Oh my Topher. Or “Will soon be” my Topher. lol.
So I have had an absolutely fabulous day!
Both my parents were going to be gone Tuesday night so I told Chris that if he wanted, he was welcome to spend the night. He declined, claiming he had to go to school, and I contested that school wasn’t important, but that it was ok.
He called me Tues while I was at work, and asked if I still had that offer up. I sure did, so he headed on down.
That night, we went to the Dispute Part which was dumb as hell, but we managed to have a good time. Mainly by chanting “Where’s the pizza? Where’s the soda?”
Then we came home and got ready for bed. We slept in Jaime’s room b/c the bed is bigger. We layed down, and we spent a lot of time kissing, licking etc…. I now have hickies on BOTH my arms! lol. But BOY does he know what he is doing…. I was dying…. literally lol. It was wonderful.
Eventually I decided I needed to get to bed b/c I had school in the morning! So we were laying there, and he said something to the effect of “This is heaven.” Or something close to that and I Melted and it was really sweet. He held me all night, and I felt so close to him, and so calm, and so at peace with everything that is going on. When I get held, I just feel so safe and I feel that things will be ok after all! It was a really special feeling, and I am so glad that Chris brought it on.
Unfortunately, the morning came too quick.
We got up, after some more kissing, and I got ready for school, and he followed me around. lol.
OH yeah, he also mentioned during the night that he hasn’t missed one class this year (or semester, one of the two) and that this was the first one he missed, so I better feel special. Well, let me tell you, I really did.
Anyways, so he watched me get ready, then after more kissing, I left for school and he stayed at my house. School was too long.
I got home, and got changed, and we went to the Y to work out. That was fun, I was watching him use the machine while I was working my arms and he was just so adorable. I wish I would’ve videotaped it! Lol. So cute. THen I ran next to him and we were both really sweaty and gross.
So then we went home. He threw me in the closet and kissed me, then told me I smelled. 🙂
We both took showers, then went out to Subway so I could get my free lunch. While there, we ran into Court, Erin, Jenny Goodall, and Rachel LeValley and talked to tem for a few minutes. Then we came home and ate, me having my Subway and a piece of old pizza, and him eating a sandwich. Good times!
After that, we watched “Drift” which is officially the dumbest movie of all time. Very dumb, it had like 3 endings, so weird. So yeah Chris held me the whole time, and that felt wonderful yet again.
He said a lot of really sweet things to me… but since I have a terrible memory for those things, I have forgotten them. But I do know he said them, and I remember feeling very special and cared for on more than one occasion.
After the movie, we made out some more lol. He thought that me sitting on him and kinda grinding a bit was funny… I didn’t QUITE see the humor in it that he did.. maybe I missed something *shrugs*
After awhile, we decided we should actually do something, even though we agreed that doing that would be fun to continue with. But we ended up going to deposit my check (Waited forever in line!) and then we went to the mall, where I bought a belt, 2 shirts, and a pair of sandals for 30 bucks. Not a bad deal. We walked around and then went to Target and walked around, and then went home.
When home, we kissed some more, then finally I was forced to set up a game for Chris. He played FF8 for awhile, he definitely isn’t a natural, but its ok 🙂 Mother called at this point and was very obnoxious “Oh so Chris and you are alone? Not cool.” Yeah you are right Mom we had TONS of hot sex. Whatever… it kinda pissed me off.
Then we ate dinner, we had some pasta salad that Kelly made. After that downstairs, to just sit, and kiss and do sweet things until he left. He held me a lot, and we attempted to take lots of pics, though I’m not sure how many of them will actually come out b/c I think my arm kept getting in the way. It was really fun, we just talked about a lot of things, and that’s where the “Almost my Topher” thing came up. I atfirst said “Potentially almost my Topher” and he was like “I think you can drop the ‘potentially’.” So yeah that was a good sign 🙂 He told me I was sexy, yet another good sign.
We just had such a nice time. When he left, I really didn’t want him to, but I was afraid that John would come home and then things would be a bit weird. We took probably 10 or so minutes attempting to say goodbye. We just kept kissing and thanking each other for the wonderful day. That is when he said he couldn’t stop kissing me and I wholeheartedly agree. So tough to let go. Eventually we had to though, and he left.
Now I am sitting here, alone. I know I’m a big loser, b/c I miss Chris already. We have spent about 24 hours together, and now that he’s gone, I’m like “eh, what am I Supposed to do now?” I really just want his arms around me, I’m actually to the point of being sad that he isn’t here. God help me, I’m falling too fast for him.
