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He’s To Busy

So. Friday was one long ass day at work. But it finially ended. I was off to see my boy! I was so happy that I was finially getting to see him again after more then a week.

I get nearly to his house. He calls, “Hey, I’ve been slammed at work and am running a bit late, can you hold off for like 10 minutes”.. Sure not a problem he had called earlier and told me he was really busy at work and might be a bit late. So I just wait the ten minutes at a little coffee house next door to him. I walk to his place and he was just getting there… I waited another 10 minutes in his house while he changed. VERY sexy in his suit. OMG. And that ass! ::dies::

I met his roommate too, who was very nice. We headed out to dinner and got right into this sushi place. Had a great chat about work and our days and some other general stuff. I was in such a great mood. After that we headed out to the movie theater. Got there and went in, sat down. After about ten min of the movie, he grabs my hand and we hold hands for the rest of the movie, and he put his other hand on my leg and was just carassing it, so nice and caring esq.

We ended up seeing Strangers with Candy, neither of us wanted to wait in line to see Pirates. It was a very funny movie.

After the movie we drove back to his place, parked the car and then walked to TCBY.. He finially let me pay for something, so I got the deserts. Walked around the block and stuff and talked. He told me about some family drama he was having, that his Aunt and Uncle found out he was gay and that he was going to have to tell his parents before they could. It was a nice chat.

Got back to his place and we went into his room and laid down on his bed. Talked for a bit and then he turned on the TV. I leaned in and kissed him, we ended up making out for the rest of the night. He never tried to go any farther.

We also talked in there. I asked him about a few things… What he was insecure bout. Intelligence, body, sex. I don’t see why about the body, he’s got a damn fine one. 🙂 So we talked about that for a while, talked about his family some more and some other things.

I had an amazing night. “Yowzers” as he would put it. I left about midnight cause he had his outrigger thing in the morning. By the time I left though, we had talked about plans for hanging out Saturday night and also a hike on Sunday depending on when he told his parents.

He walked me out to my car and we kissed and said good night, he said to call him when I got home.  I drove home with the biggest smile I’ve had in a long fucking time.

I called him when I got here and he told me he had an amazing time and was excited for the next time we got to hang out. Said goodnight again and hung up.

Saturday… Comes, and I hadn’t heard from him by 2. I figured his thing would be over about noonish. I had done laundry all morning cause he wouldn’t let me come to the Outrigger thing in Long Beach. Said he would only be in the water for like 5 minutes. So I said that’s cool, as long as I get to see the one next weekend. Which he promised me I could.

So at 2 Austin called and wanted to do something. I send the boy a txt and ask him how the thing went and if we were still on for that night. He replies and said it went well and that he was going to take a nap.. I ask him to call me when he gets up so that I know what’s going on for sure or not.

Hung out with Austin till like 5:30ish. We had a great time. He hugged me, twice. Very odd for him.

I got home and the boy was online. I ask. “How was the nap”. He says it didn’t happen, he went bed shopping with his roommate. I ask him if he had decided if he wanted to hang out for sure tonight or not. Cause I wanted to make other plans if not.. he says: “awww… i do want to hang out with you! I have to go to a birthday dinner for my friend Marissa tonight”.

So then I ask about Sunday. Suddenly he has practice in the morning, and then the thing with his parents. Which was expected. But if he has practice in the morning, why did he EVER say yes to going hiking on Sunday.. And this birthday thing I doubt is last minute! Ugh.

Then I said that I wanted to ask him something. He said. “Phone convo”. I said I’d rather just talk on AIM cause I’d get nervous.  So then this happens:

6:15:21 PM oawww: Ok…. So far after our three dates, i’m really enjoying hanging out with you and our time together, and you totally seem like a great guy and someone i would like to continue to get to know better….. The last couple people I started going out with, i thought things were going well but then they abruptly stopped talking to me… So at this point i just want to make sure we’re both on the same page….. so basically, after these couple dates…. do you feel things continuing on, or going off into a friends only area… ?

6:22:21 PM theboy: Good question. I feel the same way, but I don’t have a lot of time this summer due to pre-planned commitments, and I don’t want to get into a situation where I dont have time for you and you get frusterated

6:26:31 PM oawww: Well, at this point, I feel that I’d like to see you as much as possible for the summer and hopefully after summer we’d have more time…. I’m a very understanding person, as long as you are open about how much time you have. I’m ok with that.

6:27:01 PM theboy: true

6:27:16 PM theboy: being open and communicating are important to me

6:27:26 PM oawww: Very true…

6:27:43 PM theboy: I have a lot on my mind right now and I didn’t really want to see you because of that

6:27:48 PM oawww: That’s why i’m asking you this now, before I get too involved into anything.

