First Full Weekend

Well, it seems as though most of my updates from now on will be coming to you from late at night like this. Oh well, that’s life, eh?

So what’s Chris been up to on his first full weekend of living in good old So Cal? Well not much to really tell you the truth. I’ve spent the majority of the weekend in front of the TV. Ty and his bf seemed to have had a bit of a tiff this weekend so they weren’t really doing much of anything. Anyways, I did go out for a drive on Saturday. I went to the mall which is just up the street and it’s a bit ghetto, a lot like the Ames mall, only different shops in it. And at least it’s 2 stories… Though the second story is only the food court. Then I got lost trying to find Vons and Wal-Mart, but I eventually found them. They were on the OTHER side of the 73 then where I was looking. Damn interstates. I also bought like $30 worth of food for me. Good times. 🙂

I’ve also spent lots of time talking to Andrew this weekend, which was nice. I would have liked to talk to him a bit more, especially today because I had a lot to tell him tonight, but he had fallen asleep apparently and called me back about midnight Iowa time just to say goodnight. Hopefully we’ll get to talk tomorrow and I can tell him all about everything, that is if I remember it all.

OH, one thing that I wanted to write about though…. I think the roomie and his bf had sex today while I was there… I was watching TV on the couch, and they both went into the bedroom… And like shortly after that I feel asleep. The next thing I know I hear the shower going and they are both in there, this was like an hour or more after they disappeared into the bedroom. Then after the shower Ty comes out and he was like… ‘Did you hear anything.’ And I was like, I was asleep. But I think they had sex… It’s scary!

Umm other then that, the roomie and I had a great time last night. We sat around talking about porn and sex, and then we watched some porn. It was really funny. I’ve also been loving the fact that Talk Sex (previously Sunday night Sex show) is on early out here, so I can actually watch it. I love that show!

Today was fathers day, and I called my dad like a good little son. It was very wierd the whole time talking to him, though I was amazed that we could find enough to talk about to fill a full 15 minutes. There was lots of wierd silence and stuff, but we still talked about a lot of things. I think it’s a good thing because it shows that our relationship is finally starting to grow better. Like 2 or 3 years ago, we wouldn’t have been able to say anything except, ‘Happy fathers day”….”Thanks”….”Talk to you later”…”Bye”

But now we can actually talk about things. I hope that we continue to talk more. I’d also really like to talk to my Grandpa more as well, I know that he’s not going to be around much longer and he’s such a great person to talk to, and I have so many great memories of him. I just wish that I had more. I also wish that my grandma and that side of the family would talk more about our family history. It’s very annoying now knowing ANYTHING about where our roots are at. As I’ve talked about before I’m very jeleous of Andrew because of his heritage, not that they follow it strictly, but at least they have something and they still have a few traditions that they do. Whereas my family has nothing. My moms side is almost ALL german, but we don’t have any german traditions……

Well, alright doing a quick search returns this And reading through it, I really do have a lot of German qualities, that is if this is real at all. I found this part to be particularly true:

Real Germans are perpetual bargain hunters. As soon as they buy anything they are slightly unhappy, because somewhere else that has inevitably escaped their attention, there was some place that had a better quality and it was cheaper!

lol. It’s so true!

Anyways, getting back to what started this, I’d really like to talk to my grandpa more and just hang out. I wish he were still able to do the things we used to do, like go shooting or fishing, or even just driving with him in his biig old pick up truck. I wish he still had that beast. I also wish that I had had a chance to go and visit them for a week this summer, like I have in the past. I always really enjoy going down there for that week. And while I was growing up they were such a HUGE part of my summer. Sometimes spending more then half of my summer at thier house.

Changing topics. I really hate working here alone, about midnight the doors to the elevator shaft automatically swing shut. And they are HUGE fire doors so when they SWING shut, they do so with a great force which is very loud and I can hear it even in my office. So far it’s scared me every morning and I always get up to go look to see what it is. I really hate it. Then about 2AM, the security guard comes up and goes through the doors and when they swing shut behind him they hit again and scare me again. Very annoying.

