Unprepared.

So yesterday was alright. I worked and didn’t really do much. Nazanin was gone, so I caught up on a bunch of things that she usually doesn’t allow me time to do while there. Also got the new managed switch, which is going to prove to be a BIGGER pain in the ass to set up then orignially thought. I might farm that out to someone else to do, as I just don’t have the time.

After work I went to the big gay alliance conference meeting. Stalker was there and he acted like he didn’t know me and gave me nasty looks. I don’t really like him much. I signed up for Carver-AV… Which means i’m in charge of the Audio/Video in Carver. It’s a Saturday morning job from 9-12. So that shouldn’t be too bad. And I didn’t really see any things I really wanted to go to that day anyways. The drag shows that weekend should be TONS of fun though. And plus they said for almost all the jobs, you can sit in and watch the talks going on, cause once they are started there’s not much to do. My job is one of them. I just have to get them set up for the video/audio before they start and then I can relax tell the next session starts (they are one hour sessions).

I think it’ll be a really fun weekend. I just wish Andrew would be here to enjoy it with me. They are having a v-day dance as well.. I probably won’t go, cause I don’t want to go alone. We’ll have to see how things work out later though.

After the meeting I went to Santa Fe and met up with Bryan, as I found out his name is. We sat and talked for like 2 hours and had a really good time. We joked about the gay guys on campus that we knew, and laughed about horrible waitress stories. And reminiced about New York (He lived there for 8 months). Talking to him about it, really made me want to go back. I don’t know when I’ll have time/money to do that though. He was lots of fun, I think I could hang out with him again. I had to break about 9ish though, cause that was the last bus tell 10:30, and I really didn’t want to stay out tell 11 (That’s when I would have gotten home).

I wanted to drive back to DM and hang out with Justin again though… So I txt messaged him when I got home about 9ish. He was at his boys house, so that was a no go. Though he wants me to go to the redlight again this weekend. I dunno why he wants me to go so badly, but he even offered to pay for me. I don’t know yet if I will or not. I’m very tired, since I got up at 7:30 this morning, and plus…. I’m SUPER horny, and I feel that even if tempted just the slightest bit, I’d probably make out with someone. I’m sure you all know how I don’t want to do that.

But yeah, to today… I got up at 7:30 and drove down to Beak’s house. Met up with her and hung out for a little while we waited for Niel to get gas/etc. Then we headed out to G&G’s. Got there and hung out with Gpa for a while then drove up to the legion where the sale was.

It was only supposed to last 1.5 hours… but it ended up lasting nearly 3. I was very annoyed. Thankfully Gpa came up after a while and I just rode home with him and we hung out at the G&G house… It was very weird cause at one point he was telling us about how the doctor stuck a hose up his penis, and it only takes him 20 minutes now to the checkup of his something or another. And then that story led into one about how the old nurse was hot and young and she had a really funny name, but she died really young of a heart thing, and now the doctor has a stupid nurse that put him in the wrong room and then didn’t leave while he was having this thing shoved in his dick… And the WHOLE thing that started this was he got his insurance bill and the moral of the story was that it cost $435. And it was weird.

Anyways, the sale was long and I only got a box of vases, of which I only want one, so I think the PU’s are keeping the rest of them. Drove home and I kept trying to sleep, but beak kept talking. So I didn’t really sleep much.

Now I’m sitting here updating and I think I might go hot tub here and then txt Justin to see if he’s still wanting me to go tonight, or if his boy will keep him company enough there.

Laters all.

but i miss you when you’re gone…

Whew….. So it’s been a pretty crazy couple of days. Ok, let’s recap.. It all began about 2 weeks ago. I was sitting in the library and randomly decided that I felt like going back to Iowa to see everyone b/c I missed them all. So that day and night I looked for some good plane deals, I found one the next day, and booked a flight. So that’s the background. Then to be fun, I thought I wouldn’t tell Chris so that I could surprise him and it would be way fun and he would be excited and stuff. I told most other people since they would need to come back from college and stuff.

So yeah…. FINALLY October 2nd comes, and it’s time to go. I had class till 9:45 and Martha and I left right after that. There was some drama driving as we were confused, there are so many interstates/highways in California!!! So we finally got there, I had a coffee and a danish and sat around waiting for my flight. While sitting, I read some Frankenstein. Got on my first flight, I don’t remember anything interesting happening there. I finished up Frankenstein, rocked out to Mates of State, and thought about what method I would use to surprise Chris. I also got very nervous and sweat a lot. And the guy next to me was asleep and snoring and he kept swinging his head towards me and almost hitting me. Very creepy.

I got into Chicago, and called Chris. I knew he would find something suspicious b/c I didn’t pick up my phone and he had called twice. So I thought of a good lie, which was that I had a meeting w/ my Science group… yes, I would’ve just put my phone on silent and I’m sure he knew that. But at any rate, it was right around 7, and I said I was gonna eat, work out, and then shower, so I’d be awhile. He’s like About 2 ½ hours ? and I was like yeah, sure. I had anticipated it being just around that time. Well, no.

