Death!

Well, the last couple days have been fairly exciting. Monday night I had a great time with everyone at Chili’s that was good times. Though Andrew stole and blarged down all of Courtney’s desert… Blargy pants!

After that we came home and on the way Dustin called, we set up times to hang out this weekend, so that will be excitingness.

Tuesday I came to work and did a lot of random stuff. Talked to the new guy for a long time, and got him rolling on things. This was the first time I’d had a chance to sit down with him and just get him caught up on what’s going on. I was a bit annoyed with the timing though because it was right in the middle of the MacExpo, so I missed all the new shit. Though I did catch the release of the new iPod mini. Good times. (See previous post)

I’ve also now applied to 37 jobs.

After work I went home to the Drew Bear. We changed and then went a bought books. I was a bit surprised because one of them litterly has 8 books! It was insanity. Though my other classes don’t really have much it looks like, so that’s good. The Human Sex book is very interesting. Andrew and I flipped through it last night, good times there.

After buying books we went and worked out, came home and then Andrew made dinner. He did a wonderful job. I wish that I had some to eat now though. I’m starving!

Today I came into work and have been fairly busy. The tape drive on Midas was acting up, so I called Dell and got that taken care of, then we got a bounced e-mail and had to take care of that.

After all that, I came into my office and started working on some other stuff. I finally got a responce from lire about a problem I’ve been having with the software, and worked on that some, along with a way to backup vermont, since it doesn’t ahve a built in tape drive. For some reason vermont-old won’t nfs mount vermont. But harmony and ednt can both do it without any problems. Very strange if you ask me.

I’d really like to just start re-doing vermont-old. But things are very stressful for Nazanin and group around here, so we mostly aren’t bothering them.

Also installed Xgrid on the macs. We now have a 6 Node cluster of Macs, three of which are Dual G5’s. Very nice. lol. What we’re going to do with it though is beyond me!

Oh, also last night after supper Andrew and I just sat aroundall night and had a good time playing video games with against each other. I got a bit upset because he kept killing me in Mortal Kombat… Not my fault that I don’t know how to play or what the buttons do. After that I played some other game, which was fairly amusing. I think I may go home and do that again tonight.

I still haven’t written the cover letter yet.. I just can’t get anything good on it going. Very annoying. Hopefully I’ll have something written here soon though. I really want to get those jobs at Chapman Applied for.

Anyways, that’s about it.
Laters all.!

I Don’t Wanna!!!

I’ve decided that I don’t want to graduate yet! It’s to damn early people, you can’t make me! I swear!

Ever since my graduation year started, I keep getting bombarded with fun sounding things that I REALLY want to do. Today a guy came and talked to our MGMT 370 class about a 20 day trip to Europe.

You get to visit London, Paris, Zurich, Vienne, Salzburg, and Munich…. It sounds SO MUCH FUN! I really want to go, plus it’s worth 3 credits of Marketing! How cool is that… And I REALLY WANT TO GO !!!!! ::whines:: I’ve also decided that I really want go to Italy for a semester abroad. Of course, non of this is going to get to happen. :'( Fuckers waiting tell my last year to let me know about all the cool shit that’s going on!

Anyways, other then that, not much going on around here. I’ve opened a Principal checking/saving account. Which I thought at first would be really cool. That way I can bank online, and free bill pay and tons of other cool things, but then I was talking to my aunt and cousin about it, and apprenty if my other aunt, who works at principal, finds out about my account, she’ll be checking it and seeing what I’m doing. What a whore face bitch. Isn’t there a law against that!

I guess we’ll have to see about it. Plus the online bill pay, and the $50 they gave me to sign up was worth the troubles I think. Wells-Fargo charges you like $6 pr $7 a month for online bill pay. Bastards.

So… Question?

Why are there not ANY pencil sharpeners in classrooms anymore. I get to my test this morning, which by the way sucked, and found out that all my pencils were broken, I had to go through 4, that’s right FOUR! classrooms before just giving up and going to the office to get them sharpened. Bastards.

Well I’m out.
Laters all.

A Weekend Together

So I guess I’ll go ahead and write a quick update about our weekend.

Friday morning getting to see him was tons of fun again! I think the major thing that really kept me going through the day was having him back here… There’s no way I could have stayed up for 40 hours without something keeping me going! lol.

