Sept 23, 2001

Sept 23, [Seven Channels, "Can’t Be With You"]

So much has happened this weekend. i’ve been really busy.

Ok, so Saturday I got up and went to my aunts to fix my grandma’s computer.

I worked on it tell like 3 and it was dead as a door knob. So I took it

home and I’m going to try and fix it next weekend some. We’ll see how that

works.

You know. I’m really not in the mood to update my site right now, so I’ll

update it tomorrow.

Things to update about: People in groups. Hiar high lighting fun; Good

times with Adam, Camera, RAM and hot guys, Jenna Rederus and hot guys, Pictures,

Rob and my shirt, Picutre of Katie, alot of other things that I’m sure I’ll

think of when I go to bed, and then won’t be able to remember when I get

up tomorrow to update my site.

Sept 21, 2001

Sept 21, [New Radicals, "I Don’t Wanna Die Anymore"]

I feel like shit. I didn’t get any sleep last night, and today I’ve got

this horrid ass cold. My nose is all clogged up and I can’t talk very well.

I just sucks.

I went to classes today. I was proud of myself. I was going to just get

up and go home and sleep all day. But in Engl today we were going to talk

about same-sex marriges. Most of the people in there supported them, but

the prof kept throwing out things against it to keep the conversation going.

It was cool. Had I been able to talk I would have input alot more information

and educated alot of people. But I couldn’t talk at all this moring.

I got my voice back before Soc, that class was amusing. Vero’s ass was

numb. I laughed a whole bunch. lol.

I also found out that my Math 150 class was cancelled, which pissed me

off cause well. Had I known it was going to be cancelled I would have taken

the appointment earlier in the day, but since I thought that I was going

to have class I took the one at 3. So that means I won’t be able to get

home and see Adam tell ike 5 or so. Grrr at that.

This weekends going to be really busy. I have to get my hair cut and highlighted.

I have to fix my grandma’s computer. I dunno what’s wrong with it this time,

but I heard she was bringing it up to my aunts to have her look at it and

I was like, WTF? My aunt knows nothing about computers. So I’m going to

go over there Saturday morning and look at it. Then I’m going out with Vero,

Mandy, Adam, Julian and a bunch of other people Saturday Afternoon. Then

Sat night Adam and I have to go to his house cause we have to watch his

sister.

I like burning CD’s for people. Today while I was waiting for class to

start I went and colored on them. I was amused, as should be the people

that get them.

I’m going to spend about $60 this weekend. Grrr. I owe Jules like 30 some

for the tickets. Yay for RENT!

September 3, 2001 #2

Sept 3, #2 [Oasis, "It’s Gettin’ Better (Man!)"]

Ok, well I got Dreamweaver 4 installed and got those cool navigation buttons

working. I’m so happy! Today’s been pretty boring. Grrr. I hate boring days.

Last night I had written Adam a letter basically talking about random things

and how the weekend’s been and shit. I knew he was working all day, so I

went over there and got this card. And got him some flowers, you know just

to say, Thanks for such a great time this summer, I’m glad to have you as

a friend. I wanted to get him Carnations cause they’re more of a freindship

flower, but they didn’t have any good looking ones. So I got him two yellow

roses, and put them and the card and the letter in his car. I hope he gets

them alright. This really are getting better!

I really didn’t want to leave this morning though. I didn’t want to come

back here. But I know that I have to. I’ll have lots of other good times

with Adam and people soon enough, but sometimes school / work gets in the

way. When we move to AZ we’ll have lots of great times together.

Good times. I got back here and there were like a shit load of e-mails

for me. I got two from random people. One was from this

guy. I’ve seen this guy before. His

pictures are used in a brochure thing for one of the local studios that

does HS Senior pics. He said that he hangs out at Java Joe’s and the gay

loop alot. I’ve never seen him there, but then said he was at the Alliance

meeting and I didn’t remember seeing him there, but then he described what

he was wearing and I was like, "OH YEAH. I remember you." So yeah.

He’s damn hot. He’s from DM and not going to college yet this year. Then

there was this other guy. He goes to ISU,

but I’ve never seen him on campus. We’ll see if he e-mails me back. 🙂 Whatever.

Ok I suppose I should finish my randomness from last night, eh?

So first topic, Time With Adam. Over the last three days I’ve spent alot

of time with Adam. Personal one on one time. I’ve really enjoyed it and

we’ve talked about alot of wierd things. We’ve talked about those plans

to move to AZ, we’ve talked about anything and everything under the sun.

I fell so much closer to him now. I don’t really remember where I wanted

to taket his to last night. But lets just say I’m glad that we’re such good

friends.

Second topic, Julian. Last night Adam and I had to run an errand for his

mom. We went to Wal-Mart of course to get her some stuff. Well first we

went back to see Julian. He looked really mad. So we hung out and talked

to him for a bit. Then he got some more customers, so we left to get what

we went to Wal-Mart for. We had to get Adam’s mom a fish, and her film.

