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Green Tape

So, last night sucked hard core for me… Most emotional night I’ve had in a long time, and I’m only working on about 4 hours of sleep now. Gah!

I watched Gilmore Girls last night, did anyone else notice the green tape on lor and suki during the flower shopping scene? WTF up with that? And what the hell happened there at the end! That was such a mess.

I found this picture on Digg yesterday:

Anyone notice anything wrong with it?!?!? WTF!?

I installed iLife ’06 and iWork ’06 last night, very exciting, iPhoto really does scroll like a knife through butter or whatever Jobs said… I haven’t played with the other things yet.

My Mac seems more sluggish since I installed 10.4.4, I dunno, maybe it’s just me.

Tomorrow I’m working a normal day (9-4) because I have a doc appointment at 4:30 in Newport Beach. I’m not sure if this is just a consultation or if they are actually going to do the surgery then… Who knows, like I said, it’s just out patient and the Doc said it shouldn’t take more then 30 minutes. I guess we’ll find out… Either way, I kinda wanna go out tonight, but at the same time, just sit at home and be a bitch some more.

Why can’t things just still be the way they were 2 years ago.. I was happy then, what happened?

I’m still really pissed about a lot of things. I’m out.

Going Crazy!

I’m going F’ing crazy right now…

So much on my mind between the camping and work and boys and everything else! OMG.

So here’s my camping gear list so far:

Friday Dinner: Hot Dogs

– Hot Dogs

– Buns

– Ketchup (HAVE)

– Mustard (HAVE)

Friday Desert: Smores

– Marshmallows

– Graham Crackers

– Chocolate Bars

Saturday Breakfast: Busquits and Gravy

– Busquit dough

– Milk

– Sausage

– Flour (HAVE)

Saturday Lunch: Deli Sandwiches

– Bread (HAVE)

– Deli Meat

– Cheese (HAVE)

– Mustard (HAVE)

– Miricle Whip

– Lettuce

Saturday Dinner: Steak

– Steaks

– Potatos (HAVE)

– Sour Cream

– Butter (HAVE)

Saturday Desert: Apple Cobbler

– Apple Canned Fruit

– Cake Mix (Including stuff to make)

– Veg Oil (HAVE)

Sunday Breakfast: Pancakes

– Pancake Batter (HAVE)

– Syrup

– Milk

– Bacon

Condiments:

– Milk

– Salk & Pepper (HAVE)

– OJ

– Soda

– Dish Soap

– Hand Soap

– Coffee

– Hot Chocolate

Utensils:

– Tongs (HAVE)

– Smore Cooker Things (HAVE)

– Spatchula (HAVE)

– Whisk (HAVE)

– Dish Tub

– Aluminum Foil

– Paper Towls

– TP

– Wash Cloth / Sponge (HAVE)

– Dish Towel (HAVE)

– Fire Wood

– Screws (3/4″)

– Rope (2) 2′ Sections

– Paper Towel Holder

– Knife / Untesil Holder

– Hooks

– Latches

– Mixing Bowls

I just don’t want to miss anything! And I feel like I’m forgetting something. I’ve got the Patrol box tacked together, but I found the drill my dad gave me doesn’t work, so I have to go buy one tomorrow to put the rest of the way together. Either way it’s looking really nice. Somehow though the shelves are an inch too short, so I’m going to have to improvise for those. Oh well, all is still good.

Today I had a conf call with GT and SS, I got VERY VERY pissed off during it.. I’ve been working on this project for MONTHS for GT, put in TONS of overtime for him and pushed back other higher priority projects to work on this damn thing for him. I’m like 90% of the way done with it, and this conference call was to hand the project over to SS, because apparently he’s got 2 weeks of FULL TIME work that he can do it. Which means that once he’s back off of it full time, it’s going to go shoved back onto me…

OK, this wouldn’t be a big deal at all.. except for the fact that GT told him to pretty much RE-WRITE EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE IN WHATEVER LANGUAGE HE WANTS TO DO IT IN!!! Which knowing SS is either going to be JAVA or COLDFUSION! Ok, does anyone see the problem yet? A) I’ve spent TONS of time writing this in PHP so that it can easily be picked up by ANYONE. B) I’ve spent tons of time writing this in PHP so that it’s not tied to a specific system or proprietary server (IE, coldfusion which costs TONS of money to maintain). C) He’s going to be basically REDOING all my work in one of two languages that I know VERY LITTLE about, and once it gets passed back to me, I will be expected to maintain, thus taking EVEN MORE OF MY TIME because I will have to learn those languages.

It all just pisses me off so fucking much. It wouldn’t be a big fucking deal if he just said, “OK, hand him your code and he’ll complete what you did” Gah!

