Month: August 2003

The TurnPike

So yesterday was tons of fun. Though I did get annoyed a few times.

We got up fairly late, compared to what we normally do. It was 9:30. We have been sleeping in everyday since we got here. This can’t be good for my sleeping habits, I wanted to start getting up earlier then I had been, not later! Lol.

Anyways, we got up, got ready and waited around for Erin to get here,

After a bit, Andrew was like, I need to go clean my eyebrow and as soon as he got up stairs, the doorbell rang, and the phone started ringing, so I went and opened the door and assumed that it was Erin. She looked pretty cool, and I introduced myself to her, and such. Then showed her into the living room where Andrew was on the phone.

They hugged and made crazy noises. After that we were off. First went to the mall here, that was nice, and it was pretty cool. This mall is really nice I think. At least compared to the ones we have in DM. We were there for a while and ate lunch there, then headed off to his old school.

That was fairly scary. The school it self seemed pretty run down, at least comparitivly to North Polk. We went in, after taking a pic of Andrew outside, and stated walking down the hall.

We passed the principal’s office and saw that someone was in there, so just hurried on by and kept walking past, We were about half way down the second hall way when we hear this voice from behind us,

Can I help you??
Hi sister Cathleen, we’re just looking around
I can’t allow that
Alright
You need to leave
This is Andrew Mcgee, do you remember him
Oh, hi, . Where are you going to school?
Chapman, in Cali
Well I’m going to have to ask you to leave

She was an uber bitch! I thought religious people were supposed to be more friendly then that.

After that we went back to Erin’s house and got her change then went off to this store, where they have a machine that counts your change for you! This is insanity!

After that back to Erin’s house where we sat around for like an hour waiting for her to get ready/dressed. It was fairly amusing there. Her mom is crazy!

From there it was off to Joe’s house which is in bum-fuck-egypt.

Taking the turnpike was much like driving a busy interstate in Iowa. It really wasn’t that bad after all. Though Erin had never drivin it before and was freaking out. I really wanted to just scream at her and say, Shut up and just calm down, Her constant, OMG, OMG, etc was very annoying. We were on there for about 30 miles or so. Not too bad. If I had known she was going to freak out so much I would have drivin.

After we got off there we had to get onto 68 South. We were driving along and the way we needed to go was on the left. Well we both say that, after we realize it, but it was pushing it. Though she could have easily made it across the lanes to get there.

So we miss the turn for it and she keeps going on the road that we’re on, it was like university or something, not a really busy highway or anything. But Andrew and I were like, just turn left into a business drive and turn around. Well she refused to do that because you Can’t cross a highway. I was very annoyed at that was well because it wasn’t that bad of a highway,

Anyways,. After we FINALLY got turned around we were driving along on and South 68 just randomly ENDS in Fort Dix, Say that ten times fast!

So we go in there and Andrew and I are like, Just ask the guy for directions, but she didn’t do that, she was like, So you need to see and ID and the guy was like, What’s your business

So we drive and drive and eventually get to the right place, then realize we’re on the road we need to be on, so we turn around, but instead of going the way that I said to go, she’s like No we need to go the other way. But we did end up having to go the way that I said we did.

We eventually find the place, after FINALLY pulling over and calling for directions. Though we only had to go like 2 more blocks down the street.

After that he took over driving which was both a relief and also a bit more frustrating because he drove like a crazy mad man!

We finally got to Sea Side about 6ish and walked around. It was so much fun there, we ate Zeppoles, and pizza and ice cream and I got Salt Water Taffy, and it was so much fun!

There were tons of neat little shops along the boardwalk, and they were having fireworks and we just hung out all night. About 8:30 or so we finally went down on the beach and sat on a blanket and watched the fireworks and made out. It was so cute!

And I do have to say that Andrew and I were the cutest gay couple on the whole beach! Lol.

Once the fireworks were over Andrew and I went for a walk along the beach. It was so cute! We held hands and walked along the shore line and just talked and listened to the waves breaking. So uber cute!

