Feb 28, 2001

So the Boy Scouts. hmmmm, Do i really want to work for

them? i don’t know, do i. I talked to the guy from philly today. he said i

could work C.O.P.E. which would be REALLY cool. but that would be alot of

hard work and such. but it hink it would be fun. i have to let him know by

friday. I think it would be sooooooo cool to work out there. i also have a

meeting with Ely Brewer (the scout executive for mid-iowa council, in other

words the HEAD BOSS MAN, lol.)next friday, that’s scary, first i don’t like

ely to begnin with, hes an ass. and second i don’t know what it’s about. That’s

bad. very, very bad. other then that not much else going on here, danny called

and woke me up this morning, that was cool, lol. good thing too cause i might

have just slept in and missed my first class, my alarm didn’t go off like

it should have. i think my roomie got pissed though, cause the phone kept

ringing, the thing he was using to call me cut us off every 5 minutes, lol.

Feb 15, 2001

People are stupid. just so we’re all clear on that.

i think the drinking age should be lowered to 16. yeah, people today, they

are drinking anyhow, so why not make it legal. they would have more control

over it then, and people wouldn’t be out having keggers and the like. and

kids social liveswould be greatly imporved. now i know there’s MADD, which

in my opinion are just a bunch of mad mothers. and not mad in the sense of

mad, but mad in the sense of MAD. you know what i mean. yeah, ya know england

has a 16 drinking age, and you don’t see all the problems there that we have,

do you? i think we should be more like the UK. it would be cool. yeah, i think

abortion should be legal too, i don’t like it, but it’s the woman’s choice,

it’s her body, it’s her. she should be able to choose. the courts and the

government should just stay the fuck out of it. i also think the smoking age

should be lowered to 15. and gay adoption and marrige should be legal, and

i don’t think i have to explain myself there, 🙂 i’m using those smilies way

to much. i should stop. MSN is so cool cause you get to change your name thingy

when ever you want, hehe. it’s cool. i thnk the government should say the

fuck out of the internet too, they have no idea what they are doing, and they

are just regulating it way to much, there’s really nothing, one sertian country

can do, people will find a way around it. if they are going to regulate the

internet it should be one world regulating industry, but i definatially wouldn’t

go for that. nope. but yeah, so what if they are trading music, not like the

recording industry is REALLY losing all that much money. assholes. i also think that e-mail and the such should be treated with the same privacy of

snail mail, where as employers, school, government, etc, shouldn’t be able

to read it as they can now. ok back to the MADD bitches, so who’s always going

to win there, a kid wanting to have fun, or a mother with a dead kid? but

just look at the numbers, look at them, i’m not going to give them to you,

you go find them, but look at them, in england the deaths from drunk drivers

is soooooooo much lower then in the US and they have a much lower drinking

age, when they raised the drinking age 15 years ago, they just pushed all

those kids that were drinking socialy into hidhing where they drink just to

get drunk. maybe if i get time i’ll put up an article i have on the issue.

it’s a good one. i also think they should legalize some drugs. yeah, i mean

people do it, so why make them criminals, legalize it and tax it, MAKE money

instead of wasting billions of dollars on a losing battle. damnit. stupid

ass government they have lost touch with the people, and the way the real

world works. they don’t understand that makeing something illegal doesn’t

make the problem go away, it just increases the problem. now i’m not saying

they should legalize murders or anything, but little things like drinking

and smoking, and a few drugs. what can that hurt? really, i mean. fuckers.

why the hell do i even bother going to programming? he never teaches anything

that i don’t already know. it’s such a waste of time. yay for OOP, he’s making

it out to be this huge hard thng, when it’s really quite simple. ya know maybe

if they learned how to program before he taught the class. and yeah i liked

today, he spent most of the day telling us how it is in “real world”

programming, WTF does a person with a fucking history Ph.D. know about real

world programming? dumbass. there was something else i was going to bitch

about when i started. damnit. i can’t remember it now. oh, yeah i’ve been

looking trough all these colleges that i’ve allpied to, and it’s getting kinda scary. i mean, it’s like cali, that’s a damn long way away, i want to go there,

i want out of this state, but it’s just a scary thing, ya know. it’s expensive

too, i don’t want to put that much of a burden on my PU’s but ya know i kinda

look at it though as they have the time, i’ve given them the info, they said

they would take care of all the money, so if they don’t get going on all the

grants and loans and scholarships and shit then it’s their problem, they said

they would take care of it all. i’ve sent them more then enogh information

on everything, i’ve sent them cost info, places to get info on scholarships,

everything. so if they don’t tell me what to fill out or if they don’t get

it done, then it’s thier problem, not mine, i shouldn’t have to pay shit, when they said, “you can go anywhere, we’ll take care of the cost”

i mean i don’t have a problem with me paying for extra things like supplies,

and clothes and entertainment money. but they said they would pay for books,

and tuituon and housing tell i was 21. so back when they said that i said

fine, and quit my job, cause i have been working a partitme job since i was fucking10. and i took the last two summers off and worked at jobs that were

fun, and i spent time traveling. i still had a lot of money, enough to get

me through tell the next summer when i could work again, but now that they

are throwing this whole thing of saying i have to pay 60% of the cost, or

the difference from instate college to out of state college. that just fucks everything up. does it not? i want out of this state, they are trying to limit

where i can go by this, and i know it and they know it, it’s *really* not

money probelms, they have the money, everyone knows it. they just want to

limit where i can go. they want me to stay in iowa, or close by, and i’m sure

my grandma has a big hand in it, cause ya know they didn’t bring this up tell

after christmas, after they talked to her, after she found out i was looking

at san diego, i bet she has the biggest hand in it. ARG. i hate my family.

