Sept 6, 2001

Sept 6, [Black Crowes, "By Your Side"]

Yay for rain. I love the rain. It symbolizes a fresh start for everything.

And the smell of things after a good rain is always so relaxing. But today

I hope it stops before I have to go to me 6:00 class.

Today at work we got a couple new peices of kit and I was installing Win2K

on them. Well we wanted them to be part of the network, so we had to name

them. Well for those that don’t know, Krell was named after the culture

also named Krell from the move, "Forbidden Planet" so most of

the systems there are named after references to that movie. Well we’ve got

a lot of new kit there, so we’ve run out of names, so today we spent 30

minutes trying to come up with a new scheme to name these two new boxes

by. It was ammusing times.

My math TA can’t spell worth shit, not that I’m all that great either,

but today he wrote the word depriciation on the board and spelled it: Debyciation.

Umm, yeah that’s really close though, lol.

Apperantly I have to bring the van back to my dad this weekend. He called

and said that Andy needed it to do his driving test. I don’t see why he

can’t just use my mom’s truck, but whatever. So I’ll be in town for anyone

that wants to do something. I’m going to have a shit load of HW though.

So Sunday I’m going to come back up here early and get that done. I should

have enough time to get it done. So yeah, if you want to do something with

me this weekend, call me. I’ll be around.

September 3, 2001

Sept 3

Well today has been tons of fun and excitement. It all started out I went

over to Adam’s about 3 and we hung out there for like 30 minutes and shit

waiting for Mandy and Vero to get there. Well they got there and wanted

to go to Ames to get Ryan and they wanted to just hang out there and watch

a movie or something as I understand it. Well Adam and I didn’t want to

do that, cause well I left Ames for the weekend cause I wanted to go out

with Adam here in Des Moines, not to be driving to Ames. So they went to

Ames and Adam and I went downtown to drop some stuff off at the GLRC. Well

we went there and then Vero called Adam and we met them all at Java Joes.

That was good times. We spent like two hours at Java Joes, it was like 7

by the time we were wanting to leave. We were all going to go to Perkins

and get food and shit. Well, Adam and I were riding in Adam’s car, we were

heading back there and Adam realized he didn’t have his keys. So we went

back to Java Joes and looked all around there. Couldn’t find them, so we

went back to his car tracing the steps we took to get there, couldn’t find

them. They weren’t in his ignition so we thought they had to be outside

somewhere. So we went back to Java Joe’s. Still couldn’t find them. Went

back to his car and looked around even more. They were laying in his seat

and his door was locked. So we had to call his dad. It took him like 30

minutes to get there, but he finally got the door open. We were so excited,

then we hung around there and talked to his dad some about cars and manly

shit. That was amusing. Then we went back to Ankeny and went to Hy-Vee,

by now it was almost ten. At Hy-Vee we remembered that we had been invited

to a party at Xak’s Apartment, so we went there, and hung out with Xak,

then we went to find the party, but couldn’t find it, so we went back to

Xak’s and watched a really amusing movie. After that we went out back while

Xak and this Luke guy smoked and we talked and told funny stories. It was

good times. Adam and I left there about midnight, I was sad to leave Adam

tonight. I really didn’t want to. It’s going to be a few weeks before I

see him again. grrrr. I hate this, being in Ames. It’s not that far, but

yet it’s to far to really be back here every weekend.

We had called Vero and them when we realized that we locked the keys in

the car. I feel bad about making them drive back to Des Moines, and then

we pretty much ditched them cause, well we couldn’t go anywhere. But I feel

bad about that. I really do. Sorry if that ruined your plans, I really wanted

to hang out with them, but by the time we got out car unlocked and shit

it was late, and we had no Idea where they might have been. So we just went

and hung out.

I’m really glad that I’ve had the time to spend with Adam this weekend.

Just the one on one time. I’ve realized alot about our relationship. I hope

that our plans to move to Arizona work out. I really do. It’d be the coolest

fucking thing ever.

There’s alot more that I want to write about. But it’s late and I hate

this keyboard, it sticks. Topics include: Time with Adam; Julian; Adam’s

mom; Angie and NP; My grandma; My crazy aunt; and other random things. I’ll

go away now though, cause this keyboard is really getting to me. Grrr.

Aug 24, 2001

Aug 24, [Me First And The Gimme Gimmes, "I Would Walk 500 Miles"]

So tonight has just really fucking sucked. I went over to Adam’s and we

did the whole hair cut thing and then we went out to supper and we had fun.

