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Welcome… And Busy!

(Go read the TWO posts also from today below!!!!)

“life, n.: A whim of several billion cells to be you for a while.”

Wow, so as you can tell I’ve been VERY busy today!

First, I would like to welcome everyone to the new and improved CjBOnline.org. Hopefully everything is working for you right now, however there may be a few problems here and there and I ask that you use the contact me link to the left to contact me and tell me about any problems. Or you can leave a comment. I do know that the poems and short story pages are not working and I am working on getting that to work properly. There seems to be an inclusion problem with those. I dunno what it is.

Secondly, I’ve been VERY busy with my PHIL paper today. I got to work about 7:30 and worked on it from then (with a few interuptions) tell the time I left to go my class. Went there, and did class stuff. He covered my topic second, so that was before the break. So I left after that. Also found out that he’s dropping the lowest quiz grade, and he didn’t have one today, so that’s good. I also figured out that I can get 3 of the 30 points on my paper and still pass the class with a C. However, if I continue getting the averages that I have been getting on other things, I’ll end up with a B in the class. The highest I can get (That is if I get a 30 our of 30 on the paper) would be a B+ (With an 86%, the cut off). So I’m sitting good it looks like!

Last night was GREAT. I left class early and met up with Andrew about 2ish, we hung out and played with his computer some. That was tons of fun. Although his mom REALLY annoys me. We were sitting on his bed, hugging. And she walks by and goes “Stop it.” It’s like, HELLO, he’s 18 years old, I think he can sit on his bed with his BF if he damn well pleases! She’s so wierd. And then we talked about how crazy she is. I guess she wants him to fly out to Cali to register. I’m like, ok… She’s bitching because she can’t afford the $500 for your computer, and she’s bitching because she can’t afford your college, but she wants you to FLY out there, that’s $300 for a ticket there and back, plus the hotel for two days min (Another $200 or so), and then plus food, etc. For something that you can easily do over the phone in an hour or so! What afucking crazy!

I do guess though one thing nice is that she told Andrew how she thinks that I treat him better then his other bf’s. So that was a nice thing to say I guess. Although she doesn’t really seem to show any niceness towards me. Whatever.

Also talked about my crazy scheme and I guess it’s been pre-oked. Just have to wait now for the time for it to happen, and then make sure it’s oked oked. We’ll see how that goes. And if I have the money for it. lol.

After all that we went out to meet up with Dustin and Michael to eat supper. WE got there early so we walked around the Wells Fargo Pond thing which was tons of fun! After that we were hot, so we went to Walgreens and hung out for a while. From there to Biaggi’s. The food was SUPER GREAT! I had Rigatoni alla Toscana and it was SOOOO good. I was a bit nervous about the roasted peppers, but I ate them and they were VERY VERY good. I can’t tell you how good the food was. I just wished that I could have ate more. But I was so full from the bread that we ate!

After that we went to a movie, and it was an alright movie, although not the best one ever. I don’t even remember the name of it now. There were some North Polkianites there. Crazyness. Andrew seemed a little annoyed for parts of the movie, but I don’t know why.

From the movie we were going to go get IceCream, but I had to get back to Ames, so we just broke. Andrew drove back to his house and we stood outside talking and kissing for 30 minutes. I finall left and got gas and then drove back to Ames.

As I was getting off the interstate there’s two lanes, one to go left, one to go right… Well I was in the lane to go right, and there was this other car in the one to go left. So I turn right, and this other car just suddenly turns and goes the same way that I’m going. I didn’t really think anything of it cause, you know, maybe he realized that he was going the wrong way. So I start driving, and I’m weaving in and out of traffic, because eveyrone’s driving UBER slow, and I was in a hurry to get home. And this car that turned was just staying RIGHT on my ass! I by now I was like, what the hell. So I get to my street and by now I’m in the left lane, but this other car was in the right lane. So I get into the left turning lane, and turn and this other car darts across the lanes and turns down my road. So I’m all like, “What’d I do to this guy??” So I’m drving and I turn into my apartments. He doesn’t turn so I’m like, alright, he must have just missed two of his turns or something, so I get my stuff and start walking into my apartment area. And this car pulls up next to me, and it’s the guy that had been following me…He’s like, “Hey, do you know La Boheme is?” And I’m like, “Nope. but I’ve heard of it.” And then he talks some more and tells me that he’s here from MN to meet somebody that he knows online, and he’s supposed to meet them there for a drag show. And then he’s like, “Yeah, I saw your sticker and followed you home.” What a crazy!