Breakfast was good, and we both decided that we liked Chicago. I thought it would be a nice place to live, though I don’t think I could live there for more then a few years, with all the snow/winter and stuff. I don’t know, I’ll have to wait and see how I like Cali first. I might end up wanting to live in the snow and stuff. Who knows really?

The aquarium was great, tons of fun! 😉 We made out in the underground thing, watching the dolphins and stuff, very cute.

The ride home was nice, and it was again good to have someone to hold their hand on the drive. I enjoy that. Though I got the notion that he doesn’t so much.

Friday night we got home, and after a bit of a make out session went to dinner, again good. Came home, and after everyone left, we ended up making love. It was so great to again have those feelings with him, and to make love with him. Ohhh so great. 😀

Saturday was good, as I stated in my other journal. Hot tubing was nice, and it’s always so much more fun with him in there… Drove back to Ames, I think we both wanted to do stuff, but I know I was just way to tired, so we didn’t do anything that night.

It’s kind of annoying the way things happen when he’s back, before he left, there was a large amount of kissing/making out before things ever happen, but now when he’s back, we always seem to be really rushed to get things done. And almost every time we turn making out, or just kissing into something more. When sometimes, I’d like to just lay there and kiss him, and hold him.

I guess it’s just going to happen though, we haven’t seen each other in so long, you’ve got to at least try to make up for everything that’s been missed, eh?

Sunday was a great day as well, we got a lot more time to just hang around with each other. Though we also did a lot of other things. I was glad that he finally got to meet my aunt too. And it was always so cute when he gets around a small child. So cute!

Sunday night, I had created a play list that I wanted to play for him, just 5 songs or so. So we went into the bedroom, and I started it up. He just kept talking, so finally I was like, “Shhh” And we just laid there and kissed.

Eventually the second to last song came on, “Leaving on a jet plane”. I figured if anything was going to make him cry, it’d be that song. And it sure did. I had no idea how much it would affect him. We laid there, and he cried through it all. And I laid there and held him, and felt like shit for making him cry so much. That’s not what I wanted to do. Then after it was over he was like, “Don’t let it play again.” And I just felt so bad, and I was also a bit mad at him for being so mean about it. I just want to lay there and listen to some romanticish songs that really exemplified the situation we were in. I was just annoyed about it all.

Anyways, after a while we ended up making love again. And it was again really nice. We tried in the shower, but that didn’t work. But then, it usually doesn’t. Moved from there to the living room, and made love in the papzan chair that I have. That was really nice. After a while, we moved into the bedroom, where he finished up. He came inside me again, and as always, it was a wonderful feeling. I wish we could do that every time. 🙂

Went to bed after that, and got up the next morning, drove to Chicago.

It was sad to see him go again. I cried a bit, and was really upset. I hate seeing him go. I also got a bit annoyed at him, because he didn’t cry, and it just made me really embarrassed to be crying. I’m over it now. But it did annoy me a bit that he didn’t cry.

I am very excited to see him again over Christmas break, and can’t wait to see him come down those stairs at the DM airport.

In other news though, I have no idea what to get him for our 6-month, or his b-day. I have the present for Christmas, though the more and more I think about it, the less and less I think he’ll like it/use it. So I don’t know what to do about that. IT’s very frustrating. I really want to get him something sweet, but I’ve mostly run out of ideas, or the ones that are left have already been done for him. Fucking previous boyfriends.

I’m also a bit worried because he said that he was thinking about getting me something that he made out to be fairly expensive. Which is something I REALLY don’t want. I don’t want him to spend more then like $20 or so. We both really need to save, and shouldn’t be spending our money on presents for each other.

And while we’re on the topic of presents, I was also a bit upset because he keeps rubbing it in that I don’t remember exactly when/what he gave me for our anniversaries. Now, I can see that he might be a bit upset that I don’t remember. But you know what. I really do try my hardest to remember everything he’s gotten me. There’s been so many wonderful gifts that it is hard at times, but given sometime to think about it, I could probably list everything he has gotten me. Anyways, in short, it just upsets me that he rubs it in that I can’t remember every little detail. Sorry that I don’t have as great a memory, but I can’t help that, I do my best.

3 Days, 12 Hours

So this weekend has consisted of over 24 hours worth of driving, over 1200 miles on my car, a 40 hour stretch of not sleeping, but best of all…

3 days and 12 hours of getting to see my Drew Bear again!!

