I do not think I can even express in words how I felt tonight when I looked at Chris.
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That’s what he is.
I am not sure I have ever felt this way before… EVER.
I should be happy now, but I’m not. I’m sad. Sad that his strong arms aren’t around me… sad that I have to wait 3 days before I see him.
The closer we get, the harder it is to leave….
I hope I have the strength when the time comes.
Current mood: indescribable
Job Offfer
So my life has been boring the last two days. I haven’t done jack shit. Well, alright, I did do alot, but nothing of importance.
My first final is over with. I think I did pretty good, the grades will be posted on May 9th, I don’t know why he’s waiting that long because he’ll have them by Monday evening. Perhaps it’s just because he’s a dumb ass. Speaking of, on Wed he wore black pants, a blue shirt (That looked like he had just taken it out of a hamper) and brown shoes, GASP! Today he wore a white shirt (Wrinkled again) and black pants (The same ones from Wed it appeared) and agian BROWN shoes. Now I know that I’m no fashion queen, but still. That’s HORRILBE!
So again, not much going on, I’m at work now and there’s stuff to do, but I’m kinda stuck on something right now, so I’m taking a break. Plus I have a HORRIBLE headache.
I figured up that I should be getting about $100 back on my books this semster. That is if they take them back. I’m going in on Monday to return them all because I know for a fact that my POM book is only going to be used for the summer and then a new one for fall, so hopefully I’ll get it sold back before they stop taking them. I was hoping to use all that money on clothes, but I still owe some on my camera. I haven’t yet decided if I shall spend that money where.
Speaking of money, Wed when Andrew was up, I got a call from someone, but I let the vioce mail take it cause I didn’t want to answer my phone. I check it out yesterday morning and it was someone from UP (Union Pacific RR) offering me an internship in Omaha. I turned it down, mostly because I want to spend the summer here with people, and the fact that I really need to take classes!
I’m really excited for this semester to be over, then it’s only one more YEAR until I’m fucking done, I can’t wait! Although, it’s also starting to scare me. At least when I got out of HS, I knew that I was going to college, and that I’d have money,etc. Now I’m just really scared because I’m actually going to the REAL world. ::whines::
Oh well, I’m sure things will work out somehow. Now since the grammer in this entry is far less then normal, I’m going to stop now and just leave you with some pics of our trip to Grays Lake last weekend…
Andrew’s Hand.
Andrew’s Foot.
Andrew!
A/S/L
A/S/L?? <~~ There's a link there... Go read VERY FUNNY! So as of 9:40 this morning, I’m officially done with classes. How sweet is that!! Although I do have a review class from 11-12:15 tomorrow. I think I’ll go to that, but since it’s not required, hell. I’m officialy done with classes! Woot! My PHIL prof made the final optional, I think I’ll take it though so that I can hopefully bring my grade up! So this weekend is already really busy. Saturday I’m planting all day, and then Sunday Andrew and I are going to to go help Beak move the rest of her stuff from Perry. Good times. Hopefully there will be free food involved?? Anyways, I had a really GREAT day today, I only worked for 2 hours, and then came home and hung out with friends. We went to Hickory Park for supper, and I blarged out. I feel so fat now! Blarg Blarg! “Once again, girl on girl action, and it’s totally lost on me!” Night!
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SO this weekend was VERY VERY good, as it usually is.
Saturday we hung out here and workedo n my car, which was fun. I get better gas mileage now! Thanks Topher! See, I really enjoy having him around, b/c he has this vast array of common knowledge that just helps out in so many situations. It’s great that he konws so much shit that I SHOULD know, but of course don’t.
Then we went to VWM, then to B&N, where we met Liz. I think Chris liked her so that’s good! And I’m pretty sure she liked him back. Yay greatness!
Then we went out to the Sports store lol that was so random.
We went to Grays Lake, and that was soooo nice. Sitting there, and he had his arms around me, and I don’t really think the breeders enjoyed us too much. It does kinda ruin the mood when some white trash HOES yell the F word. But whatever I still had a great time with MY Topher, sitting on the dock thingy and taking random pics of my feet and hands with the digital cam.
Good times.
Went to Beckys and taht was fun. I was introduced as “Chris’ boyfriend” which just made me feel really good. Like it was like “YAY I really AM Chris’ boyfriend!!” It still sounds weird to say it.. I dunno, I guess I Just thought it would never happen and now that it has… YAY!
We ate cake there, yum yum. I think we worked it off later though *Wink*
THen we went to Perkins, dinner was on me, and this heinous woman like FORCED me to buy some easter egg thing for some dead kids and I def didn’t want to, then she tried to get me to buy one for Chris, but I said no. And unfortunately it was acutally a pretty good coupon. I should’ve just stole the whole damn basket.
Then we went to my house I think, where I asked mother if I could stay the night and she threw a fit, then said yes, then acted like nothing happened. She’s REALLY been pissing me off lately.
Anywyas, we went to Steph’s bonfire, which was really cool. Kristin told me today how much she likes Chris! “I really don’t know why, I just like him a lot!” So that was good.
Then off to PC to get Chris’ stuff, then off to Ames to spend the night. I was sooooooo tired, since I had worked early that morning.
