D, that’s about an A.

So good news, I got a 64% on my Phil 230 test… Now I know that doesn’t SEEM that good, but you have to consider that the class average was 44% and then with all the wonderfull statistics work you can do on that and the other info he gave out in class, I figure I’m in the top percent of this test. Crazy, isn’t it.

Although, I am only getting a 59% overall in the class. Don’t know class average there.

Rough times right now. We’ll all pull though.

However this has taken a toll on the schedule to get things updated around here. Got code done, but haven’t had time to do ANY of the visual. Thinking I’ll just upload the code changes (only one or two little things that you’ll notice, HUGE improvments for me!). Don’t know when I’ll have time to get around to the visuals. Damnit. Get off my ass!

24 hours.

So Monday Andrew offered me the chance to come spend the night with him on Tuesday… I declined initally because I should have gone to class.

All day Tuesday I couldn’t stop thinking about him, and how GREAT it would be to spend a night with him again. I knew (or at least was REALLY hoping) that he would be here Friday night, but I just couldn’t wait. All day long I spent thinking about him. Debating with myself, should I go, should I not.

Finally I was tanning that night, and I was like. What would I RATHER do… I decided to spend the night with him.

I got there about 8ish, we went to some bowling thing, it was off because of a bunch of crazies, and shit. Very wierd. But still a good time! After that we went back to his place, we were sleeping in his sisters room (bigger bed). Kissing, licking. Ohhh so great. It was like I was in heaven. I likced his ear, and his elbows. It’s so amusing, what doing that does to him. He’s such a sensitive person! But, oh is it so much fun.

Eventually we had to stop because he had to get to bed. I wanted to take it further, or to even just keep kissing him. But I knew that taking it further wasn’t a good idea. Not yet, and well I suppose I could have kept him up all night, but we both would have been tired and bitchy the next day! We layed there cuddling all night long, my arms around him. It was so nice to just hold his body, to hold him, to hold onto his personality. I’ve never held someone like that before when sleeping together. Adam and I would just lay in bed, usually backs to each other. But holding him all night long was just the best thing. I kept waking up through out the night, and just kissing the back of his head. I was so happy to be able to do that! It seemed as though the night would never end, and I wish that it wouldn’t have, but all too soon the alarm was going off.

We layed there in bed, both with horribly bad breath I’m sure, kissing and hugging some more. After a bit of that we got up and I followed him around while he was getting ready to go to school. It was so cute! After some more kissing, he had to leave. I just hung out at his house while he was at school. Read all of his articles from the past school papers. All very good and interesting. Watched “Legally Blonde” and read some XY Mag. It was the longest 2 hours and 20 minutes ever!

He eventually finally got home, we changed to go work out. After some more kissing we left and worked out. That was tons of fun, and I felt good afterwards, even though I was all sweaty and gross. Went back to his and showered, threw him in the closet and kissed some more.

From there to subway to get him food, then back to his to get me food. We ate. It was very cute to just sit there across the table from each other. Eh, maybe I’m just crazy!

After eating we watched Drift. I swear I won’t complain about how bad it was! But who cares how bad it was, I was holding someone that I really care for, and that’s what really mattered.

After a while we went to VWM and to deposit rich boi’s checks. Had a good time there, as usuall. How can you not enjoy the mall?

From there back to his house for more kissing, hugging, etc. Again all so nice. I could just do that for 24 hours straight. Or, you could throw all that out and I could just lay there and hold him and talk to him for 24 hours straight, both would be heavenly.

Somewhere in between all the fun, I had more fun by playing FF8, I’m a natural at that game! lol. Actually, I think it’s so cute that he likes that game, even though I don’t really understand it, it’s kinda in my area.

Speaking of those little things, there’s so so much that we have in common really. It’s so great. And it seems that every day there’s some little quirck that we seem to find that we have in common.

Late that night somehow we got to talking about relationships and he said “Potentially almost my Topher” and I was like “Just drop the potentally.” Because unless someone comes along and sweeps him out from under me, I’d like to get into something deeper here sometime. I know that I’m calling the shots, because he’s said that on more then one occasion. I wanted to drop the “potentially” and the “almost” last night. But at one time we both agreed that we’d give Adam one month to get over it all. 13 days before that month is up, and it isn’t looking promising for him. But whatever, he pissed me the hell off last night (Adam, not Andrew). And I’m about ready to just tell him that a friendship with him isn’t worth the pain that he’s causing me, and Andrew. My purpose in life now is to make *_ME_* happy, not him. So why should I spare his feelings?