About 7 we went over to Angie’s. It was me, Adam, Xak, and Angie. We were

all going to go downstairs and watch a movie, talk and that such stuff and

get things out that needed to be said before she left so that we would all

leave on a good note. Well her PU’s decided that they wanted to watch it

with us, so we all had to stay upstairs and watch it, which meant no talking

about things, no cuddling, no nothing. It sucked ass. Then as soon as the

movie was done, Angie’s mom thought that Angie needed to go to bed so that

she’d be ready to go in the morning. So we pretty much got kicked out of

there at 10. That really sucked cause we didn’t get a chance to say goodbye

like we all wanted too, we didn’t get the chance to talk after the movie,

nothing. I *_HATE_* Angie’s mom. Grrr. So we were saying bye at the door,

and Angie and I were hugging and I just starting crying, I couldn’t hold

them back any longer. I’d been holding them back for a while now, but I

just couldn’t hold them anymore.

Adam and I then left to go to downtown, well we stopped into Hy-Vee first

and Kenny G talked to Adam about something, apparently Kenny found Adam’s

website, which isn’t good. But whatever. We were there for a while and talked

to random people. Then we left and were going downtown, well tonight’s been

one of those foggy hazy type nights and you can’t see the top of 801 Grand,

all you could see was the light blinking in the coulds. Well Adam pointed

that out and that brought a story to my mind about one of my Great Grandma’s

and how when she was in the hospital along time ago when they were building

that, and one night I was in her room and it was like it is tonight and

she pointed it out and said, "Look, that’s the Angels coming to get

me." I couldn’t even get the whole story out before I broke into a

full bawling. I was like, omg what’s happened to me, I don’t cry. I don’t

let people see my cry. But I just couldn’t hold it back anymore, I just

couldn’t. Tonight’s sucked

We went to Java Joe’s. I met that Ryan guy and I got a hug, that was nice.

We also talked to some Ben guy. He’s damn hot. But apparently Str8. I say

other wise. Adam, Tara, and I walked around downtown for a while and talked.

I felt better which is good. Hopefully tomorrow won’t be as bad, but I know

it will be. I’m going to go do some more packing now cause well, I think

I’m going to move up tomorrow (errr, today now) but I’m not sure yet.

Aug 21, 2001

Aug 21, [Savage Garden, "The Lover After Me"]

Ok well today’s been really cool. I went into NP again this morning and

worked on some stuff, it was good times there. Lots of fun. I got Ramsey

(Who’s really cute by the way) to post my name and shit on the Alumni Page.

(I was going to put a link to the page and a link to a pic of Ramsey, but

it appears that Kahoutek is dead.) He

also put a link to this page, hehe. It’s cool. I left there about 2 and

went to Angie’s house. We hung out there for a little bit then left for

the GLRC. It was fun times there, we watched "What Makes A Family."

It’s a really good movie, but it’s really sad. I cried.

We left there and went back to Ankeny cause we were going to go to Java

Joes with Angie’s neighbor, but she couldn’t so Mandy, Angie and I went

to Village Inn and had supper. After that we went down to Java Joes and

hung out there. Matt and Josh from RENT (Both really fucking hot) were playing

there tonight, so we hung out tell 10 when they started. They’re really

good. I found out tonight that RENT tickets for when they’re in Ames in

Oct. are on sale now, so we’ll all have to get some here soon, cause I realy

fucking want to see it.

Adam had to leave there a bit before 11 and I had some stuff to give him,

so we walked back to his car, and I gave him the tins that my Curve came

in, I also gave him a little travel thing of it, cause I knew he wanted

it. We hugged there and I so didn’t want to let him go. For me it feels

like I’m going half way across the country. I know it’s only to Ames, less

then an hour away, but I know that once I get up there, I won’t be able

to come back that often, or to hang out with him everyday. And that’s going

to be really sad. I so don’t want to leave. I really don’t. I got a kiss

from him tonight, which surprised me, but I was happy. I got teary. Sometimes

I wish that we could give a relationship another shot, but I know it probably

wouldn’t work. I’d like to try it, but it’s best that we don’t. And I also

don’t think he’s ready for a relationship. Angie said today that she thought

he needed to get a GF or BF to get his mind off things, and I personally

don’t think he’s ready. Not just cause I still want him, but because I really

don’t think he’s ready. Whatever. We’re really close friends now, and right

now I’m enjoying that more then anything. I love being his friend. And I

love him dearly as a friend.

Julian‘s website works again. I

was bored last night and wanted to see if he had posted anything new so

I got on there and fixed it for him. Cause well I wanted something to read.

That blue background isn’t the most interesting thing to look at.

I have an interview tomorrow in Ames at Krell

I found out today that Omar (Ramsey’s brother, who’s also really cute) has

his own office there. I think that’d be bloody fucking cool. I hope I get

the job there, I could do it.

Aug 13, 2001

Aug 13, [Me First And The Gimme Gimmes, "Walking On Sunshine"]

Well today’s been a day for firsts and other such oddities today. I’m not

really in the mood to update now so list:

  • Work. People. Annoyances.
  • Adam, Angie. Large group, Anti-Group
  • Xak, Link. "Movies" Fun, new things
  • Parents, Website. Bad Times
  • Car, School. Other Things