Spearding Rumors

Well this is going to be a bit of a short update, because I just don’t have the time to write a really long one like I had planned.

This weekend has sure had it’s ups and downs that’s for sure. Andrew and I have been fighting for a while about lots of random shit and thankfully I think we got it all taken care of this weekend. So everything seems to be good again. 🙂

Friday night Jayson came up and we hung out and watched movies. We also talked about his sex life, and stuff and I know that he was lying about a few things. Now I’m a bit scared that he might go and spread rumors that we did something. Whatever though, I’m only going to be here a few more months (158 Days).

Oh, speaking of counting down… There’s LESS THEN 20 DAYS TO MY TRIP TO MERIDA!!! YAY!

Spent Saturday and Sunday at home, reading. Though I did go to the mall and buy some underwear and a new t-shirt, and also took my jacket in to be fitted. So that was exciting. I kinda wanted to go out saturday night, but not really all at the same time. So I didn’t make any ambitious effort to call anyone. So I just stayed home and watched movies and the like. We had HBO/etc for the weekend. Good times!

Sunday I went and picked up the PU’s from the airport. And then came back to my place late last night.

Now I’m at work.

Lates all.

Not Much Changed

Wow, so not much has changed since last year at this time. We went to the Mr. Gay Iowa thing again at the garden, #1 was WAY hot and Andrew and I wanted to take him home. The sluts were there, being sluty, though the group was larger this year then last.

Lots of hanging out this weekend, it was really good times. We went Ice Skating, and found the under 16 (IE, not old enough to drive) white trash. Went home nad sat around, well actually we went right to bed.

Sunday we got up, did laundry and watched TV, then went out to Half-Priced books and had a good time there. I found two books that I really wanted to buy, but didn’t because I shouldn’t be buying things like that right now. After that we met up with Dustin at the mall and I got a calendar, since no one bought me one this year. From the mall we went to Hy-Vee and ate, then off to JJ’s to hang out and then the gay iowa thing. It was good times… Again, Number one can come home with us!

Friday we spent the night home, watched a movie, or was that Saturday, I don’t really remember. Anyways, we didn’t really do much. Andrew had a break down this weekend though, and that was sad. Mucho sad.

Oh, also on Friday I got a job offer… But it’s only for a weekend of work. I’m going to do it though. Cause it’s $240 for setting up computers, good times. Now I just have to get ahold of the guy again.

Speaking of jobs, I’ve now applied to 66 jobs and sent out 16 cold letters (Mostly to schools).

Today school starts. I’m VERY nervous about it all. It’s my last semester… ::shakes:: Today I only have two classes though, so that’ll be good.

Today’s also Andrew’s B-day! Happy B-day to him! We are going to Hickory Park with people tonight to celebrate. It’ll be good times.

I’m out. Laters all.

3 Days, 12 Hours

So this weekend has consisted of over 24 hours worth of driving, over 1200 miles on my car, a 40 hour stretch of not sleeping, but best of all…

3 days and 12 hours of getting to see my Drew Bear again!!

Thursday, I got up about 6:30 AM, and that began 40 hours of being awake, went to my first two classes and then decided to skip the next one, so I headed home for the afternoon to sit around and attempt to nap some. Couldn’t nap, so I sat ar my computer and played with Karamba. Got it working, and it’s tons of fun. Though it seems to crash every couple hours. Very annoying. I’ll have to look into that more some other time.

As I was sitting around, I heard a knock on my door and was like, “Who the hell is that”…. So I went and answered it, and it was FLOWERS from my Drew Bear. Very exciting.

About 3, I headed back to campus for my last class, because the CEO of Hy-Vee was supposed to be there to speak, but for some reason he wasn’t. Very annoying.

From class it was back to my place, where I attempted to nap agagin. Though that didn’t work out too well. I spent most of the night watching TV, and stupid reality shit. Grr at that.

Started getting ready to leave about 10:30 that night, and was out the door at 11. I had brought along the Dell from work, so that I could have live navagation, and most of all, so that once we got into Chicago, we could easily find our way around, and find a place to eat when we got there at 5 am the next morning. I had had it plugged in all day long, to charge, but when I went to start it up, it only lasted about 10 minutes. So I was driving blind all the way to chicago….

Luckily I stopped at a C-store and there was a nice man there, who let me plug in the computer and get my directions to the airport. Which consistes of only three things.. I-80E to I-55N, then get off at Exit 286. So it was way easy to find. Traffic once I got into Chicago was amazingly bad for being 4:30 in the morning, but not NEAR as horrible as it was leaving Monday night. Got to the airport with just enough time to go potty before Andrew arrived.