My stupid flight out of Chicago just sat on the runway for a long time, which was uber annoying b/c the pilot was like There’s just a small plane sitting on the runway right now. I don’t know what it’s doing. So finally it left or whatever and we took off about a half hour late. So that was sad. I was so nervous and excited on this 2nd flight I didn’t know what to do. I just wanted to get there.

So I finally land in Des Moines. So then I couldn’t get my phone to work but eventually it did and I called Martha and let her know I was there. I wanted to call Chris so bad, but I couldn’t think of an excuse as to why I couldn’t actually talk to him for like another 45 minutes. So I found Neil and we were out.

Drove to Chris’ house, I was uber excited the whole time, and didn’t quite realize how far we were from Ames. I just wanted to get there!! Neil and I talked about random stuff the whole time… excitement.

So I finally get there and I’m just DYING. I had finally decided that what I was going to do was call Chris, and tell him that my internet was broken. Then I was going to ask him to look up the tracking # of the package I sent him (In case you didn’t know, that was the ruse. I told Chris that I sent him something, of course the something was me.

However, it was very funny b/c I had made up tracking #’s and everything). So I was gonna have him look it up for me. While he was doing this, I was going to be unlocking his door and coming inside, and when he said the tracking # didn’t work, I was going to say Well, actually I think your package is in the living room. And he was going to come out and we were gonna freak out and stuff.

It didn’t go QUITE that way. I called him and he was in bed. Problem 1. And he was mad at me for calling so late. Problem 2. So he’s mad at me, I’m not even saying anything b/c I’m just trying to open the freaking door, and that’s where Problem 3 happens. My key wouldn’t work! I could not for the life of me open that damn door. So I got frustrated and I was like Ok, I have to go to the bathroom, let me call you back in a couple minutes. And he’s like fine. So then I use both hands to try and get the door open and it STILL wouldn’t open. So frustrating … and of course I’m shaking and freaking out the whole time b/c I was so close! So I called him again and I’m like Go into your living room. and he’s like why? And I was like Just do it. And so then I was just like Open the door. And he’s like Why? And I just didn’t say anything…. And then he opened the door, and poof! There I was!

He seemed very excited. I was very excited. We stood in the doorway and hugged and kissed and cried. Some crazy came down the stairs, so I brought my bags inside and we continued hugging and kissing. We probably stood there for a good half hour before we could move. We just couldn’t let each other go, it was amazing. I had no idea what I would feel when I saw him, but this was 10 x more than what I ever expected. So after all that, I was gonna eat something, but I wanted to lay down with him for a few minutes. So we went and layed in bed for probably another half hour. Then he made me some tacos, and we watched the movie of our relationship on his TV and talked and had such a great time. It was GRRRRRRRRRREAT to see my baby again!! And while we layed in bed, that is where perhaps the most exciting news came in.
There had been talk of dating other people, and Chris had brought up that he wished we had just tried the long distance thing. So I had been contemplating that for awhile, and I didn’t know what I wanted. However, I really thought I was going to decided that we should see other people… at least until we were in a better position to date each other. But then I realized something… there was a reason I cried every time we talked about it, there was a reason I spent XXX to come see him, and miss classes that I really shouldn’t of. There is a reason that I stay in my dorm room all afternoon and talk to him online. And I thought Now why the hell would I want to lose that for something that I don’t even want to work out? And that’s when I decided that I as well wanted to try. So I told him this while we were laying in bed. I actually asked him out, formally J So as of very late on the night of October 2nd, Chris and Andrew are officially the cutest gay couple in the world again! So that was very exciting, and I know that he was happy.

We layed around and talked that night, I told him the plans for the rest of the weekend and he seemed cool with it. All was good.

Woke up at 4:30 or so…. Couldn’t sleep. We kissed and talked. Went back to bed and woke up at 7 something. At this point, we just gave up and got outta bed. We showered and watched Jerry Springer, which was really funny, and then we just hung out and talked and stuff. I showed him the movie of my friend and I from Cali and he said that Ross was cute. He seemed to like everyone (Well, at least the tape version of them) so hopefully that’s a good sign. And I’m sure everyone in Cali will just love him too! And if they don’t… well I don’t care! Eventually he had an interview, so we went to the mall.

He went to the interview, and I called Martha and talked to her for a few minutes. I went to the really good cookie place and bought him a cookie for being so great and getting an interview, and then I sat on a bench and waited for him. So he was done at some point, I gave him the cookie, he said I was sweet, and we were off. The interview was shorter than expected, so we went to WF, where I deposited my check and Chris opened a savings account. And I got a brownie. MMM.