Ok, one more thing that I want to complain about here at work then I’m all done for now…. Friday morning I went through and cleaned out the inbox of the IChelp desk account and moved everything to categories for each call, which is supposed to be done as soon as you take a call so that way it’s easier to find things, but no one seems to ever do it. So I’ve just been cleaning ALL the calls they get during the day when I get here in the morning. Which isn’t that big of a deal because I have nothing else to do, so at least that takes about 30 minutes of my time to do….

Well anyways, I went through and read all of the e-mails and left the ones that Mike needed to read as unread, there were only 23 e-mails that he had to read, and that’s ALL he had to do to them, was read them. Well I come in this morning and he didn’t read a SINGLE one of them on Friday. He was here from 7am to 7pm, and ALL of those e-mails were still marked as unread. Which is very annoying because it’s not like he had to read them and then do something that took hours to do to complete them, they were all just informational, so all he had to do was read them… IE, open them. Grr. It’s just fairly annoying.

Well, I should probably go do something else. Laters all.

Late Nights… Stressed Relations

Good morning everyone.

Well, things have been going a bit better since I last updated. I’m starting to enjoy my job more. Though it’s still no Krell and no dream job. That’s for sure. I’m really starting to get into the grove of this whole late night thing… Hence the reason why I’m away currently.

As far as the job goes, I think I’ve finally met everyone that works there. The other night I met a few of the engineers who were putting in an all nighter, because one of the servers went down. As far as the actual work goes, I have yet to really do ANYTHING. I haven’t taken any calls yet from the UK and we usually start getting calls about 7:30, for simple things like password resets or something like that. So it’s not that bad. The worst part of the job is being the ONLY person in that HUGE office building at night. It gets very scary sometimes and since we don’t have a bathroom in the office… You have to go outside the office and into the community part of the floor, I really hate going to the bathroom.

Also the whole entire office building smells very wierd. I don’t know what it is, but it almost makes me sick sometimes.

Speaking of being sick. I was the other morning. I spent the first hour and a half dry heaving into the trash can at work… I finally actually threw up about 1:30 and after that felt much better. Though I was still sickish feeling the rest of the night. I was also very tired that night for some reason and kept drifting in and out of sleep….

When all you’re doing is reading a book, it gets easy to do that.

Also they have YET to get me my pfizer login’s so I really can’t do any actual work if anyone does call… About all I can do is take the call, and tell them that we’ll call them back later. It’s sad really.

I am a bit frustrated with it because the help desk manageer, who gets in at 5:00ish is very annoying. He makes this REALLY annoying sound with his mouth. And he also barks/growls at the computer. It’s VERY VERY annoying. He also smells wierd.

As for other things, the roomie and his bf and I are getting along very well. Things are going good and I’m glad that he’s so cool. Tonight his bf and I went out driving to Dana Point and Laguna Beach area. That was lots of fun. We visited Ty at the art gallery… Which is very scary, FYI.

We drove around for like 2 or 3 hours and also stopped at a Porn store, Gay Coffee shop, and also Top of the World… Which was VERY pretty. I can’t wait for Andrew to get back so that we can go there.

After the driving around we met Ty at a restuarant and ate dinner. We had horrible service as normal. It followed me from IOWA! Scary shit, eh!

Andrew and I have been having a bit of a tiff the last couple days and it’s really starting to make me worry/very sad. The other night he said that he wasn’t in the mood to talk, because he had been Chit Chatting all night long. I was upset by this, but just said, “Ok fine. I’ll talk to you tomorrow then.”

I was upset because I had really just wanted to talk to him for a while about stuff because I really need his support right now. But I was alright with letting him go and go to bed. He scensed (sp) the annoyance and we got into an argument about it….

Well basically we’ve been arguing about that for a while now and it’s really starting to eat at me. Hopefully we can get thigns settled this weekend because I don’t want this to go on for another second.

I really wanted to get it settled today, but when he called me to say goodnight he still sounded very annoyed about something.

I really don’t want to be in an argument with him right now. It’s the last thing that I/we Need. And especially over something so stupid.

I do want to write though about how much I miss him. I told him this the other night but also wanted to write about it….