Thursday, I got up about 6:30 AM, and that began 40 hours of being awake, went to my first two classes and then decided to skip the next one, so I headed home for the afternoon to sit around and attempt to nap some. Couldn’t nap, so I sat ar my computer and played with Karamba. Got it working, and it’s tons of fun. Though it seems to crash every couple hours. Very annoying. I’ll have to look into that more some other time.

As I was sitting around, I heard a knock on my door and was like, “Who the hell is that”…. So I went and answered it, and it was FLOWERS from my Drew Bear. Very exciting.

About 3, I headed back to campus for my last class, because the CEO of Hy-Vee was supposed to be there to speak, but for some reason he wasn’t. Very annoying.

From class it was back to my place, where I attempted to nap agagin. Though that didn’t work out too well. I spent most of the night watching TV, and stupid reality shit. Grr at that.

Started getting ready to leave about 10:30 that night, and was out the door at 11. I had brought along the Dell from work, so that I could have live navagation, and most of all, so that once we got into Chicago, we could easily find our way around, and find a place to eat when we got there at 5 am the next morning. I had had it plugged in all day long, to charge, but when I went to start it up, it only lasted about 10 minutes. So I was driving blind all the way to chicago….

Luckily I stopped at a C-store and there was a nice man there, who let me plug in the computer and get my directions to the airport. Which consistes of only three things.. I-80E to I-55N, then get off at Exit 286. So it was way easy to find. Traffic once I got into Chicago was amazingly bad for being 4:30 in the morning, but not NEAR as horrible as it was leaving Monday night. Got to the airport with just enough time to go potty before Andrew arrived.

I was very excited to see him, and as soon as I saw him pratically running towards me, my heart started beating really hard. We hugged and kissed there in the Airport and then went to try and find a place to eat. We couldn’t find anything close by (as in Perkins/Village-Inn), so decided to go drive around Chicago and see what we could find. Kinda got a bit lost, but it wasn’t too bad, found a hotel in downtownish Chicago, and went in and asked the lady at the desk where a good place for breakfast was… And also one that was OPEN at 6:30 in the morning.

She sent us to Nookies, which wasn’t the greatest… It was some Russian woman running it, and she was fairly rude to us. But only us, because she was very nice to everyone else that came in. Bitch. We got breakfast and then hung out there talking for about an hour. After that headed out to try and find out way back to the Aquarium.

Got really lost this time, and had no idea where we were. Though we did get to see some nice areas of the city, so that was fun. Chicago is really pretty. I’d like to live there for a bit. Probably not an extensive amount of time though. Finally found our way back to Lake Shore Drive, but couldn’t for the life of us figure out how the hell you were supposed to turn ONTO the street. Very crazy! Finally figured it out, but we were going the wrong way… Eventually got turned around and got to the aquarium, just as it was opening.

It cost $9 to park. 🙁 and $21 to get in. It was nice, though not worth the $21. I think just getting the City pass, if we had had time, would have been much more worth it though. I think we made it worth it though… If you know what I mean 😉

It was about noon when we broke from there and started the trek back home. That didn’t seem to take as long as the drive there, probably because I had someone’s hand to hold onto, and someone to talk with! 😀

Stopped a few times on the way back, nothing too exciting though. Got back to Ames and hung out at my apartment for just a few minutes then headed to Hickory Park. The wait was really long, so we all decided to go somewhere else. That was a bad idea. Should have just stayed there and waited. EVentually we all decided on Perkins, after vetoing Mexican and Pizza.

It seriously took like 40 minutes just to get our food at Perkins, Very annoying and our waiter was stupid. I swear. What is it with people!

After supper we went back to my place and just hung out for a while. Good times there. Then everyone broke and Andrew and I went to bed… Thus ending 40 hours of awakness.

Sautrday morning we got up, and hung out at my place, ate breakfast and then went to the Science center. It was pretty fun, much smaller then I remember. But still cool. It was worth the $5.50.

From there it was to the mall. Which has just lost all appeal to me. It’s just not as fun anymore to go there. Whatever, I guess that’s probably a good thing. Everything is just always the same, no matter how long you wait inbetween visits, it all seems to be the same everytime. Whatever.

