He’s Back!

Ok, well I?ve been meaning to write this entry for quite some time? Well ever since Andrew got back from the cruise.

Quite a bit has happened since then. Sunday night he spent the night and we had a good time catching up about what had been going on with each other the last week, etc. Also got in some making out and etc. lol. It was such a great night sleeping with him again!

We also talked about my crazy scheme, and he seemed all right with it. Hopefully I didn?t scare him too much, but I think that it would be a nice thing to do. And it would also be fun for me to get a vacation, and to see where he grew up. But it seems like that part of the trip might not happen. Which is fine, because it is just a crazy scheme right now, and it?s all up to him! I?m just trying to be a nice bf and see him off to college. Other topics were also brought up, but I don?t really remember all of them. He claims that I withhold information from him, which I don?t try to do.

After out little talk and the fun times we went to bed. It was late, but I don?t have any idea what time. Lol

Monday morning we got up and since I hadn?t cum the night before, he tried making me cum, but that still didn?t work. I?m really surprised at how fast the drugs kicked in, in regards to their side effects. Considering that the actual effects of the drugs usually don?t kick in tell a few weeks after you start taking them. It?s very annoying really the fact that I can?t cum when he tries so hard. And it feels so good for me! I?m sure that if I weren?t on the drugs I probably would have cum like 5 times in the last 4 days! Lol. And it?s definitely not because of anything that he?s doing! Oh man, let me tell you! Lol.

Anyways, his giving me a blowjob led to him getting a semi-rimmy. Perhaps this weekend he?ll get another real rimmy. Lol. Anyways, he came again! All over me this time. Very hot, :-P.

After that we got up and I made breakfast, pancakes. I got sick while making the first one; so I had to turn it off and go sit in the bathroom for a while. I don?t know what came over me. But I got really light headed and hot and just felt like I was going to through up. It was very disturbing. After that little spout was over, I went back to cooking, and made us both two pancakes. I could only eat like half of mine because I got sick again. I really don?t know what was coming over me that day.

We watched Jerry and some other shows. Then I left and went to class. I felt really bad leaving him there while I was in class, but I?m sure that he found something to do! When I got to class I opened my notebook to find a really cute note from him and it made me smile SOOO big! He?s so sweet with cute little things like that!

That had to have been the LONGEST class ever! The 2 hours usually just FLY by, but Monday?s class went soooo SLOW!

After class I of course missed the first bus, so I had to wait around for the second bus, I was like, COMON! I want to go see my Drew Bear! Finally it got here and I rode it home. Got back at like 2:30 and he was sleeping. So I walked in and he was so confused about what was going on, and got me very confused. But I guess he had a good time while I was away. After that we talked about Kevin, and then went and got movies. Both movies were very good.

He insisted on lying in back, which is fine. But I?m always so nervous about my fat hanging out with his arms around me. I guess I?m just very self-consciousness with things like that. Although I will have to say that lately I have been becoming happy with the way that I look. When I look in a mirror, I see a happier looking me. I?d still like to loose some weight, but I am starting to like the way that I look. I?m still scared though that whenever I?m shirtless around him, he?s going to one day look at me and say, ?Why am I dating this tub of lard!??

Well, after the movies it was getting late, so he made himself some supper and again I felt a little light headed. So I sat on the couch while he did that. After he ate supper we just laid around and talked some more. Such good times.

He left late that night, but I don?t remember what time. It?s so good to have him back! I am once again very happy!

Ok, finally onto Wednesday. He came up and got here about 2ish. Wearing something that was very surprising for me to see him wearing. But it was cute! (When isn?t he cute looking!) We sat on the couch talking about what we had been up to that day and how my test went and what the bad news that Court had called about Monday night was. After that we made out for like 2 and a half hours. Which was uber great, and I got another rimmy, and he got another semi-rimmy. Lol. He was wearing the CUTEST fucking underwear I?ve ever seen! Rarrrrr times a million! So hot! He came and again, I couldn?t cum. It was so embarrassing and I always feel so bad, and then I know that he feels bad, so I feel even worse. And it?s just a vicious cycle.

