My Life

Redhat / SuSE?

So I’m thinking about when I get my new computer… Shoud I use Redhat or SuSE? What will I do with my old computer…. Should the new one become my new main system, and my HP become by backup… What should I do….

Here’s the current setup:

HP: SuSE, Apache, SSH, MySQL, BIND. Main Personal computer, website, DNS.
Compaq: SuSe, FTP, SSH. Backup computer, using rsync, and main ftp server.

Here’s what I’m thinking about doing:

Micron #1: SuSe, SSH. Use as main machine
HP: Redhat, SSH, Apache, BIND, FTP. Use as backup of personal items and main webserver/ftp server.
Compaq (200 Mhz): Win2k Server. SSH, DNS. Use as backup DNS Server. And Windows testing server.

And then if I get a second Micron Machine I’d replace the compaq and use Micron #2 as Win2k box and then use Compaq as either a firewall or give it to someone else.

I dunno. Leave input for me….

My Life

When will I see him again?

Tonight has royally sucked ass. Adam and I got home about 5ish and went over to his house. We were just going to spend the night on the couch in front of the fire place. It was going to be nice and sweet. His mom got home, she wasn’t happy about something, she didn’t really express it that much.. But you could tell. They all ate, then they decided that they weren’t going to go out tonight, so that ruined Adam and my plans. We asked if we could come to my house, to watch TV, Adam had got the QaF DVD’s. We went out to the car to get them and were headed towards my car. Adam’s mom popped her head out the door and said, “Adam can I talk to you for a minute.” He went back inside, I went to start my car to warm it up. I started it and sat there for a while… And I sat there… And I sat there. Finally 15 minutes later, I was like screw this and went back inside to find out what was going on… As I came up the steps I could see in the windows.. Rob was on the couch, Melinda was on the couch arm. Adam was standing in front of them.. is coat off, his head down, I could tell it wasn’t good, I went and knocked on the door, hoping to save him, he motioned me in. I went in and Melinda continued with what she was saying… It wasn’t good. I could see that Adam was about in tears. I could see his heart on the floor as his mom ripped into him some more. They finished and Adam came towards me, spilled on his shoes. No coat. I knew what he was going to say, I stepped out the door and he came behind me, before he even got the door shut the tears came rolling down his face. I knew what it was about, I knew what had happened in there. He came out side and started telling me the story, I felt so bad for him. I wanted to just stand there and hold him all night, tell him things were going to be ok, because they will. Things will be ok. I know they will. He was in tears and I could tell how much his mom had hurt him. I knew that she was doing what she felt was right as a parent, but I don’t think she was. She didn’t need to rip into him that much, esspecially when he was getting ready to leave to go somewhere. I left him, I didn’t want too, I wanted to stay there and hug him all night, I wanted to be there for him to cry on when he needed me.

I cried all the way home feeling so bad for him. I got home and my mom came to the door, she asked what was wrong, we talked for like an hour about him, and his parents. How they’re doing, in everything. We talked about it all…

My mom thinks that Adam’s a scapegoat for his mom, some one she can take her frustration out on… She can’t do it on Abbie, or Rob…. So it’s Adam… Granted he does deserve to be punished in some way for his bad grades, and his debt, but I think she’s taking it all to an extreme. Maybe it’s just me.. Maybe I’m missing a part of the story.

She had alot of good suggestions and insights into things. Mostly things we’ve already looked at, like getting him out of there, how he could afford it, ways he could get his debt paid off. She’s a wise woman.

My Life

Oct 26, 2001

Oct 26, [BBMak, "More Then Words"]

ONE YEAR OF RANTINGS!!!! Yep, that’s right, one year ago today I started

this page!

Ya know, WinXP has only been out one bloody day and I’m already sick of

hearing about it. M$ is promoting it as the savior of the world, and really,

it’s just a piece of shit. Win2k Pro will work just fine for me thanks.

Bastards anywho. I want to switch over to a total linux box, but there’s

just a few things that I don’t want to risk losing. Maybe this summer I’ll

work on that and save up some money for copy of Win for Linux or something,

that way if I do have to use Windows for something, I can just use that.

Or maybe I’ll just buy myself a Win laptop, that’d be nice.

So it’s Friday as well. Tonight Adam and I are going to my G&G’s, fun

times. We’re going to hang out with David, which should be fun. I’ve been

looking forward to meeting him.

Ok. I have to be going to class now, See everyone Sunday….

My Life

Oct 21, 2001

Oct 21, [BBMak, "Just Another Day"]

So my horoscope Friday said that everything would work out if I took the

first step. And it did. On my way home from school I heard an ad on the

radio of Saturn of Des Moines, so I was like, I’m sure everything there

will be out of my price range, but hey, it’s always cool to run down there

and check things out and see what they’ve got. So I went down there and

there was this sweet black 01 Saturn sittting there in the used car lot

that I loved. So I went over and checked it out, Power everything, Auto,

Moonroof, it was such a great car. But a bit out of my price range, $11,400.

But sitting next to it was a ’00 Saturn SL1 4 door, Power Windows, Poor

Door Locks, Keyless Entry, 5-speed, 30,000 Miles. Really nice car. So I

grabed the first salesman I found, expecting him to say it was in the mid

$10,000 range. They had just got it in the day before, so they didn’t have

a price on it yet, so he went inside and found out how much they wanted

for it, came out and told me it was in the mid $9,000. Which I could afford.

