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A Good Weekend.

Umm, well not much really to publicly update about. Lots of private shit. Though I’m sure this will turn into a long public.

So Friday sucked. I left work an hour early because it was sucking so much, and came home. I spent most of the day reading my old private entries, and I think I wrote about this already…

Anyways, I came home. Spent a bit of time laying in bed and cried for a while, and then go up and went downtown. I was there from about 7:30 tell 9:30 when I left. I just studied for a while. Once I was bored and decided that no one else was every going to come, I went off on an expedition. Made for a private entry.

Got home about midnight and went to bed.

Saturday I got up early and went and met up with Beak. We broke (15 mintues late, thanks!) and headed for G&G’s. Got there about noon and hung out and ate and such. Then went out and picked pears. That took FOREVER! Because there were litteraly millions of them! And now my neck hurts from looking up all day!

After that I called Andrew and we talked for like an hour or so. I think it wa slonger then that. But it was good to talk to him. I forget what all we talked about, but we reminiced some and it was good. I also told him of my expedition on Friday night, and he seemed a bit annoyed about it. But whatever.

Once we were done with that, I went and talked to the Gma for like ever, and had a good time. Ate supper and then broke. She stuffed us really full. But beak and I were talking on the way home and decided that it’s really not that bad for you. I mean we had Potatos, with milk in them, corn, and noodles (Which is flour and eggs and beef broth). And then we had a roast, but I didn’t have much of that. So really it’s not all THAT bad for you! It’s always the desserts that kill you and I didn’t have much of those!

So I was a bit annoyed with the Gma though, she asked a lot of questions bout the trip, but she never asked to see pics of the trip. And I REALLY wanted to show her the trip pics. It would have been my way of coming out to her. I just wanted to her to see them and I wish that she would have asked to see them. It would have made me feel better. Because not enough people here in Iowa have seen my pictures and I just want to show them to people. In a way it makes me feel good.

Broke from there and had a good talk on the way home about moving and shit. I’m really stressing abou it, and where I want to go mostly. I mean I’d like to be ANYWHERE in Cali. So now I have to make a choise as to where I’m going. And again that whole Andrew kid comes into the situation, and I try not to think about where he’s going, but I want to be closer to him so much. Anyways, more info on that for the private entry.

Got home, and had to help Beak finish moving her apartment around since she got drunk the night before and rearranged things. I’m thinking I should do that. Cause I’ve really been wanting to rearrange my apartment. It’s getting really boring the way that it is. Though I’ll have to get rid of a lot of the shit that I don’t want before I do it. Like the nordictrak and the fitness flyer. (If you want a nordictrak you can call me. I sell it to you!)

After that I broke and went downtown again to see if anyone was there. Shepely was there, and as soon as he saw me he came up to me and hugged me and then said Too bad you’re waiting for someone. I was like how random. The convo went downhill from there and I broke shortly after. Came home and talked to Andrew on the phone for like another hour.

Broke and went to bed.

This morning I got up really late because I didn’t really care to get out of bed. Showered, and then sat around the house reading the paper and watching TV. Andrew called about noon and we ended up talking for nearly 2 hours. I didn’t want to let him go, today but he needed to break. So that’s cool.

After that I came home and that’s where I be now. Laters all!

EDIT:// So there’s this movie called “Crazy in Alabama” that ALWAYS makes me cry. I suggest anyone who hasn’t seen it yet, go watch it.. VERY good!

Our Trip… The Movie!

Here’s a nice movie of our trip… You have to have Real One to play it, and a fairly fast connection would be nice. Though you can view it from a slower connection. The pics will just be a bit blurry.

If you install Real One and then it crashes everytime you start it.. Click HERE!

If you want to see the FULL SIZED movie, just e-mail me and I’ll send you the 19Meg file.

Enjoy!

I Have A Stalker!!

Hello to my new stalker.. How fun is that!

Anyways, yesterday was really good. The night before Andrew and I had a nice long chat and I felt better about things. We also got to talk a lot online yesterday, so that was good.

Classes and work, that’s about all there was. In my work out class we had to team up with someone, and I’m teaming with this boy, Justin. I think that’s his name. He seems pretty nice, though really shy. Much like myself.

We’re both really big whimps too, we can only lift the bar. So it’s good that we both have about the same level. I guess. He’s a Comp E major (Freshman though). So at least we both have something to talk about. That class should be good. And if I keep up with my working out. All should be good and I should be hot! HOt! HOT!

(I really hate this keyboard, the shift key and many other random keys stick!)