6:27:49 PM theboy: Im not that talkative right now

6:28:06 PM oawww: Yeah. I understand that… And I’m sorry to bring this up now

6:28:26 PM oawww: But since I’m not sure when I was going to see you again. I just wanted to make sure we were both on the same page about things

6:29:19 PM theboy: I’m still not ready to commit to anything just yet, since my life is already full of commitments, which would be my only disclaimer

6:32:05 PM oawww:  It’s ok… Hopefully we can continue seeing each other in the capacity we have been, and maybe once your current commitments are past we can go from there.. By then we’d both have a better understanding of how things would work…… To be completely honest, I’d have to say you’re a great guy, you’re smart, you’re funny, you’ve acted very caring… All great qualities I’m looking for.

6:36:20 PM theboy: thanks…  You are amazing …. which is why I want to be careful in my actions

6:36:29 PM theboy: dont worry about me ever not calling you back

6:36:39 PM theboy: i respect you too much for that

6:40:06 PM oawww:  Thanks… That makes me feel better.. And now that I know what to expect It’ll be ok… I hope that we can continue to figure things out through the summer and just take things slow and see what happens once your time frees up. I’ll always be looking forward to the next time we have to hang out, because i really enjoy those times.

6:53:13 PM oawww: Anyways. I’m sorry to have dumped this on you, but like I said, I just wanted to make sure we were on the same page.

7:00:42 PM theboy: no worries! ok, im going to get ready, I’ll talk to you later skater!

7:00:59 PM oawww: Ok… have a great night… and good luck tomorrow.

7:01:07 PM oawww: Give me a call if you wanna chat.

7:01:12 PM theboy: thanks, you too… I will !

So yeah. I’m a bit bummed by all this.  He’s too busy, not a big surprise. I just don’t get why boys go out on dates, when they know they are too busy, or not ready, or what not. I’m so sick of all these excuses.

I sent him a txt today asking how the b-day party was. No reply, and it’s been 4 hours.

I’m so sick of boys. I just want that damn relationship. I want to be over this search. I want to have someone who I can trust and count on to always be there. I want to have someone to come home to, and cook dinner for. Someone to sit around at night and have drinks with and lay in bed reading a books together. Someone I can make all these plans with that won’t ditch me at the last minute.

I have all these things I want to do this summer. They won’t get done with out _someone_ to go with! I just want that SOMEONE.

In other news… I went on a 20 mile bike ride this morning with this guy Jason. He was nice, but I feel friends only there already. Who knows.

Robert and Mike should be here any minute. Adios.

Work Drama

So… last week all of the PHS people were out of the office. Some offsite thing or what not.

Yesterday, TG cornered me in the bathroom and started telling me how I should start cuting JP out of my daily work routine, how he and AO will start coming to me directly instead of going through JP, etc. He also said they are going to move me over to the Yahoo! Center building and out of the WR office. I said, ok fine, let me talk to JP when he gets back. I’m still JP’s employee, not TG’s or AO’s personal boy-toy. No big deal.

Today I come into work late (at 10) because I’ve got a date with the boy tonight here in SM and what’s the point of driving here twice in one day? Anyways, when I get in I’ve got an e-mail from the CEO saying that I have to call him as soon as I get in. So I give him a ring. Apparently TG and AO told him that I wasn’t in the office at all last week.

Excuse me? Both of those people weren’t here at all last week themselves! How would they know if I was in the office or not? And secondly, I WAS in the office all week (Except Fri when I was in NB). In fact I put in over 60 HOURS of work last week. So I reminded him that just becuse I work 6-2, that doesn’t mean my day ends at 2 when I go home. I typically end up putting in 2+ more hours once I’m at home. He said he’d straighten things out, but it just annoys me. If they thought I wasn’t in the office, why not come to me and ask? And I _really_ want to know where they got that idea from in the first place! If they’d just check the page for the project I’m currently working on they would see HUGE changes from the week before (Line count change from the previous week is about 3,400 lines).

Out internet here today is ungodly slow. It’s taken me nearly an hour to upload the 14 megs of my project!

(Private)Secondly, last night the boy was suppose to come over after his practice. He said that he’d call me after he was done to confirm, because he wasn’t sure what time he’d be done. I wasn’t too concerned, but it annoyed me when he didn’t call till 8:30 and said, “Yeah I just got out of the shower”. Hello? What happened to “I’ll call you as soon as I’m off the water?” Cause I had been waiting for him so that I could eat! Though we talked for a while after that and got plans for today all figured out. I just dunno what to feel about him. He said he was really excited for our date tonight, etc, but then he does things like not call when he says he will. He promised he’d call me at 4 today, so we’ll see what happens. (Private)

Adios.