Well we went and got the film, no problem, then we went to get the fish.

There was a line and the person there, didn’t want to touch the fish so

she was really slow at it. Adam, being the crazy guy that he is. Jumped

in there and started helping people, then he got the fish we needed. Then

I had to go get some things. By the time we had gotten everything it was

late and we’d been gone for a while with Adam’s mom’s credit card. So we

left and completely forgot that we were going to go back and see Julian

until we were like pulling in Adam’s drive way. Again. I felt bad cause

we didn’t go back and see him.

Third topic, Adam’s mom. Well Adam told his mom that I was gay. She’s cool

with it. But some things have been happening lately that have been really

wierd. Well first. I gave Adam some rainbow colored condoms cause I found

them amusing. Well he left them in his pants pockets and his mom washed

them and found them. I can just bet what that conversation was like. But

later that day. I was at his house talking to him mom and they came up and

I was like, "I have every color of the rainbow." She just gave

me the wierdest look. But then later. I guess Rob said there was something

wierd about me to Melinda. He thought that I was gay. And I guess Melinda

told him that I was. So that’s oddness. I’ve written this down somewhere

today, but I don’t remember if it was on here, or in an e-mail. Adam and

I think that his PU’s think that we’re together. Whatever, it’s so amusing,

the life that is Adam’s. I bet it’s not as amusing for him, but from the

outside it is. And he’s got good PU’s I think they’d be cool with what ever

he tells them. I guess also they talked to him about Saturday night when

they came home and Adam and I were there. And about us wanting the house

to ourselves. They didn’t say it str8 out, but I guess the thing that Adam

got out of thier convo is that it’s ok if you bring your BF’s home, just

don’t bring them home to make out, or something like that. I was amused.

Forth topic, Angie and NP. The other day Angie randomly called me and said,

"What’s North Polk’s school song." Well since I played a low insturment

I didn’t get to play the chorus type part, so all I knew was my part, which

wasn’t what she wanted, so I put her on speaker phone and got my brother

(At her request) and asked him. Then he sang like a few notes of it and

then I broke into it and then Angie started singing the words. It was so

amusing. My mom laughed at us all.

Fifth topic, My Grandma. The other night as well my grandma called and

said that he computer wasn’t working. She said she didn’t have a start bar,

or anything on her desktop and that her mouse wouldn’t work. Well I couldn’t

think of anything that would be causing this and I couldn’t explain to her

what to do to try and figure it out (She didn’t even know what the shift

key was). So I told her to leave it there and I’d come down some weekend

and look at it. Well the next day she just showed up at our door with her

computer and shit. I was like, WTF? So she brought it in and we set it up

and stuff, I started it up and it worked fine for me, so she drove all that

way (2 hours) for nothing. Oh well. She hung out there for a couple hours

and talked to my PU’s and shit.

Number six. My Crazy Aunt. After my grandma left I checked my voice mail

on my phone. My Aunt had called at 11:38 the night before and told me that

my grandma was going to be coming up. I was like, "WHO THE HELL GAVE

HER MY CELL PHONE NUMBER!" Cause of all people, she’s someone who shouldn’t

have it. My mom said, oh she called last night and I gave it to her. Apparently

they all knew my grandma was coming up, but not me. Nope, don’t worry about

telling Chris. That’s ok.

Ok, so that’s all the topics. Adam called a bit ago and was said thanks

for the flowers. I guess Tara called and told him that they were in his

car. I had mentioned to her that I was worried they’d be wilted by the time

he got off. And she asked me if I wanted her to call him, and I was like,

I don’t care. So I guess she did. That’s cool though. Adam said they meant

alot to him, which is nice. He means so much to me. It’s going to be an

amusing story though when he tells his mom that I gave them to him. He said

he might say that Angie sent them or something, which is cool with me, cause

well. We don’t need his mom suspecting more then she does now, lol.

Ok this is long enough and I’m sure everyone’s bored, So I’m going to go

now, laters.

September 3, 2001

Sept 3

Well today has been tons of fun and excitement. It all started out I went

over to Adam’s about 3 and we hung out there for like 30 minutes and shit

waiting for Mandy and Vero to get there. Well they got there and wanted

to go to Ames to get Ryan and they wanted to just hang out there and watch

a movie or something as I understand it. Well Adam and I didn’t want to

do that, cause well I left Ames for the weekend cause I wanted to go out

with Adam here in Des Moines, not to be driving to Ames. So they went to

Ames and Adam and I went downtown to drop some stuff off at the GLRC. Well

we went there and then Vero called Adam and we met them all at Java Joes.

