Author: Cj B

I feel so stupid (1)

5:39:40 PM bnett84: hey i got an invite to sit on his lap…haha

5:39:57 PM blackc2004: and you’ll probably use it too, but you won’t use mine.

5:40:09 PM bnett84: i can never spend the night

5:40:21 PM blackc2004: never ever

5:40:31 PM blackc2004: ?

5:41:07 PM bnett84: i can, just havent been able to

5:42:36 PM blackc2004: i wish you could

5:42:55 PM bnett84: for breakfast?

5:43:06 PM bnett84: so you can make me breakfast i mean

5:43:22 PM blackc2004: lots of reasons

5:43:33 PM bnett84: you just want my cock…haha

5:43:36 PM blackc2004: no

5:43:42 PM blackc2004: if i wanted that i’d have had it already

5:43:53 PM bnett84: haha

5:44:11 PM blackc2004: tis true

5:44:26 PM blackc2004: , no?

5:44:57 PM bnett84: yea

5:45:33 PM blackc2004: if austin wanted it could he have it.

5:45:47 PM bnett84: wanted what?

5:45:52 PM blackc2004: what are we talking about?

5:45:59 PM bnett84: not right away

5:46:13 PM blackc2004: but he could get it?

5:46:24 PM bnett84: yes with requirements

5:46:29 PM blackc2004: what requirements

5:46:36 PM bnett84: commitment

5:46:42 PM blackc2004: are you just mocking me now

5:46:44 PM bnett84: trust

5:46:57 PM bnett84: not really

5:47:01 PM blackc2004: not really?

5:47:19 PM bnett84: i would need time

5:47:30 PM bnett84: i dont know what the requirements would be

5:47:45 PM bnett84: I was telling him tonight that i can see my old b/f in his pictures

5:47:54 PM blackc2004: oh?

5:48:35 PM blackc2004: how so?

5:48:39 PM bnett84: it is weird

5:49:16 PM bnett84: the one you sent me where he is wearing the yellow shirt, i can totally see him there

5:49:27 PM blackc2004: ah

5:49:31 PM blackc2004: do you like him already?

5:49:40 PM bnett84: not yet

5:50:18 PM bnett84: i am sort of debating getting to like him because of my whole ex thing

5:50:38 PM blackc2004: oh.

5:50:43 PM bnett84: but then again it may be good, i dont know

5:51:00 PM bnett84: thats why i am happy and sad and sort of depressed

5:51:38 PM blackc2004: Ahh, happy and sad because he reminds you about him?

5:51:44 PM bnett84: yea

5:51:50 PM blackc2004: what bout the rest of it?

5:52:15 PM bnett84: depressed because i cant have him back

5:52:20 PM bnett84: i will never see him again

5:52:29 PM blackc2004: yeah.. what about the loving part?

5:52:51 PM bnett84: that has nothing to do with him or you

5:53:02 PM blackc2004: what does it have to do with then?

5:53:30 PM bnett84: just me and Jimmy

5:53:35 PM blackc2004: what about?

5:53:42 PM bnett84: our fight today

5:54:01 PM bnett84: i wish it didnt happen

5:54:13 PM bnett84: he wont even answer the phone when i call him

5:54:23 PM blackc2004: aww, that sucks. how’s he know it’s u?

5:54:45 PM bnett84: Caller ID i call from his mothers house in his room where he has his own number

5:54:58 PM blackc2004: oh, why don’t you use your calling card?

5:55:09 PM bnett84: those minutes are for you

5:55:21 PM blackc2004: use them for him. he’s more important then i am.

5:55:34 PM blackc2004: fix your friendship and get it off your chest, it will make you feel better

5:56:04 PM bnett84: i know, but anyways babe, i have to get going now…i may be online tomorrow but not until after 5 or so

5:56:20 PM blackc2004: please call him, do it for me, eh?

5:56:23 PM blackc2004: have a good night

5:56:33 PM bnett84: you too talk to you later babe::hugs::

5:56:39 PM blackc2004: bubybe

The whole time I wanted to ask.. “What about me”.

And I really wanted to say. “If you really wanted to, you would find a way”

BrokeBack Again

Yo yall, Brokeback opens in two theaters in DM on Friday!