I was very excited to see him, and as soon as I saw him pratically running towards me, my heart started beating really hard. We hugged and kissed there in the Airport and then went to try and find a place to eat. We couldn’t find anything close by (as in Perkins/Village-Inn), so decided to go drive around Chicago and see what we could find. Kinda got a bit lost, but it wasn’t too bad, found a hotel in downtownish Chicago, and went in and asked the lady at the desk where a good place for breakfast was… And also one that was OPEN at 6:30 in the morning.

She sent us to Nookies, which wasn’t the greatest… It was some Russian woman running it, and she was fairly rude to us. But only us, because she was very nice to everyone else that came in. Bitch. We got breakfast and then hung out there talking for about an hour. After that headed out to try and find out way back to the Aquarium.

Got really lost this time, and had no idea where we were. Though we did get to see some nice areas of the city, so that was fun. Chicago is really pretty. I’d like to live there for a bit. Probably not an extensive amount of time though. Finally found our way back to Lake Shore Drive, but couldn’t for the life of us figure out how the hell you were supposed to turn ONTO the street. Very crazy! Finally figured it out, but we were going the wrong way… Eventually got turned around and got to the aquarium, just as it was opening.

It cost $9 to park. 🙁 and $21 to get in. It was nice, though not worth the $21. I think just getting the City pass, if we had had time, would have been much more worth it though. I think we made it worth it though… If you know what I mean 😉

It was about noon when we broke from there and started the trek back home. That didn’t seem to take as long as the drive there, probably because I had someone’s hand to hold onto, and someone to talk with! 😀

Stopped a few times on the way back, nothing too exciting though. Got back to Ames and hung out at my apartment for just a few minutes then headed to Hickory Park. The wait was really long, so we all decided to go somewhere else. That was a bad idea. Should have just stayed there and waited. EVentually we all decided on Perkins, after vetoing Mexican and Pizza.

It seriously took like 40 minutes just to get our food at Perkins, Very annoying and our waiter was stupid. I swear. What is it with people!

After supper we went back to my place and just hung out for a while. Good times there. Then everyone broke and Andrew and I went to bed… Thus ending 40 hours of awakness.

Sautrday morning we got up, and hung out at my place, ate breakfast and then went to the Science center. It was pretty fun, much smaller then I remember. But still cool. It was worth the $5.50.

From there it was to the mall. Which has just lost all appeal to me. It’s just not as fun anymore to go there. Whatever, I guess that’s probably a good thing. Everything is just always the same, no matter how long you wait inbetween visits, it all seems to be the same everytime. Whatever.

Mall to Andrew’s where we hung out for a bit. I stole some more of thier old food, which is still amazingly good. lol. We didn’t really do much there, but get a movie and a few other things for him. It’s crazy that the house still looks the same as it did when they all left. lol. Well with the addition of rings in the toliets, and spider webs everywhere.

We left his house about 1:40 and I took him over to Wells Fargo, Dropped him off and then went back home. Hung out there and made cookies while he ate lunch with Ann H, and Court.

Andrew and Court came back to my place about 4:30 or so. Hung out for a bit and then Court left. Andrew and I watched the Simpsons, which was fun. I always enjoy them. About 6:30 or so, we went upstairs and made dinner, then headed out to downtown.

Got caught up on all the gossip, I really want to go to the strip club now, just to laugh at all the sluts… Apparetnly everyone in DM sleeps with EVERYONE else. And James Hamilton has had sex with like everyone in the state. What a whore.

Hung out there for a bit, then went back to my place. Hot tubbed and then back to Ames, where we both crashed about as soon as we set foot in the door.

Sunday we got up, ate a quick breakfast then I fixed Andrew’s PS emulator. He said I could have whatever I wanted for getting it fixed, but I never did… 🙁 Oh well. Once we were done with that, we headed over to my Aunts house.

The small child was there, and Andrew was so cute playing with it. He’s always really cute with kids, though he always says he doesn’t want any, and that he hates them.

We broke from there about 2ish, and came back to campus cause I wanted to go to the Design thing and then the Art Museum here. The Design thing was closed, and the Art thing wasn’t as exciting as I had hoped.

From there we went and rented a movie. I wanted something that was exciting/funny. He decided on “The Ring”. It was a very scary movie, though not as scary as he made it out to be. I really wouldn’t want to see it again.

Bryce and Jamie came over during that, once it was done, I made dinner. We all ate, then they broke quickly after that. Andrew and I watched the Simpsons, and then hung around my place for the rest of the night. Including a cry fest.