I’m trying to hold myself back.
But I can’t help it……. oh why does my (almost) Topher have to be so grand?
Well, I don’t think I should ramble on any longer and scare him away, so I’m gonna email him this since he won’t get ittill like tomorrow anyway.
Oh yeah, he also kept saying I was a dork and a nerd for playing so much Final Fantasy! Well, it isn’t my fault that Squaresoft makes such great games!!! lol
Send me yours Topher!
Welcome Back, Kotter!
So, this weekend was pretty damn fun…
Friday night we were supposed to hang out with Andrew, Adam, Mike, Beak, Scott, and Me. Perhaps more, but who knows. Anyways, Adam called me and said that he didn’t want to hang out, and we assumed that he was going to go hang out with Scott. So Andrew and I met up, and waited around for Beak to show up. Whilst doing that Court and crew called and wanted us to go bolwing, then Dustin called and wanted us to drive to IC. So in like an hour period plans changed like a million times. Ended up driving to IC, tons of fun out there, even more fun back! Got home about 1:30ish Saturday morning, and then went to bed about 2:30 or so.
Saturday was also VERY hectic. Got up early and drove to Perry. Helped Beak move more shit. Got my fitness thing. (Which is still in a pile in my living room, must set that up tonight). Drove from Perry to her house on the south side. From there to Adam’s to pick up more shit and say “Hi.” From there to Ames to drop off my thing. Then Ames to Waukee to see Andrew before he went to prom. Rarr at him in a tux! Men that dress up are so fucking hot! Then from Waukee, Beak and I went out to supper. Thanks for buying BEAK!
After that back to PC to watch Drift, STUPID fucking movie. Although it was like watching my life, but the ending that I want wasn’t there. (Three endings, one of those things). It looked like they had taken Porn actors (Not even cute ones!), A porn screen play, and a PBS director. It was absolutely horrible. Although, I’m going to make a few more people sit through it before I return it! lol. I’m so evil.
Drove Beak home about midnight, hung out at her house for a little bit, then drove home again. Such a long day!
Sunday got up, met up with Adam about noon and then did random shit. Left there about 3ish and met up with Skinny and Andrew at MH Hy-Vee. From there we went out to eat, then to the Drag show…
We got there and there wasn’t anyone else around, apparently there wasn’t actually a drag show last night. We all sat there looking at each other for a bit wondering what the hell to do now… So we went to JJ’s and hung out tell about 8ish.
It was good to see Mike again, not as wierd as I thought it would be.
On the way home I had to pee so badly, I was taking the interstate and got just south of Ankeny and there was fucking Road construction for like 2 miles. We went 10mph or LESS the whole way, I HAD TO PEE SOOO BAD! ::whines::
By the time I got home I peed for like 30 minutes, I’m sure you all wanted to know that!
Anyways, I had a REALLY good weekend, and Sunday was by far the BEST day. And for once it wasn’t a depressing Sunday! 😀 Amazing I know.
Must get back to work now….
Expect changes sometime in the future, who knows how long though. I finally have b2 working right with 0.6.1, but there’s a few more coding changes I want to make to that before I finalize it. Also doing a few visual changes.
Laters!
Magical Evening
So yeah……
To put it pretty simply….. the words “Magical Evening” now have such an entirely differnt meaning to me.
I think “Magical” is the only word that can even come close to describing how this night was.
So I was over at Skinnys and all 3 of us decided to do something. Adam called and basically told Skinny that he needs to chaperone Chris and I. Anyways, we went out to eat at Bennigans which was totally fun, and I couldn’t stop laughing and it was just crazyness.
Chris and I went to MHM while Skinny went home b/c his sister was freaking out. Then we went to get Chris’ mints, and then we went downtown to the drag show.
So yeah there definitely wasn’t a drag show. There was only one other car there besides us. THe entire way down I wanted to hold Chris’ hand, but I didn’t get up the guts to put my hand on his knee until we were pretty much almost there. We decided to go to JJ’s when we realized there wasn’t a show. Skinny sped off and Chris and I used the opportunity to get in a few kisses 🙂
At JJ’s we didn’t do much, then Skinny left, we both assumed it was b/c he knew we wanted to be alone. Thanks Skinny!
I came up with the idea to go watch the sunset up by Saylorville, which was (in my opinon) a wonderful suggestion! We drove up there and drove for a little bit until we found a suitable spot for us to stay.