This weekend is going to be TONS of fun, and you can expect a VERY LONG update about it all Sunday/Monday. I’d bet more towards Monday, because I have a feeling that we’ll be getting back into town late Sunday night. I have a lot of things to do on Saturday morning as well before we leave. So I have to get all those done. And I guess the G&G have physical labor for me to do once we get there. I dunno what it is, but I bet it won’t be anything too bad. But I know that’s why I offered to go there, so we’ll see. My Grandpa hasn’t been doing well lately apparently, so I hope that he doesn’t mow the yard before I get there, cause I want to do that for him.

Anyways, I also thourghly suggest that everyone go read the book “Humanity” by Johnathan Glover. Very good book…

And I leave you with a quote…

“So long as the past and the present are outside one another, knowledge of the past is not of much use in the present. But suppose the past lives on in the present; suppose, though encapsulted in it, and at first sight hidden beneath the present’s contraditory and more prominent features, it is still alive and active; then the historian may very well be related to the non-historian as the trained woodsman is to the ignorant traveller.”

“The First World War was alive at Hiroshima.”

Phelps’ sheep have been led astray

When I found out that Pastor Fred Phelps’ minions from Westboro Baptist Church were coming to Des Moines again to protest the bestowing of the Matthew Shepard scholarship on a Des Moines high school graduate, I felt that I should go and actually meet these people who have dedicated their lives to spewing monstrous amounts of propaganda on street corners throughout America.

However, it was very hard for me to do this. The way Phelps and his flock have so obviously misappropriated what the Bible says and attempted to twist God’s true nature into something hateful has never sat well with me.

But I went. At 6:30 a.m., while rain drizzled down from a cold, gray sky, I stood watching six of Phelps’ followers hold up brightly colored signs that proclaimed “God hates fags,” and “It’s the fags, stupid.” The truth was, I was afraid of them; I had no idea what to expect. I had always expected those who advocate the death of entire groups of people based on their so-called “shortcomings” to look evil, or at least a little bit like Hitler.

The problem was they didn’t look evil at all. They looked like me.

Three girls of approximately my age were standing in front of me — college girls that should have been back at school in Kansas hanging out with their friends or studying, not far from their home and rabid with hate. It made me want to cry.

It took me some time, but I worked up the nerve to try and talk with them. At first, the girls were reluctant to speak, but as I was quite nervous myself and they saw I was not going to attack them, they started to talk.

“It’s not a very long drive,” one of the girls told me. “Only four and a half hours.” I thought that was pretty far to come for a few half-hour protests, but it wasn’t my parade.

“No, we don’t get paid to do this. We spend our own money to come and protest,” she said. That fact completely dumbfounded me, because, as I came to find out later, some of the members of the Westboro congregation go out to multiple protest sites a month, all over the country. Phelps must be a rich man — he has convinced other people to do his dirty work on their own time and pay for it out of their own pocketbooks.

“There is no better thing to devote our time to because the homosexuals have put their agenda into the forefront of society. They are flaunting their sin. You don’t see divorce parades or adultery parades,” another girl said. Every time you turn on the television or watch a movie these days, it’s a veritable barrage of sex outside of marriage, divorce and adultery. Watch some Maury Povich or Ricki Lake. If that’s not a parade, I don’t know what is.

I was astounded at the comparative youthfulness of the crowd : there was a high school student and a woman with her 14-year-old son there as well. For a mother to bring her son with her to enforce a message of hate and possibly even put him in harm’s way is absolutely crazy.

There is something wrong with the reasoning of religious leaders like Phelps when they believe they can and should convince anyone, not to mention the young people I saw that day, to devote their lives to preaching a “gospel” they have twisted to their own uses.

An overarching theme that arises from the Bible is love the sinner, but hate the sin. According to the Bible, homosexuality is a sin, therefore it can be treated accordingly under the confines of Christianity. But condemning sin and condemning the people who commit sin are two completely different things, and it seems Phelps and his crew have yet to learn that lesson.

Contrary to what Phelps would like us to believe, God does not hate homosexuals. God doesn’t hate anyone. God loves every person ever created; we are all God’s children.

Christians are urged as well never to hate their fellow man.

The Bible (1 John 4:20-21), says “If anyone says, ‘I love God,’ yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. And He has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother.”

