My Baby Christopher

So this has been a pretty eventful I suppose.

Ok let’s see, Friday we met up downtown and hung out with Dustin and crew for like 2 and a half seconds until theyditched us and did other stuff. So we walked around, and then sat down by the Amphitheater thingy and just talked and shit. After that we decided to go back to Chris’s b/c there was better than sex cake and we ate it for dinner and then made some mac and cheese and that was yummy as well.

THen we just layed around in his bed until it was time to go. I was uber tired and so I was just talking about really random shit, who even knows what half of it was. I do remember the important stuff though. The important things being that I told Chris I think I’m in love with him. He told me the same back, and we talked about how special we are to each other and cute things like that. I don’t really know how to elaborate on that much further. I really think I’m in love with him… it makes me happy… and scared of course b/c love is always scary.

Anyways, after that there was talk of me going to school and then Chris was crying. I didn’t think I would cry, but then I felt one of his teardrops hit my face, and I started up. So there are the two of us, just crying and hugging. And eventually we had to get up and leave and that night I really didn’t want to leave him. I didn’t feel that I could.

But I had to, and it was sad. Friday night was a lonely night sleeping by myself.

Saturday, I worked and then him and Court came over so we could go to the game. He was annoyed b/c Court (and me I suppose) made him drive, even though she was the one who had invited us to the game to begin with. But whatever. So we went tot he game and that was kinda fun, we won so that was good, and I think Katie was pretty happy that we showed up. After that we took Court back to the car and looked at computer stuff, where he again got annoyed b/c my mom was such a bitch to him. I’m pretty annoyed at her for saying what she did, but whatever, she is dumb.

So then we went out and ran a bunch of errands that we had to do, and that was fun, then Jenny called and wanted to go to dinner with Ginny and us. So we changed plans, and went to Jenny’s and then we all went to dinner, with the addition of Brian Niblo. Crazyness

So dinner was fun I guess, nothing really happened though Chris paid and that was nice!

Then we went to Chris’ house again, and it was really nice. We spent some time in the hot tub, talking, making out, doing what we do best. Tons of fun. Though it was raining and that wasn’t really fun.

Oh I forgot to include this, while we were waiting for it to be time to go to Jenny’s we were in this empty parking lot across the street making out in the backseat. TONS OF FUN! SOoooo scandalous. And I put on my new string bikini underwear, which I think Chris thoroughly enjoyed. At least I hope so!!!!!!

Unfortunately this is where the story ends. It is already too late and I need to be in bed if I am going to be up tomorrow to work out and then spend my day slaving away at WF.

So the deal is that I better have an update about the WHOLE weekend when I get home, and then I will finish this one up tomorrow.
I MISS YOU!

Fianally!

FINALLY!

Instead of eating and customizing my comp (things i SHOULD be doing) heres an update just for YOU.

So I totally missed Chris a ton on the trip, I even cried a few nights 🙁

But Sunday finally came and even though the plane rides took forever, I finally got off. Chris was there (I assumed he would be, then I insinuated that I wanted him to be) and it was soooooo great to see him again! We hugged and kissed in front of everyone and he met Danielle and Jessie and Danielle Passed him.

So we left and hung out and we did random shit at my house, I showed him the movie and gave him his souvneir from Jamaica. Which I doubt he will ever actually wear but eh, I thought it was a cute shirt. Mother said I could stay at his apt. that night, so we trekked up there,and the drive sucked b/c I was uber tired.

Well we got there and I read all his updates and they were reallytouching and then we just talked about our weeks and randomness. Talked a bit about how he is on meds and it worries me, but he assured me there is nothing to worry about. Though I guess he has already stopped taking them, which makes me happy, cause now he can orgasm! Teehee just kidding, I’d rather him not be able to orgasm than be depressed.

We also talked about the potentiality of him coming to NJ/LA when I leave for school. It was really nice of him to put thought into it.

Quick note on him putting thought into things. He has the weather for Orange up on his computer, and he bought OJ, and it was Tropicana and he was like “Isn’t that the kind you like?” It was just really sweet of him to do things like that. Ok maybe I’m just stupid.

Anyways, so I haven’t brought the idea up to mother yet, and I’m not quite sure how she will take it. But hopefully things pan out, it would be really nice to have him to support me when I go out there, so I don’t feel so alone and scared.

He also called me sunburndized or something like that, it was cute.

So I skipped work the next day and we just hung out all day, except for a several hour span where he went to class. I snooped a bit (not much) and then watched TV, got ready, and read some of Kevin. I fell asleep on the couch and was very confused when he came in and woke me up. For some reason I thought I was in my own apt. and I was like how the hell did you get in? Very crazy.

Got some movies (Dogma and Chicken Run) Both amusing, though I’ll have to say Chris found Chicken Run more amusing than I did. Still funny though, he’s so cute!

Really really hard to leave that night, after being away from him for so long I just didn’t want to go. Eventually forced myself away and drove home.
Tuesday I didn’t even get to talk to him, though he called me like a second and a half after I turned my phone off!