if i find someone to spend my life with, i know that they won’t be seeing

much of my family, and we won’t be making many holiday trips to iowa. nope,

were going to their family, or actually i would much rather just stay home

and spend the time with them. ya know i think i should get a different system

for these updates, the files are starting to get alittle big. but yeah, damnit

that’s another thing i’ve beenworking a fucking paying job since i was 10,

in the store first and then in 95 when it closed i went and started at kum

and go, and i usually worked 30-40 hours a week DURING the school year. fuck,

i’ve worked long enough. i want some time off, i don’t want to have to wrok

like that during college, i want to have fun, my HS life sucked ass. i want

to live during college, iwant to be somewhere where i can have fun. out of

this state, that’s for sure. so far i haven’t lived, i don’t ahve the money

to live, most of my money that i made over summer was spent when i traveld

in august. but this summer, no matter where i work, i should make enough money

to get me trough the next year, with plenty of money to spare. and also round here, you have to go all the way to sioux falls to have any fun, and that’s

an hour drive, plus there really isn’t much there to do, sure they have a

huge ass mall, but it’s a fucking boring mall. really it is, trust me. and

then there’s a few clubs, but they aren’t really all that great. ya know sometimes

i just wish i could say SCREW YOU. and leave. i really do. it’s sad really. time for class.

Jan 29, 2001

it’s snowing again, it’s been raining all morning and

now it’s snowing, yeah, rain and snow. great weather conditions, we’re suposed

to get lik 13 inches tonight, yippy fun. well not much has been happening

today, or really yesterday for that matter. it’s monday, nothing ever happens

on mondays. or weds, or fridays, cause i only have one class those days, but

i guess it’s all good, i have lots of free time, i should get a job ya know,

but there’s nothing good in this town, it’s all c-store work. and i’ve done

more then my fair share of it. you would think that a college that’s ranked

#9 in the counrty as one of th most wired would have higher tech companies

in close range, but no it’s all in SF an hour away, and the cost of driving there doesn’t really help to get a job there. cause it’s 55 miles there and

55 miles back. and at 80-85 miles an hour, that burns alor of gas. and with

the prices they are round here at 1.60 and up, it can really put a hole in

your pocket. o well, i think i can make it tell like summer before i HAVE

to get a job. i still haven’t herad anything back from that offer in philly,

i would really love to get it. that’s the first scout camp in the nation.

it would be tons of fun to work there. but then chris k. my moss from last

summer has been bothering me to come work there all summer this year. but

the thing is is that pete is the camp director and he’s a total ass. alot

of the employees that worked for him last year WON’T go back to work for him.

they even went so far as to send me an app without asking me, i’m sure kaye

told them to, but still. i really don’t want to work in Iowa this summer,

i don’t want to live in iowa or the midwest this summer, i just want out of

this part of the country. i was going to do accouting today, but then i started

reading it and got bored, so maybe i’ll do it tomorrow just before i go to

class. lol. hope it’s not to hard. FUCK, the power just went off, i hope that

doesn’t keep up. hehe, luckly i have battery backup, but that means that theservers

are all down now, cause they don’t. the dumb fuckers. again you would think

that the #9 most wired college would have batteries on thier servers. o well

guess they don’t. i’ll have to wait a bit now to get this posted. i’ve been

really tired lately. i don’t know what’sup. i’ve been getting enough sleep,

and not too much. hmm, o well. it will go away, that’s my theory. lol. i’m

going to shut down for bit, the power keeps going in and out. i’ll upload

this once i getback.

Jan 12, 2001

ahhh, insanity is setting in already, it’s umm, like

3 in the afternoon, i’ve now been up for about 12 hours. i haven’t been sleeping

well lately, i think it’s just getting used to this bed again. hmm. the repaet

rate on this keyboard isn’t fast enough, i’m going to go fix it.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,

much better. lol. well i had a nice chat with danny last night. i still think

he needs to open up to me more. but i love him. so we won’t let that get in

the way. hmm, i’m still debating on weather or not to send in that application

to philly, i think it would be really cool to work out there and i would REALLY

love to meet danny, in fact, they offered me more money to stay and work in

iowa, so now the only major reason to purse this option is to be able to see

him. but still in the back of my mind there’s just that little thing of DO

i want to meet him. i mean we get along and all and i do love him, but i HAVEN”T

even seen a picture of him yet. hmmmmmmmmm. o well i guess i’ll send it in

and shit, and just see what happens. ok on to other things, all my classes

seem like they should be pretty easy. i mean, accounting, econ, government,

visual BASIC, how simple can that shit be, just as long as i keep up with

the reading and shit, i hope it all works out that way. some of the teachers

are them foreign types and i can’t hardly understand them sometimes. o well,

i’m happy, i got my internet back today, hehe. yeah. fucking fun, i had a

shit load of songs to download off napster i had like 20 of them or so, i

got them all in under an hour, i was so happy, i was getting like 150Kbps,

hehe, it was cool. well i’m going to go off somewhere now, bubye