We Went To The Moon In 1969

1:12PM – We went to the moon in 1969…..

Yet another WONDERFULLY WONDERFUL Wednesdy with my one and only (almost) Topher!

So he took off work so taht I could spend the day with him, which I thought was totally sweet of him. I actually kinda feel bad, like I’m costing him 70 or so bucks everytime we hang out! But I suppose if he really wanted to go to work, he would.

So since he was so sweet, I thought it would be nice to buy him flowers. I didn’t get roses… they are a bit cliche, plus I thought I’d wait for something more special before I buy him those. So I just got these white flowers, I dunno, I thought they were pretty. Drove to Ames, speeding lol so that I could get there because I wanted to see MAT (my new name…. meaning My Almost Topher.) hehe I thought it was funny.

Anyways, I get there and give him the flowers and he seemed pleasently surprised by them, which is good. THough I guess me giving them ruined some surprise he was planning for me, so now I feel really bad. I hope he follows through on it anyways, because I don’t want to actually have ruined something, plus I like Surprises!!!

So we talked and put them in a vase, sat on his bed and talked about our day, and made a CD for me.
Talk about a fun CD! The CD has Marilyn Manson, Ace of Base, 50 Cent, Sonny and Cher, Erykah Badu, Justin Timberlake, The song from the Disney Channel…. such a varied mix. I really like it though. Fun times.

So we did that, and Chris got a few kisses for it.

At one point we had a discussion about patrons lol. We talk about the oddest things sometimes.

pa·tron·ize ( P ) Pronunciation Key (ptr-nz, ptr-)
tr.v. pa·tron·ized, pa·tron·iz·ing, pa·tron·iz·es
To act as a patron to; support or sponsor.
To go to as a customer, especially on a regular basis.
To treat in a condescending manner.

Just for you Chris! Now you kow what it means 🙂

So the we decided to go to Reiman Gardens which was TONS of fun!!! We walked around inside for alittle bit and looked at all the pretty butterflies and I told Chris about the butterfly with the 12 foot wingspan. I’m not sure that’s true, but it’s some giant ass bug. lol. We walked outside and it was so totally cute b/c we were walking with our arms around each other and we’d hold hands too.
It really said a lot to me that Chris isn’t afraid to show that type of display in public. It was totally sweet. We stopped and kissed under this thing, which would’ve been a lot more romantic had it not been right on the highway. “Beautful Reiman Gardens, surrounded on both sides by highway…” So yeh then we walked other places, stillholding hands and creeping out these stupid breeders who were raking the “lake.” We stopped under a covered bridge, and I tried to teach Chris the dance move that Court and I always do. I’m not sure he got it… but it was cute.

Then we walked more and sat on a bench and held hands and kissed and made fun of the breeders and just talked. So nice.

We left b/c I was cold, but I felt bad for wanting to leave. But I was cold!

Then we went to the mall, non exciting really.

Then we went out to eat at Village Inn, and I was a total blargmonster with 3 plates out! Woo! But it was soooooo good and Topher man is such a sweetie for paying!!! I’ll make sure to give him a little something extra *wink* hehe.

We sat there and talked for awhile about gifts from Exes and whatnot. Lots of random shit. We left and poor waitress girl didn’t get a tip. Eh. oh well *shrug*

After Village Inn, we went to Best Buy, where I was gonna buy the CD Skip Fixer thingy, but didn’t b/c it was 30. I figured I’d just get it offline somewhere. So then we went to Target to see ift hey had thatand FFOrigins for cheaper. Well, Target didn’t have it at all, so we went BACK to Best Buy, and I felt dumb when we saw the guy who greeted us the first time. I bought FFOrigins, yay so now I have 2 MORE FF’s to play, in addition to 7, 8 and Xenogears and whatever else I wanna play.
I also stopped and molested Xenosaga Episode 1 again lol.

After that, it was back to the Toph’s apartment to just do random shit. I told him to put on Enya, b/c I enjoy that as background music. So he did, and we layed there kissing and cuddling and being cute. He’s riht, thy SHOULD make a movie about us… perhaps I’ll write a script and we’ll see what can happen.

Oh I did tell him that I Couldn’t hang out Friday b/c of things with Courtney, and I Felt really bad. But I really think yesterday was worth it. I had such a wonderfully amazing day with him. He seemed ok with it, so I’m sure things are fine. I’m sure we’ll be together most of Saturday and Sunday so it won’t be a big deal. *sigh* Though how I’d LOVE to spend the night with him again….
Anyways, eventually I had to leave, and hewas holding me, and I Just wanted to roll over and go to sleep with his strong arms around me. I was about ready to be like fuck it all, I’m staying!! But I Couldn’t and of course eventually I had to leave.

