Feb 12, 2001

so my mom called late, i mean really late last night,

it was odd. she babbled at me about all kinds of stuff, i don’t really remember

what most of it was. o well. must not have been to important. i should be

doing that hw yet. i started reading it then got off on this thing of looking

for apartments and such in various places. apartments are fucking expensive

even in des moines and such. i need a job so bad. but i’m just not wanting

to get one, not here. not now. i could easially hold one down and still get

my hw and shit done on time. but i just don’t want one, not in this town cause

everything is fast food work and shit. and i really don’t want to do that

again. ycuky. and with gas prices they way they are now it’s not cost effective

to drive all the way to sioux falls to get a job. not at all. for some reason

lately i’ve been really tired, i’ve been getting enough sleep, and not to

much. so i don’t know what it is. i broke my toothbrush somehow this morning.

i was brushing my teeth and then all of a sudden half of it just snapped,

it was nuts. so i had to dig out my camping toothbruch tell i get a chance

to go buy a new one, lol. it was odd. i applied to a nother college the other

day, i don’t remember if i mentioned that or not. but the sad thing is that

i won’t hear from them tell april sometime, but i have to tell UNL for sure

if i’m going ot go there or not by march 30, so yeah, i don’t know how that

will work. i would rather not go to unl, it’s kinda a back up for if i don’t

get into anywhere else. but yeah. if worse comes to worse i can always go

to DMACC or ISU i guess. i really don’t want to cause then i would have to

live with my PU’s yucky. 🙁 Q102 is

really cool. they have good music. lol. so i talked to the high adventure

program director the other day from that job offer in philly i got. yeah,

sounds pretty cool. i should be getting a phone call sometime this week to

do an interview. that’s one thing i talked to my mom about last night. i was

like, so if i get this job out there, your cool with me going out there to

work, and she was like, well i don’t know i haven’t talked to your dad about

it. arg. i really want to go work out there, and not just cause danny is out

there, it’s the first fucknig ever boy scout camp, it would be so cool to

work there. it was started in 1912. it would be so fucking cool to work out

there. and plus it would get me out of the state for the summer and shit.

i want out, now, out of everything. damnit.

Feb 2, 2001

So it’s a new month, eh. i almost missed it and put this

update on the wrong page,opps. well it’s been a pretty boring week round here.

classes are boring, people are boring, everything i boring. we had to move

our cars today out of the “campus proper” cause they are under a

snow alert, so they can plow everything out from that big storm we had. i

think it would have just been easier to just leave the snow and let it melt,

but o well. it took me a hour and a hlaf to dig my fucking car out and we

had three people pushing it, damnthing. then i went and helped some friends

dig there cars out, so yeah, i was outside for alomost 2 and a hlaf hours

without gloves or a hat, my hands are still frozen, i can’t hardly type at

the moment. it’ really sucked. and they are sayin we should get like 20 more

inches of snow by next thurs. YUCKY. someone tell my why i moved to this state?

damnit. and then itried to get REdhat 6.2 to install and the fucker won’t

do it. bitch machine. 7.0 won’t see the fucking network, so i’m trying o hunt

someone down with mandrake to see if it works. ARG. the other night danny

called, we had a really nice talk,for like 2 hour or so i don’t remember it

was long. after we hung up i jsut layed there and thought bout him. wishing

oooh so much that he were here, and not so far away. there’s some valentines

day dance coming up. i wish he were here to go with me. well my hands are

still really cold and it’s hard to type so i’m going to go take a shower and

stuff. ok so i’m back, the shower was nice i was in there for like 30 minutes,

lol. but yeah, so my roomie and his gf have been overly nice to me lately.

like tonight his gf asked if i wanted to go to a kegger, i was like no, i

hate drinking and people that drink scare me. but yeah. and like just now

my roomie came in and was like “you need anything from the store”

and i was like WTF? where did that come from? and his gf has been alot of

time in here talking to me. it’s like what? go away. it’s just weird, hmm.

maybe it’s a conspiracy or something. yeah, maybe that’s it. what do you think?

o btw, danny just called, second time tonight, hehe. he was out with his friends

and called on a payphone. it’s so funny, he was talking about these sweaters

he was going to buy, one was like $175. i was like WTF? the most expensive

sweater ihave was $70 and i got it for 70% off that so yeah. gotta love kohls, lol.