Monday morning, we got up. I really wanted him to come to my class with me, but we got up just as I heard the last bus that went to campus, so missed it. Opps.

Hung out for a while, got ready to go, ate breakfast. Watched Springer. Very amusing, two 19 year olds sleeping with a 50 something, who had REALLY long grey hair and only two teeth. It was supper gross. But funny all at the same time.

Once he was over, we broke and drove back to Chicago. Traffic was fairly annoying on the way there, a bit more construction then there was on Friday. Over all not too bad of a drive. We went into the airport and just sat around for about 20 minutes talking and saying goodbye. It’s always very sad to see him go again. It really doesn’t get any easier each time.

Around came 5:12pm, and he walked down the security lane, and I turned and walked to the parking garage. Thus ending 3 days and 12 hours of time together. And starting 40 days until we get to see each other again.

I left, crying and I’m sure the parking attendant thought I was crazy. Went out and turned the wrong way and in turning around no one would let me back into traffic. It was all horrible. Once I was finally out of Chicago which took tell 6pm, it rained the WHOLE way back to Des Moines. And I’m talking RAIN! Not just sprinkles, or rain, but RAIN RAIN RAIN!

Very annoying. Though I managed to average between 75-80mph the whole way back. I walked in my door right at 11pm. Called Andrew to say night, talked to him for a couple minutes and then went to bed.

Amazingly the hardest thing isn’t leaving him at the airport when he leaves, it’s coming back to an Empty house, and an empty bed after he leaves. I of course laid there in my empty bed and cried to sleep.

After only about 6 hours of sleep, my alarm went off and I had to get up and go to class. I was half asleep in class this morning. Good thing I was at least able to keep my eyes open, because he’s a big stickler about people sleeping in his class. You know the ones, that come up and ask you a question when they see that you are sleeping. Very annoying.

After that class I went to my second one, where I did sleep through most of it. From there I went and read my e-mail in Carver. I was just reading this one about a meeting that I have today from 12-1pm when the Fire alarms went off.

So I had to evacuate, and since I hadn’t fully read the e-mail. I headed to Durham to see what it was all about.

It was an e-mail about the Yucatan trip. So I went there at noon, and she talked and talked and talked about the trip, and then the last thing she did, she handed out letters that says, “Congradulations….” So YAY! I get to go to Mexico over spring break.

I’m WAY excited about that. And there’s a Gaysian in the group, so at least there’s family going! Plus there’s a guy that I know is going too, so it should be good.

Well, that’s about all for today.

Laters all!

Major Annoyances

So there have been some major annoyances lately on both my part and Andrews part, and it’s made me very sad. :'( And also very very annoyed all at the same time.

I guess we’ll start with today, we talked for a bit, then he went to Brunch.

My little client thing can’t tell when people have away messages up or not, so after a while. I IMed me again, just to say hi and that I had 14 pages done. I figured he was still at brunch since he hadn’t IMed me when he got back.

Well I sat there, and never got an auto-responce, but eventually he DID IM me back. This really annoyed me, for some stupid reason. I guess mostly because he was there, without an away message up, which I would assume means he’s talking to someone else, but he never IMed me to say. “Hey, I’m back from brunch, going to work on my paper now, but just wanted to say HI” or something like that. It just REALLY annoyed me.

Then of course since he didn’t understand why I was upset, he got all upset with me, and didn’t even try and understand it, which really upset me even more, because when I do something stupid that he finds upsetting. I always ask him what’s wrong, and try to understand where he’s coming from and appolize for doing it. And then try and CHANGE what I did wrong.

His responce to my being annoyed… “Fine then be annoyed” or something along those lines. Didn’t even fucking try and talk to me about it. And that just hurt.

So we got into it, and I got even more annoyed. Finally I beleive that it ended. Though it really didn’t, at least not for me.

I left to calm down a bit. Went all the way to the basement and back. Came back. Talked to him for a little bit, but was still fairly annoyed and I didn’t want to annoy him by talking too much.

So we came to a point and I went back to work. Then I IMed him for something again and get an away message. so I’m like, “GREAT THANKS FOR SAYING BYE”

That just annoyed me EVEN MORE!

And then just now, he comes back and says, “Don’t give me attidute.” Don’t you give me attidute. Jeusus Christ! What the hell do I fucking do here.

I’m so annoyed with him right now. He just never wants to accept when he does something that bothers me and it’s always my fault when I get upset. But when he gets upset at something that I do, it’s ALSO my fault!

When is it NOT my fault?