We stood there on the beach talking about how much we’re going to miss each other, and I stated to cry. But held it back. After a bit we went back to the blanket and got our stuff and then went off. We shopped a bit more and then headed out, Even more drama on the ride home. Though Andrew and I slept most of the way. They got lost coming back and it took us like twice as long to get home from the beach as it did to get there. Very annoying. We got home shortly after 1AM.

Once we got home we went right to bed because we were both very tired,.

This morning for some reason about 5:30 or so Sue came into our room and turned on the light and let the dogs in and then yelled at them, It’s like, HELLO, people SLEEPING! We weren’t loud when we came in last night, so why are you being loud this morning!

We finally got up about 9:30 or so, Andrew sat on the bed playing video games and I slept for a bit longer because I was really tired.

I don’t know why, but this whole week I’ve been really tired all week this week. I mean like every day I’ve just been like I’m so tired

Whatever.. Today we were supposed to go over to Andrew’s Dad’s house and spend the day with Mary and the boys, and then go out with his dad after he got off work. Though apparently Mary has a play date, and can’t cancel or something? Who knows. So we’re sitting here all day waiting for his dad to get off work so that we can go with him. I think the plan is to go mini-golfing.

I’m still in awe that I’m in New Jersey.. Very crazy,.

Laters all!

Goodbye A Day Early

So there’s really not too much to update about privately. We found out last night that we’re going to have to say goodbye on Tuesday night instead of Wed morning now. Because Sue has to leave on Tuesday afternoon to go to work.

That just really sucks because I wanted to have that time with him there at the airport. It’s very scary. I don’t want to be wondering around by myself there. I wan him to be there for me to hold me and stuff.

Last night was hard. Having him sleep in the bunk below me. It was just very annoying that we can’t sleep in the same bed. It’ll be nice in the hotel though. I think we’ll get to sleep there.

Lile drew said in his post, I’m going to miss him insanly. And I too am scared that I’ll never find someone again how treats me as well as he does.

Oh, last night he said that he had thought about letting me top. I thought that was uber sweet and meant so much to me. Though I couldn’t think of anything to say about it. I was like, Umm, thanks? lol. I just didn’t know what to say, but it really did mean a lot to me. Though, I know it won’t be happening before we leave. Or probably ever, he’s very tight! Lol.

Anyways, I’m going to go now before I started getting sad again.

Laters all!

What A Flight

Thank god, we’re finally on the ground here in Jersey. It’s about 11:15 pm here now. And we’ve been on the ground since shortly after 9:10.

Our flight was delayed leaving DM, so we didn’t get out of there tell 5:20, so we spent 3 hours in the airport just hanging out. It was alright and we talked a lot. So that was nice.

Once our plane was in the air it was pretty nice. We talked and had a good time. Though I don’t think that the people behind us/beside us liked us very much. Whatever, they can get over it all.

Anyways, it’s not the next morning. So I don’t know where I’ll put this update, either Aug 11, or the 12th. Whatever.

So last night while I was writing that, Andrew and I talked for a while, which truned into like an hour, so by the time we were done talking, I was too tired to do anything, so I just went to bed.

It’s UBER hot in here, so it was hard to sleep. Though I did sleep pretty well.

Oh, the airport last night was crazyness., and once we got here, the captian said that we would be stuck in a holding pattern for 50 minutes. But it ended up being only 10 or so. That was nice.

Once we got here we ate supper and then came to our room and hung out/talked/wrote updates.

Today has been filled with nonthing ness. Andrew and I just beat Sonic, it took us like 3 hours or so. Not too hard. I was playing most of it, but when we got to a bard spot that I didn’t want to try beating Andrew would take over and do it for me. We also watched the Jerry Springer show. Very exciting.

Now it’s 1:30 and he’s jus tnot starting his shower. And then I’m going to shower after he’s done.

I don’t know what tonight consists of. He says that we’re going to call his dad and go out to supper with him. That would be interesting. Though not really. I guess they want to go to this place called Big Ed’s for ribs. I don’t like Ribs. So I’ll get something else.