We got to Ames and decided to put the movie off till the next day and went to bed. Well, of course, that resulted in a bit of fooling around, we both came, and I gave Chris a little head. Hehe. As is my recollection, we were talking or something during it… I believe my quote was “I have never had this long of a convo while I”m trying to give head” or something to that effect. I dunno… Other classic quote: “It’s like a new toy, you have to figure out how it works” ohhhhh k lol.
We went to bed at 2:11 ish. Woke up at 8:28 ish…. WAAAY tired. So my back hurt again that little idiosyncrasy of mine is FUCKING ANNOYING. It totally needs to stop. Anyways, we made out some more lol and did some other stuff and I came again. I wanted to have Chris cum, so that he didn’t feel left out, plus it’s just common courtesy for both people to cum, but he didn’t want to, and I didn’t want to be an annoying bitch and push the matter, so I didn’t. I did lay on him though and let all the cum from my body mesh into his. LOL. I”m not sure how happy he was about that one.
Then we just spent the day up in Ames, it was really nice. We just sat around did lots of random shit, I didn’t even get ready until like 6 in the afternoon. My hair was all fucked and Chris said it was cute, but I don’t really think it was. Yeah so we watched Save the Last Dance and other random TV shows, and laid in bed some more, which is SOOOO nice. I love to lay with him and we always have the weirdest convos and just hold each other and its so fun.
Oh and I can’t believe I forgot to mention!
On Friday I was just sitting quietly at my desk contemplating life, when Brent randomly came up to me with flowers and was like “these are for you” I was totally floored. My face must’ve turned totally red and I had this big goofy grin on my face for the rest of the night. They were from Chris of course, with a note that said “Drew Bear: Let’s drop the almost. Topher” It was soooo totally cute, and I was definitely the envy of the office. Everyone was like “I wish someone would do that for me” etc…
SO yeah, that was one of the sweetest things anyone has ever done! And it was even sweeter when I found out that Chris was all nervous about it and even called to make sure they were delivered. Hehe, he is SOOOO cute!
Anyways so we are official now, as of April 25… it really isn’t much different from before, but I like being official. I have someone to care about me! Yay!
Anyways, drama w/ Adam/Scott/LJ almost ruined the weekend.. But I’m over that now and feeling fine!
So yeah… time to send this on to Chris!
*kisses and bear hugs from the DB*
Current mood: hot
Current music: la woman
No More Drama!
Ok, so this weekend was in fact TONS of greatness. Saturday like I said, we went out to Grays lake, where we sat down on the dock thing. I was amazed at some of the Parents that were there. First off, when we got there, there were these two women sitting there talking, so we went to the opposite side of the thing and sat down and talked. Before I knew it they were gone. Eh, whatever. So we sat there by ourselves for a while, just being our cute selves. Lots of people walked by, no one said anything, or did anything that we could see. EVentually two more women came down and sat there for a long time. Drew Bear and I talked about what we thought people did when they were with their children and saw us, or even when it was just them and they saw us. Did they turn and go the other way, did they say something under thier breath, etc. After about an hour of being there, we heard our first derogatory remarks. Made by some stupid white trash kids as they rode their bikes by. And they also waited tell they were FAR out of our reach to yell at us. Shortly after that happened the other two women got up and left. I was amazed that it took so long for something to happen….
But after that something else happened that made up for the deragatory terms. A father and his small girl were rollerblading around, and I would assume that the girl asked to come down to where we were and play in the lake. And he let her! I know this might SEEM like a small thing, but in my eyes that’s a very big step, and it shows that he’s probably a pretty good father. When I saw them coming down I figured that he’d probably at least take her so that she’s as far away from the “homo’s” as possilbe, and also probably have her face away from us. But he actually led her out closer to us, and he also had her facing us! I dunno, this just seems really cool to me!
Blah blah blah, At Perkins we hung around and talked for a while, and had a really good convo. We talked about some really random things and made fun of the gay boi that had brought his prom date to Perkins for dinner. hehe. After that to the girls, where we were cute again! We’re soooo cute! I guess everyone has to have one ugly before a cutie, eh?!?! After that to Ames. When we got there, I was SOOO tired that I just wanted to colapse. But somehow I/we managed up the strength (But then again, who couldn’t when you’ve got such a cutie) to kiss him, which led to other things, which led to me jacking him off again, and him cumming. But this time in my HAIR! Bastard. lol. Then I jacked myself off, and I came as well. Good times. We cleaned up and then went to bed.
Sunday we got up and I showered and got dressed, but Drew just showered and then walked around all day in his gap pants, and no shirt. Ohhh, I can’t get over how hot he is! Rarrr at my Drew Bear. I know that I go on and on about how hot he is, but I’m really not that shallow. He’s also very hot mentally. And it makes me so happy that he’s such a smart boi, and that he’s so financially stable/secure. Something I definitally need. I don’t want anymore of that shit that Adam put me through with his financial stupidness. Anyways, back to Drew. He’s so menatlly stimulating, and I hope that I am for him as well, and that I’m not just a hot body (S, since I’m not a hot body), lol.
It was sad when he finally put his shirt on and we had to leave. So sad. Then we got to his house and it was very wierd dropping him off there and kissing him right infront of his house. But I’m sure I can get over that! lol.
Oh, he came a second time in there somewhere, he did that himself. I didn’t cum again, because I didn’t want to. I was happier just holding him, and kissing him, and showing that I cared for him. And I hope that he felt the same.
I want to write about how many problems Adam’s been causeing, but I don’t want to fuck up a good, happy entry. So that’ll be later.