On yet another sign I saw, they use the Bible to advocate the “death penalty for fags.” However, God is our only judge. The Bible (Matthew 7:1-2) explicitly says, “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the same measure you use, it will be measured to you.”

Leviticus 20:13 may say that men who lie with other men should be put to death, but the Bible also says that women have no place in the church. I guess some Biblical customs die hard.

There are many more issues to address, but most of all I care about these people that Phelps has sucked in. All the people I talked to could spout the same ideas, facts and Bible verses, but not one could seem to see the inherent fallacies of their cult-like mantra.

These people deserve our compassion, not our scorn

That was written by Alicia Ebaugh from the ISU Daily, here’s the reply by the Phelps clan….

Alicia Ebaugh’s column about our wonderful picket of the fag parade (a pitiful turn out by the fags, I must note) is a stark illustration of the results of systematically lying to an entire generation about eternity.

This young lady believes life is about her views, her feelings and what she wants. In fact, it’s about God and what He wants, and the duty of all mankind to study the scriptures and to fear God and keep his commandments. That idea is just “crazy” to young Alicia, let alone the thought someone would expend their own resources (time, energy and money) publishing this message.

You have a definition problem. It is true that we are to love our brothers. The elect of God have a benevolent love for their fellow man, which is why they warn them to flee the wrath to come.

If, as we say, and as every human is created to intuitively understand, there is a God, there is a real place called hell, and eternity is forever, where do you find anything loving when false prophets and other responsible adults teach children things that will land them in hell?

Where is the love in encouraging a lifestyle that by all reports is extraordinarily harmful to the body, mind, heart and soul — and will cost you eternal punishment?

That’s not love Alicia; that’s hate. And it’s the most selfish kind of hate, because people promote these lies so they can feel OK about their own sin.

I would venture a guess that we are the first people you’ve ever met who truly love you.

If you are going to present yourself as a Bible scholar, you should tell the truth about the Bible. The scriptures don’t say “women have no place in the church.” Rather, the New Testament is plain on the requirement that women remain silent during the worship service and not pretend to be preachers. They are supposed to be present, singing the hymns, listening and learning, and fully engaged otherwise in the ministering to the saints and publishing the word of truth.

That’s God’s standard, and there are a lot of good reasons for it enunciated in these passages. You hate this standard as much as you hate the standard against anal copulation.

That’s because you hate God.

Meanwhile, you testify in your column to the good information the young people on that picket line kindly gave you.

You don’t refute the points they made: that the media is awash in promoting this filth and that God doesn’t love an unrepentant proud sinner. Instead, you fill up space with wallowing-will-worship that adds nothing to the discussion and merely further deludes your readers. All fluff; no stuff.

The good news is that this qualifies you to be a card-carrying member of the American media!

A final word about judgment. If you truly believed you shouldn’t judge, you would have never written your editorial. Because it’s nothing but a loosely-knit, weakly-reasoned judgment against us.

If you carefully consider the very words you quoted, you will see that it says if you set up a standard by which you judge, you will be held to that standard.

Alicia, you set up the Great Non-Judgment Standard, and measured against that standard, you failed! That makes you nothing more than another garden variety big, fat hypocrite!

Margie J. Phelps
Topeka, KS

Fianally!

FINALLY!

Instead of eating and customizing my comp (things i SHOULD be doing) heres an update just for YOU.

So I totally missed Chris a ton on the trip, I even cried a few nights 🙁

But Sunday finally came and even though the plane rides took forever, I finally got off. Chris was there (I assumed he would be, then I insinuated that I wanted him to be) and it was soooooo great to see him again! We hugged and kissed in front of everyone and he met Danielle and Jessie and Danielle Passed him.

So we left and hung out and we did random shit at my house, I showed him the movie and gave him his souvneir from Jamaica. Which I doubt he will ever actually wear but eh, I thought it was a cute shirt. Mother said I could stay at his apt. that night, so we trekked up there,and the drive sucked b/c I was uber tired.

Well we got there and I read all his updates and they were reallytouching and then we just talked about our weeks and randomness. Talked a bit about how he is on meds and it worries me, but he assured me there is nothing to worry about. Though I guess he has already stopped taking them, which makes me happy, cause now he can orgasm! Teehee just kidding, I’d rather him not be able to orgasm than be depressed.

We also talked about the potentiality of him coming to NJ/LA when I leave for school. It was really nice of him to put thought into it.