After that, we went to see Katie at ISU. I really really love that campus. I’ve never really thought about it before.. But it’s really pretty. I think I would like going to school there. But let’s face it, I don’t think I’m gonna move back to Iowa anytime soon. Unless it was for the rest of this year to be with my Topher man! Saw KT’s dorm room, and then Sasha’s. I made fun of them for not having their own bathrooms/air conditioning/carpet. Chapman dorms have spoiled me rotten. So that was fun, and very random. Then we went to Gerry’s room, and I saw him, Marcus, and Matt Shwery, which was all just very random.

We broke soon and went home so Chris could change, and then went to Hickory Park where we were going to meet up w/ my sis and Bryce. So while we were waiting, some randoms drove by and said something about a hot ass or tight ass or something. I was like are they talking to us? and Chris was like Let’s kiss. So we kissed and then these kids were screaming Do it again! out the window and I flipped them off, and uttered a death wish to them. Fuckin kids.

Bryce and Jaime eventually got there, but we had already been seated and our waitress was a bitch. She came to us and was like Are the other two people almost here? and I was like yeah, just a couple minutes. And she’s like Well we don’t seat parties that aren’t full. I was like ooook, yeah well obviously we ARE seated, so take that and shove It up your ass Kim. So Jaime and Bryce got there, and it was all good times, and as Bryce was commenting on how Kim’s teeth looked like a horses’ she came up right behind him and got him a new drink or something. Very funny, he can be so tactful sometimes. So we had dinner and that was all around good times, I finally got the patty melt I’d been craving. MMMM it was yummy. Chris and I split some ice cream too. And Bryce commented on our sex life. Very weird. Chris paid for me, thanks honey!

After that, we went to Sam’s club b/c I was gonna get some protein bars, but I didn’t end up getting anything. So we went to Jaime’s apartment and got a movie and went back to Chris’s and watched It. It was Bridget Jones’ Diary. Not quite as funny as I thought it would be, it was more random than anything. After that, I don’t think it was even 11 yet, but we were uber tired so we just went to bed.

The next morning, we woke up pretty early, around 7:15 ish b/c I had to meet my friends. The morning started off bad, and it really upset me. Chris was upset b/c he wasn’t invited to breakfast, then I got upset b/c I thought he didn’t understand that I had to see those friends as well, and that they also wanted alone time, and then he thought I didn’t understand him, and then I got upset b/c I didn’t fly to Iowa to fight.

Though it wasn’t a big deal. We did eventually get it all straightened out and it turns out that everyone thought Chris was coming to breakfast anyway. But no one cared to inform me. No biggie, he came to breakfast, as did Danielle, Rach, KT, and Court, and it was all good times. After that he broke, and we all went to Court’s house.

Talked to Gbor for awhile, and then Jaime and Bryce called and she was gonna make a copy of my house key so that I could go get my jackets. So she did, and then Court and I went to pick it up (Rach and KT broke). Got the key, went to my house. Looking back, I should’ve taken more stuff, cause I meant to grab a few sweaters. But opening up the boxes, finding what I wanted, and then repacking seemed like too much work. So I just grabbed 2 jackets, a few ties, other assorted things, and we broke. Went to a deli and Court got some soup and I had a cookie, which was yummy yummy. After that we went to the mall, which is completely finished and looks cool. Not that I would now spend more money there just b/c they redesigned, but it did look cool. After that, it was time for WF.

We pulled up there and I felt all nostalgic and stuff, even though I complained about my job tons. Nicole was there, as was Cara, Jean, and Brenda, and apparently one of our newest team members, Lauren Williams. All very random. John Petermeier now inhabits my old seat, and everyone else pretty much got moved around. So much change! I sat and talked with Jean in her new supervisor’s office (Brent’s old one), and then walked around and talked to people. Cara and Nicole both wanted to know about Chris, and they were both very excited to find that we had gotten back together. I laughed b/c at everyone’s desk there are these mirrors and there is a thing around the outside, a frame I guess, and it says ‘SMILE! What is the customer hearing? SOOOO Funny. I would die if I had to have one at my cubicle. But yeah.. I really hope I can work there over Christmas and also over the summer. If not, I don’t know where I’ll get any money from. But yeah, we hung out there until Jean was ready, and then Her Court and I broke and went to Cheddars.

I wasn’t even really hungry but I wanted a Chicken Tender Wrapper. So I got that, and we just all sat around and laughed a lot. Jean said perhaps there is someway I could combine stripping and sperm donating into one profession. Very funny. Court had a cookie monster, so I got to eat some of that too, very good. And randomly the waitress apparently finished working halfway through our meal, and she just left. I though they had to stay until everyone in their section was done eating. Eh, that was annoying. But we had a really good time, and Jean paid, that was very nice, thanks Jean Jean!

Went back to WF, called Chris and told him we were done. He said he would be there soon and had to get something for his parents first. So went back to Court’s unloaded her truck w/ all her college stuff and hung out. I went through all her pics and put little notes on the ones I wanted doubles of.

She thinks I got a bit overzealous. She’s right.