ANYHOW, back to the good things… We didn’t know why guy was going to get home, so I left shortly after 8. I really didn’t want to, I wanted to stay another night and just hold him some more, but I’m sure guy wouldn’t have been too pleased about that.

It took us like 10 minutes to get upstairs and then out the door. I think more kisses were dispenced in that short time then had been all day! lol. I had such a magically wonderful night/day.

Now here it is the next morning. And I’m missing him so much. Hopefully he won’t bother me to much, so I’ll be able to pay attention in class unlike on Tuesday!

I miss him so much, I can’t wait tell Friday!

Oh My Topher

Oh my Topher. Or “Will soon be” my Topher. lol.
So I have had an absolutely fabulous day!
Both my parents were going to be gone Tuesday night so I told Chris that if he wanted, he was welcome to spend the night. He declined, claiming he had to go to school, and I contested that school wasn’t important, but that it was ok.
He called me Tues while I was at work, and asked if I still had that offer up. I sure did, so he headed on down.
That night, we went to the Dispute Part which was dumb as hell, but we managed to have a good time. Mainly by chanting “Where’s the pizza? Where’s the soda?”
Then we came home and got ready for bed. We slept in Jaime’s room b/c the bed is bigger. We layed down, and we spent a lot of time kissing, licking etc…. I now have hickies on BOTH my arms! lol. But BOY does he know what he is doing…. I was dying…. literally lol. It was wonderful.
Eventually I decided I needed to get to bed b/c I had school in the morning! So we were laying there, and he said something to the effect of “This is heaven.” Or something close to that and I Melted and it was really sweet. He held me all night, and I felt so close to him, and so calm, and so at peace with everything that is going on. When I get held, I just feel so safe and I feel that things will be ok after all! It was a really special feeling, and I am so glad that Chris brought it on.
Unfortunately, the morning came too quick.
We got up, after some more kissing, and I got ready for school, and he followed me around. lol.
OH yeah, he also mentioned during the night that he hasn’t missed one class this year (or semester, one of the two) and that this was the first one he missed, so I better feel special. Well, let me tell you, I really did.
Anyways, so he watched me get ready, then after more kissing, I left for school and he stayed at my house. School was too long.
I got home, and got changed, and we went to the Y to work out. That was fun, I was watching him use the machine while I was working my arms and he was just so adorable. I wish I would’ve videotaped it! Lol. So cute. THen I ran next to him and we were both really sweaty and gross.
So then we went home. He threw me in the closet and kissed me, then told me I smelled. 🙂
We both took showers, then went out to Subway so I could get my free lunch. While there, we ran into Court, Erin, Jenny Goodall, and Rachel LeValley and talked to tem for a few minutes. Then we came home and ate, me having my Subway and a piece of old pizza, and him eating a sandwich. Good times!
After that, we watched “Drift” which is officially the dumbest movie of all time. Very dumb, it had like 3 endings, so weird. So yeah Chris held me the whole time, and that felt wonderful yet again.
He said a lot of really sweet things to me… but since I have a terrible memory for those things, I have forgotten them. But I do know he said them, and I remember feeling very special and cared for on more than one occasion.
After the movie, we made out some more lol. He thought that me sitting on him and kinda grinding a bit was funny… I didn’t QUITE see the humor in it that he did.. maybe I missed something *shrugs*
After awhile, we decided we should actually do something, even though we agreed that doing that would be fun to continue with. But we ended up going to deposit my check (Waited forever in line!) and then we went to the mall, where I bought a belt, 2 shirts, and a pair of sandals for 30 bucks. Not a bad deal. We walked around and then went to Target and walked around, and then went home.
When home, we kissed some more, then finally I was forced to set up a game for Chris. He played FF8 for awhile, he definitely isn’t a natural, but its ok 🙂 Mother called at this point and was very obnoxious “Oh so Chris and you are alone? Not cool.” Yeah you are right Mom we had TONS of hot sex. Whatever… it kinda pissed me off.
Then we ate dinner, we had some pasta salad that Kelly made. After that downstairs, to just sit, and kiss and do sweet things until he left. He held me a lot, and we attempted to take lots of pics, though I’m not sure how many of them will actually come out b/c I think my arm kept getting in the way. It was really fun, we just talked about a lot of things, and that’s where the “Almost my Topher” thing came up. I atfirst said “Potentially almost my Topher” and he was like “I think you can drop the ‘potentially’.” So yeah that was a good sign 🙂 He told me I was sexy, yet another good sign.
We just had such a nice time. When he left, I really didn’t want him to, but I was afraid that John would come home and then things would be a bit weird. We took probably 10 or so minutes attempting to say goodbye. We just kept kissing and thanking each other for the wonderful day. That is when he said he couldn’t stop kissing me and I wholeheartedly agree. So tough to let go. Eventually we had to though, and he left.
Now I am sitting here, alone. I know I’m a big loser, b/c I miss Chris already. We have spent about 24 hours together, and now that he’s gone, I’m like “eh, what am I Supposed to do now?” I really just want his arms around me, I’m actually to the point of being sad that he isn’t here. God help me, I’m falling too fast for him.
I’m trying to hold myself back.
But I can’t help it……. oh why does my (almost) Topher have to be so grand?
Well, I don’t think I should ramble on any longer and scare him away, so I’m gonna email him this since he won’t get ittill like tomorrow anyway.
Oh yeah, he also kept saying I was a dork and a nerd for playing so much Final Fantasy! Well, it isn’t my fault that Squaresoft makes such great games!!! lol
Send me yours Topher!

