Another Paper By Andrew About JJ’s

A Perfect Evening”
“Dirty, dirty dishes.” That’s the sign that greets me as I walk into Java Joe’s, a coffeehouse downtown, through the back entrance. The container under the sign is piled high with the filthy plates, almost as a testament to the deliciousness they once presented. Java’s is my favorite place in the world–where I can drown all my sorrows in a delectable swirl of caramel and cappuccino. In my hectic life, it is comforting to know that I always have a place to go when I am touched by the bluebird of unhappiness. The screeching fluorescent lights, the brand-new band–no matter what, going down to Java’s relaxes me and puts my mind at ease. The sights, the sounds, the people–they all help to calm my sometimes jittery nerves.
I saunter in with friends, looking absolutely stunning, and glance around. heads turn, whispers abound, and I, listening to the explosive bursts of laughter and hearing the shots of gossip being fired, make my way through the battlefield that is the sitting area. I see a friend, an acquaintance, perhaps an ex; and, as a smile leaps onto my face, I raise my hand and wave at whomever it may be. Like a dog that sniffs at some savory cooking, my nose is instantly brought to attention by the smell of coffee. If all the happiness in the world were to become a smell, I would imagine it would smell just like the lattes and mochas that delight my nose now.
I strut my stuff to the front of the emporium, and place myself in a line of hungry souls that await the nourishment that can only be provided by the great deity that is coffee. I wait patiently, my stomach–anxiously awaiting the drink, of course–running and slamming against the walls of my insides, like a lab rat lost in a maze. While waiting, I look around and take in all the sights aroundme. A couple in the corner looks deep into each others’ eyes as their hands clasp together in an entanglement of fingers on the table. A man contemplates his next move in his chess game–should he risk a knight’s life or sacrifice a high and mighty bishop? My wait in line ends as a trendy girl with two-tone hair and several piercings helps me.
As I take my seat at my usual table with my friends, the band begins to play. The electric hummings that come out of the guitar send shockwaves of musical nirvana screaming at my ears. I sample my French vanilla latte and my tastebuds sing; as the slick liquid descends down my throat, the creamy auburn concoction soothes me. My mind relaxes and I feel at peace. The band plays a new tune and i can almost see the music notes trembling in the air, in glorious harmony.
I am sitting close to the entrance and I watch as people, like bees, swarm in and out of the luscious hive. Some are smiling, some are wearing grievous expressions–perhaps they have had a less than stellar day. I enjoy watchin and perceiving the various type of individuals. I listen intentely to the melody being played and tap my feet in accordance with the beat. My mind wanders and I feel happy and free. A friend shouts at me, his deep resonating voice shattering my peaceful reverie. He says we should go outside and take a walk.
Like a small child who doesnt want to leave the playground, I get off my chair methodically and walk towards the door. I inhale one last breath of that wondrous smell, the smell of fun and relaxation and happiness and everything that’s good all rolled into one. I link arms with a friend and we proceed out joyously. As I walk out, the pink elephant mobile (hanging down from the ceiling) winks at me and I am relaxed as I feel I will ever e. My friend and I step out onto the pavement, our hands and our hearts togehther, and heaven drops down upon us in the form of crystalline snowflakes that soon cover the cool winter ground.

Ok so reading it again id ont like it as much. i really like the last sentence though. and the reason it is so ‘flowery’ is b/c it was supposed to be a descriptive essay, so lots of fig. lang. and stuff.
anyways enjoy
andrew

And now…

We return you to regularly scheduled programming…

So the point of the silence…

I broke up with Adam. And that’s all that I have to say about that. No offense, but the feelings/what’s going on with that will still be mostly in private entries and as things get better more things will go here.

Anyways, Friday night Adam came over, we ate food and watched the DUMBEST movie ever. It was mildly amusing, but overly stupid. It’s called “The New Kid” and it’s so wierd. Eh. Overall annoying night because my mom wouldn’t go to bed. After Adam left I talked to her and my week that I was planning on taking off this summer and going traveling with friends is the SAME week that the family is planning a trip to Alaska, so that means I must go. 🙁

I mean, I REALLY REALLY want to go to Alaska, but not with the family. If we do what my mom wants to, it’ll be fun but I HATE the way that my dad travels. If things happen the way that he wants to I don’t want to go. I’ll just take what they would have spent on me and travel with myself.

Saturday I got up at 8:30, and went to Perry. I was there at 10, when I was supposed to be, but Beak and Shiela weren’t. They had to go all the way to Waukee to get the damn U-haul. They didn’t get back tell 11. We got things packed up and were ready to leave by 12:30. Beak also has a lot of work out stuff that she’s going to let me use, one’s like an elliptical machine, I’m excited… Hopefully next weekend I can pick it up from her and get all hot and buff and shit. lol.