We stood kissing for a looong time…. It’s just really hard to let go. And these crazy breeders were making lots of noise, I was like hey dumbass breeders shut it! Oh why are they so stupid? lol.
Oh we also went to Chris’ MIS meeting, which was cool I guess. I didn’t really get it at all, so I just looked around. I think I’ve decided that I reallywant to go to a big university. Hmmm such a tough choice.. I mean TECHNICALLY I could still go to Iowa. But I don’t know.

Anyways, thats beside the point.

So I really like Chris eh? I can’t wait till Sat. when I get to see him! And of course I’ll be thinking of him in the meantime… how can I not? I’ve got pics all over of him at work at home, everywhere!

I really hope he liked the flowers. My intent was that everytime he sees them, he will remember that there is one little gay boy in Waukee who is thinking about him. Perhaps I need to pick up something a bit more substantial (and somehing that won’t die so quickly) so taht he can remember me always! Not that he won’t anyways I mean HELLO. lol

Oh, we also figured out that between Chris’ ass and my ego, there isn’t enough room on the bed for anything else.

LoL.

Oh Topher. Hope you smiled as you read this! Because you are beautiful when you smile…. well, you are beautiful always.

Have a great day!

BREAK!

Current mood: awake

What’s up?

Not much, really! Life’s been pretty boring. Although I had a GREAT time yesterday. And I skipped a class today. Good times.

Just wanted to share some stuff today. I know, my lifes so boring!

There is no moon. There never was a moon. We are winning the war. The moon is painted on the sky by evil Americans to confuse us. There is no moon.

2004 American Presidential Selector
I got Nader at 100%; Bush was 35%.

Anyways, if there’s time for a real update, perhaps later. Work today is amusing!

Flowers!

So, yet another GREAT GREAT Wed night with Andrew. Ohhhh, what a great night!

So I decided that I wasn’t going to go to work at all. So I sat around here paitently waiting for him to arrive. He finally got here about 12:30ish, I was looking out my peep-hole (Why’s that sound so bad and wrong?), and I saw him carrying flowers. I was like, “OMG, ::tears:: how nice.” I had to wait a second to hold them back before opening the door. He came in and handed me the flowers. I was so in shock, and a warm fuzzy feeling that I just didn’t know what to do or act. It was such a special thing for me! No one’s EVER got me flowers before. Sooooo nice. I’m almost in tears just sitting here looking at them, and reading his card…”Topher – Thanks for being you! You mean the world to me! -Drew” They’re so pretty, I wish that I had my digital camera so that I could take some pics of them! Although now he’s kinda ruined a surprise that I’ve been planning, oh well….. Maybe I’ll just do it anyways!

After that excitment was done we came into my room where we sat and talked about how our day was, etc. Made him a CD which was really amusing. Although my CD burning software wasn’t working quite right, so I had to do alot of manual labor to get it done right. Bah! But it was tons of fun. After that we made plans to go out to Reiman gardens.

Went out there and there were a bunch of old crazies working there. First the lady taking money was like “How old is your friend there” and I was like 18. And she was like, “He could pass for 17.” and then she talked some more, and I handed her the $5 that I had, she took it and we went off. We were looking at the hatching area, and Andrew bitched about her saying that he could pass for 17, and then taking the $5 cause we figured she would only make us pay the $2. Well, a couple minutes after he bitched the lady was like… “Here I only rung you up at $2.” I was like, “Ohhh, thanks” I bet she heard Drew Bear bitching.

So Reiman was TONS of fun! We walked around inside, and then went outside…. Yet another place that I wish we had our own little photographer walking around with us! So many cute little thing happened there. First we walked over to this big bell like thing, I dunno what it is, but we stood under it and kissed. SOOO cute! And so much fun! After that we walked around some more. Stopped at this covered bridge type thing and kissed and hugged. God, we’re so CUTE! I just can’t get over it! Weeeeee, so great. You really have no IDEA how great it is to have someone that I care about, and I’m not ashamed of. Someone that I can go out in public and kiss, and hug, and hold hangs, and not be embarrased. Drew and I have had more PDA’s TODAY then Adam and I did in the whole 16 months of our relationship. So great!

After the bridge, we went up to this little hill thing and sat there on a bench and held each other, and kissed some more! We sure do alot of kissing! There were breeders and I think we scared them some… Eh, who cares!

From Reiman it was off to the mall because I heard that AE and Gap got new shit in. It didn’t look as if Gap did, but AE did. So that was fun. After that we went and ate at Village Inn. Good food there, I paid! From there it was off to Best Buy, where Andrew purchased FF1&2, the originals! I’m sure he was excited. Saw Andy Beatty there too!

After that back to my place where we sat around and talked, and kissed some more. Again such great times. What I really love about kissing him is after wards leaning back, and in that second before he openes his eyes, he’s so CUTE! So Adorably cute, and then he opens his eyes, and you see those big, sweet, caring brown eyes looking back and you, and you just feel so great and this warm tingly feeling flows throughout your body, oh so great! I wish I could take a picutre from my eyes so that I could see that all the time!

