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Busy Busy Weekend

So… It’s been one hell of a weekend for me.

Lets go back to Friday, Austin was in the area when I got off work, so we went over to Fashion Island and ate lunch. He got annoyed with me because he didn’t think it was very smart to just ride over in one car. But he seemed ok with it all by the time we were over.

Drove back to my house and the traffic was pretty bad. Got there and the first thing he did was jump into my bed and take his shirt off and say. “Come lay with me for a while.”… So I was like thinking yay, you know he wants to cuddle and it’s going to be a good hanging out again.

So we end up laying in my bed from like 4 to 8 watching this movie, Beaches. After that we get up and I’m hungry so I start making dinner and he’s like, “Well I’m going to go home, I need Austin time and I can entertain myself more.” So I get really offended by that, I’m sorry that I have to take a minute to FREAKING COOK MySELF DINNER. Plus I was pissed because I was really hoping that he would spend the night again. :'( We haven’t slept together in forever, and I like that. I LOVE SLEEPING with people! Grrr.

So get into it and he leaves and I’m all pissed off, we had a big long convo about it once he got home and he said:

9:13:28 PM austin: i like you a lot, but i don’t think ur the guy for me

9:20:36 PM austin: i feel like i need someone more dominating

9:21:08 PM austin: more controlling

I’m not sure WHY he wants that though, those things never freaking work out. The controlling person always gets mad because they feel like they are being too motherly and the other person always gets mad because they eventually feel like the other is being too controlling. I’m really hoping that it’s just that he does have a job and is feeling lost. But who knows.

Anyways, I went to bed about 10 and slept horribly. Got up at 8:30 and cleaned up my house some and then met Robert for a bike ride at 9:30. We did that and I got home about noon and showered and tried calling Mark, etc to figure out plans. Everytime I’d call him he was like, “I’ll call you back in a minute” But he never did, so that was annoying. FInially Austin and I said we’d just go up there and hang out. Thankfully as we were heading out to meet each other Mark called back and we got the plans made.

We met up at the mall and he came up and hugged me which was nice. He ate lunch and we had a good talk then headed up to my house. Got in my car and started driving and he got all pissed at me because I didn’t have any music in my car and I just like to listen to the radio. So we drove there without really saying much to each other.

Got up there and I had a really good time. Skyler (with his wierd spelling) and James were both there. It was fun seeing them again, but I wish that they would have come out to dinner with us that night. James is so yummy! Too bad he’s uber straight! lol.

So we hung out at the conference and had a good time, talked to lots of random people and learned alot. So that was good. We went to this “Weakest Geek” thing and it was pretty entertaining.

Mark and Austin really talked a lot while I was off talking to other people, so they were getting along and it seemed like Austin was enjoying himself.

Oh, somewhere in there we picked up this guy named Brandon who was also family and kinda cute in a really geeky way.

So after the weakest geek we all pile into Scott’s truck and headed up to Santa Monica to Thrid Street. We found this nice Italian place and got right in without a problem! We all sat around drinking and talking and having a really good time and the food was amazing! We were there for over 2 hours, and I had 2 martini’s and Mark was nice enough to pay for everyone, it was like $60 a person too!!

We headed out after that to West Hollywood. Somehow Mark ended up between Austin and I in the car and they were being all cuddly and to me it even looked like they were giving each other little kisses here and there… Thus began my being pissed off for the rest of the fucking night.

So we get to The Abbey. We get in there and on the way there, Austin runs into someone he knows.. Which annoys me a bit. Then he starts talking about how he was there for new years and went home with this random guy. Which PISSED me off even more. So we get in there and the place is fucking PACKED like crazy.

We walk all the way to the back and buy everyone a round of drinks. Then on the way out Austin runs into this other guy he knows, and I’m just so annoyed with him by that point that Brandon and I just keep walking. We get outside and stand under this heat lamp thing and this cute little lesbian comes up and starts talking to us, so we chat with her for a bit and I bum a smoke off her. She eventually leaves and Austin, Mark and Scott STILL aren’t back, so Brandon and I go find a spot to sit down because I was starting to have this crazy break down and started crying.

