July 14, 2001

july 14, [acdc, "back in black"] ok so sorry about the no update

ysterday, but it was just a sucky day. however, today’s been great. i went

to work, and there was no marlin, so that was good. but i should never work

with mandy for extended amounts of time, i think we would kill each other.

but then after work i went out with adam to that summerfest thing, that was

great cause i got to meet all his friends. and i finally got to meet that

mike guy, i think that’s his name, he’s damn fucking hot though, lol. we talked,

it was good times. adam told some other girl about him being bi and such and

that was amusing for me. cause he was like, i need to talk to you over here,

and this other girl that was standing there was just going "he’s gay,

he’s gay" and i was amused. but yeah. and then earlier we were talking

and he was like, "ya sometimes i’ll introduce you as my bf and sometimes

just as my friend" and i’m cool with that, but he feels so bad about

it, cause well i dunno really. i mean i can understand why you would want

to do that, and i’ll do it sometimes too when he meets some people. but i

understand the whole in the closet thing, and i’m thinking i’m just lucky

that he wants to go out with me. 🙂 but yeah, tonight was good times. we hung

with his mom some too, that was amusing. but other then that it was just a

good night hanging with adam. good times. good times. well i have 5 people

IMing me, so i’m going to go talk to them now. laters.

July 11, 2001 #2

july 11, #2 [bush, "swim"] so this morning adam called and said

he couldn’t go out with me this morning cause he had to paint or something,

sounded like he had just got out of bed, but yeah. so i went out by myself.

i didn’t find anything i thought she’d like, i called shiela, her mom, and

she said that she was wanting like ivy stuff for her kitchen so i focused

on that. i went to kohls, target, wal-mart, k-mart, and younkers and didn’t

find anything. but i did get some things for myself, hehe. but yeah so i got

home about 3 or so and i came inside and went to the kitchen to get a pop,

my dad was in there and i thought it’d be nice to tell him i’d be home for

July 11, 2001

july 11, [alanis morissette, "ironic"] ok well today’s been okey

i guess. work sucked like normal, but then i went out. i went to java joes

first and ran into candice and jamie, that was cool we talked a bit, then

i went and called adam, and he was at the loop, so i went there to see him.

we met up and i was like, hey wanna go back to java joes and see if candice

and jamie want to come to the loop. and they were like yeah, so we were heading

back to my car when we saw jules and dean, so we got them and all went back

to java joes, candice and jamie had left though, so that was sad, but we stayed

and talked a bit. it was good times, then we went back to the loop and jules

and dean left. so adam and tara and i hung out there. adam ran into an old

friend down there, which was amusing for me, but he was freaked out somewhat.

then on the way home we talked about like the whole touchy feely type things

and i’m cool with touchy feely stuff, but yeah. it’s kinda wierd, the whole

relationship thing. it’s like, how far can i go, how far’s he want me to go.

you know, and of course i’m not the kind to take the first step, so yeah.

it doesn’t work out to well. i mean i don’t mind the touchy feely at all,

i like it alot. i like the feeling of him there, but i mean, it’s like, how

far’s he want to take this, it’s the whole not knowing, sometime i think we

should just like sit down and have a long talk about everything in general,

but yeah. things are good between us, i think. and i’m really liken’ being

with him. i really am.

July 10, 2001 #2

july 10, #2 [live, "selling the drama"] ok well today’s been really

great. really really great so far, hehe. adam came over this morning, we hung

out here and talked and walked around and yeah, it was great. we burned him

a cd of songs that he wanted and we sat on the couch and talked about such

things. i found out he’s still a virgin, hehe, cool cool. we also talked about

se and such and he said he’s not ready for it, neither am i really, so it’s

good to know that there’s no pressure or anything about it. things are good.

life’s good at the moment, and yeah, good times, really good times. i know

this is a vague update, but yeah. it helps. tomorrow night adam and i are

going up to camp. i have to pick him up from work about 8 and then we’ll head

up there, campfire starts at 9 (i think), so we should make it there in time

to see the whole thing. then after that there’s the call out ceremony, which

will be nice to see, not only cause of the hot guys wearing pretty much nothing,

but because it’s something that i’ve grown with, something that i’ve seen

every summer since i was 11 or so. and it’s a nice little ceremony. it’s kinda

like it’s a part of me now, the boy scouts and all, it’s going to be hard

to let them go completely, i should stop telling people that i was a boy scout.

but it’s hard to even do that. you know, it’s been such a huge part of my

life in the past years. grrr. damn boy scouts. i think my dad scared adam,

he came home and started yelling at andy cause he didn’t get the things done

that he was supposed to get done. so yeah, adam left. but we had a good time

this morning. well i’m heading to work, laters all.

July 10, 2001

july 10th [bush, "alien"] ok well today’s been a great and wornderful

day, it didn’t start out that way though. i got up and went swimming today

about 12. that was cool. i knew my dad would be home soon and he’d want to

go swimming so i just left the cover off of it. he got home and went out there

to go swimming, then he comes in after he went swimming and says "you

can’t put the cover on the pool when you’re done with it" and i said

"i didn’t put it on cause i knew you’d be home soon and want to go swimming"

to that he just repeated what he started with and i just ignored him. then

later i cut up some califlower to eat and i left the trimmings on the counter.

well he somes over and goes, "what you think you’re a guest in this house,

you don’t have to clean up after yourself" and i go "no i wasn’t

done yet." and then he goes on to say "well you know you’re not

a guest in this house, you could help clean up some around here" and

i just wanted to fucking scream at him. that stupid bastard, you know i’m

home like 3 hours a day other then when i sleep, i work 40 hours a fucking

week just like you do, just because it’s different hours doesn’t mean i don’t

work just as much as you do, and also i don’t eat here, so i don’t get dishes

dirty, i do all my own laundry, so all that’s left is the floors and unlike

him, i take my shoes off when i come in the door. so i don’t track through

the house. and then the other day, i did _all_ the dishes, washed them by

hand and everything. well instead of them putting them away or using them

they just left them there and piled more dirty dishes on top of them and empty

pop cans i just wanted to scream at them for that, i spent like 2 hours cleaning

those and they just wasted them all. grrrr. i hate my parents. then i went

to work, it was ok. people were overly rude today though and that got me in

a pissy mood. but then after work i went out to the loop and met up with adam.

that was *_REALLY_* cool. we met there with tara (i’m pretty sure that’s her

name) and xak, adam and i laid on the ground, adam had his head on my chest

and it was just soooooo great. i was like, oh yeah. lol. we just sat there

and talked for a while, then we went and mingled, there weren’t many people

there that we knew, so we just hung out and talked. it was a really great

night there though. i was happy, it put me in a great mood. so yeah, great

times, but then the whole damn 12:30 cerfew thing happeend so we had to leave,

i really didn’t want to leave, damn adam’s parents and the whole damn age

thing, hehe. oh well, it’s all good. he was talking about coming over here

tomorrow, errr, well i guess it’s today now, but yeah….oh yeah, jules claims

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