A Memory In Time.

Ok, so updates about the weekend will happen later. First we much update about the ABSOLUTE best part of the weekend.

Tonight there was supposed to have been a drag show. Andrew, Skinny and I were all going to go. (Skinny as our chaperone because apparently we’re 5 and need someone to watch us). We got there and it was deserted. Crazy.

We went to Java’s and hung out for a while, then got bored. Skinny left so Andrew and I were like… “What now?”

I suggested going to the lake, so we did.

Got there and drove around a while, talking. Looking for a good place to watch the sunset. We eventually found one, about half way across the damn, down by the water. Such a great spot. We both sat there on this little rock, cuddled, held hands and talked about random stuff for a while.

We also kissed alot, just randomly, we’d be talking, and then suddenly kissing. It’s so nice to kiss him. Because as we talked about, they’re meaningfull kisses, not “lets get it on” kisses. So very very touching.

It was so nice to just hold him in my arms, and to caress his legs, and his arms. To rub his back, to kiss his face, his neck, his ear.

After a while of sitting there side by side, we moved so that he was infront of me, so that I could wrap my arms around him and hold him close. Again, so so wonderfull. And it was so nice to just sit there with him and take some time out of or hectic lives, and go to somewhere peacefull with someone that you really care for, and just hold them and kiss them, and watch the sun set. We talked about the Canyon and the great sunsets there, and Frankel Field at camp, the best place to watch the stars. Hopefully this summer we can spend lots of time there, going to all the places that I love going to there at camp and watching the sunset, or gazing up at the stars.

I’m such a romantic sometimes. It’s crazy! lol.

Eventually the sun had set, and we were there embracing each other, kissing, talking, hugging. So nice, I didn’t want to leave at all. It was getting cold and we stood up, hugged, kissed. Standing there on the rock, the sky purple, the “waves” breaking on the rocks behind us, it was like a movie. A nice romantic movie. Times like those I wish there were a photographer around.

Eventually we did leave, and we walked hand in hand back to the car.

Drove back to MH Hy-Vee where my car was. As we pulled in I saw Skinny’s car. We pulled up next to him, and he’s like “Where you two been for the last 3 hours!” So funny. We decided that the story was that we’ve been at Java’s all night with Skinny if Adam asks.

Skinny left, Andrew parked and we hugged again, Kissed again. I didn’t want to leave, I just couldn’t stop kissing him and hugging him. It was so sad to go.

But it’s been a wonderfull memory in time, and time takes all but memories.

A Drive…

Ok, so Andrew already covered the majority of the night and well the non-private parts of the night will go into a real entry sometime Sunday night/Monday.

Anyways, driving to IC was tons of fun. Mostly because of the cuteness between Andrew and I. Holding hands, tickling, etc. So cute!

On the way back Andrew and I sat in the back seat. The first half we just sat there holding hands. Andrew kept dancing and it was funny cause he was only dancing with one hand. Hehe. Like half way back he laid his head down on my knee and it was so cute and precious. I wanted to kiss him so badly. But since Dusting AND Jenny had both made comments about not kissing/making out in the back seat I thought that I shouldn’t. But it was so cute, and I just loved it!

Eventually I put my arm all the way around him and held him and tight as I could. It was so nice. Too bad it was in such a crowded space! I also kissed him a couple times, and I just didn’t want to stop. Too bad we couldn’t have just put up like a curtain or something so they couldn’t see! lol. He’s also one of few people that actually has a REALLY good profile to look at, it’s so cute…

Anyways enough of my gushing. We eventually got to Dustin’s and dropped him off and Jenny was like “One of you has to sit in the front seat!” And I was like, “NO, I like this too much, don’t leave!” Ok, I didn’t actually say that, but whatever, it’s what I was thinking.

So Andrew got in the front seat and it was back to the leg rubbing, and hand holding of the ride out to IC. So nice still!

Jenny dropped us off at Perkins MH. We hugged and kissed. I was afraid of being shot there because of the crazies. It’s feels so good to kiss him, so touching, so so meaningful.

WE departed ways and as he was “walking” back to his car… Well actually he skipped the whole way. I was like, “Awww, how cute.” It was funny.

Drove home with a big smile on my face.

Today’s been crazymad. More of that in the public entry….

Finally I got to see Andrew about 5ish. I was REALLY hoping to get there earlier so that we could hang out more, rather then just “Hi, how’s it going” blah blah. But it was still REALLY good to see him. And he was DAMN hot in his Tux…

Someday, I’m going to get a man all dressed up in a tux and have WILD sex with him, starting by taking off the tux one piece at a time with my mouth!

Again, enough of my sexual fantasies… Can you tell I haven’t jecked it lately??? lol

We went into his house, just me him and beak, to take some pics and for him to get more film. We were taking pics with our arms around each other, I felt kinda wierd and out of place. But it was still nice. I wanted to give him a kiss so badly, but some woman walked in! Whore! lol.

Had to leave shortly after that because they were all getting ready to go. We hugged, again wanted a kiss so badly. Stupid people being around… Why can’t we just TELL everyone that we’re happy and shit! Rarr. Drove by, blew kisses. It was cute!