So we find a spot and sit and talk and I poor my guts out to him and then FINIALLY Mark and Austin show up and Austin starts being all cute with me and stuff and asking if I’m pissed and I just pretty much ignored him. So we stay there till like 2 and finially we all leave and Mark and Austin sit next to each other again and AGAIN it looked as though they were giving kisses. Grrr.

We get back to the hotel and Austin’s all talking about just going up to Scott’s room and sleeping there. But he doesn’t. So Mark and Austin get into the same bed, so I just take the other one, then they somehow both ended up in the bed I was in, but those two cuddled all night and I just kept my back to them. I was SO FUCKING PISSED AT Austin.

Got up at 8am, still drunk and drove back to Aliso from LAX.

We get back just as my Aunt’s are calling me saying they are there… So Austin meets them for a second and then goes home. We go into my place and I shower and head out for a REALLY long day with them.

I took them up to Top of the World and thankfully it was clear, cause when I was up there Saturday morning it was all cloudy and nasty. They all seemed to enjoy that. They we drove around downtown laguna for a while, then headed up to Newport Via PCH. Took them up through there and then showed them my office since we were driving right past it. There was some girl there with a group of really cute guys and we all took the same elevator, but she couldn’t get her key to work and stuff. It was funny.

After that we drove up to Long Beach and went to the Aquarium of the Pacific which totally isn’t worh the $20 to get into there! Blah.

From there we headed back to Newport to eat lunch and at Hamburder Mary’s. They really liked it, but our waiter was kinda an idiot. After lunch (well, it was like 4). We went off to Newport Pier and walked along the beach for a while. My aunt is crazy and she stopped and asked this guy how much it costs to rent a one of the beach houses in that area. And he said it was $6,000 a WEEK during the summer! How fucking insane is that!

Once they got bored with the beach we came back to my house and they left. I stayed up till like 7:30, but was laying in bed and then finially just couldn’t stay awake any longer… And went to sleep. lol

I’ve got another date with the same guy from last Thursday… tonight. I’m not sure how I feel about that.

Well, I’ve written a book, so I’m out.. Adios!

Saturday Night…In

Ugh, another weekend of doing nothing. And with Ausitn out of town, I haven’t even had him to bug to hang out. haha.

So I’ve sat in my apartment all weekend playing video games, catching up on the pile of reading that’s been sitting around my house for months. And getting back into my book. So I guess it’s been good. I did get on my bike yesterday and did 10 miles. I’m thinking that maybe next weekend I should get Robert together again and go biking on saturday morning before going up to LA.

Strangly enough I had a dream about that last night too… We had this big group of people together, it was WF, DS, and MH all from work, and then Robert, Ben, Austin and me. Strangely enough I introduced Austin to the work guys as “my boy”… I might get into my thinking behind that a little later. Anyways, we all went on a bike ride and it was fun.

Last night this guy Drew, who I’ve been talking to forever, wanted to hang out… But he changed his mind at the last minute. Probably for the better anyways, because I think he wanted a little more then just hanging out… As illistrated by his saying, “I’m a top and you’re a bottom, we’ll see where that goes”. He seems like a cool guy, but whatever. I ended up getting Vinnie to come over and hang out. We watched Annie. Then we hung out for a while, he left about 1am and I went to bed.

I got up about 8:30 this morning and have just been sitting around. Nothing is on TV, it all sucks. Damn football.

Ugh, I’m so annoyed with stuff right now, I’m getting really depressed. I just want that damn bf, that I was supposed to have by now. I’m getting older, I don’t want to end up being one of those old guys who hangs out at the bars all the time or on A4A because I don’t have a special someone… I know it’s been over a year and a half since Andrew broke up with me, but I’m just still so pissed that my plans got all fucked up and now I just still feel lost.