Other then that, I worked on the project I talked about earlier, with reporting datamarts. I have to say it came out very spify! I used something called jpgraph, and it looks damn good. Tomorrow I’m going to redo the graphs to be more pretty, but at least it’s working and that’s what matters. 🙂

Austin today told me that he missed me, and that was so cute! I honestly do miss hanging out with him as well and I’m really looking forward to going camping with him this weekend. Not to be mean or anything, I’m kinda hoping that he doesn’t get this job in DC so that we can become better friends, but if he does, I’ll still be happy for him.

I must atract Bakersfield boys though, because today another person from Bakersfield who just moved to the area messaged me on myspace! So random. He’s already got a bf, but he sounds like he would be a cool guy to hang out with. We’ve scheduled some time for next week, but I dunno when that will be. Robert and his boy want to take me out to dinner on Monday for my birthday, Blake is comig on Tuesday, so that leaves sometime after that. And I’m sure Austin will want to hang out in there too!

I’m becoming such a busy boy lately! 😀

Beak sent me the first gedcom file today for our family tree site, everyone go check it out. And since we’re on the topic of Bakersfield, I’ve actually got family there! (Well, people who appear to be direct relatives are dead, but I’m sure they have children, etc who would still live there)

She sent me this tid-bit of information as well: We’re related to half the population of Lenox-don’t date there man-you’d be swimming in your own gene pool. Another interesting thing-apparently when Granny was younger she was in love with on the her Julian cousins-like 3rd or 4th cousin. (the Julian/Juliens are related to use through Granny’s mother Ida). Anyway her parents wouldn’t let them get married because of them being 3rd of 4th cousins so they eventually went on and married other people. Before Granny died though she asked Deb to put a picture of this Julien kid and his obituary in her casket with her.

I think that’s so sad and sweet that she asked for that picture to be put in her coffin with her…

I just got accepted to Google Adsense, so I’m going to add a small Ad to my site to maybe help pay for it. 😀

Well that’s all, I’m going to try and go sleep.

Drag Show

Ok, so I was kinda drunk when I wrote that last post.

Anyways, Yesterday was good. I spent the day getting the x86_64 box ready for MH to install Oracle on. I got an e-mail at 9:00 last night saying that it was all done, so that’s cool! I’m excited.

I left early because I had put in some extra hours the days before and was bored. I talked to Austin right before leaving and he talked me into coming over and going to the beach with him. So we did that and walked around. He found a Sand Dollar, and was excited. We also saw a crab on the rocks, which was kinda random.

After that we went and watched some more of that Sex show, I’m really getting into it. It’s so funny. lol. From there we decided it was time to eat, he was going to make pasta, but the meat was still frozen, so we went out. It was hella time finding someplace to eat, as I have no money left till the 15th, so I wanted some where cheap. Ended up going to the greek place, which was good.

Blake txted me while I was there. And upset me a bit, I sure hope he’s still ok.

After dinner Austin and I went back to his house and watched some more TV and he showed me pictures of his college days and his recent trip to Montana! I LOVE MONTANA! 🙂 lol. We laid on his bed and kinda cuddled and I gave him a back rub, since he’s given me so many. lol.

Once the show was over, I left so that he could go to the gym, that was about 9ish or so, got home showered and ironed my clothes and then sat around waiting for him to get back. Once he got back we both headed towards laguna. Got there and went into the bar and just stood around for a while watching the Drag show. It’s been so long since I’ve seen one of those!

Ran into Justin and JohnyRocket there. Very random to see them again. Anyways, Austin was going after this guy who looked like an uglier version of Phil of the Future, but the boy left before Austin got up the nerves to go talk to him.

Some random guy came up and started talking to me, but I was tired and hadn’t had anything to drink yet so I was sort of a bitch to him and felt bad about that. I meant to go up and talk to him again later, but we left before I could. Oh well, he probably just wanted sex anyways. And he wasn’t very cute.

Austin and I have decided that I’m not good with telling people I don’t want to talk to go away. I tend to just sit there and listen and talk to them and will give them a sorta cold shoulder, but I feel mostly obligated to talk to anyone who talks to me. I’m also a bit too trusting I think and tend to think the best of people first. We both think there’s a massive lie going on in my life right now.

Tonight I’m just going to go home and relax at home by myself. I really need to get back out on my bike and to just relax.

::whines:: I want a boyfriend ::end whines::

Adios.

I feel so stupid (1)

5:39:40 PM bnett84: hey i got an invite to sit on his lap…haha

5:39:57 PM blackc2004: and you’ll probably use it too, but you won’t use mine.

5:40:09 PM bnett84: i can never spend the night

5:40:21 PM blackc2004: never ever

5:40:31 PM blackc2004: ?

5:41:07 PM bnett84: i can, just havent been able to

5:42:36 PM blackc2004: i wish you could

5:42:55 PM bnett84: for breakfast?

