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I Have This Wall

Filled with pictures of all my friends, and special people in my life. I put them up, with tape, and they fall down. I pick it all up again, and put some more tape on them, and they all fall back down again. Sometimes they fall and flutter back down, others they just plumet to the ground, and make a sudden stop.

Much like my life right now, I’ve been having bouts of depression lately, sometimes it just hits, other times it’s a slow fall down. I always pick myself back up though. Usually with the help of someone special, thanks cutie.

I think they’re mostly emotionaly charged, and hopefully they’ll go away here soon.

Waiting On Hold…

So here I am at work waiting on hold, so I thought that I’d put in a quick update about the weekend while I have some time…

This has been an UBER UBER fun weekend and my abs hurt because of it.

Friday I worked all day and then went to B&N to wait up for Andrew. I read more of Kevin’s book… SOO good. Even if you’re not into computers, I still suggest you read it. Very eye opening about how much information you can get with so little time.

Anyways, met up with Andrew about 8ish, from there we went to Panera and had supper. It was really good, I do believe that I shall be going back there more often now. We sat there and talked for like an hour or so, and then went off to Downtown. Normal JJ’s stuff, talked to Josh, who didn’t know who I was. Talked about camping and Bortell’s. Very interesting.

Since we were both looking UBER fucking hot we decied to go and walk around, so we went to Nolan Plaza and hung out there, then just went and walked around some more. It was good times. Eventually had to go home, so we were walking past JJ’s and happened to see Adam, Scott, and crew. One on level it was good to _see_ Adam again, but it was still wierd seeing him around. Scott gave dirty looks, I smiled polietly and waved and we kept on walking.

Saturday I got up early and went and got my hair cut, then to Hy-VEe where it was BAD fucking busy. And I’d still like to know who’s bright ass idea it was to put the Mother’s day cards and the grad cards in the SAME FUCKING aisle. Grrr. I was not happy about that. Anyways, spent FAR to much money and got mother some cute flowers. Thought about getting a second one for something else, but decided against it. I wanted to put the last $50 of the money I had into Savings.

Needless to say that by the time Saturday was over, the $50 was down to $30, and I was going to keep that to get grad gifts, now that $30 is down to $3, and it’s going to a card. I guess people will be getting home made gifts for graduation this year. And next month no money over the $400 previously allocated will be spent.

Anyways, after that I went home. Andrew called about 12:30 and said that he was going to shower eat and would be over about 1:30. And he was. We watched “The Wall” very good movie. After it was over we just hung out for a while. Then I mentioned that I wanted to go to the Art Center in DM. It was like 4:30. We drove there and it was definitally closed. Fuckers.

Then this crazy guy tried to kill us, and he had the mini-van in on the plot. So scary. I was whiping my car around like a crazy and yeah, it was scary!

Anyways, since we didn’t have anything to do we called Beak, but she didn’t answer. So we drove downtown. There was a wedding going on, so we hung around that for a while, scaring the breeders. Then off to the library and just walking around. On the way back to the car, I had my arm around Andrew and we were walking and talking and these crazy black girls started up with thier ghetto shit. It was so wierd, then they came over and talked to us. We couldn’t tell if they liked us or hated us. Very odd really.

After that we called Beak like 2 more times and she STILL didn’t answer, so we headed over that way since it was like 6ish. Got to her place about 6:15 and sat out front and called her AGAIN, her car was there, but still no answer. Slut! So then off to the Dollar General where Andrew bought cards and the like. Called Beak yet AGAIN! And she finally answered. It was so funny too cause I was all ghetto and shit. Went over there picked them up and then off to Cheddars.

That was SOOO mcuh fucking fun! Slaming glass, pouring waitress, food, the lumberyard. All too much to remember. We were all laughing so hard. I’m sure that everyone there hated us by the time we left, which btw was 2.5 hours after we arrived. And we left an $18 tip. Crazyness.

Back to Beak’s where we hung out for just a bit and then Andrew and I went off to my house where we watched TV and hung out some more. So much fun!

Sunday was also a really good day! (Oh, this weekend felt like a MONTHS worth of good days!) I got up and went downstairs and was like “Happy Mothers day” blah blah blah. Then she was there for like 10 minutes and then they both (being the pu’s) got up and were like “We’re going to Menards, back in a few hours.” I was like, WTF, I planned on spending most of the day with you. Grrr. Anyways, I called Andrew up and we went off to the Art Center, because they were in fact open this time.