Wednesday I went up there and we had another great day. The majority of it was spent making out/fooling around. He showered and was very nicely repaid for it in the form of rimmy/fingering goodness. My opinion is that he enjoyed it even though he didn’t get to cum, but he seemed ok with that. I had another crazy shooting orgasm.

I was starving from all the messing around, so we got dinner at Hickory Park b/c I was totally craving a Patty Melt and it was soooooo good!
Went back to his house, layed around in bed, apparently I said some things that scared him but I don’t know what they were and neither does he.
He indicates that he doesn’t believe me when I say that he’s the best b/f I’ve ever had. I don’t quite know what else I can do to prove it to him, I guess if he doesn’t want to believe me, then he won’t. But it’s the truth.

Hard again to leave, even harder for CHris b/c he couldn’t stop fondling my ass. I’m glad that he enjoyed my new underwear so much, I pretty much bought it to tease/seduce him and I think it works pretty well.

Anyways, not much else… I am veryglad to be home and very happy to be seeing my Topher again! It was totally hard to be without him but now we are back together and have 3 more weeks before I have to go away again! But this time, I’ll have access to a phone, so it’ll be tons better!

That’s about it for now

BREAK!

He’s Back!

Ok, well I?ve been meaning to write this entry for quite some time? Well ever since Andrew got back from the cruise.

Quite a bit has happened since then. Sunday night he spent the night and we had a good time catching up about what had been going on with each other the last week, etc. Also got in some making out and etc. lol. It was such a great night sleeping with him again!

We also talked about my crazy scheme, and he seemed all right with it. Hopefully I didn?t scare him too much, but I think that it would be a nice thing to do. And it would also be fun for me to get a vacation, and to see where he grew up. But it seems like that part of the trip might not happen. Which is fine, because it is just a crazy scheme right now, and it?s all up to him! I?m just trying to be a nice bf and see him off to college. Other topics were also brought up, but I don?t really remember all of them. He claims that I withhold information from him, which I don?t try to do.

After out little talk and the fun times we went to bed. It was late, but I don?t have any idea what time. Lol

Monday morning we got up and since I hadn?t cum the night before, he tried making me cum, but that still didn?t work. I?m really surprised at how fast the drugs kicked in, in regards to their side effects. Considering that the actual effects of the drugs usually don?t kick in tell a few weeks after you start taking them. It?s very annoying really the fact that I can?t cum when he tries so hard. And it feels so good for me! I?m sure that if I weren?t on the drugs I probably would have cum like 5 times in the last 4 days! Lol. And it?s definitely not because of anything that he?s doing! Oh man, let me tell you! Lol.

Anyways, his giving me a blowjob led to him getting a semi-rimmy. Perhaps this weekend he?ll get another real rimmy. Lol. Anyways, he came again! All over me this time. Very hot, :-P.

After that we got up and I made breakfast, pancakes. I got sick while making the first one; so I had to turn it off and go sit in the bathroom for a while. I don?t know what came over me. But I got really light headed and hot and just felt like I was going to through up. It was very disturbing. After that little spout was over, I went back to cooking, and made us both two pancakes. I could only eat like half of mine because I got sick again. I really don?t know what was coming over me that day.

We watched Jerry and some other shows. Then I left and went to class. I felt really bad leaving him there while I was in class, but I?m sure that he found something to do! When I got to class I opened my notebook to find a really cute note from him and it made me smile SOOO big! He?s so sweet with cute little things like that!

That had to have been the LONGEST class ever! The 2 hours usually just FLY by, but Monday?s class went soooo SLOW!

After class I of course missed the first bus, so I had to wait around for the second bus, I was like, COMON! I want to go see my Drew Bear! Finally it got here and I rode it home. Got back at like 2:30 and he was sleeping. So I walked in and he was so confused about what was going on, and got me very confused. But I guess he had a good time while I was away. After that we talked about Kevin, and then went and got movies. Both movies were very good.

He insisted on lying in back, which is fine. But I?m always so nervous about my fat hanging out with his arms around me. I guess I?m just very self-consciousness with things like that. Although I will have to say that lately I have been becoming happy with the way that I look. When I look in a mirror, I see a happier looking me. I?d still like to loose some weight, but I am starting to like the way that I look. I?m still scared though that whenever I?m shirtless around him, he?s going to one day look at me and say, ?Why am I dating this tub of lard!??

Well, after the movies it was getting late, so he made himself some supper and again I felt a little light headed. So I sat on the couch while he did that. After he ate supper we just laid around and talked some more. Such good times.

He left late that night, but I don?t remember what time. It?s so good to have him back! I am once again very happy!

Ok, finally onto Wednesday. He came up and got here about 2ish. Wearing something that was very surprising for me to see him wearing. But it was cute! (When isn?t he cute looking!) We sat on the couch talking about what we had been up to that day and how my test went and what the bad news that Court had called about Monday night was. After that we made out for like 2 and a half hours. Which was uber great, and I got another rimmy, and he got another semi-rimmy. Lol. He was wearing the CUTEST fucking underwear I?ve ever seen! Rarrrrr times a million! So hot! He came and again, I couldn?t cum. It was so embarrassing and I always feel so bad, and then I know that he feels bad, so I feel even worse. And it?s just a vicious cycle.