But, I was listening to NPR yesterday and heard a story about Brokeback, apparently Heath is REALLY married to the woman who played his wife in Brokeback, and they are having a kid! Who knew?

But the funny part of this story is that when they were doing the movie, she wanted Heath and the other guy to make out so that she could get a good reaction when they were shooting the part with her on the deck catching them making out. Anyways, they started, and were doing a shitty job so she yelled at them to make it look real and stuff. (They had to shoot that one sceen 15 times I think he said)

It’s just funny that his WIFE was yelling at him to make out with another guy. haha.

First Five are very interesting to hear.

Brokeback was also voted the number one tear jerker movie this year.

And I’ve been getting lots of google hits for searches of this movie! Hello everyone. 🙂

In other news, I saw a referring site link from DS sites (http://…/awstats.pl), So HI David! 😛

Oh, and also selfpics.org has vanished!

I’m out to do work, adios.

Mind Eraser?

I wish I could have one of those cool mind erasers like they have in MIB, but one that only erases my regrets. There’s lots of things in my life that I both regret doing, and things that I regret not doing.

But for me, they build up, and bug the hell out of me years later. I can’t seem to move on from them. Last night I was kept awake for hours because of something I didn’t do (or maybe it was something I did, depending on the way you look at the situation) when I was 12! God damnit.

Either way, as yesterday’s post stated, I was lazy as hell. I did work my full 8 hours though, and I got some stuff done. But not as much as I could reallly have gotten done. I applied to a few part time jobs. Extra money is always nice. An extra $400-500 a month could do a lot for me. 🙂

After I got home I was going to go biking to start burning off the fat that I gained at my parents house (which is very visiable), but then I got home and decided that it was still too cold to go out. God I’m lazy. I need to get my ass back going to the gym and doing the biking thing. Gah, why is staying healthy so much work?

I ended up sitting on the couch chatting with people online all night, I met someone who’s from Bakersfield, and he started talking with Blake, and then we got into this random three sided conversation. It was crazy. He and I might be doing lunch. I’m going to give him some business contacts cause he’s trying to find a job, and since I keep getting job offers, I figured I’d just pass those people onto him. (Speaking of which, I got ANOTHER call yesterday for a job down in SD)

I also met this guy who graduated from ISU in 2003 and is living in Dana Point. He seems cool, but we haven’t talked too much. I met this other random guy who apparently knows Nikki and JonJon and who was dating Matt at the SAME TIME that Matt was dating JonJon.. Very crazyness. I want to contact Nikki to get her side of the story, because of course his story makes him out to be the victim. I just like hearing both sides. 🙂

And lastly, I’ve been e-mailing this guy back and forth for like a week, he’s been wanting to hang out. But since I’ve been in Iowa I clearly couldn’t. Well last night he indicated that he wanted to hook up as well as hang out. Well I knew I had seen his profile on MySpace and could have sworn it said he was in a realtionship, so I looked and YEP, that fucker is clearly in a relationship, and his boyfriend posts like every other day that he “loves him” on his comments and shit. It’s like, WTF? What is WRONG with the gay community that they want to hook up with random people, EVEN WHEN THEY HAVE A BOYFRIEND ALREADY!?!?!?! God I hate homos.

My mom also called last night and asked how Blake was doing, cause I told her about him being in the hospital, I had to talk to someone about it. Anyways, I thought that was very nice of her. She’s got her up days. lol.

I started researching investments again for this next year, I’m looking into other companies besides T Rowe Price, and I REALLY like Vanguard. If you want to invest something, you should also check them out. I think I will open a few accounts with them this year. They have much lower Expense Ratios then TRP, which is nice. I also am enjoying my new Orange account. 🙂 I need to find a bank around here to cash my EE Bonds for free though. Since Principal doesn’t have an actual location and you have to be physically present to cash them, I can’t just mail them in like a normal check. But WF charges you to cash them if you aren’t a customer, so I have to call some other banks. I’m thinking a credit union would be my best bet. But now even THEY are statrting to charge non-customers for services. I fucking hate banks.

OG installed WP2.0 the other day and it’s very cool. I really need to get my ass in gear and update as well. Maybe this weekend, but probably not.