Last night I didn’t really do much. I talked to my stalker online, and that was amusing. I had just gotten online to get a reference for a job app. But Andrew and stalker were online, so I spent an hour talking to both. Good times there.

After that I broke, went and turned in my app. Made copies at work, and then went to Lowes to get nails.

I hung up all the pics that I took down before Andrew left. And this time I actually put them in frames, and HUNG them on the wall, instead of just taping them to the wall. They’re very cute if I do say so myself. Though I can’t look at them too long, or I’ll start crying.

I have finally gotten to the point that I can look at the trip pics without crying though, so that’s good. (But I think I mentioned that a few days ago).

Called Andrew real quick to say night, and he was at some b-day party. Very amusing. Though that got me to thinking, and then it made me sad, because I know that on my bday I’ll probably be spending it alone, and it’s my 22nd b-day. Sad. I’m getting OLD! I’m going to need moral support!

Today I woke up at like 6:15, but didn’t have to be up tell 6:45, so I just laid in bed. Eventually got up and showered, etc. And caught the 7am bus to campus. Got here, and went to my first class. That was alright.

Forrest is in it, and as we were picking groups today, I was standing with the Italy group, cause I thought that would be a fun country to pick, then Forrest grabs me and is like, “Hey, we’re doing Europe in General, want to be in our group.” So I was like, “Sure”. So now we’re going to do Norway for our project! Good times.

After that I went to Pol Sci. That class was alright, we just watched a movie, so nothing to interesting.

We got out early, so that was good. Though now I have an UBER long time before my next class starts. Though I think I’ll break here soon and go tan, or something. I have work out clothes, but I Think that I’ll do that after my TransLog Class and before my Intro to Managemtne class.

Hopefully I’ll get a chance to talk to Andrew tonight. If not, I’ll give him a quick call before I go to bed. I hope that he doesn’t mind my calling!

Tonight’s the Alliance Ice Cream Social. I do beleive I’ll go, though I don’t really want to go alone. Always very embarrasing.

So we were 1 hour into my MGMT 414 class, and some guy walks into class, and walks all the way to the front of the room to sit down… He gets up there, starts to look at the board and then asks the professor. “Where am I?” The Prof then goes…”You’re in the middle of a class, please leave.” VERY FUNNY!

Oh, and for my MGMT 370 class we have a book report, and well the list that she gave us… Almost EVERY book that’s on there is on my amazon.com wishlist. Very amusing! (Which means that it’s a book I’ve been wanting to read) I was thinking that it was all going to be stupid books, but they are all cool books. I’m very excited for this. The reports due Nov 11, so I think that I should get started on reading the book. Good times.

Anyways, I have to go write a private and then break for class. Laters!

4 Months Is Too Long

I really hope that the next 4 months go by as fast as the last 4 months have.

Lets start off with Monday night. After we got back to the hotel room we were laying in bed and Andrew said that he wanted to make love one more time before he left, since we didn’t get the chance to the other night. So we started making out and everything.

We did make love Monday night, and it was really good. I’m so glad that we shared those emotions and that we were able to do that. I’m so happy that he cared for me so much that we were able to make love, and so passionately, it wasn’t like, Oh, I just want to fuck you it was always, I want to make love to you

We spent a while making love, and it was really great, we did it on the balcony and a few other places in the hotel room. We ended up with him sitting on the back of the chair and me licking his balls, he came all over my face and my chest, it was very nice.

I really wanted him to cum inside me because A) I think that’s more special and B) it feels so much better, but he was wearing a condom, so it wouldn’t have made since. So I choose for him to do it that way.

After we were done making love we cleaned up and then laid in bed talking. He asked what my favorite memory is of our relationship. I couldn’t pick just one, there are so many times that I love, and so many great and wonderfull memories of our relationship, from the trip to Omaha and my G&G’s, to the day at the lake (his and mine, respecitvly). But there are so many other things that I love so much about our relationship. I love every instant we got to spend together, from the time at the mall long before we were dating, that wonderful Friday tradition, to coming to see him at Speech, to his graduation party.

From the trips to Minn, to the trips to Iowa City and then to Kansas City. I only wish we had been able to go to Chicago.

The day at the fair, and the day at Remein gardens.

I loved it all and I can’t pick just one favorite time,

After that I gave him the key to my apartment and the CD that I had made him. He seemed to be really touched by the key gift and I hope that he is. I really don’t like other people having access to my place, and like I said I never gave Adam a key because Inever trusted him enough, or cared for him enough.