Quick note on him putting thought into things. He has the weather for Orange up on his computer, and he bought OJ, and it was Tropicana and he was like “Isn’t that the kind you like?” It was just really sweet of him to do things like that. Ok maybe I’m just stupid.

Anyways, so I haven’t brought the idea up to mother yet, and I’m not quite sure how she will take it. But hopefully things pan out, it would be really nice to have him to support me when I go out there, so I don’t feel so alone and scared.

He also called me sunburndized or something like that, it was cute.

So I skipped work the next day and we just hung out all day, except for a several hour span where he went to class. I snooped a bit (not much) and then watched TV, got ready, and read some of Kevin. I fell asleep on the couch and was very confused when he came in and woke me up. For some reason I thought I was in my own apt. and I was like how the hell did you get in? Very crazy.

Got some movies (Dogma and Chicken Run) Both amusing, though I’ll have to say Chris found Chicken Run more amusing than I did. Still funny though, he’s so cute!

Really really hard to leave that night, after being away from him for so long I just didn’t want to go. Eventually forced myself away and drove home.
Tuesday I didn’t even get to talk to him, though he called me like a second and a half after I turned my phone off!

Wednesday I went up there and we had another great day. The majority of it was spent making out/fooling around. He showered and was very nicely repaid for it in the form of rimmy/fingering goodness. My opinion is that he enjoyed it even though he didn’t get to cum, but he seemed ok with that. I had another crazy shooting orgasm.

I was starving from all the messing around, so we got dinner at Hickory Park b/c I was totally craving a Patty Melt and it was soooooo good!
Went back to his house, layed around in bed, apparently I said some things that scared him but I don’t know what they were and neither does he.
He indicates that he doesn’t believe me when I say that he’s the best b/f I’ve ever had. I don’t quite know what else I can do to prove it to him, I guess if he doesn’t want to believe me, then he won’t. But it’s the truth.

Hard again to leave, even harder for CHris b/c he couldn’t stop fondling my ass. I’m glad that he enjoyed my new underwear so much, I pretty much bought it to tease/seduce him and I think it works pretty well.

Anyways, not much else… I am veryglad to be home and very happy to be seeing my Topher again! It was totally hard to be without him but now we are back together and have 3 more weeks before I have to go away again! But this time, I’ll have access to a phone, so it’ll be tons better!

That’s about it for now

BREAK!

He’s Back!

Ok, well I?ve been meaning to write this entry for quite some time? Well ever since Andrew got back from the cruise.

Quite a bit has happened since then. Sunday night he spent the night and we had a good time catching up about what had been going on with each other the last week, etc. Also got in some making out and etc. lol. It was such a great night sleeping with him again!

We also talked about my crazy scheme, and he seemed all right with it. Hopefully I didn?t scare him too much, but I think that it would be a nice thing to do. And it would also be fun for me to get a vacation, and to see where he grew up. But it seems like that part of the trip might not happen. Which is fine, because it is just a crazy scheme right now, and it?s all up to him! I?m just trying to be a nice bf and see him off to college. Other topics were also brought up, but I don?t really remember all of them. He claims that I withhold information from him, which I don?t try to do.

After out little talk and the fun times we went to bed. It was late, but I don?t have any idea what time. Lol

Monday morning we got up and since I hadn?t cum the night before, he tried making me cum, but that still didn?t work. I?m really surprised at how fast the drugs kicked in, in regards to their side effects. Considering that the actual effects of the drugs usually don?t kick in tell a few weeks after you start taking them. It?s very annoying really the fact that I can?t cum when he tries so hard. And it feels so good for me! I?m sure that if I weren?t on the drugs I probably would have cum like 5 times in the last 4 days! Lol. And it?s definitely not because of anything that he?s doing! Oh man, let me tell you! Lol.

Anyways, his giving me a blowjob led to him getting a semi-rimmy. Perhaps this weekend he?ll get another real rimmy. Lol. Anyways, he came again! All over me this time. Very hot, :-P.

After that we got up and I made breakfast, pancakes. I got sick while making the first one; so I had to turn it off and go sit in the bathroom for a while. I don?t know what came over me. But I got really light headed and hot and just felt like I was going to through up. It was very disturbing. After that little spout was over, I went back to cooking, and made us both two pancakes. I could only eat like half of mine because I got sick again. I really don?t know what was coming over me that day.