After that we went out to eat and he paid, thanks Drew, I owe you!

From eating back to my place where we did more lying around. This time we just talked about things. A TON of random stuff was brought up, and I told him about fucking and getting fucked and fingering and enemas and lots of other sexual things. And we also tried to plan our trip, but it was too dark to see the calendar by that time. So we just said fuck it.

He stripped and I had my shirt off. Eventually I also took off my pants, and he took off his shirt. Rarr times a million again at my sex boy! Lol.

We also talked about how most of his other relationships have involved lots of time talking on the phone and how ours hasn?t. I couldn?t really tell if he felt that as a good thing or a bad. I mean I think that we have plenty of time talking. Of course I would always like more, but well he just said that he?s always talked a lot on the phone with other bf?s and the like.

There were a lot of other things that he said that kind of scared me, but of course now I can?t really remember them.

I hope that he?s as happy with this relationship as I am. I guess he says that he is, because he claims that I?m the best bf he?s ever had. But I bet he?s used that line before :-P. I?m always so afraid.

The Hardest Thing

Wow, well I guess my great record of getting an update nearly every day during May, isn’t going to continue in June, eh?

I’m currently in the Library trying to write my paper for Phil class, I got the cover page done, but I’m having problems getting it started. I just don’t know how to go about that. It’s always the hardest part of the paper. Really, it is. The second hardest part is understanding what the hell the papers that you’re writing about is talking about! I’ve read it three times now, and I’m stil very confused as to what exactly this John T Noonan is talking about. Why do philosophers always have to write so crazy like! Speak English Goddamnit!

At least I can understand Glover. That’s what really matters in the this class though.

Yeasterday day we had our one and only test. It was very interesting. I spent all night Tuesday studying for it. And I think that helped a lot. Perhaps I should do that for all my classes from now on! lol. Anyways, this class has really helped me understand what’s going on. It just goes to prove that good professors make all the difference. Now I just hope that my grade shows that too!

I mean like last semester if you would have asked me what the Social Contract Theory was. I would have asked you if that had ANYTHING to do with Phil. Now this semester I understand it enough that I can actually explain it to other people. Which I did explain it to Andrew when I was telling him about the prisoners dilema. I hope he wasn’t too bored by that, but I was feeling smart! lol.

Anyways, the test went good. There were a few things where it asked to give examples of arguments that showed different fallacies, and I coulnd’t think of any. But the essay’s were nice, because on Tuesday he had given us a list of 4, and he said that two would be on the test. Well I knew the answers to two of them, and I figured out the answer to one of the others, but I couldn’t figure out the last one. So I just went with it, and hoped that the last question wasn’t on the test. So I get there, and start flipping through the test, and I find that he gave us all FOUR of the questions, but we got to PICK which two we wanted to do! I was so excited because I could do the two that I really knew well and hopefully get the full points on those!

I got done with the test in about 40 minutes and then rode my bike home. Called Andrew and he came on up. We spent the day just hanging out at my apartment talking and not really doing much. About 5:30ish we went and got supper, and then came back to my place where we started to plan out trips for the summer, but then got distracted and ended up just hanging out and talking some more. Very good night!

He left about 10ish, and I went to bed shortly after that.

This morning I got up at 7 and went to the doctor again. Told her about some side effects that I was having and we made the decision to just take me off drugs and hope that it goes away on it’s own. But the time at the doc was funny because they were having a disaster drill. Apparently the drill included hazmat suits and locking the place down. It was very confusing and funny at the same time, cause the person that scheduled my next appointment was like, “In a real emergency we would have just told you to call back later!” lol. So funny.

Anyways, the rest of the plan for the day is to work on my paper, then go to work and do some work, then maybe go out with Andrew, and Dustin tonight in DM. I dunno yet if I’ll go though. I might be too tired by then, and I might still have a paper to write the way that I keep putting it off! lol.

Anyways, laters!

Welcome Back, Kotter!

The last couple days have been great!

Andrew got back about 4:30ish. I picked him up for the airport and we drove him back to his house. Talked with Sue some, and then we watched the video from the cruise… So amusing! lol.

After that we drove back to Ames and hung out up here for the night. I don’t remember exactly what we did, but just pretty much caught up on what was going on. Heard all the stories from the cruise and the like.

Went to bed late, but I slept well. We got up about 8:30ish and made breakfast. After that we just hung out and watched the Jerry Springer show… What a mess! After that was over I headed out to class and left Andrew at my apartment.

Class was good, although it was mostly a waste of time. We have a test tomorrow, so I’m going to be studying for that most of the night tonight. I’m not sure how hard it’ll be. Hopefully not too bad!

After class back to my place, we rented movies. Dogma and Chicken Run. Both really good. After the movies, made supper and then laid around having a good time.

Andrew left about 10ish, it was sad to see him go, but he’ll be back Wed, YAY! I’m very glad that he’s back now!

Today’s been more class and then work. I got a ton of graphical stuff done, and I’m almost happy with the way it looks, just have to decide on a color scheme, and then the positioning of a few items then it’s all done! YAY!

Sorry for the short update, but I want to go home now. Laters!