Chris eventually came and we all sat around for a bit and talked and had a good time. After that, Chris and I broke. Ginny called and wanted us to come over to KT Rodger’s house.

So as we are heading over there, we stopped b/c I saw Savanna. So she freaked out, told me about her plans to move to Vegas, and then left. She was going to homecoming. Very random. So we went to Katie’s and Alanna was there with some boy, and Ginny came a few minutes later. Good to see everyone. Alanna was like I could’ve signed you up for the dance.. I was like Uhhh that’s ok. So we hung out there for a bit, and then made plans to meet up w/ Becky and Neil at 7 downtown. Took pics, did randomness, then we broke. During all this, KT had called and wanted me to come over so she could see me one more time and say goodbye.

I know Chris was a bit annoyed b/c we told his cousin 7 and it was already almost 6:45ish, but he said it was ok. So we went to KT’s probably spent about 15 minutes there, and then headed downtown.

Twas cool to be there again, nothing too too exciting. Sat and had a frozen mocha that Topher bought me, thanks ! And then we broke b/c Neil was hungry. So we went to this random place far out and had some good Chicken alfredo pizza thing? I dunno, it was good and I ate more again, even though I wasn’t hungry. Neil paid that time, thanks!! After that, they took us back to our car and we went to Chris’ in Polk City.

Got there, and we hottubbed for awhile, and it was really hot in there. Talked and generally had a good time. After that, we got all dryoffified, and then got ready to go back to Ames.

Drove to Ames, talked about places it would be fun to make love in, and went to Hy-Vee, where we got some breakfast food. Went back to Chris’, and I put on my cowboy hat, which he thought was really cute. The rest of the night will be delegated to a private entry.

Went to bed and decided we would sleep in. So we woke up at 10 something or 9 something, I can’t remember. He showered, I showered, my sis called and said she was gonna come soon for breakfast, so Chris made some pancakes and omelletes and Jaime came over and we ate and it was all good times. After she left, I packed up all my stuff and we headed to the Blank Part Zoo. Got a little lost on the way there, but eventually found it. That was good times there, even though it was a bit on the smallish side. They had some really cute giant turtles and they were fun. The bugs were insane. That’s one thing I DON’T miss. I didn’t even realize that Cali has no bugs. But when you go back to Iowa, oh boy do you realize. I spent more time than I should’ve complaining about the bugs at the zoo. But we had a good time, and again Topher paid for my admission, which was sweet of him! He paid for mostly everything this weekend, so BIG HUGS go out to him. We had a rootbeer float at the zoo and that was good. Uh oh, only 15 min on my battery left!! Must hurry!

After we left the zoo, we went to the porn store and wandered around for a short while. It was really funny b/c someone actually came up to us and asked if we needed help finding anything. I just felt weird… like what are you supposed to say? Yes, can you help me find a dildo that would suitable for my big fat ass? Thanks.. Yeah random.

So we left there, and went to some aquatic stores and looked for stingrays, they didn’t have any!! Very sad. But yeah after that we went over to Saylorville, which was uber uber romantic, and a very good time. There was this little Peninsula that we went out to. There was nobody there except for the two of us and we sat on a rock together and watched the sunset and had a really good time, and talked about stuff. I tried to convince him to come to Cali with me today, but he denied L It’s ok, I understand, I just don’t want to have to deal with the next 3 months until I get to see him again! I wish I had enough money to go back for another weekend. Perhaps if I get to the sperm bank I will… just kidding.

So we hung out there for a long time, the sunset was so pretty and we took some pics which hopefully Chris puts up on his website.

Oh I forgot to mention. When Chris first answered the door and let me in, he was just in his boxers. And let me just say that his working out has totally paid off, even in the short 6 or 7 weeks he’s been doing it. He looks slimmer, and has definitely gained more muscle. His abs are hard too. I just thought that was great, I’m sure he’s glad to hear that there IS a visible difference, and I hope that he continues doing as great as he has been!

Anyways, after the sunset, we decided to find the Chinese buffet place, to have some dinner. We finally found it, after deciding that it in fact was not on 86th street.. Which I really didn’t think it was on to begin with. Sat down there, and ate like blargmonsters, as always. I tried to pay but he wouldn’t let me, and he paid again! He did a lot of paying this weekend, and I feel bad L

So after that, we went back to his house. We really wanted to hot tub one last time, but decided it would be best to just go to bed. So we went to sleep around 10 something. I slept fairly well, considering what was about to happen the next day. Chris’ dad banged on the door and I heard that and I felt really bad b/c I had left his dome light on the night before and he had to go turn it off and I was afraid that the battery may have died. When he came back, I apologized. He said it was ok though. Went back to sleep and we woke up at 5 and that totally sucked.