Spent tonight gushing to Beak about how much fun he is, and how much closer to him I feel then I ever did to Adam. I’m sure she’s sick of hearing of Andrew, and Adam for that matter. lol.

I was kinda hoping all night that he’d call and say “Hey, wanna come to after-prom.” Didn’t think he actually would, since he said before that he and Ginny had talked about it and ruled it out. But in the back of my mind I was hoping. He did call about midnight and that was nice to talk to him. Never did ask and I was kinda sad, but I understand because it was _his_ prom and Ginny was _his_ date. (As if she didn’t make that CLEAR enough in her journal entry!) lol. Anyways, still would have liked to have gone.

Made plans to hang out tomorrow. Can’t wait!

Iowa City Trip

2:47PM >

Ok, so time for the private update about what REALLY happened 🙂
WHen I thought that Adam was still going out with us, I Told him that I was
going to dinnr with Courtney so that I would have an excuse to go out with
Chris. So Chris and I met at Perkins and we ate and this girl working there
sassed off to him (“Excuse me, I believe you had PIE.”)Really funny.
Anyways, we just talked about stuff and about how Adam gets mad that we hang
out, but he always suggests that we do it… mixed signals!
So then we were waitng for Jenny to get us (Oh I just remembed, BOTH Chris
and I looked UBER hot yesterday… mmm mm!) and we talked a bit in the car.
“Us” talk. I told him that I was just wondering if he was wning something
further to happen, and he informed me that he did, which set my mind at ease
a bit. I mentioned how sometimes I feel uncomfortable around the situation,
but only b/c I’ve been friends for him for so long, that sometimes I feel
silly! But it isn’t a big deal. 🙂
So on the ride up, I had my hand in the backseat on his leg and he was
rubbing my arm and it was cute and stuff. Then on the way home, we both got
to ride in the back, even though JEnny was afraid we would make out lol. I
think she was kidding….THINK
Eventually, we started holdin hands in the backseat, and that was sweet, and
then Adam called us both and it was like GRR! It was funny b/c earlier in the
night, I said to Chris, “Watch, if we aren’t online by like 12 or so, Adam
will be calling, wondering where we are.” And lo and behold, he called right
around 12 or so. Funny shit. So Chris finally talked to him and he was short
with him and Adam got annoyed and blah blah blah. So then I was tired so I
just layed down and rested my head on Chris’ knee. It was totally sweet, he
kept bending down and giving me little kisses on my head and neck. I
melted…. I felt SO connected to him last night…. It was wonderful.
Eventually he just put his arm all the way around me and held me there, and
we kissed a few times, and I’m not sure how Dustin and Jenny felt about
that…. but they most likely would’ve objected if they had been upset.
Hopefully Dustin doesn’t go blabbing to Adam or anything. I was a bit shocked
that Chris was even ok with showing that kind of emotion in front of them, I
thought he wouldn’t. It just proved to me that he really does care and really
does like me! YAY! I really really enjoyed just laying there in his arms
though. I wanted to take a picture of us b/c I’m sure we were adorable, but I
thought Dustin might have been just a tad uncomfortable taking a pic of that,
considering the circumstances. It was ok though, I’m sure we’ll have plenty
of opportunities for cute pics! : )
When we left, it was sad, as it always is, and I didn’t want to say goodbye
to Chris. I was a bit wary as to whether we should kiss goodbye in the
parking lot at Perkins or not… But we did, and it was magical, and I was
sooooooo happy. I smiled the whole way home, even though I was dead tired.
Today he said he may get a chance to come over and see me in my tux. I hope
he does, b/c I wanna see him!But if not, we have plans to go out tomorrow
night to the dragshow and maybe we will even hang out before then, if he
wants to accompany me over to Skinny’s. So who knows.
At any rate, another wonderful night with Chris. I think it’s great how
nothing bad has happened yet! I dunno, it’s arunning theme in my
relationships to have something bad happen like once every few days. But
nothing’s happened with us yet…. I feel that we would fight very little if
we dated. That’s just my gut feeling. NOt like it matters, b/c fights
actually do build relationships and make them stronger. Well, anyways, I’m
gonna try to figure out something to do for awhile until I get ready for Prom
Perhaps I’ll daydream about Chris some
!Current mood: > enthralled
Current music: PMS– maryj blige