We parked and walked down by the rocks. I wanted to hold his hand, but I didn’t, b/c I’m a big wuss! lol
We found a flat rock spot place to sit down at and we just sat down and talked. The scenery was so pretty. Listening to Chris, and to the waves and feeling the wind, it just made me feel so relaxed and so happy and carefree.
We just talked, and we got our arms around each other, and we kissed and we hugged and talked and did all 3 over and over and over again.
It was truly an enchanting evening. I for one had an excellently wonderful time and it was definitely better than any drag show would’ve been. I told him that I’m the little damsel in distress and he’s the big hero that holds me in his strong arms. He said I was the size of a stick lol.
Anyways, we just talked and shit… nothing really substantial. We did establish that Chris is not allowed to say “So are you” when I compliment him. That was pretty funny…..
So was “I think I got to bring more home than you did!” That was just downright hilarious.
Eventually we moved to where Chris was sitting with his legs open (teehee) and I was in between and he just had his arms around me. Some people walked by, but it didn’t bother us one bit! Yay homos! He was so warm and I feel so safe being held by him. I was completely at ease, and had no worries on my mind at all! Such a good feeling. It was definitely one of those days where you realize just how much you truly care about someone.
And I care about Chris an *AWFUL* lot. Maybe more than he knows…
So yeah wonderful day and night and we watched the sunset and it was sooooo romantic. We just sat there, me in his arms, watching the sun go down (and boy, did it go quick!) I just wanted it to last and last. We did more talking, and more kissing, and Chris kept tickling me! It always makes me giggle like a little girl. 🙂
We decided we had to leave at some point b/c it was getting just a bit nipply out. So we stand up on the rocks, and stood there for probably… I would say at least 10 minutes… just standing and kissing and I held his face in my hands (it sounds dumb to explain but I know what I mean) and that was just……. amazing. I don’t know what it was, but touching him and kissing him and standing there with the sun just set and a cool wind blowing across us. I practically died.
We walked back to the car and held hands and put our arms around each other and kissed some more. I held his hand again in the car on the way home… errr, to Hy-Vee. I dropped him off at his car at Hy-Vee, and it was really weird b/c we saw Skinny there. We were like “eh…?” Very odd. So we talked to him for a minute and then we went to saying goodbye, which of course, was very tough.
We kissed and stuff in the parking lot for awhile, then we had to break and it was sad. He pointed out the bulge in his pants and I said it was hot lol. I drove home, and was already missing him! I really wish he lived closer so I could see him more often.
Anyways, he may be coming down Wednesday, and if he does that’ll be great, specially now that John will more than likely either be home late or not at all. So we won’t have to deal with people coming into my room and bitching about the door not being open. Stupid parents!
All in all, another fabulous night with Chris, it was, in my opinion, one of the best nights we have had together.
Oh, I forgot… I also explained to Chris the difference between “real” kisses and sexual kisses, complete with demonstrations… I thought that was cute… lol
Anyways, I’m totally happy, but you wouldn’t be able to tell b/c I’m so damn tired that I’m just sitting here like bleeeeeeeeh.
As soon as I get Chris’ entry and read it, I’ll be off to bed, and to dream of my sweet thang! (That is you Chris, in case you are confused lol)
BREAK!
A Memory In Time.
Ok, so updates about the weekend will happen later. First we much update about the ABSOLUTE best part of the weekend.
Tonight there was supposed to have been a drag show. Andrew, Skinny and I were all going to go. (Skinny as our chaperone because apparently we’re 5 and need someone to watch us). We got there and it was deserted. Crazy.
We went to Java’s and hung out for a while, then got bored. Skinny left so Andrew and I were like… “What now?”
I suggested going to the lake, so we did.
Got there and drove around a while, talking. Looking for a good place to watch the sunset. We eventually found one, about half way across the damn, down by the water. Such a great spot. We both sat there on this little rock, cuddled, held hands and talked about random stuff for a while.
We also kissed alot, just randomly, we’d be talking, and then suddenly kissing. It’s so nice to kiss him. Because as we talked about, they’re meaningfull kisses, not “lets get it on” kisses. So very very touching.
It was so nice to just hold him in my arms, and to caress his legs, and his arms. To rub his back, to kiss his face, his neck, his ear.
After a while of sitting there side by side, we moved so that he was infront of me, so that I could wrap my arms around him and hold him close. Again, so so wonderfull. And it was so nice to just sit there with him and take some time out of or hectic lives, and go to somewhere peacefull with someone that you really care for, and just hold them and kiss them, and watch the sun set. We talked about the Canyon and the great sunsets there, and Frankel Field at camp, the best place to watch the stars. Hopefully this summer we can spend lots of time there, going to all the places that I love going to there at camp and watching the sunset, or gazing up at the stars.