Mall to Andrew’s where we hung out for a bit. I stole some more of thier old food, which is still amazingly good. lol. We didn’t really do much there, but get a movie and a few other things for him. It’s crazy that the house still looks the same as it did when they all left. lol. Well with the addition of rings in the toliets, and spider webs everywhere.

We left his house about 1:40 and I took him over to Wells Fargo, Dropped him off and then went back home. Hung out there and made cookies while he ate lunch with Ann H, and Court.

Andrew and Court came back to my place about 4:30 or so. Hung out for a bit and then Court left. Andrew and I watched the Simpsons, which was fun. I always enjoy them. About 6:30 or so, we went upstairs and made dinner, then headed out to downtown.

Got caught up on all the gossip, I really want to go to the strip club now, just to laugh at all the sluts… Apparetnly everyone in DM sleeps with EVERYONE else. And James Hamilton has had sex with like everyone in the state. What a whore.

Hung out there for a bit, then went back to my place. Hot tubbed and then back to Ames, where we both crashed about as soon as we set foot in the door.

Sunday we got up, ate a quick breakfast then I fixed Andrew’s PS emulator. He said I could have whatever I wanted for getting it fixed, but I never did… 🙁 Oh well. Once we were done with that, we headed over to my Aunts house.

The small child was there, and Andrew was so cute playing with it. He’s always really cute with kids, though he always says he doesn’t want any, and that he hates them.

We broke from there about 2ish, and came back to campus cause I wanted to go to the Design thing and then the Art Museum here. The Design thing was closed, and the Art thing wasn’t as exciting as I had hoped.

From there we went and rented a movie. I wanted something that was exciting/funny. He decided on “The Ring”. It was a very scary movie, though not as scary as he made it out to be. I really wouldn’t want to see it again.

Bryce and Jamie came over during that, once it was done, I made dinner. We all ate, then they broke quickly after that. Andrew and I watched the Simpsons, and then hung around my place for the rest of the night. Including a cry fest.

Monday morning, we got up. I really wanted him to come to my class with me, but we got up just as I heard the last bus that went to campus, so missed it. Opps.

Hung out for a while, got ready to go, ate breakfast. Watched Springer. Very amusing, two 19 year olds sleeping with a 50 something, who had REALLY long grey hair and only two teeth. It was supper gross. But funny all at the same time.

Once he was over, we broke and drove back to Chicago. Traffic was fairly annoying on the way there, a bit more construction then there was on Friday. Over all not too bad of a drive. We went into the airport and just sat around for about 20 minutes talking and saying goodbye. It’s always very sad to see him go again. It really doesn’t get any easier each time.

Around came 5:12pm, and he walked down the security lane, and I turned and walked to the parking garage. Thus ending 3 days and 12 hours of time together. And starting 40 days until we get to see each other again.

I left, crying and I’m sure the parking attendant thought I was crazy. Went out and turned the wrong way and in turning around no one would let me back into traffic. It was all horrible. Once I was finally out of Chicago which took tell 6pm, it rained the WHOLE way back to Des Moines. And I’m talking RAIN! Not just sprinkles, or rain, but RAIN RAIN RAIN!

Very annoying. Though I managed to average between 75-80mph the whole way back. I walked in my door right at 11pm. Called Andrew to say night, talked to him for a couple minutes and then went to bed.

Amazingly the hardest thing isn’t leaving him at the airport when he leaves, it’s coming back to an Empty house, and an empty bed after he leaves. I of course laid there in my empty bed and cried to sleep.

After only about 6 hours of sleep, my alarm went off and I had to get up and go to class. I was half asleep in class this morning. Good thing I was at least able to keep my eyes open, because he’s a big stickler about people sleeping in his class. You know the ones, that come up and ask you a question when they see that you are sleeping. Very annoying.

After that class I went to my second one, where I did sleep through most of it. From there I went and read my e-mail in Carver. I was just reading this one about a meeting that I have today from 12-1pm when the Fire alarms went off.

So I had to evacuate, and since I hadn’t fully read the e-mail. I headed to Durham to see what it was all about.

It was an e-mail about the Yucatan trip. So I went there at noon, and she talked and talked and talked about the trip, and then the last thing she did, she handed out letters that says, “Congradulations….” So YAY! I get to go to Mexico over spring break.

I’m WAY excited about that. And there’s a Gaysian in the group, so at least there’s family going! Plus there’s a guy that I know is going too, so it should be good.

Well, that’s about all for today.

Laters all!