Ames, Again

I just wrote a whole great entry about how wonderful Chris is and how we had
such a great time yesterday and now its GONE ALL GONE!!!! THis is why I use
EasyJournal blah!
Ok here goes, minus the stupid stuff.
Went to Ames.
Watched a bad movie about Giant Bugs.
Went to eat at Chinese Buffet, Chris paid (so sweet), we were blargmonsters
and a half.
Almost threw up on the car ride home.
We started watching “traffic” Though I didn’t really want to watch. I get the
impression Chris didn’t either, but I am not sure. 🙂
Bah, Adam is a crazy face!
Anyways, he was holding me during the movie, and that was so sweet and nice
and I love having his arms around me. So we were kissing randomly during the
movie.
“What’s going on in the movie?”
“I don’t know.”
“Eh, its hard to concentrate when there isa hot boy on my couch.”
It was something like that, totally sweet and I’m sure I was blushing
horribly. We kept kissing, and it was so nice, and we smiled at each other
and his eyes looked at me with such compassion. *Sigh* Wonderful.
I’m at a loss for words. Imagine that. ME, at a LOSS for words.
What a guy.
We eventually moved to the bed, b/c I was getting a bit uncomfy on the couch.
We layed down and kissed some more, well we kissed a lot, and it was so
blissful. We kissed, we laughed, we talked, he did the ear thing, I swooned
lol. We didn’t really talk about what was happening between us, but you know
what, that’s perfectly ok. I enjoyed just savoring the time I had with him.
It was supreme happiness, and the only thing that ruined it was the fact that
I had to go home.
So I left… ok well, I tried to leave, we got up, kissed some more, I pushed
him down and got on him, we kissed some more, I got up, and we stood by his
bedroom door, kissed some more. At some point I finally got my shoes on.
We stood by the door and kissed some more (imagine that). It was REALLY
REALLY hard to go, I wanted to just stay and skip school and say “FUCK
EVERYONE I WANNA BE WITH CHRIS!” but alas, I left. I didn’t want to… I get
the impression he didn’t want me to either. Stupid school, it ruins
everything!
So I left, and thought about him and what happened the whole way home. I
wanted to tell everyone at school what happened…. but when people asked me
how Ames was, I just responded with a “yeah, it was really cool, we had a
good time” I know how to play it cool…
Speaking of playing it cool, Adam is a crazy psycho freak. He called me 2
times and Chris 3 times last night, freaking out b/c he didn’t know where we
were. We bothmade up good storiese though and he was pacified. But I swear,
if he asks Chris just one more time if we are going to Prom togther, I will
murder him in his sleep. THough I think GInny took care of that on her
journal lol.
Anyways… I really like Chris, I think I say that too much. But, well, it’s
the truth!
I haven’t felt this way in FOREVER.
A caring and compassion that is real….. it actuallys FEELS real!!! How
exciting!
I can only imagine what the next few months have in store for us… hopefully
good stuff. I don’t doubt it.
Yay for Chris being able to rock my face off!
And this time I WONT delete it.

Ames, yet again!

9:18PM – Ames, yet again!

So yeah another update that I write EXCLUSIVELY for Chris. He better feel damn special! Though I guess I would be writing this anyway b/c I always forget things that happen and need a journal to remind me. ANYWAYS
So yesterday, I was so excited all day to go up to see him, that I Just didn’t work out! Whoops! Oh well. So I get there and we just sat around, I forced him to make me lunch, and he did. It was sweet, even though I made him. lol 🙂
Then we watched “Starship Troopers” which was really kinda dumb, and Chris claims he now will have nightmares, crazy boy! Then we just talked, and did lots of random shit.
Went out to eat at the best Chinese place (“Enjoy your meal, please.” “Well, ok, but only b/c you said please.”) We totally BLARGED out. I ate two platefuls and then ice cream. I felt so sick on the way home, I thought I might throw up, so I cautioned Chris not to make any sudden stops, as he is known to do!
We went back to his house and started watching “Traffic” which is a really good movie. But I didn’t want to watch. We started cuddling and he was holding me and that was really YAY sweet! Oh I just remembered, he paid for dinner and that was really great too. So then we started kissing, and we kissed a lot, and it was so wonderful. I feel so many great emotions when I kiss him! I seriously have not felt this way in a LONG LONG LONG time. It is so nice to be held by someone who isn’t just there to fuck me, and who isn’t gonna leave me at the drop of a hat. So very very nice, to quote Chris lol. It was so cute, he was like “What’s going on in the movie?” and I wasl ike “I dunno.” and he said something like “It’s hard to concentrate when there’s a hot boy on the couch.” i was like awwww and I was probably blushing myself to death. THen I was on top of him, but I was way too crowded, so I suggested we move to the bed. I practically had to DRAG him along!
So we get there, and lay down, more kissing, more cuddling, more of that ear thing… mmmm. 🙂 We were having such a nice time, we kinda started talking about things, but we didn’t really push it, and I got the impression that he wanted to just talk later… .. which was fine, I just wanted to savor the moments I had with him. I had to leave eventually but I really didn’t want to!!! It was totally hard to leave. Like we sat up, kissed some more, then I pushed him back down and got on top of him for a minute or two, then got up, kissed more, and finally I got my shoes on. We kissed more, and I REALLY didn’t want to go. I would’ve easily just skipped school and spent the whole night with him. Even I am at a loss for words now… that should say something.
We kissed and kissed, kissed some more, I went to the door, went back, kissed, kissed, kissed! Yay, I love to kiss him. Such cute little lips, and they are so soft. It was great, just great.
Anyways… Adam called us a whole bunch during the night, but we never anwered our phones. Then he freaked out, blah blah, it’s practically turned into a daily occurence.
Well, I sure wish I could be with Chris. I miss the guy already! And the fact that it is totally hard for me to leave says something…. I’m falling for the guy!
Well, he has had to wait long enough for this, so I’m gonna go off and send it to him!