That was good times. We spent like two hours at Java Joes, it was like 7

by the time we were wanting to leave. We were all going to go to Perkins

and get food and shit. Well, Adam and I were riding in Adam’s car, we were

heading back there and Adam realized he didn’t have his keys. So we went

back to Java Joes and looked all around there. Couldn’t find them, so we

went back to his car tracing the steps we took to get there, couldn’t find

them. They weren’t in his ignition so we thought they had to be outside

somewhere. So we went back to Java Joe’s. Still couldn’t find them. Went

back to his car and looked around even more. They were laying in his seat

and his door was locked. So we had to call his dad. It took him like 30

minutes to get there, but he finally got the door open. We were so excited,

then we hung around there and talked to his dad some about cars and manly

shit. That was amusing. Then we went back to Ankeny and went to Hy-Vee,

by now it was almost ten. At Hy-Vee we remembered that we had been invited

to a party at Xak’s Apartment, so we went there, and hung out with Xak,

then we went to find the party, but couldn’t find it, so we went back to

Xak’s and watched a really amusing movie. After that we went out back while

Xak and this Luke guy smoked and we talked and told funny stories. It was

good times. Adam and I left there about midnight, I was sad to leave Adam

tonight. I really didn’t want to. It’s going to be a few weeks before I

see him again. grrrr. I hate this, being in Ames. It’s not that far, but

yet it’s to far to really be back here every weekend.

We had called Vero and them when we realized that we locked the keys in

the car. I feel bad about making them drive back to Des Moines, and then

we pretty much ditched them cause, well we couldn’t go anywhere. But I feel

bad about that. I really do. Sorry if that ruined your plans, I really wanted

to hang out with them, but by the time we got out car unlocked and shit

it was late, and we had no Idea where they might have been. So we just went

and hung out.

I’m really glad that I’ve had the time to spend with Adam this weekend.

Just the one on one time. I’ve realized alot about our relationship. I hope

that our plans to move to Arizona work out. I really do. It’d be the coolest

fucking thing ever.

There’s alot more that I want to write about. But it’s late and I hate

this keyboard, it sticks. Topics include: Time with Adam; Julian; Adam’s

mom; Angie and NP; My grandma; My crazy aunt; and other random things. I’ll

go away now though, cause this keyboard is really getting to me. Grrr.

Aug 26, 2001

Aug 26, [Garbage, "Crush"]

So the last couple days have been emotional crazies. Yesterday Adam, Mandy

and I went over to Angie’s house to see her off. Well, her plane was delayed

about an hour, so we hung around there for a while, and we wanted to talk

to her personally, but we didn’t get a chance to cause Angie’s mom was being

a bitch. Well, we went to the airport and we hung out, everyone was being

really well composed there. We found out that Angie’s plane had been delayed

another hour or so. Well it finally landed about 2 or so, and we got everything

loaded, and all that and Angie was on the plane. We had all said our goodbyes

and stuff. Adam gave Angie his necklace, I’m sure meant alot to her, it

was very sweet of him to do that. Well it wasn’t until the engines were

started that people started to break down and cry. I wanted to just let

the tears gush, but I didn’t I held them back. Adam was crying really badly,

and I knew what he was going though. I wish Angie’s PU’s hadn’t been there

cause well then I could have hugged him and such. I know that when I’m in

a mood like that I like to just have someone there that will hug me or hold

me. But I didn’t I hugged him a couple times that was nice, it made me feel

better. After her plane was moving we left and Mandy took us back to Angie’s

house so we could get Adam’s car. From there we went back to Adam’s house

and hung out and cleaned his room.

After we were done with his room we went back to my house and I packed

some. We talked alot there about coming out and how people percieve bi-sexuality.

It was a nice talk. After we were done there we went ovet to me Aunts house

and met my grandma and we hung out there for a while and talked. We left

there and went back to PC on the way there Julian called and wanted to hang

out, so he came over to my house. When he got there we went to Best Buy

to get him a modem that worked with Linux. That was fun times. After we

went to Best Buy we went over to Comp USA. There was this song that made

Adam think of Angie and he started getting sad, this was in the check out

line. Well I gave Adam a hug and the lady at the desk said "Ahhh, isn’t

that sweet." Then Adam felt the need to give the lady a hug and the

guy standing next to her, that was amusing.

After that we went back to PC to get Mandy. We got Mandy and went to her

house, her dad was home, that was just odd, he felt the need to show us

his bullets. Hmmmm. We left quickly. We went to Ames after that. That was

amusing, we all talked about random things and other such stuff. It was

mostly good times.

Today I moved, it sucked. Grrr fucking PU’s. I won’t go into that though,

maybe later.

This is why I do daily updates, cause I have to much to post if I do more

then one day in an update. I know I’m fogetting alot of the things that

happened to me in the last 48 hours. Maybe I’ll add another update later.