I got ready, and we went downstairs and suddenly leaving on a jet plane got in my head, and well it would not leave. So that of course sent me off on a cryfest. And I pretty much cried from Chris’ house all the way to my plane. I broke once in there from the crying so that I could get my ticket. But besides that.. It got to the point where I didn’t even want to look at Chris. Seeing his eyes and his face and all the affection just got to me. So I stared out the window and all the sad songs in the world played in my head and I just cried and cried. When we got to the airport, it sucked, and I refused to get out of the car.

Eventually I had to. We went in and it was sad, and we both teared up. We made our way to right in front of security, and the line was getting pretty long, so I had to get in there or else I would miss my flight. Which, considering I skipped all classes today, I wish I would’ve taken a later afternoon flight and spent more time with Christopher. Ahh, regrets. So yeah, I cried a few times on the plane but attempted to keep it under control.

When I got to LAX, the weather was horrible and foggy and I just wanted my Topher back so bad. He had left me 2 messages and so I listened to them and at least was able to smile for a few minutes. Then I called to let him know I was there, and it was good to talk to him, though it made me all the more sadder. The whole drama with finding Mike was too much for me, and as I stood there waiting for him, I cried some more. I’m so pathetic sometimes.

It’s the opposite of last time we said goodbye. We both cried, but Chris was doing it a little more than me, and I kept saying oh it’ll be ok, don’t worry it’s just a small amount of time we can do it blah blah blah and this time it was me who couldn’t control myself and Chris who was trying to soothe me with those words. Anyways….

Chris called while I was at lunch and he told me not to be sad. But I am. I miss him so much. I’m not gonna gush here, it’ll make everyone sick.

Well, all in all, I had a VERY VERY wonderful weekend, probably the best one since I’ve been here. I have to write a private update now… and then do lots of schoolwork that somehow got neglected.
BREAK!