So I was like, "SWEET ACTION." So I test drove it, and it drove

really nice. I called up my dad and we talked about it and such, then I

went home. Got him, we went down there, filled out all the paper work, and

set up a time to pick it up on Saturday. I got it, I love this car. It drives

sooooooooo nice. I’m happy 🙂

Then after that I went out with Adam, that was good times. We went downtown

of course, and we talked and hung out with people. This weekend I relaly

didn’t get to see all that much of him, but the time that we spent together

was well spent quality time, so I’m happy about that. Angel said that we

needed to open up our lines of communication again, which we worked on some

this weekend, even though Adam might no realize it yet. But we did, I’ve

still got alot to talk to him about, and he’s got alot to learn, but we’re

working on things, and all’s good. WE’ve got a great friendship that I see

lasting for the rest of my life. He’ll hopefuly be my soulmate for my life,

and I’ll be his. It’s so great.

Saturday I spent the monring cleaning out my old car and getting it ready

to sell to my dad, that took a hell of a long time, but I must say it looks

damn nice now. I’m happy with it. Then about 2 or so Adam showed up at my

house and we hung out there and talked for a while tell he had to leave

for work and I have to leave to pick up my car. Then after work he and I

went downtown for about an hour and then we came home and just had a good

night at his house. I love spending time at his house with him and all,

but sometimes it really annoys me when he just spends the time on his computer.

I mean usually it doesn’t bother me. But sometimes I just get bored with

it, it’s not fun for me to sit there and watch him play on his computer,

there’s really nothing there for me to do. I don’t have an interactive role

in it, you know what I mean. So usually I just get up and go sit on the

couch or something, which is cool. But still. Oh well. Overall the night

there was great, we watched TV and talked and just hung out. I left there

about 3 or so and I guess his PU’s got home like 20 minutes after I left,


Today’s been a cool day as well. I got up early, well not really that early,

it was like 10 or something, but still early for not getting home tell about

3:30 and not going to be tell about 5 or so. But yeah, Adam called like

11 or so, so I went over there about 12 and we hung out tell he had to go

to work. It was good times. He really needs to get a new job, so we went

out and he filled out Job Apps. Then I went home and did my HW and such,

the paper on Bartleby that I had to write has to be the dumbest thing I’ve

ever written. Oh well. I don’t really care right now. Then about 7 I went

over to Hy-Vee and hung out with Adam on his break we talked and that to

was good times. He’s now got next Friday and Saturday off, so we’re hoping

to go down to Lenox and hang out with David on Friday and then I have to

help my G&G on Saturday. Fun times. I hope he actually askes his PU’s

to go. That’s another thing that annoyed me this weekend, Friday he wanted

to stay the night at my house, well he asked if he could, but then when

we got back to his house, he said he was too tired, yet he was awak enough

to stay up 2 more hours and watch tv at his house. And then Saturday I asked

if he wanted to stay, and he came up with some lame excuse as well, but

I mean I don’t really care. If he doesn’t want to that’s fine. Oh well whatever.

So now here I am sitting here in my dorm, wanting to not be here of course.

But that’s the way life goes. I still have to write the outline to my Bartleby

story. Thank god this assingment’s over. I wonder what the next one’s over…..

My Life

July 30, 2001

July 30, [Sting, "Brand New Day"]

Today’s been really great times. I wish they were still really great times

with my boy friend Adam, but they’re really great times with my friend Adam.

This afternoon I went over to his house and just hung and talked with him

and his mom a bit there, then we went over to Jessica’s house and hung out

with her. It’s hard times in her house. She just got a new car and the tape

they used to put the "For Sale" sign on the windows had melted

so we helped her get that off there. Then we came back to my house cause

I was hungry and he wanted a Koi. I made myself a salad, Adam went out to

the fish pond to try and get a fish, he didn’t do very good at that, so

I came in and changed into trunks and got into the pond. Cause that’s how

we usually get them. That didn’t work either. So we just gave up. After

that we went out to Saylorville and hung out there, it was good times, it

was so pretty. Again, I wished I was with boy friend Adam yet, but it was

still really fun. After that we came back here and made french fries and

potato chips. It was so much fun. After that we went swimming and hot tubing,

I was waiting for Adam to try and go skinny dipping, but he didn’t and I

was happy about that. I really don’t want to get into a position like that,

not now. After that we came inside and watched a movie. I forget the name

of it already, it’s that one with the prince or what ever he was and he

gets changed into a llama thing. Yeah, that was a great movie, "No

Touchy" hehe. I love that line. Tonight was great times. Taking him

back home though was hard tonight, I started to cry. I was thinking about

how great tonight would have been had we still been together. It would have

added so much to our relationship. But tonight still added alot to our relationship

as friends. I’m glad I chose to stay here tonight. Sometimes I just need

a break.

The house is really clean today too, for the first time ever I feel as

though I can actually bring people over and not be embarased by the way

it looks. It’s so great when the PU’s leave. They make such a mess. lol.

I’m so glad I have the house to myself, one week of a clean house is going

to be so great. But you know, I shouldn’t have to wait for them to leave

to be able to enojy a clean house. But they just can’t seem to keep things

clean, they can’t clean up after them selfs and that damn dog just makes

such a mess cause my dad will just let him in the house right after he jumps

out of the pond or something like that and he just tracks all over the place. Damn dog.