Sue also bought some crazy foods, like MAJOR junk food. It’s all so bad for you, yet tastes so good!

I’m out, laters all!

Guestbook Signing

Wow, it seems like just yesterday that you graduated, but here it is three months laster and I’m just now signing this. Three months ago we were just starting our relatiosnip, just getting to know each other in the bf/bf sense. Back then it seemed like we had a long time together. But here it is already coming to a close. We’ve shared so much ofther the last year that we’ve known each other. You’ve gone from purple shirt boy to my wonderful boyfrine. You were there for me through my first breakup, my first full summer of not going to scouts and so much more. And you’ve been nothing but supportive. We’ve both grown so much over the last year, I’ve rid myself of someone who was just holding me down and gained someone who just keeps pushing me forward.

I just wish that we could have had so much more time together. I wish that we would have talked log ago. There are so many things that I wish I had, and now I’m regretting not getting those. Our time together was so short and I can only hope that sometime in the future our paths will cross again.

Andrew, you mean so much to me, after these three months together I realisze that this is the first time I’ve actually been in love. I’ve never been moved the way tI have been with you. No one has ever been so great to me as you have been.

Who ever gets you as a bf in cali had better realize what a great guy the are getting and I hope that you realize what a wonderfull guy you are.

Love,
Topher

Ok, well I don?t have TOO too much to privately update about, but I promised Chris one, so here goes.

The past few days have been upsetting, sad, and happy all at once. I was very upset w/ the fights that we kept having. I really didn?t think they were necessary in most cases. And it just made me sad that we had to fight right before we were leaving. We went 3 months with no fights, and then suddenly we are fighting seemingly non stop. I know it wasn?t really non stop , but I was really stressed and it felt that way. However, I am glad that we have figured everything out and we are no longer fighting and everything is good between us. I think it was just the stressfullness on both of our parts, and then any little thing would set us off and then we?d fight. But it?s ok now.

Last night was really hard for me. We were laying together in bed, and I was telling Chris how scared I was to do all my orientation stuff. Eventually he started crying, and it broke my heart. Because he started really crying, and letting it all out. I just held him and told him everything would be ok and that I was here to hold him. I didn?t know what to do, I felt so helpless right then, I just wanted to make everything better for him. I started crying too. I?m halfway crying now. This is emotionally harder than I thought it would be. Last night was proof of that. I?ve never seen someone cry so hard for me. It makes me realize how lucky I am. I doubt a guy will ever cry like that for me again.

I don?t want to go, I just want to stay in Iowa, all this change is too much for me. I?m scared, I?m upset, I?m sad all the time, I don?t know what I?m gonna do in Cali. Hopefully I?m just getting lots of pre school jitters and everything will be fine. But it might not be.

Anyways?. Today was a really good day with Chris. There was lots of stress in the beginning with the post office and stuff, but then the plane ride was so fun. I thought we were just the 2 cutest little gay boys in the world, sitting on that plane, laughing and holding hands, tickling, and talking. We looked at Sky Mall and talked, and just generally had a great time. Eventually he left me ?go to sleep? but I really didn?t, I kept opening my eyes and just talking to him more. We laughed and had such a good time, and took cute pics of ourselves. Very cute.

I am gonna miss my Topher insanely after next week. It seems so weird that in a week I will be in California, away from everybody that I know. It?s very hard to think about. In between all my wanting to be sad and crying, I will have to be *extra* happy and cheerful so that I make friends. I just want to skip all of orientation and sit in my room and cry. Maybe I will.

Especially having to say good bye to Chris on Tuesday night instead of Wednesday morning. I don?t want to, but I feel it will make the goodbye easier. Well??. Nothing could really make that goodbye easier. It is very hard to say goodbye to someone who makes me feel the way he does, and to someone who really loves me, and to someone who thinks I?m sexy and sweet and smart. What if I never find that again? What if I don?t want to?

I feel weird being here, more on that later maybe. I just feel so ?? well it?s almost ashamed ? of everything. I just want to go to Cali and start my new life, away from my family?.. But I wish it was with my Topher.