Welcome Back, Kotter!

So, this weekend was pretty damn fun…

Friday night we were supposed to hang out with Andrew, Adam, Mike, Beak, Scott, and Me. Perhaps more, but who knows. Anyways, Adam called me and said that he didn’t want to hang out, and we assumed that he was going to go hang out with Scott. So Andrew and I met up, and waited around for Beak to show up. Whilst doing that Court and crew called and wanted us to go bolwing, then Dustin called and wanted us to drive to IC. So in like an hour period plans changed like a million times. Ended up driving to IC, tons of fun out there, even more fun back! Got home about 1:30ish Saturday morning, and then went to bed about 2:30 or so.

Saturday was also VERY hectic. Got up early and drove to Perry. Helped Beak move more shit. Got my fitness thing. (Which is still in a pile in my living room, must set that up tonight). Drove from Perry to her house on the south side. From there to Adam’s to pick up more shit and say “Hi.” From there to Ames to drop off my thing. Then Ames to Waukee to see Andrew before he went to prom. Rarr at him in a tux! Men that dress up are so fucking hot! Then from Waukee, Beak and I went out to supper. Thanks for buying BEAK!

After that back to PC to watch Drift, STUPID fucking movie. Although it was like watching my life, but the ending that I want wasn’t there. (Three endings, one of those things). It looked like they had taken Porn actors (Not even cute ones!), A porn screen play, and a PBS director. It was absolutely horrible. Although, I’m going to make a few more people sit through it before I return it! lol. I’m so evil.

Drove Beak home about midnight, hung out at her house for a little bit, then drove home again. Such a long day!

Sunday got up, met up with Adam about noon and then did random shit. Left there about 3ish and met up with Skinny and Andrew at MH Hy-Vee. From there we went out to eat, then to the Drag show…

We got there and there wasn’t anyone else around, apparently there wasn’t actually a drag show last night. We all sat there looking at each other for a bit wondering what the hell to do now… So we went to JJ’s and hung out tell about 8ish.

It was good to see Mike again, not as wierd as I thought it would be.

On the way home I had to pee so badly, I was taking the interstate and got just south of Ankeny and there was fucking Road construction for like 2 miles. We went 10mph or LESS the whole way, I HAD TO PEE SOOO BAD! ::whines::

By the time I got home I peed for like 30 minutes, I’m sure you all wanted to know that!

Anyways, I had a REALLY good weekend, and Sunday was by far the BEST day. And for once it wasn’t a depressing Sunday! 😀 Amazing I know.

Must get back to work now….

Expect changes sometime in the future, who knows how long though. I finally have b2 working right with 0.6.1, but there’s a few more coding changes I want to make to that before I finalize it. Also doing a few visual changes.

Laters!

