Crazy Nuts

So last night there was this big fuck off thunderstorm…. I had left my windows open to let the fresh air in, plus it was damn hot in here, so well yeah.

I went to bed about 11, just after 12 the storm really hit and it was lightening and shit out…. well out in the courtyard, which is right outside my window there had to have been about 100 drunken nuts cases out there yelling and screaming everytime there was lightening. Fuckers.. I got up to close my windows so that it wouldn’t be as loud and there was a huge puddle of water on the floor in my room, I was like SHIT, but I didn’t care, I just went back to bed….

Topic 1
Topic 2 The guy on the right in that pic is DAMN HOT!

Today’s been really nice though, nice and sunny and just the perfect tempurature…. I’ve been hanging out alot today, just doing shit… Lots of hot guys out… One came into MIS class today shirtless, I was like “He can come sit on my lap” OMg was he every HOT!

So yeah, over the weekend Adam and I were talking about when we first met, and what each of us remembered about it… Well our stories were really different, so I went back in time and looked up what happened… Yeah, so On July 23, that makes one year of knowing each other. And if we had stayed together from the first relationship it would be one year together on June 30th… But like Adam said last night, he’d rather have 6 GREAT months on June 17th then 1 so-so year on June 30th… So it’s all good….. Today makes 4 months.

Laters all.

Eighty-Seven

That’s right, it was 87 degrees out yesterday, we’re supposed to hit 83 today… So nice, especially for April.. I wanted to camp out so badly yesterday, but I couldn’t…. Cause well that’d be kind odd, don’t you think. lol.

Yesterday was good, I hung out and went to the GLRC, it was alright, we watched the Laramie Project, it was really good….

I’m out

Woot! Summer

Wow, summer has really hit today… This whole weekend has just been great as hell.

Friday night was good, Adam and I went out with Nelline, Andi, and Leah. It was fun time, Nelline painted my nails blue, it was sooo cool. hehe, Adam didn’t like them though, this coming from the boy that wants to go in drag, I was amused at least and that’s all that matters…. About 11 they had to go home, so we went hot tubbing, it was good times.

Saturday Adam called me at home about 1:45, just before he had to go to work, and I could tell instantly that something was wrong, he had been in a big fight with his mom and she told him that if she was making his life so horrid then he should move out… I met up with him at Hy-Vee about 4 and we talked a bit once he got on break… He’s been kinda sick all week and he really wasn’t feeling to well Saturday afternoon and with the added pressure, it was just bad, so he got off early and we went back to my house and watched TV, some really cool magic thing was on and we watched trading spaces which was amusing. He then called his mom at 8 and found out what was going on and he would have to be home by 11, so we decided not to go to the dance, which was good cause we just hung out some. I stayed at his house Saturday night..

Today has been GREAT!! The weather was so great that we got up about 11 and went out and cleaned out the shed, then we went to Big Creek and hung out for a couple hours, we both got sun burns on our faces, my arms are starting to tan though, so that’s good. After that we went back to his house for a while, then we went swimming. That was lots of fun, we were the only ones in the YMCA pool, so it was great times. We also did naughty things in the locker rooms… hehe. 😉

After that we went back to his house and hung out tell 9 when I left… It was so nice…..

I love this weather already and it’s making me think about summer, which is kinda of depressing me cause Angel won’t be back and I’m going to be working everyday from 9-4 and but I’m also looking forward to it cause it’s summer, and it’s going to be great…. I’ve already decided that we’re going to make canoeing a weekend thing and at some point this summer we’re going to go camping as well.

Ok, I’m off to get my outfit ready for tomorrow, I’m going to look soooo cute, I got some new shirts, they’re a size small and I look cute as hell in them. hehe

I’m out. Enjoy the weather all!!

SPRING!!

I love spring rain… I wish they could just bottle this smell and sound and sell it, oh wait… They already have. Well I wish they would sell the real smell rather then that fake smell they have, it doesn’t really smell like it does now… It’s so great.

I love the rain in the spring, it’s just coming down at a nice heavy down pour… It’s so relaxing and nice… I’ve been out walking round in it for the last hour or so. It’s fun… Lots of other random people out as well… good times with the rain.. It reminds me of summer.

Why?

Last night I thought about alot of things… and I had a lot of stuff to post about today, but I’m just not in the mood to do it…

There’s two things in this world that I truly love, Adam and scouting…. Last night both of those came into my thoughts a lot.

First was the fact that yesterday was the first day that it was realy nice out, and that reminded me of all the weekend campouts, the conclaves, the pow-wows, the summer camping trips, the high-adventure. All the camping, the weekly meetings… I miss those and that really hurts. I want to go back and do that again, I miss all the weekend camping, the weekends out on our own, in nature, I miss the weekly troop meetings, the first wed of the month meetings, the second tuesday of the month meetings and the third thursday of the month meetings.. I miss it all. I want to go back to badly, why can’t something that I love so much, hate me so much.

Second was Adam, the story yesterday (yes, that was written about us, by one of our friends) really hit home for me, it really meant alot to me and there’s so much that I wish I could add onto that story. I won’t do that, but looking back, I’m glad things happened the way they did, and it’s another one of those times in my life where I wish I would have taken more memories from, I wish that we would have danced another song, I wish that we would have gotten our pictures taken professionaly, there’s so much that I wish… But I enjoyed the night for what it was and will always remember it, I’ll always have the pictures that were taken there, and the song that we did dance too. Those memories will never leave…

I also thought about alot of other things, mostly about last summer, at camp, just random memories of camping and things that happened, or Angels leaving in August, that made me cry again, because when it happened, Adam was so hurt, and I didn’t know what to do. I wish that I could have just laid there and held him, but that was still to close to after our break-up to do that…. I just stood there and told him it’s alright, and I don’t feel that was enough for me, I wish that I could have done more. I also thought about Linda Anderson, my Engl prof from last semester and how much I hated her, and the fact that when I bitched her out there was so much more that I could have said to her to make my point more clear….

Last night was full of wishes, but not wishes for the future, wishes of things I should have done.

“If I were not a Boy Scout… I don’t know what I’d be”