Funny Convo #2

BlackC 2004 (2:14:08 AM): So did that condom come in handy?
BlackC 2004 (2:14:10 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:15:02 AM): lol nah i need a bf
BlackC 2004 (2:15:10 AM): lol… Join the club.
Wellington1800 (2:15:27 AM): so lets go out
BlackC 2004 (2:15:31 AM): But at least you were prepared.
Wellington1800 (2:15:39 AM): 🙂
BlackC 2004 (2:15:43 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:16:04 AM): 😎
BlackC 2004 (2:16:39 AM): Anyways, I’ve got to hit the bed… I’m tired.. ::yawns:: Though I’m scared to go to bed now. I just watched the creepiest movie every!
BlackC 2004 (2:16:41 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:17:33 AM): so come down here and ull be safe
BlackC 2004 (2:18:00 AM): lol. That’s a long drive! It’d be like 3! I think I can handle it.. I’ll just have to cuddle with my teddy bear. 🙁
BlackC 2004 (2:18:12 AM): But have a goodnight.. Perhaps you can still find a use for that condom. 😛
BlackC 2004 (2:19:20 AM): Perhaps if I had an invite ealier, you could have comforted me through the movie… I was so scared!
BlackC 2004 (2:19:28 AM): But, really I have to go. I’m just talking to myself now.
BlackC 2004 (2:19:30 AM): Laters!
Wellington1800 (2:19:36 AM): wait
BlackC 2004 (2:19:39 AM): ??
Wellington1800 (2:19:39 AM): talk to me
BlackC 2004 (2:19:43 AM): Wha?
Wellington1800 (2:19:57 AM): i mean granted
Wellington1800 (2:20:16 AM): ur still somewaht in love with ur man but still talk to me
Wellington1800 (2:20:28 AM): plze.?:-)
BlackC 2004 (2:20:39 AM): I have no problems with talking.
Wellington1800 (2:20:54 AM): so?
BlackC 2004 (2:21:30 AM): so???
Wellington1800 (2:21:35 AM): lets tal then
BlackC 2004 (2:21:41 AM): k, bout what?
Wellington1800 (2:21:58 AM): bout u
Wellington1800 (2:22:00 AM): 🙂
BlackC 2004 (2:22:20 AM): What about me?
BlackC 2004 (2:22:28 AM): I’m scared! What more do you need to know?
BlackC 2004 (2:22:29 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:23:01 AM): tell me EXPLICILTLY about u without being scared
Wellington1800 (2:23:13 AM): 😎
Wellington1800 (2:23:37 AM): i mean im listening to Pacelbels Canon in D
Wellington1800 (2:23:55 AM): how
Wellington1800 (2:23:55 AM): “bad” can i be?
BlackC 2004 (2:24:03 AM): Hmmm? ::is confused::
Wellington1800 (2:24:33 AM): okay tell me bout u
BlackC 2004 (2:24:53 AM): What about me?
Wellington1800 (2:25:01 AM): i mean i know ur taken but i still wanna know bout u
Wellington1800 (2:25:07 AM): stuff u havent said
BlackC 2004 (2:25:41 AM): Ummm, well ask a question, and I shall answer.
Wellington1800 (2:25:50 AM): would u let world peace begin with u???
BlackC 2004 (2:25:53 AM): I can’t just think of things I haven’t said off the top of my head!
BlackC 2004 (2:26:09 AM): And I didn’t mean for that to ryhme.
BlackC 2004 (2:26:24 AM): I suppose, but I don’t see how world peace would START with me persay.
BlackC 2004 (2:26:25 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:26:55 AM): are u a follower or a leader?
BlackC 2004 (2:27:14 AM): It all depends on the situation.
BlackC 2004 (2:27:40 AM): And how comfortable I am in it!
Wellington1800 (2:29:23 AM): and how are u at starting new things?
Wellington1800 (2:29:25 AM): ??
BlackC 2004 (2:29:34 AM): I dunno, not very good I should say.
Wellington1800 (2:30:09 AM): now
Wellington1800 (2:30:18 AM): whys that?
BlackC 2004 (2:30:33 AM): I’m shy, I don’t start things well. :-[
BlackC 2004 (2:30:34 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:30:55 AM): im shy and very formal too …so what?
BlackC 2004 (2:31:25 AM): And unless I feel very comfortable doing something, it takes a lot of persuasion to get me to do things, or alcohol too, that works.
BlackC 2004 (2:31:28 AM): roflol.
Wellington1800 (2:31:42 AM): hey le me tell u this okay?
BlackC 2004 (2:31:50 AM): k?
Wellington1800 (2:33:01 AM): i saw ur pic and immediately i was drawn to its cuteness and ever si ce i saw it no matter the cost id still think u were attractive in one 20 yr old to another
BlackC 2004 (2:33:35 AM): Awww, thanks! :-[:-D
Wellington1800 (2:33:36 AM): whatever ur frank as in physical or emotional response
BlackC 2004 (2:34:04 AM): I do think that you’re cute as well! Seriously.
Wellington1800 (2:34:08 AM): its okay ive been turned down soo much before so its okay
Wellington1800 (2:34:19 AM): awwww
Wellington1800 (2:34:56 AM): i mean most guys call me mushy when i want to take them to my house for dinner lit by candle and music by Celine Dion
BlackC 2004 (2:35:10 AM): Awww, that’s cute!
Wellington1800 (2:35:20 AM): and dinner to my lovely choosing
Wellington1800 (2:35:32 AM): and then most have and will leave laughing
Wellington1800 (2:35:47 AM): making me soo very cynical
BlackC 2004 (2:36:13 AM): Why would they leave laughing? I always enjoy candle light dinners, they’re so relaxing and nice.
BlackC 2004 (2:36:23 AM): Though I like the cranberries as a back sound for me!