5:43:06 PM bnett84: so you can make me breakfast i mean

5:43:22 PM blackc2004: lots of reasons

5:43:33 PM bnett84: you just want my cock…haha

5:43:36 PM blackc2004: no

5:43:42 PM blackc2004: if i wanted that i’d have had it already

5:43:53 PM bnett84: haha

5:44:11 PM blackc2004: tis true

5:44:26 PM blackc2004: , no?

5:44:57 PM bnett84: yea

5:45:33 PM blackc2004: if austin wanted it could he have it.

5:45:47 PM bnett84: wanted what?

5:45:52 PM blackc2004: what are we talking about?

5:45:59 PM bnett84: not right away

5:46:13 PM blackc2004: but he could get it?

5:46:24 PM bnett84: yes with requirements

5:46:29 PM blackc2004: what requirements

5:46:36 PM bnett84: commitment

5:46:42 PM blackc2004: are you just mocking me now

5:46:44 PM bnett84: trust

5:46:57 PM bnett84: not really

5:47:01 PM blackc2004: not really?

5:47:19 PM bnett84: i would need time

5:47:30 PM bnett84: i dont know what the requirements would be

5:47:45 PM bnett84: I was telling him tonight that i can see my old b/f in his pictures

5:47:54 PM blackc2004: oh?

5:48:35 PM blackc2004: how so?

5:48:39 PM bnett84: it is weird

5:49:16 PM bnett84: the one you sent me where he is wearing the yellow shirt, i can totally see him there

5:49:27 PM blackc2004: ah

5:49:31 PM blackc2004: do you like him already?

5:49:40 PM bnett84: not yet

5:50:18 PM bnett84: i am sort of debating getting to like him because of my whole ex thing

5:50:38 PM blackc2004: oh.

5:50:43 PM bnett84: but then again it may be good, i dont know

5:51:00 PM bnett84: thats why i am happy and sad and sort of depressed

5:51:38 PM blackc2004: Ahh, happy and sad because he reminds you about him?

5:51:44 PM bnett84: yea

5:51:50 PM blackc2004: what bout the rest of it?

5:52:15 PM bnett84: depressed because i cant have him back

5:52:20 PM bnett84: i will never see him again

5:52:29 PM blackc2004: yeah.. what about the loving part?

5:52:51 PM bnett84: that has nothing to do with him or you

5:53:02 PM blackc2004: what does it have to do with then?

5:53:30 PM bnett84: just me and Jimmy

5:53:35 PM blackc2004: what about?

5:53:42 PM bnett84: our fight today

5:54:01 PM bnett84: i wish it didnt happen

5:54:13 PM bnett84: he wont even answer the phone when i call him

5:54:23 PM blackc2004: aww, that sucks. how’s he know it’s u?

5:54:45 PM bnett84: Caller ID i call from his mothers house in his room where he has his own number

5:54:58 PM blackc2004: oh, why don’t you use your calling card?

5:55:09 PM bnett84: those minutes are for you

5:55:21 PM blackc2004: use them for him. he’s more important then i am.

5:55:34 PM blackc2004: fix your friendship and get it off your chest, it will make you feel better

5:56:04 PM bnett84: i know, but anyways babe, i have to get going now…i may be online tomorrow but not until after 5 or so

5:56:20 PM blackc2004: please call him, do it for me, eh?

5:56:23 PM blackc2004: have a good night

5:56:33 PM bnett84: you too talk to you later babe::hugs::

5:56:39 PM blackc2004: bubybe

The whole time I wanted to ask.. “What about me”.

And I really wanted to say. “If you really wanted to, you would find a way”

Another Hundred

Gah! Damn cat. She’s still throwing up, FYI. About once a day. So I took her back to the Vet… And another $100 later, he says. “I think she’s developed an alergy to her food.” So I had to get her special food to see if that helps. She throws up about once a day though, right about 5-6am. It’s very annoying. But now she’s throwing up ALOT. Like all the food she’s eaten in the last day. She also has REALLY bad gas and she poops a lot.

I’m cleaning hard core today. It’s been a long time since I’ve done that, my apartment really needs it. Blah.

Programs will not defeat me! I spend 7 hours friday trying to figure out how to get a tab places in the right place. It was very annoying. But that’s what happens when you have ot modify someone else’s VERY large program, of which you know nothing about and you don’t even know the programming language it’s written in! Needless to say I was VERy excited when I got it placed. lol

And that’s about all my life is consisting of. Beak has found TONS of cool information from our family. Even traced one side back to the 1100’s in England and one of the most haunted places (Roos Hall) in England! How fun! Also apparently King Charles gave someone in our family a castle (Bettreds Castle)! Now the question is what the fuck happened to it?! I want to live in a castle! lol. I found lots of references to it based on family trees and shit, but no pictures or anything. 🙁 Oh well.