Late Nights… Stressed Relations

Good morning everyone.

Well, things have been going a bit better since I last updated. I’m starting to enjoy my job more. Though it’s still no Krell and no dream job. That’s for sure. I’m really starting to get into the grove of this whole late night thing… Hence the reason why I’m away currently.

As far as the job goes, I think I’ve finally met everyone that works there. The other night I met a few of the engineers who were putting in an all nighter, because one of the servers went down. As far as the actual work goes, I have yet to really do ANYTHING. I haven’t taken any calls yet from the UK and we usually start getting calls about 7:30, for simple things like password resets or something like that. So it’s not that bad. The worst part of the job is being the ONLY person in that HUGE office building at night. It gets very scary sometimes and since we don’t have a bathroom in the office… You have to go outside the office and into the community part of the floor, I really hate going to the bathroom.

Also the whole entire office building smells very wierd. I don’t know what it is, but it almost makes me sick sometimes.

Speaking of being sick. I was the other morning. I spent the first hour and a half dry heaving into the trash can at work… I finally actually threw up about 1:30 and after that felt much better. Though I was still sickish feeling the rest of the night. I was also very tired that night for some reason and kept drifting in and out of sleep….

When all you’re doing is reading a book, it gets easy to do that.

Also they have YET to get me my pfizer login’s so I really can’t do any actual work if anyone does call… About all I can do is take the call, and tell them that we’ll call them back later. It’s sad really.

I am a bit frustrated with it because the help desk manageer, who gets in at 5:00ish is very annoying. He makes this REALLY annoying sound with his mouth. And he also barks/growls at the computer. It’s VERY VERY annoying. He also smells wierd.

As for other things, the roomie and his bf and I are getting along very well. Things are going good and I’m glad that he’s so cool. Tonight his bf and I went out driving to Dana Point and Laguna Beach area. That was lots of fun. We visited Ty at the art gallery… Which is very scary, FYI.

We drove around for like 2 or 3 hours and also stopped at a Porn store, Gay Coffee shop, and also Top of the World… Which was VERY pretty. I can’t wait for Andrew to get back so that we can go there.

After the driving around we met Ty at a restuarant and ate dinner. We had horrible service as normal. It followed me from IOWA! Scary shit, eh!

Andrew and I have been having a bit of a tiff the last couple days and it’s really starting to make me worry/very sad. The other night he said that he wasn’t in the mood to talk, because he had been Chit Chatting all night long. I was upset by this, but just said, “Ok fine. I’ll talk to you tomorrow then.”

I was upset because I had really just wanted to talk to him for a while about stuff because I really need his support right now. But I was alright with letting him go and go to bed. He scensed (sp) the annoyance and we got into an argument about it….

Well basically we’ve been arguing about that for a while now and it’s really starting to eat at me. Hopefully we can get thigns settled this weekend because I don’t want this to go on for another second.

I really wanted to get it settled today, but when he called me to say goodnight he still sounded very annoyed about something.

I really don’t want to be in an argument with him right now. It’s the last thing that I/we Need. And especially over something so stupid.

I do want to write though about how much I miss him. I told him this the other night but also wanted to write about it….

Over the last year we’ve had to say goodbye so many times. The hardest was by far the first time, back in August when he started school. The easiest was when I left to come back to Iowa after being here for a week in April…. Each time when I came back I really ddin’t miss him as much as I had the first time. Because I had become accustomed to not having him around, sure I still missed him, but I was used to living my life without him…

Well this time it’s hard again, very hard. I don’t know exactly what it is, but I’m guessing that it’s just the huge change that I’m going through right now in my life. I really need someone to support me and to lay in bed with and have them hold me… Or even just someone to give me a hug every once in a while… Or maybe it’s the fact that Ty and Chris are so boyfriendy around each other that it just makes me miss having my boyfriend all the more…

But whatever it is, I miss Andrew SO much now, as much, if not more then I missed him back in August. And we stil have 55 days before he comes back out here. I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle that. I might have to make a trip back to Iowa yet this summer.

Well, I should probably be going. So laters all.

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