After that we went out to eat and he paid, thanks Drew, I owe you!

From eating back to my place where we did more lying around. This time we just talked about things. A TON of random stuff was brought up, and I told him about fucking and getting fucked and fingering and enemas and lots of other sexual things. And we also tried to plan our trip, but it was too dark to see the calendar by that time. So we just said fuck it.

He stripped and I had my shirt off. Eventually I also took off my pants, and he took off his shirt. Rarr times a million again at my sex boy! Lol.

We also talked about how most of his other relationships have involved lots of time talking on the phone and how ours hasn?t. I couldn?t really tell if he felt that as a good thing or a bad. I mean I think that we have plenty of time talking. Of course I would always like more, but well he just said that he?s always talked a lot on the phone with other bf?s and the like.

There were a lot of other things that he said that kind of scared me, but of course now I can?t really remember them.

I hope that he?s as happy with this relationship as I am. I guess he says that he is, because he claims that I?m the best bf he?s ever had. But I bet he?s used that line before :-P. I?m always so afraid.

The Hardest Thing

Wow, well I guess my great record of getting an update nearly every day during May, isn’t going to continue in June, eh?

I’m currently in the Library trying to write my paper for Phil class, I got the cover page done, but I’m having problems getting it started. I just don’t know how to go about that. It’s always the hardest part of the paper. Really, it is. The second hardest part is understanding what the hell the papers that you’re writing about is talking about! I’ve read it three times now, and I’m stil very confused as to what exactly this John T Noonan is talking about. Why do philosophers always have to write so crazy like! Speak English Goddamnit!

At least I can understand Glover. That’s what really matters in the this class though.

Yeasterday day we had our one and only test. It was very interesting. I spent all night Tuesday studying for it. And I think that helped a lot. Perhaps I should do that for all my classes from now on! lol. Anyways, this class has really helped me understand what’s going on. It just goes to prove that good professors make all the difference. Now I just hope that my grade shows that too!

I mean like last semester if you would have asked me what the Social Contract Theory was. I would have asked you if that had ANYTHING to do with Phil. Now this semester I understand it enough that I can actually explain it to other people. Which I did explain it to Andrew when I was telling him about the prisoners dilema. I hope he wasn’t too bored by that, but I was feeling smart! lol.

Anyways, the test went good. There were a few things where it asked to give examples of arguments that showed different fallacies, and I coulnd’t think of any. But the essay’s were nice, because on Tuesday he had given us a list of 4, and he said that two would be on the test. Well I knew the answers to two of them, and I figured out the answer to one of the others, but I couldn’t figure out the last one. So I just went with it, and hoped that the last question wasn’t on the test. So I get there, and start flipping through the test, and I find that he gave us all FOUR of the questions, but we got to PICK which two we wanted to do! I was so excited because I could do the two that I really knew well and hopefully get the full points on those!

I got done with the test in about 40 minutes and then rode my bike home. Called Andrew and he came on up. We spent the day just hanging out at my apartment talking and not really doing much. About 5:30ish we went and got supper, and then came back to my place where we started to plan out trips for the summer, but then got distracted and ended up just hanging out and talking some more. Very good night!

He left about 10ish, and I went to bed shortly after that.

This morning I got up at 7 and went to the doctor again. Told her about some side effects that I was having and we made the decision to just take me off drugs and hope that it goes away on it’s own. But the time at the doc was funny because they were having a disaster drill. Apparently the drill included hazmat suits and locking the place down. It was very confusing and funny at the same time, cause the person that scheduled my next appointment was like, “In a real emergency we would have just told you to call back later!” lol. So funny.

