Category: My Life

Jan 30, 2001

So i got up this morening at 6 like i normally do, went

to take my shower and got dressed by 6:45. then i sat down read my e-mail

and such, checked the messages people left for me over night, yadda, yadda,

then about 7:45 or so i went over to the TC to get my morning milk and such.

and i got over there and found out that classes had been cancelced until 10 oclock. so i was alright, now i can’t go back to the room cause the roomie

and his gf were in here fucking like animals. so yeah i just hung out in the

TC tell 11 when my next class was supposed to start well i went there. and

the damn pro didn’t show up cause he got snowed in and no one told us or left

a damn note. so i was royaly angered cause i could’ve slept for like four

more hours, but no i was stuck no where, i didn’t have a home. and it really

sucked up here, cause the weather is soooooo bad. all the interstates are

closed, they pulled all the plows off the roads here in town last nght at

10 and they aren’t going to start plowing tell tonight after the winds die

down, so NOTHING is plowed and there’s drifts all over the place that you

gotta walk through and shit. it’s really pretty i like this weather, if i

would just have a nice fire place and someone to cuddle up with infront of

it, but when i have to go out in it and such i really hate it. cause round

here they are just all twats and can’t fucking plow shit. and the roads are

all nasty. it was actually raining yesterday morning and then it started to snow bout 4 or so and overnight we got about 13 inches and it’s been coming

down pretty heavy all day, they are saying we should get like 22 inches by

the time it’s all over. below are some pics of what it looked like yesterday.

and today. well really other then the weather nothing to bitch about. i have

a clas yet to go to at 3 i really don’t want to, but i need to cause i’m not

getting the whole debit credit thing, this book explains it all funky so i

just want him to clear it up. so yeah. ok so yeah, i just got back from what

was supposed to be a 3 oclock class, and again the pro didn’t show up, but

this time they left a note. so this is kinda cool, no classes today, but it

sucked cause the fucking roomie is such an ass. ARG. i just wanna kill him.

he SMELLS so fucking bad. nasty shit. i don’t see how he could have a gf,

yucky, i know i sures as hell wouldn’t go out with him. or anyone like him.

nasty. nasty. nasty. he’s gone at the moment, so i have the window and the

door open to air this place out some. and what’s really gross is he can’t

smell it. eww. and even when i have the door open, he’ll come in and close

it, or he’ll come in and then leave and close it, so i have to get up and

open the damn thing again, haven’t people ever heard of leave things they

way you found em? fucking jerks. ya know i think i’m going to have to come

up with a new way to do this. the files are getting a bit to big.

Jan 29, 2001

it’s snowing again, it’s been raining all morning and

now it’s snowing, yeah, rain and snow. great weather conditions, we’re suposed

to get lik 13 inches tonight, yippy fun. well not much has been happening

today, or really yesterday for that matter. it’s monday, nothing ever happens

on mondays. or weds, or fridays, cause i only have one class those days, but

i guess it’s all good, i have lots of free time, i should get a job ya know,

but there’s nothing good in this town, it’s all c-store work. and i’ve done

more then my fair share of it. you would think that a college that’s ranked

#9 in the counrty as one of th most wired would have higher tech companies

in close range, but no it’s all in SF an hour away, and the cost of driving there doesn’t really help to get a job there. cause it’s 55 miles there and

55 miles back. and at 80-85 miles an hour, that burns alor of gas. and with

the prices they are round here at 1.60 and up, it can really put a hole in

your pocket. o well, i think i can make it tell like summer before i HAVE

to get a job. i still haven’t herad anything back from that offer in philly,

i would really love to get it. that’s the first scout camp in the nation.

it would be tons of fun to work there. but then chris k. my moss from last

summer has been bothering me to come work there all summer this year. but

the thing is is that pete is the camp director and he’s a total ass. alot

of the employees that worked for him last year WON’T go back to work for him.

they even went so far as to send me an app without asking me, i’m sure kaye

told them to, but still. i really don’t want to work in Iowa this summer,

i don’t want to live in iowa or the midwest this summer, i just want out of

this part of the country. i was going to do accouting today, but then i started

reading it and got bored, so maybe i’ll do it tomorrow just before i go to

class. lol. hope it’s not to hard. FUCK, the power just went off, i hope that

doesn’t keep up. hehe, luckly i have battery backup, but that means that theservers

are all down now, cause they don’t. the dumb fuckers. again you would think

that the #9 most wired college would have batteries on thier servers. o well

guess they don’t. i’ll have to wait a bit now to get this posted. i’ve been

really tired lately. i don’t know what’sup. i’ve been getting enough sleep,

and not too much. hmm, o well. it will go away, that’s my theory. lol. i’m

going to shut down for bit, the power keeps going in and out. i’ll upload

this once i getback.

Jan 28, 2001

danny and i talked for quite a while last night it was

really nice, he’s got such a great voice, but he talks so soft sometimes it

hard to understand what he says, i did find out one thing he’s got a dog named

tyson (update 01-28-01: alright so i can’t here, he said dysson), lol. what

a cute name, lol. well not much other shit going on round here, it’s wed,

nothing ever happens on Wed. so i’m going to go do some HW now. bubye.

Jan 28, 2001

ya know, usually i don’t think when i write these. i

just sit down and type what’s on my mind, just what ever my fingers say. But

yesterday, danny was reading these. and i went back and started readig some

of them. ya know i think i obses a bit much, don’t i? well i just wanted to

write this and say i’m sorry if i ever offend or scare anyone here. it’s just

what’s on my mind. danny i truly do love you, even though it’s not in a way

that most peope love, the fact i can’t see you, or have enver seen a picture

of you. but i love who you are. your voice, your personality, everything i

know so far about you. but my life is messed up i guess, i’ve been depressed

alot of my life, ya know, most of my friends from back home would know i used

to be really athletic, i was in about every sport when i was younger. but

something happened when i was 12, and just dropped everything my grades slipped,

the fun in my life, it all just left. i hate my life. Something else though.

when i was younger i used to spend most of the summer out side withouta shirt

on, no suntan lotion, i used to get really nice tans, but i haven’t had a

good tan for years now, because i rarly take my shirt off when i’m out side.

The reason is becuase i have three very large moles on my back, one of them

is three different colors. i think it might be skin cancer. and it’s not just

on my back i have oddly shaped moles all over my arms ad stuff too. they have

been there for a coupleyears now. and i’ve just never really cared what they

were. i just leave them alone, and hope to god that they aren’t cancer. i’ve

never had a doctor look at them, my PU’s have never seen them, no one knows they are there, but me. that’s why i always go swimming late at night, that’s

why i haven’t been in the mitigwa pool since the summer of ’96. I’ve never

really cared if i die from them, because my life has been nothing to me so

far. it’s been shitty, i hated my life in HS and so far i’ve hated my life

in college. although it is a bit better.

Jan 23, 2001

B-day’s suck, they really really do suck, you know that.

i really do hate b-days. for those that didn’t know yesterday was my b-day.

asshole people. i hate b-days, my grandma remembered, my aunt’s and cousing

remembered, well most of them. my parents, my dad remembered, he sent me a

package, my mom, nope, she forgot, my mom’s side of the family, nope they

all forgot to. assholes. i know i’m not any better, but yeah, i at least call

and say happy b-day and shit. no one called me, sent me anything, bastards,

i hate b-days, i just wish i had someone here to sit and lay my head on thier

chest and just cry. speaking o such a person, danny did remember, we talked

for a while last night. that was nice. well i’m still pissed about b-day’s

so i’m leaving now.