So I guess I’ll go ahead and write a quick update about our weekend.
Friday morning getting to see him was tons of fun again! I think the major thing that really kept me going through the day was having him back here… There’s no way I could have stayed up for 40 hours without something keeping me going! lol.
Breakfast was good, and we both decided that we liked Chicago. I thought it would be a nice place to live, though I don’t think I could live there for more then a few years, with all the snow/winter and stuff. I don’t know, I’ll have to wait and see how I like Cali first. I might end up wanting to live in the snow and stuff. Who knows really?
The aquarium was great, tons of fun! 😉 We made out in the underground thing, watching the dolphins and stuff, very cute.
The ride home was nice, and it was again good to have someone to hold their hand on the drive. I enjoy that. Though I got the notion that he doesn’t so much.
Friday night we got home, and after a bit of a make out session went to dinner, again good. Came home, and after everyone left, we ended up making love. It was so great to again have those feelings with him, and to make love with him. Ohhh so great. 😀
Saturday was good, as I stated in my other journal. Hot tubing was nice, and it’s always so much more fun with him in there… Drove back to Ames, I think we both wanted to do stuff, but I know I was just way to tired, so we didn’t do anything that night.
It’s kind of annoying the way things happen when he’s back, before he left, there was a large amount of kissing/making out before things ever happen, but now when he’s back, we always seem to be really rushed to get things done. And almost every time we turn making out, or just kissing into something more. When sometimes, I’d like to just lay there and kiss him, and hold him.
I guess it’s just going to happen though, we haven’t seen each other in so long, you’ve got to at least try to make up for everything that’s been missed, eh?
Sunday was a great day as well, we got a lot more time to just hang around with each other. Though we also did a lot of other things. I was glad that he finally got to meet my aunt too. And it was always so cute when he gets around a small child. So cute!
Sunday night, I had created a play list that I wanted to play for him, just 5 songs or so. So we went into the bedroom, and I started it up. He just kept talking, so finally I was like, “Shhh” And we just laid there and kissed.
Eventually the second to last song came on, “Leaving on a jet plane”. I figured if anything was going to make him cry, it’d be that song. And it sure did. I had no idea how much it would affect him. We laid there, and he cried through it all. And I laid there and held him, and felt like shit for making him cry so much. That’s not what I wanted to do. Then after it was over he was like, “Don’t let it play again.” And I just felt so bad, and I was also a bit mad at him for being so mean about it. I just want to lay there and listen to some romanticish songs that really exemplified the situation we were in. I was just annoyed about it all.
Anyways, after a while we ended up making love again. And it was again really nice. We tried in the shower, but that didn’t work. But then, it usually doesn’t. Moved from there to the living room, and made love in the papzan chair that I have. That was really nice. After a while, we moved into the bedroom, where he finished up. He came inside me again, and as always, it was a wonderful feeling. I wish we could do that every time. 🙂
Went to bed after that, and got up the next morning, drove to Chicago.
It was sad to see him go again. I cried a bit, and was really upset. I hate seeing him go. I also got a bit annoyed at him, because he didn’t cry, and it just made me really embarrassed to be crying. I’m over it now. But it did annoy me a bit that he didn’t cry.
I am very excited to see him again over Christmas break, and can’t wait to see him come down those stairs at the DM airport.
In other news though, I have no idea what to get him for our 6-month, or his b-day. I have the present for Christmas, though the more and more I think about it, the less and less I think he’ll like it/use it. So I don’t know what to do about that. IT’s very frustrating. I really want to get him something sweet, but I’ve mostly run out of ideas, or the ones that are left have already been done for him. Fucking previous boyfriends.
I’m also a bit worried because he said that he was thinking about getting me something that he made out to be fairly expensive. Which is something I REALLY don’t want. I don’t want him to spend more then like $20 or so. We both really need to save, and shouldn’t be spending our money on presents for each other.
And while we’re on the topic of presents, I was also a bit upset because he keeps rubbing it in that I don’t remember exactly when/what he gave me for our anniversaries. Now, I can see that he might be a bit upset that I don’t remember. But you know what. I really do try my hardest to remember everything he’s gotten me. There’s been so many wonderful gifts that it is hard at times, but given sometime to think about it, I could probably list everything he has gotten me. Anyways, in short, it just upsets me that he rubs it in that I can’t remember every little detail. Sorry that I don’t have as great a memory, but I can’t help that, I do my best.