening and I keep getting passed up. At my last review, I was told that they were considering me for a full time Client On-Site trainer, well it appears they have picked someone else to do that now. I just wish they would FULLY follow through on ONE thing they promise me. Cisco training, was never completed, who knows of my current training will ever be completed, ugh.

My Aunt is coming to town on Thursday, I’m really looking forward to showing her around RB! Gotta find stuff to show/do!