Back to what I was talking about, we got her all moved in and shit. We were done with that by 2. Janell brought lunch. We drove this CREEPY Chris guy back to Perry, but he wouldn’t go home and followed us back to Beak’s. I stayed there tell like 10 cause he wouldn’t go away. He also insisted on buying us supper. He was very creepy and I didn’t like him. Nor did Beak.

Got home about 11ish and talked to mum some more about random things. Went to bed about 1am (that’s after setting clocks ahead). Couldn’t sleep because I had alot on my mind.

Awoke this morning about 9:30, but didn’t really want to get up, so I thought and made up sexy day dreams and shit. roflol. Finally got up about 10:30 showered, and then read more of Fast Food Nation. (EVERYONE MUST GO READ THIS BOOK. Perhaps I just really like it because I’m a business man, but it’s a good eye opening book.)

Adam called about 1ish and I went over there to see him. Fixed his computer and stuff. Andrew showed up about 3ish, and Adam went to work shortly after that.

Andrew and I went out and had a pretty good time. I dropped him off about 5:30 and came back to Ames….

Now I’m here.

Now I’m gone!

An Update For You…

This is for Queenie McILikeToAnnoyTopherUntilHeUpdatesAndOfferToTakeHimToDinnerPlusDesertPlusALittleSomething
ExtraThatIWon’tTellHimWhAtThatExtraThingIsAndIDoubtThatI’llGetMyFoodFromThisUpadte!

Well here’s what I’ve been doing lately….

Monday I got up early to register for classes. I got a REALLY easy schedule this upcoming semester. Only 12 credits. I didn’t get into two of the classes that I REALLY wanted to get into (ExSp 166, Weight Lifting; MGMT 414, International Managment) so I had to do some last minute mixing of things. But I’ve got a good schedule…

MIS 435 MW 3:40 – 4:55
Poli Sci 251 TR 9:30 – 10:45
TRLOG 360 TR 12:40 – 1:55
MGMT 370 TR 3:40 – 4:55


Should be a fairly easy schedule. Plus I’ll have time to work out and get all buff and shit in the mornings, and tons of time to work, which means LOTS of money!

Other then that not much going on. Yesterday I worked alot. I got Sept ’01 up and in the archives. Also thanks to JULIAN (WE LOVE YOU), I have the archives so that they’re oldest on top, whereas the main page is newest on top. It just makes it easier to read that way.

I’ve also set up my website localy on my machine so that I can play with it and not worry about those private entries get out… I’m trying to fix a hack that I did back when I started using b2. Back then they didn’t have a private feature, where now they have added such a thing in the newest versions. So I downloaded the new version. Anyways, long story short. I’m working on getting it so that I can at least edit the old entries (Because with the hack, once they were off the front page, if I wanted to update them I had to go to the database and do it with INSERT statements, which can get to be a pain in the ASS)

So what else has been up… Today’s been REALLY fucking nice. It was 87 out, for our high. I hate the spring semester because as the semster goes on, it gets nicer out, and you’re wanting to attend classes gets lower. Making it HARDER to actually go to classes. I REALLY wanted to skip my last class of the day, but I didn’t.

I did however after wards go out and ride my bike for 45 minutes and then go tanning for a while. I’m going to start tanning T and R so that way I look somewhat hot, even though I’m still to fat to go to the beach without a shirt on! Hopefully by the end of summer, I’ll be hot as hell!

Speaking of summer. I’m also taking 6 credits this summer, PHIL 230 or TRLOG 360 first 4 weeks from 12-2, and then MIS 433 the second 4 weeks from 9-11 or something. The plan is to get up, workout, go to class and then work until 5 or 6.

I’ve also planned for time off from 7/12 – 7/20 off. I’d like to go either to the Canyon again, of the the Black Hills. Perhaps somewhere else. Either way, I’m going to spend a week camping sometime this summer, even if no one else wants to come with me!

I have a test tomorrow, so I must study for it, then two tests next Tuesday, and a test next Wed.

Off I go, hope you enjoyed the update!

The Aftermath

So Friday after it happen, I called Adam cause he just signed off with “I HATE YOU.” We talked forever, and it was bad, he cried, he yelled. I was fine. I’ve delt with it already, before it happened, so that’s why I’m so fine. He had to go to work though, so he left. I stayed here and watched TV until about 7. Andrew called sometime in there and told me that Adam had left him a really nasty message. We talked for a bit about it.

I went home about 7ish, and hung out there watching TV. Adam called again about 8:30ish or so, and we talked forever again. More crying, more everything. Again bad times. I don’t really know what to say to him cause I mean, I don’t think that I’m really the person that he should be talking to about it. I’ve done everything that I can to help him out with it. There’s only so much I and Andrew can do. He really needs to talk to someone else. Hopefully once his mom gets home tonight, and once school starts again he’ll get better.