With Adam the reason that I never gave him a key was because I never really saw a long future in our relationship and if/when we ever broke up I didn’t want him left with a key in his possession.

With Andrew though I feel comfortable giving him a key, not because he’s half way across the country but because I trust him to do the right thing with it. Because I believe that someday in the future there could be more of a relationship and I want to show him that by giving him a key. I really hope that when he comes back to Iowa he uses it. Because I want him to feel welcome in my home anytime.

After the cryfest that that caused we laid there together and just cuddled. Looking back on that night I really wish that we had talked more, about the history and the future of our relationship. Because I think I would feel better if we had. But as it is, we didn’t. We laid there together and cuddled for the last time, which is very nice too.

Tuesday was a very hard day for me from the time we got up, to the time we broke for the last time, I wanted just hold him and not let him go. I wanted to lay and cuddle with him on his bed and tell him how much he means to me. Tell him how much I really wanted to keep our relationship alive, then to let it die, and just be best friends.

I know it’s the right thing to do, but I really don’t want to do it. I just can’t. He means to much to me. I kept pushing to make a deal about the final cut off time, but he wouldn’t. I think I really needed the closure though. To know that yeah, it’s now over. We’re now just friends. Who happened to have had a wonderful four months of a great relationship.

I’m going to miss him so much, those big dark brown eyes looking at me in the morning’s when we spent the night together, those big lips that he puckered up when he was pouting, those wonderful full black eyebrows, and that sexy eyebrow ring, His jet black spiked hair, that wonderful Enfuego who let me make him cum, and that sexy Mr. Ass who never really did like me.

But most of all I’m going to miss what’s inside him, that wonderful personality that he has. The jokes that he makes, the crazy faces that he’s always wearing, to express how he’s feeling, that cute voice that he always makes when he wants to make a point, there’s just so much to him and so much that makes him who he is. He’s his own person and I love that so much about him. I’m going to miss that so much.

Who do I have now to go to the mall with, to hang out at my house and watch movies, to see on Wed nights to bring my week together.

Who do I have now to rid ein the car with and always listen to the Cranberries, a group that I got him stated on. Who do I have now,.

No one, and I’m so lost and alone now.

I have no one to hold me when I’m feeling down, and I have no one to tell me that things will be better. I have no one to wipe away the tears and no one to go shopping with to help me pick out clothes, I have no one to look forward to seeing on the weekends, and no one to make fun of all the white trash with. I have no one.

I only hope now that he remembers me and that when I get out of school I’ll be able to move out closer to him, because I want to be there. Not only because he’s there, but also because I want to be there. I love that area, and I want to make it my home.

I really hope that we can stay close, and that someday in the future we can be together again.

One More Week…

What a LONG weekend… But very very good.

This update is going to be really long… (Everyone ready?)

Today…

Ok, first I’d like to complain about this morning so far. I got up late and came into work late, mostly because I’m only working 8 hours a day this week, because I’m not taking any days off, so yeah. No need to work 10 hours and have a whole day off or anything.

Well over the weekend Barb had opened an attachment with a virus, so I had to take care of that first thing this morning… Luckily I couldn’t sleep Saturday night (more on this later) and had sent her instructions as to what to do. So when I got here she was already taking care of that. Not that big of a deal really.

So I came into my office and was doing my normal stuff, then Nazanin comes in and she’s like, “What’s the Vermont Password.” and I’m like, “It’s the same it’s been for months now.” And then she’s like, “Well I can’t log in.”

Grrr, she’s just so stupid. So then I tell her the password, and she’s like, “It’s supposed to be 3’s and not E’s”.

Now, I don’t remember if I bitched about it when it was all happening, but I WANTED the 3’s and she insisted on the E’s in the password. So then she get’s all bitchy about it and goes literaly grabs my keyboard and changes it herself.

Then she’s like, “Gary’s having e-mail problems.” So I had to sit here and fix that while she stood over my shoulder. I really hate when she does that. Anyways, fixed that then she’s like, “Is there going to be a good fix for this soon.”

At this point I was already wanting to slap her, because I haven’t beem sleeping well, I’m tried, cranky and very bitchy… So with her asking that I just wanted to drop kick her out of my office. So I tell her YET AGAIN, that as soon as Barb goes through this list of accounts that I have that need to be deleted, we can switch over to Axiom, which has EVERYTHING she wants changed, changed.

Grrr.

Anyways, now off to start the weekend… Which was probably one of the most fun and also saddest weekends I’ve had in a LONG time!