Over the last year we’ve had to say goodbye so many times. The hardest was by far the first time, back in August when he started school. The easiest was when I left to come back to Iowa after being here for a week in April…. Each time when I came back I really ddin’t miss him as much as I had the first time. Because I had become accustomed to not having him around, sure I still missed him, but I was used to living my life without him…

Well this time it’s hard again, very hard. I don’t know exactly what it is, but I’m guessing that it’s just the huge change that I’m going through right now in my life. I really need someone to support me and to lay in bed with and have them hold me… Or even just someone to give me a hug every once in a while… Or maybe it’s the fact that Ty and Chris are so boyfriendy around each other that it just makes me miss having my boyfriend all the more…

But whatever it is, I miss Andrew SO much now, as much, if not more then I missed him back in August. And we stil have 55 days before he comes back out here. I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle that. I might have to make a trip back to Iowa yet this summer.

Well, I should probably be going. So laters all.

First Night

Well last night was the first night I spent in my new apartment. It wasn’t too bad.

The roomie was out with his family or something, so I spent the night here. I watched “The First Wives Club” well I tried to watch it, I kept falling asleep during it. After a while I eventually went to bed and just got up. It’s 8:30 now.

I really miss Andrew, I want him here so badly. I really miss Iowa too, a lot more then I thought I would.

I hate havnig these feelings, why can’t I be strong and just do this. Why. I hate being weak.

Laters all.

Commited

Well, I’m now officially commited to the job. Crazyness, eh?

I’m so scared and yet so excited all at the same time.

This weekend was spent with lots of crazy times as well. Ok, not really crazy. Just very busy and yet lazy times. We didn’t really do much all weekend.

Saw Troy last night. A huge waste of $8. Not even all the hot boys and brad pitts ass, made up for how horrible the movie was.

I might have found a roomie. It seems really promising.

After Troy, on the drive home I had a horrible break down. I was driving and crying so much. I had to call Andrew and we talked for a short bit.

I’m really scared. I really wanted this summer here in Iowa to do all those things that I’ve done a million times once more.

Anyways, I have to get back to my job now… Laters all.

Together we stand, Divided we Fall

Ok, here’s the big spring break update. I’ll just break it up into days to make it easier on everyone. NOw hopefully I can even remember what I did.

Friday: Work sucked, and Alicia and I took a long (like 1/2 hour) break to get some coffee and go to the bank. I talked most of the time, and then just killed time. SOmewhere in there, I actually did some work. Some. Just as I was getting off, Chris was getting to the circle, so he picked me up there, and we went back to campus. He was tired and a bit grouchy, but I was just happy to see him! We brought all his stuff in, and went to dinner with some people, which was fun. We didn’t stay too long cause Chris wanted to go back to the room. We didn’t really do much that night, just watched TV and went to bed.

Saturday: We went to The Getty Center with kat and her mom, which was really fun! We spent the whole day just walking around and having a good time. The museum was really big, but didn’t relaly have the kind of art I like. Strangely enough, it had a piece I learned about in Art History, so that was crazy. Nothing else really that day, Chris and I drove home, and did nothing.

Sunday: I think this was the day we went to the Long Beach Museum? I don’t remember what we did this day, maybe Chris does.

Monday: Chris went for his first interview. After that, we did some apartment shopping with Byron. This summer is shaping up to be very confusing, for many reasons, but I’ll discuss that later. Anyways, after that, Chris and I hung around. Maybe this was the day we went to Long Beach. Didn’t do anything exciting, I guess.

Tuesday: Chris had his other interview. When he was done, we did some apartment shopping again, and then…. I don’t remember. WEnt to Long Beach?? LOL.

Wednesday: We were planning to go to MOCA today, but it was closed, so we decided to go to San Diego instead. We were gonna go to the SD Museum of Contemporary Art, and we got there (it was actually located in La Jolla) and it was closed 🙁 That sucked, but La Jolla was so pretty. I’ll try to get the pics up. WE walked around the beach and rocks, and took some pics, and then we walked around the shops and looked at all the stuff. It was such a beautiful area, I wish I lived there! Eventually we made our way to Balboa park which was also gorgeous, and then we went to the Science Center and saw an IMAX movie. I kinda fell asleep during it, I love IMAX, but this one was about Austrailia and pretty boring. After that, we walked around more, and hopefully scared some breeders (we held hands most of the time), and then we broke for downtown, but never made it cause Marfs called and we were meeting her for dinner. So we drove back north to where she was and went to a yummy Mexican place and then to Coldstone. MMMM. After that, Chris and I drove home, and totally crashed.