Magical Evening

So yeah……
To put it pretty simply….. the words “Magical Evening” now have such an entirely differnt meaning to me.
I think “Magical” is the only word that can even come close to describing how this night was.
So I was over at Skinnys and all 3 of us decided to do something. Adam called and basically told Skinny that he needs to chaperone Chris and I. Anyways, we went out to eat at Bennigans which was totally fun, and I couldn’t stop laughing and it was just crazyness.
Chris and I went to MHM while Skinny went home b/c his sister was freaking out. Then we went to get Chris’ mints, and then we went downtown to the drag show.
So yeah there definitely wasn’t a drag show. There was only one other car there besides us. THe entire way down I wanted to hold Chris’ hand, but I didn’t get up the guts to put my hand on his knee until we were pretty much almost there. We decided to go to JJ’s when we realized there wasn’t a show. Skinny sped off and Chris and I used the opportunity to get in a few kisses 🙂
At JJ’s we didn’t do much, then Skinny left, we both assumed it was b/c he knew we wanted to be alone. Thanks Skinny!
I came up with the idea to go watch the sunset up by Saylorville, which was (in my opinon) a wonderful suggestion! We drove up there and drove for a little bit until we found a suitable spot for us to stay.
We parked and walked down by the rocks. I wanted to hold his hand, but I didn’t, b/c I’m a big wuss! lol
We found a flat rock spot place to sit down at and we just sat down and talked. The scenery was so pretty. Listening to Chris, and to the waves and feeling the wind, it just made me feel so relaxed and so happy and carefree.
We just talked, and we got our arms around each other, and we kissed and we hugged and talked and did all 3 over and over and over again.
It was truly an enchanting evening. I for one had an excellently wonderful time and it was definitely better than any drag show would’ve been. I told him that I’m the little damsel in distress and he’s the big hero that holds me in his strong arms. He said I was the size of a stick lol.
Anyways, we just talked and shit… nothing really substantial. We did establish that Chris is not allowed to say “So are you” when I compliment him. That was pretty funny…..
So was “I think I got to bring more home than you did!” That was just downright hilarious.
Eventually we moved to where Chris was sitting with his legs open (teehee) and I was in between and he just had his arms around me. Some people walked by, but it didn’t bother us one bit! Yay homos! He was so warm and I feel so safe being held by him. I was completely at ease, and had no worries on my mind at all! Such a good feeling. It was definitely one of those days where you realize just how much you truly care about someone.
And I care about Chris an *AWFUL* lot. Maybe more than he knows…
So yeah wonderful day and night and we watched the sunset and it was sooooo romantic. We just sat there, me in his arms, watching the sun go down (and boy, did it go quick!) I just wanted it to last and last. We did more talking, and more kissing, and Chris kept tickling me! It always makes me giggle like a little girl. 🙂
We decided we had to leave at some point b/c it was getting just a bit nipply out. So we stand up on the rocks, and stood there for probably… I would say at least 10 minutes… just standing and kissing and I held his face in my hands (it sounds dumb to explain but I know what I mean) and that was just……. amazing. I don’t know what it was, but touching him and kissing him and standing there with the sun just set and a cool wind blowing across us. I practically died.
We walked back to the car and held hands and put our arms around each other and kissed some more. I held his hand again in the car on the way home… errr, to Hy-Vee. I dropped him off at his car at Hy-Vee, and it was really weird b/c we saw Skinny there. We were like “eh…?” Very odd. So we talked to him for a minute and then we went to saying goodbye, which of course, was very tough.
We kissed and stuff in the parking lot for awhile, then we had to break and it was sad. He pointed out the bulge in his pants and I said it was hot lol. I drove home, and was already missing him! I really wish he lived closer so I could see him more often.
Anyways, he may be coming down Wednesday, and if he does that’ll be great, specially now that John will more than likely either be home late or not at all. So we won’t have to deal with people coming into my room and bitching about the door not being open. Stupid parents!
All in all, another fabulous night with Chris, it was, in my opinion, one of the best nights we have had together.
Oh, I forgot… I also explained to Chris the difference between “real” kisses and sexual kisses, complete with demonstrations… I thought that was cute… lol
Anyways, I’m totally happy, but you wouldn’t be able to tell b/c I’m so damn tired that I’m just sitting here like bleeeeeeeeh.
As soon as I get Chris’ entry and read it, I’ll be off to bed, and to dream of my sweet thang! (That is you Chris, in case you are confused lol)
BREAK!