San Fran Pics

Here’s the new header pics from San Fran:

35 – Carrots At The Pier

36 – Cherries at the Pier

37 – Coca-Cola

38 – Ghiradelli

39 – Wasteland

40 – Bridge in Japanesse Garden

41 – Coast Line Badoga Bay

42- Sunset over the Bridge

43 – Sunset over the Bride (2)

44 – Sunset over the Bridge (3)

(Private) So, the whole thing with the boy…. I just wanted to talk about it a bit more.. First are the txts and e-mails. After our first date he would txt or e-mail me every morning and every night with some cute txt, like “good morning sunshine” or “good night sweet pea” or something like that. Those seem to have basically stopped. Although this morning when I imed him, he did say “good morning sunshine” but alas he didn’t start it like usual.

Second is that when I was in san fran he kept saying he wanted me to come home early so we could hang out and go out and blah blah blah. But now that I’m back, he doesn’t seem as excited to hang out. Like last night he had a few hours before going to his parents. I could have gone up there and hung out with him. Or tonight he says he wants to hang out but that the has to work late. Which I guess is ok, but I’m just over analyzing thing again.

And then last night I sent him a message asking him to call me when he was on his way to his parents house so that we could discuss when we were going to hang out again…. he never called. So yeah. I just get the feeling that this isn’t going to last much longer. Ugh! I’m going to keep giving it my best, and keep being the “old” me till he cuts it off though, I’m not giving up hope. (Private)

Last night people around here were setting off VERY loud fireworks till 2 am. For being illegal, there sure were a lot of them.

Tux and Moo have been OVERLY lovey since I got home yesterday. I’m sitting in my office chair now and tux just keeps rubbing up against me. and last night he kept head butting me all night.

I forgot to mention that I found a 1972 Edition of the BSA Fieldbook over the weekend. Nothing too old, but it’s something to add to my collection.

Anyways. I’m out. adios!

Another Great Date!

So last night was another great date! 🙂

I felt really bad for him though, because it took him 1.5 hours to get here from SM, where it normally takes me between 30 and 40 minutes. Poor him, I think I made up for it though!

So he got there about 7:30 and we went over to HT Grill and had dinner. Excellent food! I highly suggest you go there! 🙂 Our waitress was really fun and we had a great convo over dinner. Just talked about all kinds of random stuff, and some not so random serious stuff.

When we went to pay, he kept trying to pay for it. But I wanted to pay since he did last time.. In the end he did cause they didn’t take Discover and he attacked our waitress. It was really nice of him.

After dinner we walked home and did a little window shoping on the way. It’s not quite what I had in mind of sitting no the beach chatting, but it was too cold and too late for that. Either way we got back to my place and I showed him some pictures of things that I had talked about during dinner. And then we just sat on the couch and spent the night talking and making out. 😀 haha.

He’s such a cutie and so nice! It makes me happy…. And to think we met on “MySpace”!

Anyways, he ate only 2 cookies! But I made him take some home. haha. He left about midnight, but not after we went over to the hill above the beach and stood there for a minute looking at the water and making out some more! It’s so pretty there at night! Next time we’re walking on the beach.

I kinda pushed his PDA limit though there… I hope it didn’t bug him.

So yeah, he left and I went to bed. I forgot to turn off my alarm last night, so it went off at 5 and I couldn’t get back to sleep.

Anyways, I don’t think I’ll get a chance to see him again till next Wed. Tonight he’s got practice, and then I leave tomorrow and won’t be back till late Tuesday night. 🙁

Adios!

Private: Some Friends…

God! What the fuck is up with these jack asses.. Some fucking friends!

So last night after work I went over and hung out with Joel and Ryan till we left for the Boom. That was good times.

Got to the bar. I was already really drunk. But Dustin bought a round, so I had one. Then Lewis bought a round. So I had another. Ugh!

So we all get ready to leave. We were going to go to Harbor House for food. But for some reason we went back to Joels instead. We all get there, and I had to throw up, so I go in the bathroom…

Next thing I hear is Joel, Ryan and Dustin all fucking in the bedroom right outside the door!

Ummm… Excuse me!? I’m throwing up and they don’t even fucking care!

And WTF?!

I’m so pissed at all of them. Ryan finially came into the bathrroom to see how I was doing. That was about 3am. I got pissed, grabbed my shit and went out to my car. Ryan followed and we talked for a little bit. I told him that Joel fucked me the night he stayed over at Dustins. When I was passed out.

He didn’t seem to care, but he appologized. Ugh!

So I slept in my car for till 5am and then drove home really drunk. That was like the longest hour of my life! Just me and my thoughts of how fucking pissed off I was last night.

I really hope that Joel and Dustin don’t show up tonight to my party.