After that I just stayed up tell about midnight and watched tv some more. I talked to Andrew a few times throughout the night as well.

Saturday morning I got up and Adam called, he wanted to come over and talk, so I let him. I really didn’t want to cause I knew he was just going to cry and say more of the same stuff that he had said the night before. I also knew that he was going to grill me some more on my relationship with Andrew and how far it’s gone.

And he did.

He stayed for about an hour, I didn’t think he’d EVER leave that was probably the LONGEST hour in my life! He talked and talked and talked and the whole time all I could think was. I just wish that he’d leave and get over it. There’s nothing that I can do!

He left and I hung out some more waiting for Andrew to call so we could do stuff. My phone FINALLY rang, but it wasn’t Andrew, it was Adam. He wanted me to come over, saying that he was WAY better then he had been. So I reluctantly went over there.

We hung out and thankfully I kept myself busy with his new Emac. Andrew called and came over after that. We scanned in a hot boi pic and then went to target where we shopped until about 5. After that we split up, Andrew and I off to do what we were going to do and Adam off to wait for Scott so they could do stuff.

Andrew and I did a TON of stuff and I had the most fun I’ve had in a LONG LONG time. It was so nice to just hang out, him and me. We became much closer last night I think. We went to MHM first and shopped and walked around.

Off topic real quick, on Friday Andrew said that he had had a REALLY bad day. Saturday he wouldn’t tell me, but I drug it out of him. His family is moving back to NJ in August. August 1 actually. I’m WAY more upset about that then I am about breaking up with Adam, and he’s clearly VERY upset too. Because when they do move back to NJ that means that he won’t be coming back here for Christmas, or the summer, so very very saddening. It does however add a more urgent feeling to what I want between us, that I’d like to try a relationship with him.

Anyways, after MHM we went to Perkins where EVERYONE was so rude and HORRIBLE and we hated everyone there. Our waiter was soooooo stupid. It was horrilbe.

After that we went to his house, got some movies, talked some and looked through his room and stuff. Good times. From there back to my house to watch the movie, it was sooooo funny. Although not a movie I’d want to sit through again. After the movie we sat, talked, wrestled, and watched the Proud Family and Sister, Sister. Our new Saturday night ritual.

I drove him back to Adam’s about 12:30 or so.

This morning Adam called me, about 8:30 crying again. He grilled me about what happened with Andrew last night. Did he spend the night? Did we kiss goodnight? Did we do anything? What’d we do all night? What time did he go home?

It was like 20 minutes of questions. I was like. GET OVER IT, you have NO control over me now, stop it. I can do what I want, you don’t own this ass anymore.

Speaking of that, cause as I was writing it was saying it in my head in a ghetto vioce. I was ghetto this weekend and it was SOOOO funny. And when we were going to Andrew’s house, I was lost and we saw this sign that said “We <3 our children.” And I was going like 40 miles an hour and doing random Uie’s. So great! I really had the best time, I so enjoy hanging out with Andrew now.

Anyways, he finally let me go cause Andrew called him. I guess he went and talked to Andrew for like an hour. I called him (Andrew) about 10:45 or so to tell him what the plans were for the day, he was STILL on the phone with Adam, but got off to come talk to me. (Well actually Adam had said that he was going to let Andrew go). Apparently when Andrew told Adam that I was on the other phone, he started crying more. Eh. Anyways I told Andrew what the plans were and then hung up. Like 20 mintes after that, Adam called me AGAIN! And he was like “Sorry I keep calling you blah blah blah.” I just wanted to be like, SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!

He finally hung up like 30 minutes later. Andrew showed up at my house about 12ish so that we had some time to talk before Beak got there. She got there about 12:30 and we were all off to have lunch. It was tons of fun. Went to I-Hop and I paid for Andrew’s lunch cause he was bitching that he had “PAID” for supper the night before. (I GAVE HIM THE $5 THAT MY MEAL COST)!!

From there it was off to VWM. Good times there like always. I had a TON of fun today!

And then back to my house were we all sat on my bed, talking about everything that had happened. More good times even though we were talking about depressing shit. We really didn’t spend much time on that subject though. We talked about alot of RANDOM things.

There was so much sexual tension between Andrew and I though. We wrestled some more, and there were so many times where he was on top of me, or I was on top of him and I just wanted to reach up (or down as the case my be) and kiss him, and tell him that he’s helped me so much through all of this and if it hadn’t been for him I wouldn’t have gotten out of this relationship that was just strangling me. I wanted so bad to tell him how much he means to me, and how sorry I am that I’ve put him in such a bad spot. Especially since I know that everyone’s first reaction so far, and is going to be, that it was him that broke us up. And it wasn’t. I wanted to tell him how sorry I am that he has to lie to Adam for me, and that he has to put up with Adam calling him so much.