Thursday: Went to the LA Museum of Contemporary Art. It sucked cause we had to pay 12 bucks to park, and then ended up finding a place where you only had to pay 4. Suck. Anyways, the museum was really cool, it was totally the art that I love. It sucked that we couldn’t take any pics, b/c there were lots of photo ops. MOCA is actually 3 museums, so we walked to the 2nd location, and went through Little Tokyo, which was pretty cool. The 2nd one had a lot of cool stuff, like this room with all white walls and then just this big thing against one of them that was illuminated from behind and had a thin strip of lighting going around the outside and it made the entire room glow an odd color and when you looked at it, I got lost inside the color, it was really amazing, I loved it. Lots of other crazy stuff there. Walked back to the car, and couldn’t find it, and ended up eating at Carls Jr. b/c we were so hungry. Finally found the car, drove to the next one, which was in West Hollywood and we saw all the gay pride flags and it was tons of fun. The one there sucked, it was like 2 floors and it was just very tiny. It was like the size of my house back in Iowa. Maybe smaller. Not worth it casue we ended up in tons of traffic on the way home. Got home, watched TV and crashed.

Friday: Went all around. Looked at a couple more apartments, then went to Target so I could pick up some stuff. After that, we broke for home and hung out there, and I did some homework. THen we went up to Natalies for a BBQ, which was really fun. Jenn showed me her breast and I was scared… and excited 🙂 It was a good time though, lots of yummy food and good times. Chris and I broke early cause it was his last night here and we wanted to spend some alone time together. The rest of Friday is best kept for a private entry 😉

Saturday: Chris left this morning at 7:15. I was very sad and cried for a bit. Then I got up, got ready, did some homework, and have been at work ever since 9:20 or so. Nothing going on here, just plowing through a ton of shit that I have to do. I haven’t decided whether I’ll be coming back tomorrow or not. I probably will, cause I need the money.

And speaking of that. I got my Financial Aid thingy. And was very upset. All I got offered were two loans. And not even very good ones. One of them is for parents and has to start being paid right after the money is given out. And the other starts collecting interest right from the get go. I haven’t talked to mother yet so I don’t know if we should accept them or not. Now I really need to get those scholarships I apply for. Dollars for Scholars here I come. lol. So that sucked, and made me upset about SAS and study abroad. I really hope I can still do both. I think that I am willing to go into debt for those things. For regular school, I don’t really want to. But for something like spending my summer on a cruise ship going around the entire world… how can I pass taht up? And this is the only time I’ll get to do it. So hopefully I still can.

School schedules up. I think I’ll be taking 3 psych classes (for my major) and 2 business classes (for my minor). I might also sign up for a Contemporary Art class, just for fun. And all those classes (except art) are on Tuesday and Thursday, which means I can spend MWF working all day. The art one was MW from 7-8:15. I know I said I wouldn’t take another night class, but I think this one would be ok. We’ll see what I end up doing. I register in two weeks and hopefully I get those classes. I had no problem last time, and this time around, we don’t have seniors or incoming freshmen to deal with. So it should be good.

Summer is gonna be crazy. I think now that I’m going to go home. The more I think about it,t he more I want to do it. IF I can work at Wells Fargo, I’ll make more than I do here, and I’ll probably also try to work at Hy-Vee. PLUS, I won’t have to pay summer housing. PLUS I think that if there’s any summer where I’ll be home all summer, it’ll be this one. So I don’t want to miss the opportunity. But so many things could change, we have to figure out who’s living with who and if I can even get the jobs and if I could pick my job up here back in the fall, or what the hell’s going on. Must talk to several parties before I make any decisions, but as far as I can tell, that’s what i want to do.

Ummmmm I think that’s it. No one is at school, so tonight will be boring. Thank goodness I have shit to do. Talked to Jennny today for like 45 minutes. She’s alive, thank goodness. Has a job, maybe a boyfriend, and moved to Beaverdale (Iowa). That was good. Called Court, she called back, I called her back, and now I’m waiting for her to call. Must talk to her about the jobs at WF.
Alright, well I’m gonna do some other stuff and then actually get back to working. Big shock, I know.
Anyways, hope everyone’s spring break was as great as mine was!!!
BREAK!