Thursday…

Thursday night Andrew came up, and I knew that he’d be hungry by the time that he got here, so I made the Hamburger Helper that I’ve had in my apartment forever. I don’t really like it, and it’s too much for me to eat at once, so I thought it’d be a good time to get rid of it. I also made a peanut pie so that he could try that.

He got here and supper was just getting done, so we hugged and talked for a few minutes then ate supper. After we ate Jamie and Bryce called and asked if we wanted to go over there for a while to hang out and have a few beers. I was like, “Sure, why not.” Though I didn’t think we’d actually drink too much “beer” since I don’t like it. I figured Andrew and I would go over, have a good time and they would drink.

Well we get there and we hung around talking some. Bryce has a SWEET ass apartment. I really wish mine were that nice! Perhaps he can come decorate for me! lol. After a while, Bryce asked us what we wanted to drink and then proceeded to open this thing with like 8 million bottles of hard alcohol. So we drank, everything that he made was UBER yummy. I’ll have to find out what exactly he was making. The last drink we had wasn’t so good though, but I think it’s because it wasn’t mixed quite as well.

So we all got drunk and played card games and had a really good time. Andrew and I spent the night there.

Friday…

We got up Friday morning and ate Breakfast with Bryce… Who is a very good cook based on his breakfast! lol. Also watched the Nanny while we were eating. Very amusing show. After breakfast Andrew and I broke and went back to my place and showered and waited tell Jamie got off work.

Jamie got there and I left to go to my Doctors appointment, and Andrew and her went off to start moving.

Doctors appointment was good, though I think the eye doctor would be the scariest place for a small child. I mean I think out of all the doctors they have the most weird looking crazy ass machines in their office!

After the appoitnment I hurried over to Jamie’s new appartment and helped them unpack. Once we were done with that we went back, got another load and then came back and unpacked that as well. Jim’s plan was really late, so Bryce called some hick that he works with and we got a truck. Went and packed some of the big dressers and stuff and hauled that back to the appartnemt.

That was DRAMA! The tailgate on the truck doesn’t stay up, so I had to sit in the back of the truck and hold the tailgate up so that stuff wouldn’t fall out, and I had to hold up this big tall dresser so that when he turned it wouldn’t fall over! Now this doesn’t seem like that big of a deal, but the appartment and the storage unit were on complete OPPOSITES of the city! And we had to take a gravel road, and cruvy windy roads, the Bryce kept jerking the truck, and it was just drama.

Luckily the second trip that we made didn’t require someone to sit in the back of the truck!

Once we were done with all that, Andrew and I broke and went back to Waukee to hang out with Girls…

That was even more drama. First off, I knew that Courtney didn’t really WANT me there, she was just putting up with me being there, so that upset me. And then I just felt really out of place, and I could tell that Andrew was getting annoyed with a few things, and yeah. We went off to Gray’s lake and they made Andrew drive because there was a “Wasp in Courtney’s car”. I swear that girl will do anything to get out of driving somewhere. Much more drama at Gray’s lake, and then went bowling. I really didn’t want to go bowling, and I figured that I could just sit there and have a good time watching them bowl, etc. Which is what I usually do when I go bowling.

Ride there Andrew was fairly bitchy to me, which put me in an even worse mood then I already was. It’s understandable that he was upset with the girls, but it just hurt me that he was as bitchy to me as he was. Got to the bowling alley and I was forced to bowl. Which pissed me off even more!

I would have to say that that’s the first time in months that I’ve been actually pissed pissed off. To the point where I just sit and don’t talk to anyone. Which is usually the best thing for me tell I calm down because I would usually end up saying something to hurt feelings.

Ride home there was a bit of a fight between Andrew and I. I will have to admit that it was what I would consider to be our first fight. Very sad that it had to happen and even sadder that it happened so close to his leaving.

Anyways, we got home and made up. Which was good, because I hate being mad at people, and I HATE having people made at me!

While Andrew was getting ready to go to bed he kinda had a break down and started crying. I felt bad that all I could do was hold him. I really wish there would have been more to do. Though I think we’ll both need that a lot over the next week to two weeks. I think for me this week will be the worst, because I think about things in the “It’s the last time we’ll…” Type stuff. You know.

Anyways we went to bed, and I slept really well.

Saturday…

Got up Saturday morning and he went to work. I stayed at his house just doing random stuff. I watched a movie, which was really good and made him some lunch for that day and so that he would have stuff to take to lunch this week.

He FINALLY got home at 2:30 and we ate lunch and the stupid realator came and was a bitch, and she was really stupid too, not very good at her job, I don’t think.