As we left we went out side and I hugged Beak bye, and then I hugged Andrew by. I didn’t want to let go of him tonight because he’s helped me so much. The hug broke, and then I hugged him again for his PU’s being assholes. Then we realized Beak was still there making funny faces, so we made fun of her, and she left. Then he said something about not seeing us for 2 weeks, and I hugged him again. I’m going to really miss him over the next two weeks. I really am.

I also don’t know what the HELL I’m going to do next weekend, or the weekend after that. I mean, I don’t want to hang out with Adam by myself because I know that he’s just going to cry and everything. Adam still wants to have sleep overs, me and him, and, me, him and Andrew. We all know that’s NOT at all a good idea. You just don’t do that.

Anyways, even with all the drama, I had a TON of fun this weekend. Thank you Andrew, Thank you Beak… But mostly. THANK YOU ANDREW. I don’t know what I’d do without you there.

With Love,

Cj B

go go go go shorty its your birthday

Not much to update about, but I’m bored and everyone has already gone to bed *AHEM* Chris and Adam! Loser pants can’t even stay up to talk to me! Bah!
So today I woke up feeling a bit better, and stupid for writing that last entry… I’d delete it, but that takes too much work. Anyways.
School was so freaking stupid. In Publications, we didn’t have the computers working, so we just sat around and talked for most of the period. Towards the end I had to fix someone’s layout (after the comps were fixed, of course) which just bothers me. It’s like “Don’t take the class, leave at term, and expect everyone else to pick up your shit.” I think that people who quit early should have to at leats finish the layout they were working on instead of making the rest of the class do it.
Grr.
Then in English, oh My. We just sat there… she gave us grade sheets and I had a 156 out of 200 on my Hamlet paper on my grade sheet, and that totally shot my day. Well, then she hands back the actual paper and I have a 190 out of 200, with all these comments about how my thoroughness and thoughtfulness overrid all the grammar errors. lol. I was like “Yeah so this is wrong.” She changed it and itbrought my grade up 2.4 percent to a 97.4…. and guess what? That’s still .6 away from an A+! Oh well, who gives a fuck anyways?
THen we just sat and did random shit! I hate English! AND she guilted me into taking the AP Test. I really didn’t want to, but then she stopped me and was like “YOu are taking the AP Test, right? I know you’ll get a 5 and do so well.” And I couldn’t say no. I was like “yeah of course I’m taking it.” *Sigh* It really isn’t a big deal I guess. Stupid english, stupid school.
After school, Jenny and I went to work out. That was fun I guess. For some reason, doing the elliptical machine for half an hour didn’t seem bad at all today. It was actually somewhat fun. Then I actually did my situps at the Y. I think I will continue to do them there, because it wasn’t very crowded and usually when I do them at home, by time I get here, I’m too tired to actually want to do them. Now I can get it all done at the Y, then just come home and shower.
Work was ok, though I had to stay until 7:20 b/c some stupid man was an idiot. I explained like 5097829348723948 times that we were UTA, but he just didn’t care. He had called in before and we had told him the same thing, but I guess he doesn’t like to listen. Julia, Claudia, and I were the only people there. I was so annoyed, but at least I got paid for that extra 20 minutes. And after missing 3 days, I really need it.
I told Mother about my ticket b/c the Insurance company called and she asked if I had anything to tell her. So yeah… that wasn’t so good. I totally forgot that I was on probation for a year….. Uh oh… basically Mother says that I’ll lose my license. This escalated into a huge fight where she told me that I’ll be this horrible inconvience to her blah blah blah worst son blah blah how can I be so smart and do such dumb things blah blah. I was like fuck off. The point is, if I do get my license taken away it’s gonna SUCK! Like really horribly. My mom said that if it does happen, shes gonna go to court and plead with them to just let me use it for school and work but nothing else. So then I have to inconvience all my friends…. oh gosh, I’m having flashbacks to LAST summer when I had no license! Why don’t I ever have a license?? ::cries:: This is terrible… why the fuck am I such a speed demon? ::cries some more:: This summer’s gonna SUCK ASS if I don’t have a license…

*Sigh*
Well I WAS having a better day. Now I’m feeling just bleh. Yeah so I’m totally done with that. Three times was enough, I’ve struck out, and now I’m done. Don’t try to guess what it is, because you won’t.
School tomorrow… ugh.
I’m missing something… I finally figured it out while showering for the 2nd time… I’m unfulfilled. I don’t know what it will take to fulfill me… but I really feel like I’m missing something.. Eh.
BREAK!