I’m such a romantic sometimes. It’s crazy! lol.
Eventually the sun had set, and we were there embracing each other, kissing, talking, hugging. So nice, I didn’t want to leave at all. It was getting cold and we stood up, hugged, kissed. Standing there on the rock, the sky purple, the “waves” breaking on the rocks behind us, it was like a movie. A nice romantic movie. Times like those I wish there were a photographer around.
Eventually we did leave, and we walked hand in hand back to the car.
Drove back to MH Hy-Vee where my car was. As we pulled in I saw Skinny’s car. We pulled up next to him, and he’s like “Where you two been for the last 3 hours!” So funny. We decided that the story was that we’ve been at Java’s all night with Skinny if Adam asks.
Skinny left, Andrew parked and we hugged again, Kissed again. I didn’t want to leave, I just couldn’t stop kissing him and hugging him. It was so sad to go.
But it’s been a wonderfull memory in time, and time takes all but memories.
A Drive…
Ok, so Andrew already covered the majority of the night and well the non-private parts of the night will go into a real entry sometime Sunday night/Monday.
Anyways, driving to IC was tons of fun. Mostly because of the cuteness between Andrew and I. Holding hands, tickling, etc. So cute!
On the way back Andrew and I sat in the back seat. The first half we just sat there holding hands. Andrew kept dancing and it was funny cause he was only dancing with one hand. Hehe. Like half way back he laid his head down on my knee and it was so cute and precious. I wanted to kiss him so badly. But since Dusting AND Jenny had both made comments about not kissing/making out in the back seat I thought that I shouldn’t. But it was so cute, and I just loved it!
Eventually I put my arm all the way around him and held him and tight as I could. It was so nice. Too bad it was in such a crowded space! I also kissed him a couple times, and I just didn’t want to stop. Too bad we couldn’t have just put up like a curtain or something so they couldn’t see! lol. He’s also one of few people that actually has a REALLY good profile to look at, it’s so cute…
Anyways enough of my gushing. We eventually got to Dustin’s and dropped him off and Jenny was like “One of you has to sit in the front seat!” And I was like, “NO, I like this too much, don’t leave!” Ok, I didn’t actually say that, but whatever, it’s what I was thinking.
So Andrew got in the front seat and it was back to the leg rubbing, and hand holding of the ride out to IC. So nice still!
Jenny dropped us off at Perkins MH. We hugged and kissed. I was afraid of being shot there because of the crazies. It’s feels so good to kiss him, so touching, so so meaningful.
WE departed ways and as he was “walking” back to his car… Well actually he skipped the whole way. I was like, “Awww, how cute.” It was funny.
Drove home with a big smile on my face.
Today’s been crazymad. More of that in the public entry….
Finally I got to see Andrew about 5ish. I was REALLY hoping to get there earlier so that we could hang out more, rather then just “Hi, how’s it going” blah blah. But it was still REALLY good to see him. And he was DAMN hot in his Tux…
Someday, I’m going to get a man all dressed up in a tux and have WILD sex with him, starting by taking off the tux one piece at a time with my mouth!
Again, enough of my sexual fantasies… Can you tell I haven’t jecked it lately??? lol
We went into his house, just me him and beak, to take some pics and for him to get more film. We were taking pics with our arms around each other, I felt kinda wierd and out of place. But it was still nice. I wanted to give him a kiss so badly, but some woman walked in! Whore! lol.
Had to leave shortly after that because they were all getting ready to go. We hugged, again wanted a kiss so badly. Stupid people being around… Why can’t we just TELL everyone that we’re happy and shit! Rarr. Drove by, blew kisses. It was cute!
Spent tonight gushing to Beak about how much fun he is, and how much closer to him I feel then I ever did to Adam. I’m sure she’s sick of hearing of Andrew, and Adam for that matter. lol.
I was kinda hoping all night that he’d call and say “Hey, wanna come to after-prom.” Didn’t think he actually would, since he said before that he and Ginny had talked about it and ruled it out. But in the back of my mind I was hoping. He did call about midnight and that was nice to talk to him. Never did ask and I was kinda sad, but I understand because it was _his_ prom and Ginny was _his_ date. (As if she didn’t make that CLEAR enough in her journal entry!) lol. Anyways, still would have liked to have gone.
Made plans to hang out tomorrow. Can’t wait!