After that we broke and drove up to Ames, met up with his sister and family and the like. And went out to dinner. I thought his dad was very rude towards him and his sister. He hardly said a word to either of them. He talked to Bryce 90% of the time, and I would have to say that he said more to me, minus things regarding Andrew’s college tution, then he did to Andrew. Just very rude and Andrew seemed to be fairly upset. Dinner was really good though, and it was nice of him to pay!

Went back to Jamie’s and watched a movie, which didn’t get over tell like midnight. Andrew and I broke as the credits were rolling and came back to my place. He played a few video games and then we went to bed.

Sunday…

We got up Sunday morning fairly early, but it was also semi sleeping in. I was still UBER tired though because I just couldn’t sleep Saturday night. I don’t know why. Well, I have an idea that I was just way to upset about everything to be able to sleep. So I spend from about 1AM tell about 4:30AM just sitting in my living room, reading, watching TV, and taking down pictures. I also went for a walk… But it was a bit cold, so it was short. lol.

I took down all my pics on the wall that I had because they were just upsetting me too much. Everytime I looked at them, al I could think about is how sad it’s going to be once he’s gone and how much I’m going to miss him. I looked at them and though of all the happy, great times that we’ve had together. And then cried because we’re not going to have any more of them. They’ll go back up, probably pretty soon. I can’t stand the bare wall either.

About 4:30 I went back into bed and Andrew was practically sitting up. I thought that he was awake, but later on he stated that he wasn’t. I laid in bed next to him and kissed him, and then we layed there cuddling. (All while he claims he was sleeping) I think I finally got to sleep about 5 or 5:30.

We got up, showered and then headed back to Jamie’s to have breakfast with his dad… Again hardly a word was spoken. Though more then the night before… I’m guessing that’s because Bryce wasn’t there for his dad to talk too.

Also, who knew they made low-fat suasage, and bakon… Crazyness if you ask me!

After breakfast we all went to Reiman Gardens, which was nice, though very sad for me. One of the MANY things on my list of stuff I wanted to do one last time before Andrew left was to go there and hang out, like we did the month before we started dating. More on the list later.

Once we were done with Reiman, Andrew and I split from his fam and went to the Mall to look for glasses for me. Looked at some really good ones, though Andrew wasn’t much of a help because he kept saying that like every pair looked good on me. I need someone that’s going to be critical of them. I liked the girl that worked there and we narrowed it down to one set. Now I just have to find out how much my mom’s really willing to pay for glasses because she said “$150” but the frames alone are that much! And the lenses are another $150 because of my prescription! And there’s no way that I’m going to pay for that shit!

I really don’t understand why she won’t just pay for my contacts, it’d be MUCH cheaper for her.

After that we underwear hunting, for guess who… ANDREW! lol.

From there back to my place where we spent the rest of the night laying in bed, and I spent a large portion of it crying. I don’t really know what came over me, but I just couldn’t hold back the tears anymore. I let a lot of them flow, but still not the full amount. I always feel so stupid crying infront of someone.

He left about 7:15ish, and I went and watched TV.

After a while, I hear a knock on my door and I’m like.. “Who the hell would that be.” So I went and looked out the peep hole, and there wans’t anyone there, so I started to head back to the couch, but I decided that I had better answer it. So I opened the door and out popped Andrew with a big thing of flowers and a cute card! I was so touched, it was so very nice of him! We talked for a bit more and then he left.

I spent the rest of the night on the verge of tears, watching TV, and listening to Music trying to make myself a mix CD. Andrew called and we talked for like an hour as well.

Didn’t sleep well… That’s a shock, really.

Randomness…

My e-bay thing is doing really well, so far it’s up to $97 from $49, and there’s been 262 people that have visisted it! How cool is that! I just hope my other things will sell as well.

The list… I have this big list, though most of it I can never remember. I really wanted to get so much more done this summer then we had time to do. And now we’re down to the last week. He already has so much planned for himself on almost every night. Though I’m going down on Wed, perhaps we can do some of it that night. This weekend we have PACKED to the brim with things to do…

State Fair
Spaghetti Works
One Last Night Downtown
One Last Drag Show
And other stuff that I have written down in my car.

One other thing that I really wanted to do was get a surprise party for him, but that’s been ruined now.

I seem to recall there being something else I wanted to talk about here, but now I can’t remember it!

Oh, we saw Jackson at Gray’s lake Friday night… I didn’t realize it was him though tell we had already walked past each other… How crazy is that though!

Now I’m done, and there’s a box of Sandia garb… Must go raid!

Laters!