That was so much fun too. And the crazy old guy talked to us, and I just LOVE the art center because it brings out the architect in me. I just LOVE the new addition (Well it’s not really new, just the newer part of the building), I would totaly love to have that as my house!

From there it was back to Andrew’s house where his mom made us help move furniture, so odd. Then to the drag show, where slick performed. VETO! Overall though it was a good show. Then to JJ’s, then to BS (Where we were only going to get pie, but ended up eating food, and thus the last of my money) then back to Andrew’s where we departed ways. I got home about 10:30 last night, so tired! ::yawns::

Check back later for some picture highlights of the weekend. I only hope that the rest of the summer is as fun as this weekend was!

The Memories of Adam

So I’ve started removing Adam from my life now. Got around to all the little things that he’s given me over the 16 months that we were together… Cards, picutres, pots. There really isn’t that much shit to tell you the truth.

I don’t know why that is either, perhaps it was a sign that our relationship just wasn’t right. Or maybe it was the fact that he just didn’t know how to give. I’m sure he had alot more stuff of mine then I had of his. BTW, he’s still got my class ring and I want it back.

But all in all, everything he gave me won’t even fill a small shoe box. I think that’s sad really, that those 16 months of him will fit into something so small.

I’m not even dating Andrew, and I have more pictures of him then I did of Adam. I also think that’s another sign, the sign that on my desk at work, all I had of Adam was one picture. A picture that doesn’t even feature him. He’s so small that you couldn’t even really see him. But now, I have four pictures containing Andrew on my desk. I think that’s an even stronger sign.

How I miss you….

Why do I miss him so much. We spent all Friday night, and all day Saturday together. Didn’t see each other Sunday, but we talked. And now here it is, 3pm on Monday, and I just can’t get him out of my head.

I’ve decided that I will take Wed off, screw money. I’d much rather spend the day with Drew Bear.

I just can’t explain the feelings here.

His picture sits on my desk, with his big dark eyes, just staring at me. And I sit here, and stare back at the, and marvel in how dark, how sexy they are. I look at his face and see how sharp and clean he looks. I look at his lips, and think of how great it is to be able to kiss them.

I look at him, and think how wonderfull it is to hold him, and just kiss the back of his head. To be able to sit across the table from him and joke, and laugh, and tell stupid stories.

Why must he be so perfect.

Didn’t you already tell your mother that story?

Sunday, April 20, 2003
1:24PM – “Didn’t you already tell your mother that story?” Private

“Mother? I’m talking to the Bloomingdales catalog lady!”
LOL fun times!

So this weekend has been fucking awesome!

Friday I asked mother if I could stay at CHris’ and she reluctantly said yes. So after work, I stopped at Hy-Vee for pictures and then hightailed it up to Ames! I got there a little before 8 and Chris was cooking dinner. Totally cute 🙂

So we had a pow wow on the floor and ate dinner, these taco/burrito/fajita things. VERY good, my compliments to the chef! hehe. Yeah, then we watched TV I think, I dunno I don’t really remember.
The point is: Sister, Sister was on. So we watched that and just talked and random shit. We kissed and whatnot, somehow we ended up in the bed, still kissing and being all cuddly. Eventually, we decided that the alcohol didn’t need to go to waste, so we drank some of it. We both had 2 wine coolers, which didn’t do a thing for me, except make my stomach just a *wee* bit queazy. After that, we ended up just going to bed….

Well, going INTO the bed, and making out for a while. Then we were kissing, and the next thing I knew, I was waking up the next morning. Very weird. We were even still above the covers. I got under the covers and Chris and I cuddled sme more, holding each other and what not 🙂 It was only 7:38… I don’t think Chris was too happy.

Ugh, and my stupid back was really fucking up. SO annoying.