Anyways, the rest of the plan for the day is to work on my paper, then go to work and do some work, then maybe go out with Andrew, and Dustin tonight in DM. I dunno yet if I’ll go though. I might be too tired by then, and I might still have a paper to write the way that I keep putting it off! lol.

Anyways, laters!

Welcome Back, Kotter!

The last couple days have been great!

Andrew got back about 4:30ish. I picked him up for the airport and we drove him back to his house. Talked with Sue some, and then we watched the video from the cruise… So amusing! lol.

After that we drove back to Ames and hung out up here for the night. I don’t remember exactly what we did, but just pretty much caught up on what was going on. Heard all the stories from the cruise and the like.

Went to bed late, but I slept well. We got up about 8:30ish and made breakfast. After that we just hung out and watched the Jerry Springer show… What a mess! After that was over I headed out to class and left Andrew at my apartment.

Class was good, although it was mostly a waste of time. We have a test tomorrow, so I’m going to be studying for that most of the night tonight. I’m not sure how hard it’ll be. Hopefully not too bad!

After class back to my place, we rented movies. Dogma and Chicken Run. Both really good. After the movies, made supper and then laid around having a good time.

Andrew left about 10ish, it was sad to see him go, but he’ll be back Wed, YAY! I’m very glad that he’s back now!

Today’s been more class and then work. I got a ton of graphical stuff done, and I’m almost happy with the way it looks, just have to decide on a color scheme, and then the positioning of a few items then it’s all done! YAY!

Sorry for the short update, but I want to go home now. Laters!

As The Plane Touches Down

Ok, well here it is, June 1st, and I’m out waiting for Andrew’s flight to get in. Should be landing here in about 30 minutes or so. I’m very excited to get to see him again! Woot!

So yesterday was fun. I went over to beak’s about noon and we hung out with leper boy. He bought us lunch which was WAY nice of him. Thanks Leper boy! We all just hung out and talked about random stuff. So crazy. And how my family is covering up some deep dark secret or something like that.

After that we went to see Bruce Almighty. Which would have been a good movie if Jim Carry hadn’t fucked it up! Oh well, I can get over that. Although I do remmeber why I hate him so much! Grrr at Carry. I don’t think I’m even spelling his name right!

After the movie we went out to eat supper. Beak paid for me, so nice of her. Thanks BEAK! After supper back toher house. I left shortly after that, and went home to watch Bewitched. Such a great show. I was up until 4 this morning watching it! Weeee.

Well, I was mostly up because I couldn’t sleep, and that was the only thing interesting on, and it amused me… Which is something that I needed. Went to bed, and have done NOTHING today!

Oh, and the meds have kicked in. I tried jacking it this morning for like 40 minutes, and couldn’t get anywhere. Fuckers. Oh well, like I said. Doesn’t really matter, I ain’t getting any!

Well I had more to say, but now I can’t think of any of it. So I’m going to put this away now and go watch airplanes land!

Laters!

My Support

Ok, so probably the last private update before Andrew gets back. This last week has really made me miss him, and I don’t know how I’m going to handle it when he’s gone for good.

I had a dream last night that ended with me and him at an airport, and I was singing ?Leaving on a Jet Plane? I was crying in the dream, and I work up crying right after that. I couldn’t get to sleep for a while after that cause I just laid there crying. I miss him so much, it’s amazing really. Him being here I was falling in love with him, and now him being gone has really made me realize how much he means to me.

He’s a support for me, and he’s someone that I can talk and hang out with, and someone that I care about. I know I keep saying that I don’t want to compare this to Adam, but I’m going to again. When Adam went away for a week, I didn’t see him from Sunday, and then two weeks later Friday (A whole 11 days), and in the whole time, he was gone, I didn’t talk to him either. But yet, I was just like ?Eh, he’s gone.? And I still had a great time, and barely thought of him while he was gone. Andrew on the other hand has constantly been on my mind.

I’m just very excited for him to be getting back.

I hope that my crazy schemes works!