We watched Jerry and some other shows. Then I left and went to class. I felt really bad leaving him there while I was in class, but I?m sure that he found something to do! When I got to class I opened my notebook to find a really cute note from him and it made me smile SOOO big! He?s so sweet with cute little things like that!

That had to have been the LONGEST class ever! The 2 hours usually just FLY by, but Monday?s class went soooo SLOW!

After class I of course missed the first bus, so I had to wait around for the second bus, I was like, COMON! I want to go see my Drew Bear! Finally it got here and I rode it home. Got back at like 2:30 and he was sleeping. So I walked in and he was so confused about what was going on, and got me very confused. But I guess he had a good time while I was away. After that we talked about Kevin, and then went and got movies. Both movies were very good.

He insisted on lying in back, which is fine. But I?m always so nervous about my fat hanging out with his arms around me. I guess I?m just very self-consciousness with things like that. Although I will have to say that lately I have been becoming happy with the way that I look. When I look in a mirror, I see a happier looking me. I?d still like to loose some weight, but I am starting to like the way that I look. I?m still scared though that whenever I?m shirtless around him, he?s going to one day look at me and say, ?Why am I dating this tub of lard!??

Well, after the movies it was getting late, so he made himself some supper and again I felt a little light headed. So I sat on the couch while he did that. After he ate supper we just laid around and talked some more. Such good times.

He left late that night, but I don?t remember what time. It?s so good to have him back! I am once again very happy!

Ok, finally onto Wednesday. He came up and got here about 2ish. Wearing something that was very surprising for me to see him wearing. But it was cute! (When isn?t he cute looking!) We sat on the couch talking about what we had been up to that day and how my test went and what the bad news that Court had called about Monday night was. After that we made out for like 2 and a half hours. Which was uber great, and I got another rimmy, and he got another semi-rimmy. Lol. He was wearing the CUTEST fucking underwear I?ve ever seen! Rarrrrr times a million! So hot! He came and again, I couldn?t cum. It was so embarrassing and I always feel so bad, and then I know that he feels bad, so I feel even worse. And it?s just a vicious cycle.

After that we went out to eat and he paid, thanks Drew, I owe you!

From eating back to my place where we did more lying around. This time we just talked about things. A TON of random stuff was brought up, and I told him about fucking and getting fucked and fingering and enemas and lots of other sexual things. And we also tried to plan our trip, but it was too dark to see the calendar by that time. So we just said fuck it.

He stripped and I had my shirt off. Eventually I also took off my pants, and he took off his shirt. Rarr times a million again at my sex boy! Lol.

We also talked about how most of his other relationships have involved lots of time talking on the phone and how ours hasn?t. I couldn?t really tell if he felt that as a good thing or a bad. I mean I think that we have plenty of time talking. Of course I would always like more, but well he just said that he?s always talked a lot on the phone with other bf?s and the like.

There were a lot of other things that he said that kind of scared me, but of course now I can?t really remember them.

I hope that he?s as happy with this relationship as I am. I guess he says that he is, because he claims that I?m the best bf he?s ever had. But I bet he?s used that line before :-P. I?m always so afraid.

Welcome Back, Kotter!

The last couple days have been great!

Andrew got back about 4:30ish. I picked him up for the airport and we drove him back to his house. Talked with Sue some, and then we watched the video from the cruise… So amusing! lol.

After that we drove back to Ames and hung out up here for the night. I don’t remember exactly what we did, but just pretty much caught up on what was going on. Heard all the stories from the cruise and the like.

Went to bed late, but I slept well. We got up about 8:30ish and made breakfast. After that we just hung out and watched the Jerry Springer show… What a mess! After that was over I headed out to class and left Andrew at my apartment.

Class was good, although it was mostly a waste of time. We have a test tomorrow, so I’m going to be studying for that most of the night tonight. I’m not sure how hard it’ll be. Hopefully not too bad!

After class back to my place, we rented movies. Dogma and Chicken Run. Both really good. After the movies, made supper and then laid around having a good time.

Andrew left about 10ish, it was sad to see him go, but he’ll be back Wed, YAY! I’m very glad that he’s back now!

Today’s been more class and then work. I got a ton of graphical stuff done, and I’m almost happy with the way it looks, just have to decide on a color scheme, and then the positioning of a few items then it’s all done! YAY!

Sorry for the short update, but I want to go home now. Laters!