And then the whole thing with the trip next weekend, it’s going to cost me like $60 to go out there and get him, $21 ($42 if I pay for both) for the tickets to the aquarium, at least 3 for parking at the airport, $8 for parking at the aquarium, eating out in Chicago is going to be like $15 for breakfast, then eating out Friday night when we get back to Ames is another $15, plus the costs of the food that I bought for the rest of the weekend, which is like $20, plus movie costs for The Matrix, then Science Center costs, it all adds up really quickly. And now that he’s only paying for like $30 of his plane ticket, I went back on my word and asked him to pay for some more of the stuff that we do here in Ames. And he got really annoyed with me about that.

Yes, I do feel bad about having to ask him to pay for stuff, but you know what. I made that deal when he was going to have to pay for MOST if not ALL of his plane ticket out here… Now that he’s only paying for $30 of it, I feel it only FAIR if he have to pay for some more stuff while he’s here.

So after a bit of him being very annoyed about it, he finally reluctantly agreed to help pay for some of the stuff while he’s here. But he said, “I’m not going to offer to pay for anything.” Well thanks a lot.

I’m just REALLY ANNOYED with everything that’s happening lately. Every fucking time we talk, there’s an argument about something, and it’s always my fault. I’m fucking sick of it.

You know, I’ve really been looking forward to seeing him again this weekend, but as it draws nearer and nearer, it seems like we’re going to spend the whole time fighting about something. Because that seems to be the only thing we do anymore, and it hurts so much.

I don’t want this to happen. I’ve already been here before, and I like Andrew too much to have that happen again. This isn’t like before, because I actually like him, I like him a lot. But I just really need him to actually SEE where I’m coming from for once, and admit that he’s wrong and actually apoligize and mean it.

And actually say that he’s going to change something and mean it. There are so many things that he’s asked me to change, just little things.

Like saying that he’s going to make out with people while he’s out there, to just the most recent of downlplaying the amount of work that he has to do. And I always make a concious attempt to change to make him happy. Well I’m asking him to change and undetstand where I’m coming from, and not make everything an argument, and not make everything MY fault.

I really hope that things get better before this weekend. I really want to call him right now and just get it all laid out there, and find out what the hell the problem is. I just want it all to be solved and I want to know for a fact that he still loves me. I want to know that he still cares for me, and that things will be fine.

Most of all, I want to know that he’s going to change to make me happy, the same way that I’ve changed to make him happy.

No One Listens

I’ve been feeling a bit run down lately. Mostly thing about my job/school work.

The job sucks lately. I don’t know what I’m doing, I have no direction. Nazanin has no idea how to manage people, and absolutely no people skills. She doesn’t listen to recomendations, and she has no idea what she’s talking about. Yet she doesn’t listen to the people that do know what they are talking about. She’s wastefull and doesn’t move her ass or decide on anything. I think I’m going to sit her down and have a chat with her, because I can’t take this anymore.

She had me set up this one rack, so that everything fit into it. Then after I had it all done, changes her mind about it all, and just very annoying. I don’t want to go into it all again. But today I got an e-mail from Jesse saying… “Nazanin and I were busy moving stuff around in the server room” Which means they re-did what I had done, and it’s just VERY VERY ANNOYING!

I’m really not looking forward to going into work tomorrow.

I’m stressed about classes, my group is being fairly confusing about what exactly I’m supposed to do for Sunday. I really have no idea. I guess I’ll write something, and if it’s not right, then we can redo it then.

MIS Is going good, I mean, the paper’s nearly… Well alright only 1/3 done. But whatever, it won’t be long. Group isn’t helping any, and it’s very annoying. I mean, they’re stupid. Hot, but stupid. So I guess I can deal. I think it’d make it more worth it if I didn’t have a boyfriend, and I could make out with the hot one.

Speaking of the Boyfriend. It’s going good. I’m way excited to see him, and well, it’ll be really good for my emotional causes to get to hang out with him again. Friday is going to be a way long day, as is Saturday. Sunday I hope will consist of mostly hanging around and doing not much, maybe a movie or two, and a good home cooked meal. I was thinking of maybe making some homemade ice cream too, but I think it might be too cold.

I had a dream last night about Andrew as well. It was nice, and yet kinda scary all at the same time. We were old.

I woke up, alarm clock. Didn’t want to go to class. I wanted to lay there and dream some more. Because it was a good dream. But had to get up and go to class.

Class was cancelled of course. Bus, cold. Long ride.

Work, annoyed the hell out of me. Though i did get printing semi-working. So that’s good, I guess.

Anyways. I’m out. Grrr.

Laters all.