So then we kept making out and stuff, and it was REALLY good. I’d like to know where Chris learned all his techniques, b/c he is really good. The boy can make me squirm! 🙂 It was totally awesome, but I did feel bad, b/c sometimes I felt like he was doing more (licking body parts, etc.) for me than I was for him. I’ll have to change that next time, I don’t want to be only a taker! I like to give too! So that kept up for several hours, and ended with me sitting in between his legs while we kissed and he jacked me off, b/c I DESPERATELY needed to cum. Well, at first I was skeptical, and all “Well, I’ll just take over when I’m ready and then I will cum.” Nope! Chris started licking me elbow while he was jacking me (Enfuego came out of the pants now b/c I didn’t want to cum all in my boxers b/c I only brought the pair I was wearing) So Chris was licking the elbow, and jacking me, and suddenly I was thinking “OH MY GOD. I Am gonna have an orgasm!!!!!!!” AND *drum roll*

I DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I came without touching myself AT ALL. It was totally amazing, and a REALLY REALLY good cum. I seriously could not (and still can’t!) believe it. After all the guys that have tried and tried to make me cum, no one ever has, and now Chris finally did.

And I don’t mean it in a strictly sexual sense. It really said something to me that he could make me cum. It makes sense in my head….

Anyways after that I scampred off to the shower, completely delighted, and I neglected Hoodie. 🙁 I felt really bad, suddenly in the shower, I was like OMG I didn’t let Chris cum! And i Felt really bad. THen my belly button ring fell out. Because the top ball had somehow fallen out again. Whoops.
Anyways I apologized to Chris for the cum thing and he said it was ok. THen we made macaroni, ateit and Watched Golden Girls, I made some phone calls, and we left. We went to the mall at Ames, and stopped in the Software Store, where Chris reitertated that I’m a big geek/nerd/loser. From what I gather though, he thinks its cute. So its ok.

Then we came to DSM and I almost died on the way b/c it was raining pretty bad. I left my car at PC, and we were gonna go to my house, and hang out play video games and the such, but mother forbade us for coming over. So off to Valley West it was. We didn’t really do anything there, just randomness, walking around… we didn’t even really go into the stores. But we did pee! And that’s the important part.

We left and I called again and us coming over was Okayd. But only for a few hours. We get there and mother isn’t even home! SHe is TOO weird sometimes. So I showed Chris some more games, and I’m not sure how interested he was in them, but if he wasn’t he faked it well lol. We both played some, and then decided to go out to eat.

We went to Cheddars which was fun, Chris contending the whole time that he had NEVEr eaten therebefore, while for me, it’s practically my 3rd home. My 2nd being in Chris’ arms. 🙂

So we ate, I paid, we wanted dessert but we were too blargy.

Oh I forgot to mention it was “Ugly People day at the mall. I reallywish Chris and I would get the memo so we would know to avoid it.

THen we went to B&N and met up with Sheila and did random shit, Sheila telling us the woes of her life, it was funny. We left, and went to PC to go hot-tubbing, which I hadn’t done in so long!
We cuddled on Chris’ bed for awhile before we left and I would’ve been happy spending the rest of the night there. It’s SO wonderful to have him hold me 🙂

We did end upgonig hottubbing and that was fun too. Some kissing and stuff in there, and it was sweet (and tasted like chlorine! lol) We just talked and eventually got out and went inside b/c Sister, Sister and Proud Family was on. Chris was falling asleep during SS and I don’t blame him b/c I was uber tired as well. I fell asleep for a few seconds a few times during PF. I just wanted to stay and have Chris hold me all night again. But I had to leave 🙁 It was REALLY bad driving home, I was so fucking tired.

When we said goodbye, Chris came out in nothing but his towel. Such a cutie! We thanked each other for the wonderful weekend.

Yet another great time with Chris. I am so content just doing random shit with him…. and it’s still tons of fun. We had a really great weekend, and when I woke up this morning I was wishing that he could’ve been there to holdme and kiss me, and Iwas sad tht he wasn’t 🙁 And this week there is no Special Wednesday! Cause CHris has to work! Oh woe is me! So I most likely won’t see him till Friday which is obviously WAY too long.

I can’t believe he made me cum! lol I explained to him that I always said the guy who makes me cum would be my husband, he was like “yeah so no pressure” it was funny…

*Sigh* Such a good man. I can’t wait until he’s mine. So many good times still waiting to be had… it’s gonna be great.

Everytime I see him, I want him more and more and I fall more and more for him. Oh, it’s so fun to care about someone this much!!!!!! Thanks Chris for bringing up all these feelings in me, I love it and I love caring about you as much as I do!

I’m not even sure that made sense but eh! I’m off to play FF9!!!!!

BREAK! *Kiss*

Current mood: chipper