BlackC 2004 (2:36:23 AM): lol
Wellington1800 (2:36:35 AM): so while im left in the breexe wit my ass in the rain
Wellington1800 (2:37:13 AM): everyone laughs at me
Wellington1800 (2:37:19 AM): so i say screw em
BlackC 2004 (2:37:19 AM): Well they shouldn’t.
BlackC 2004 (2:37:38 AM): That’s what most of DM is though.
Wellington1800 (2:38:50 AM): so i wonder when people are gonna get over that which they cannot have
Wellington1800 (2:39:09 AM): but still have whats avail in front of them and willin in front of them
BlackC 2004 (2:39:34 AM): That’s too philosophical at this time of the night.
Wellington1800 (2:39:44 AM): nah
Wellington1800 (2:39:47 AM): ur educated
Wellington1800 (2:39:51 AM): but okay
BlackC 2004 (2:40:25 AM): Sorry, I’m very tired… The brains not thinking.
BlackC 2004 (2:40:31 AM): Do explain what you’re attempting to say?
BlackC 2004 (2:40:44 AM): In laymans tearms?
Wellington1800 (2:40:49 AM): nah its too early
Wellington1800 (2:40:58 AM): unless u want me to say something
Wellington1800 (2:41:06 AM): and have somethings be strained
Wellington1800 (2:41:33 AM): “Heart of a Champion” good song
BlackC 2004 (2:41:50 AM): ::scratches head:: I’m so confused!
Wellington1800 (2:42:12 AM): im not surprised…
Wellington1800 (2:42:22 AM): laughs
Wellington1800 (2:43:38 AM): in somesort of otherwords(not my own but still) im envious of the reakastionshio u jave with ur man
BlackC 2004 (2:43:39 AM): Do explain? I’m so confused… You’ll have me up trying to decipher your crazy talk all night!
BlackC 2004 (2:43:48 AM): Ahhh, Isee.
BlackC 2004 (2:44:01 AM): I’m sorry!
Wellington1800 (2:44:10 AM): and i wish iwas ur man
Wellington1800 (2:44:11 AM): ther
Wellington1800 (2:44:13 AM): i said it
Wellington1800 (2:44:22 AM): heres wher u say im sooo offended
Wellington1800 (2:44:31 AM): or sooo grossed out
BlackC 2004 (2:44:45 AM): Ahhh, well you know what I always tell people is that I had to wait FOREVER before I even had my first bf, so it just takes time to find that right guy!
Wellington1800 (2:44:48 AM): because im not blonde haired
Wellington1800 (2:44:50 AM): blue eyed
BlackC 2004 (2:45:02 AM): I’m not offened or grossed out. I think it’s cute.
Wellington1800 (2:45:36 AM): u dont wanna know what im gonna do
BlackC 2004 (2:45:52 AM): What… What are you gonna do?
Wellington1800 (2:45:59 AM): and believe me ITS NOT U
Wellington1800 (2:46:08 AM): oh nothing
BlackC 2004 (2:46:17 AM): What, you can’t tempt me like that!!
Wellington1800 (2:46:22 AM): not that anyone cares
Wellington1800 (2:46:42 AM): no one ever has cared
BlackC 2004 (2:46:43 AM): I’m sure everyone cares…
Wellington1800 (2:46:52 AM): so dont if u dont want to
Wellington1800 (2:46:58 AM): no one does
BlackC 2004 (2:46:59 AM): I bet there are people that care.
Wellington1800 (2:47:05 AM): according to my powerful mother
BlackC 2004 (2:47:35 AM): You’re mother said that no one cares?
Wellington1800 (2:48:21 AM): yea
BlackC 2004 (2:48:53 AM): Well, no offense to her, but what does she know? I bet there are people out there that would care.
BlackC 2004 (2:48:57 AM): You have friends, no?
Wellington1800 (2:49:25 AM): in reality no
BlackC 2004 (2:50:11 AM): Oh, sure you do!
BlackC 2004 (2:50:28 AM): Who doesn’t have friends… Even I have friends, though none of them like haning out with me. 🙁
Wellington1800 (2:51:32 AM): no
Wellington1800 (2:51:36 AM): my mom just called
Wellington1800 (2:51:53 AM): and said the worst thing i could have done besides die was being gat
Wellington1800 (2:51:56 AM): gay
Wellington1800 (2:52:01 AM): im crying
BlackC 2004 (2:52:01 AM): At this hour? I think you’re halucanating (I know, I’m not an enligh major).
BlackC 2004 (2:52:15 AM): Well I’m sorry. How bout a hug??? ::hugs::
Wellington1800 (2:53:01 AM): yea whatever
BlackC 2004 (2:53:17 AM): Oh, do stop. Life is good, or it shall be.
Wellington1800 (2:53:39 AM): no one cares
Wellington1800 (2:53:42 AM): no one is ther
Wellington1800 (2:53:51 AM): no one
Wellington1800 (2:53:56 AM): ur wanting ur bf
BlackC 2004 (2:53:59 AM): Sure they do! I care.
Wellington1800 (2:54:01 AM): whic h is cool
Wellington1800 (2:54:08 AM): and they want their s
Wellington1800 (2:54:21 AM): and im here without an umbrella in this rain of shit
BlackC 2004 (2:54:48 AM): Oh, I do think it’s not as bad as you’re making it out to be… Perhaps you’ve been drinking a bit too much tonight?
Wellington1800 (2:55:55 AM): dude
Wellington1800 (2:56:00 AM): u have no idea
BlackC 2004 (2:56:08 AM): Well then enlighten me!
Wellington1800 (2:56:10 AM): how deep it goes
BlackC 2004 (3:00:39 AM): Well if you’re not going to enlighten me… I’m going to hit the sack.
BlackC 2004 (3:00:49 AM): Nighties. Hope thinkgs look up tomorrow for you!
Wellington1800 (3:01:15 AM): yea
Wellington1800 (3:01:17 AM): whatever
BlackC 2004 (3:01:26 AM): Do be better!
BlackC 2004 (3:01:29 AM): Nights
Wellington1800 (3:01:31 AM): i wont be
Wellington1800 (3:01:34 AM): u will be