One thing that we talked about at Village Inn was all the gifts that we had given Ex’s. And it really pissed me off cause I realized how much money I had spent on Adam. I mean, we’re talking TONS of fucking money. And what did I really get in return, he never did anything sweet like I did (Ie, cards on car, etc), he never got me flowers, he never bought me tickets to some show that I wanted to see, he never did SHIT! Pretty much everytime we went out for food, I paid. Arg, it pisses me off to much. I wish I could block that 16 months from memory!

Anyways, back to much happier things. At 7:30ish we had to go to campus for a group meeting. That was amusing and only lasted like 20 minutes. Good time though, Andrew looked as though he was bored as hell! lol.

After that we came back to my house and laid in my bed with Enya playing in the back ground. They should make a movie about us cause we’re so CUTE!! Damnit. so fucking cute! We kissed and talked and kissed and talked some more. It’s getting so hard to leave him! I dunno what we’re going to do if we ever can’t have a Wed together.

And speaking of, he’s not going out Friday night, which is sad. But also understandable. I was reading XY today, the relationship section of the new guide thing, and it’s like…Ok, so I can’t think of exactly what it said right now, but basically is said that in a good relationship everyone has to have a night or two out with freinds that are just thier friends. And that there should be some non-shared friends. Anyways, I’m glad that he’s going out with girl. Even though I find her funny cause she almost acts like she’s his GF or something. So crazy! But I’m sure he’ll have fun, and I’ll find something fun to do too!

So eventually it came to the point where he had to leave, and it’s so hard. Of course it always takes like 20 minutes to get him out the door, and I feel kinda bad for pushing him… Cause I feel like I am. But he has to go at some point!

Tonight shall be filled with sweet sweet dreams, and I’ll be smiling all day tomorrow!

The Memories of Adam

So I’ve started removing Adam from my life now. Got around to all the little things that he’s given me over the 16 months that we were together… Cards, picutres, pots. There really isn’t that much shit to tell you the truth.

I don’t know why that is either, perhaps it was a sign that our relationship just wasn’t right. Or maybe it was the fact that he just didn’t know how to give. I’m sure he had alot more stuff of mine then I had of his. BTW, he’s still got my class ring and I want it back.

But all in all, everything he gave me won’t even fill a small shoe box. I think that’s sad really, that those 16 months of him will fit into something so small.

I’m not even dating Andrew, and I have more pictures of him then I did of Adam. I also think that’s another sign, the sign that on my desk at work, all I had of Adam was one picture. A picture that doesn’t even feature him. He’s so small that you couldn’t even really see him. But now, I have four pictures containing Andrew on my desk. I think that’s an even stronger sign.

Another Class

So BORED! I am!

So, I got into my Managment 414 class. Now I have 15 credits next semester. Same schedule, just add an 8-9:30 AM class TR. Good times.

I’m so bored that I can tell you that 68% of posts over the last month have been private. Crazyness, eh!

I got lots of candy for Easter and I’m feeling blargy from it all. I ate the last of my Gma’s cookies, which I had promised to someone… Opps, I guess you don’t get them 😛

This week will consist of lots of time working. Must get as many hours onto this paycheck as possible. My camera ships soon, and I want to pay it off ASAP! Although, if things work out next month, I should end up with $440 in spendable monies. Good times.

I’ve been invited to a party on Friday here in Ames, don’t know if I’ll go or not. Have to see if anything else comes up.

EDIT:

So I forgot to tell this story…
A couple weekends ago when I helped Beak moved. I mentioned to my aunt that no one made salami (sp) this past year, and that I wanted some. She said that she had some and that she’d put it in with Beak’s stuff. She did. That night I forgot to take it home, so the next weekend on Saturday I got it when I was at her house, took it back to my house in PC, put it in the freezer, behind a thing of Ice Cream hoping that no one would find it. I left the next day, but forgot to get it out of the freezer.

So this past weekend (one week after I left it there), I went back to get it. And it wasn’t in the Freezer. I looked and looked and looked, and it was NO WHERE to be found. So I start bitching. My mom tells me that she saw it in the fridge, left open. Then my dad says, “I fed it to the dog because I didn’t know how long it had been in there.” But no one fessed up to putting it in the FRIDGE, or leaveing it open!

I WAS SOOOOOO FUCKING PISSED. First off, it WASN’T for them, so they shouldn’t have EVEN taken it out of the freezer, secondly whoever did take it out of the freezer SHOULDN’T have eaten it because it wasn’t they’re to EAT! Fuckers. GRRRR.

Sorry, just very annoyed about the whole thing!

Oh, and Andrew’s got me on this kick of playing old NES games now… Must get an emulator when I get home!