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Wellington1800 (3:01:37 AM): but whatever
BlackC 2004 (3:01:38 AM): Sure you will!
Wellington1800 (3:01:47 AM): yea extactly
Wellington1800 (3:01:50 AM): sure
BlackC 2004 (3:01:59 AM): I’m just going down…. Withe very day that passes. I’m sure you can come up!
BlackC 2004 (3:02:09 AM): We’ll meet somewhere in the middle! 😛
BlackC 2004 (3:02:11 AM): Night!
Wellington1800 (3:13:04 AM): always…that is if u evermeet me

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Wellington1800 (3:26:21 AM): ok well take care i gfuess
Wellington1800 (3:26:34 AM): that is if u do
Wellington1800 (3:27:07 AM): u prolly think im a load of baggage
Wellington1800 (3:27:07 AM): but whatever

Thanks A Lot Sue.

I’m really fucking pissed right now… (In otherwords, this might not make any sense)

Well it appears I won’t be going to EWR or LAX now, thanks a lot Sue.

There’s no way I’m spending $1300 just to fly out there and back. No fucking way.

You know, if she would have just sat down and been cooperative about it all, unless throwing a huge fit everytime Andrew brought it up, we could have easily gotten there by taking Continental instead of going through United. Same airports, only it was NONSTOP from EWR to LAX. You know, much easier, and MUCH cheaper… But no, she couldn’t do that…

Thanks A Lot Sue.

I just want to fucking cry right now. I’ve really been looking forward to this.

I never should have got my hopes up so high for the trip, I knew that something like this would happen.

And that’s my life.

The weekend that wouldn’t stop…

So this weekend just seemed to keep on going. Which was really good. Friday I met up with Andrew about 5:45ish, his mom was supposed to be cooking supper, but the people that have looked at the house 4 times were going to be coming over, so she decided not to. We ate something real quick and hung out at his for a while. Once we left we headed to the half-price store to get sell some books back. I took in some old computer books. I got $15 back for them, which was pretty good I thought, considering how old they were.

From there we went downtown for a while. And then decided to go see a movie. Legally Blonde 2. Very good movie I must say. After that I drove Andrew back to his car and we broke for the night.

Saturday I awoke really early, 7:30. But I didn’t actually get out of bed tell about 10 or so. Once I did, I just sat around and didn’t really do much. Andrew finally called me about 12:20 and we made plans to meet up at about 1ish.

I left PC and drove there, stupid stupid people driving that day. Very annoying.

Got to his place and we finalized the dates for the trips to EWR/LAX. Aug 11th is the day we’re leaving. I’m still very worried about all the flights though. Ate lunch there and then spent a large part of the day helping/watching him pack stuff. It was nice to hang out with him, a bit boring. But I’m totally understanding that he has to pack, and the weekend is one of the few times that he has to do that. I also want to be there when he packs because I think that’s probably the time that he most needs someone there. Packing just brings to reality how soon he is moving.

We left there about 3ish, I think. The weekend just seems to be all blurring together for some reason this morning. Anyways, I do remember that we drove from his place to the new porn store off exit 159. That was very amusing times. The guy that was working was uber friendly for some reason. And then have a HUGE, and I mean HUGE!, gay porn DVD section. Very good. Now I just wish that it was closer to here to rent porn from! Lol. Though, it’s probably closer then driving all the way to the south side.

After that we drove back to Ankeny, stopped to eat. It was uber expensive there, but I already told Andrew that I would pay, and that we were eating there. So it was too late. Whatever though, the food was good.

Oh, I forgot that we went bowling on Saturday too! That was fun. Thanks Beak for the free tickets and if you get anymore that you don’t want to use, I’ll gladly take them!

After supper we went back to my house, hot tubbed and then went to bed. Andrew spent the night.

Sunday morning we got up, showered and ate breakfast at my house. From there we went back to his and packed some more. We also took TONS of pictures for his ebay items that he has up. Everyone should go bid on them to make him happy! Lol.

After that we went to the half-price books store again to sell more books. I took in a bunch more compter books and an old Business book that I have. All the computer books were about the same age as the ones that I took in on Friday. Though this time they only offered me $1 for all of them. I mean this was like 10 books! I was uber pissed about this. Because it just shows that they really don’t have much of a plan on how they pay for books. They just guess or something. I was very annoyed, and they wouldn’t even take my Business book because It has highlighting. Well duh, of course it does, it’s a fucking college text book! Grr. I was just annoyed with that.

Once we were done with that we went and got ice cream. Which I really didn’t need but it was so good!

From there back to his house, where we met up with Ginny. And then went to the airport to pick up Jenny and her sister. That was fun times.

Broke late that night after some laying in bed talking about things, and a bit of crying.

Got home late that night and got my mail… Two bills of course. Very annoyed with that, though I realized that I already paid one of them, and my electric bill is only $1.88 this month. Which is very odd. I’ll have to look at that again tonight when I’m more awake to figure out what’s actually going on there. Because it should have been closer to $30.00 or so.

Also thinking about where I want to move after college. With everyone else that I hang out with talking about their moving, and going away to college it’s got me thinking a lot. I really want to move west, and I have for a long time. Though I don’t think Cali is the place, and if it is, it would either be San Diego, or more north, but not around LA, or SF. I was thinking Washington for a while, but I want to stay away from there because they are infected with the evil M$ Virus there. Arizona still has potential. But I don’t really know how much. I’m very scared about it all though, because I know that at the job fairs here at ISU they only have employers from this area of the country. As Sue said not that long ago, And why did you stay here??

One year seems like a long time, but I know that it’ll go by really fast… Just look at how fast the last 2 months have gone by already.

Today I’ve been very busy at work, though I think things will slow down now this afternoon. I went through my old entries this morning and changed a few of them from private to public, and I’ve been thinking about some more code upgrades, but those would all be for me. We’ll see if I get around to it or not.

Tonight will consist of 80’s music and CD burning.

And that’s my life.