I was talking to Austin the other day about it and he said, “So you need another guy before you feel like you’ll have a purpose again.”

Well, I guess in a way… The answer is “Yes”. I want to have that life of coming home to someone every night, someone to sit down to dinner with, someone that I’ll always have to go somewhere with. I hate never knowing where I’m going tomorrow of if I’ll have something to do on the weekend. I hate not being able to plan 3 or 4 months in advance for a trip because you never know if you’ll still be talking to someone then! IE, The Iowa trip last year, going to the theater, etc.

I guess I just have kinda of a White Picket Fence House Dream… The gay version. haha.

I really hope that this next week goes by fast. Austin may or may not be out of town. But I don’t thinke ither way it will make much of a difference, as he hasn’t been wanting to hang out as much lately. (more on this later). Either way, this next weekend should prove to be a good weekend, going to dinner with Mark and Austin, then drinks with them and Scott. Sunday my aunt and the other woman are coming down this way, or I’m going that way. One or the other. And hopefully Austin will come for that as well. It’ll be good to see her, sad that beak isn’t coming as well though.

Soooo Then. About this whole Austin thing….

It’s really been messing with my emotions lately. We started out really strongly, hanging out nearly every day, he went through this period of calling me ‘hun’ and ‘babe’. We spent the night a lot (still we have not had sex/bjs/etc). He said he missed me when his mom was here, he even suggested we just spend the night at each others house every night.

Robert interrogated him, and he said he wanted more from me then just friendship. (Though, who knows if Robert understood right).

Then all of a sudden he went through this period of barely talking to me, not wanting to hang out and when we did he didn’t want to cuddle anymore.

Then last Wed, we hung out and he was all cuddly and we slept together, and he choose just hanging out and talking with me over going out to the club.

Yet he still says he just wants to be friends!

Cleary, if you’ve paid any attention to my blogs, I want more! I think if he doesn’t then we’ll have to stop the whole cuddling/sleeping together thing. Because I’m getting to attached. I got so jealous of him this weekend when I found out he slept at some other boys house.

With Justin it works, because I know how he feels about me, he knows how I feel about him, and we both know it wouldn’t work out if we did have a relationship. So we can sleep together, make out, hell, even bjs. But with Austin he’s so all over the map, that it’s just hurting me.

I’m hoping that it’s all just because of the whole no job thing… That he doesn’t want to get involoved with someone incase a job out of the area comes up.

I just wish there were a simple answer to the whole thing.

Adios all!

Paula Abdul Ain’t Got Nothing On Me!

So the other day I went to the gym, and well… My arms HURT now so badly. It hurts just to even push on my chest.. I really should get back into that more. The other day at the docs though they said I was at 170, and that’s with my shoes and clothes/etc on. So who knows. But I should work out at the gym more and I’ve got to get back on the bike soon too!

Lets see, so yesterday at work I learned Perl and wrote a nice little program to do a bunch of stuff. It’s pretty cool.

I got off at 4 because I came in late and drove home. Traffic was HELLISH! I’m never doing that again. lol. Got home and lounged around some, and watched the mythtv stuff that I’ve been putting off forever. Saw a hilarious episode of Drawn Together. That finished just as Blake got there and I replayed him the funniesst part of it. Austin showed up a few minutes later and he drank his martini that I made him while we decided where to go for dinner for sure and just chatted some.

Decided that Hamburder Mary’s was the best bet, so we all went up there. It’s a really cool place. I’ll have to go back on a busier night though, as it was pretty dead. But the service was pretty good and we just all sat around and chatted. Came home and Blake and Austin both did magic tricks. haha. They we’re so cute. Blake left at 9″30 and I walked him out and said good bye. Just as last week, it was really good to see him again.

Austin stayed a while longer and we watched American Idol and talked. He left a little later cause I needed to go to bed.

Tonight I’m supposed to go out with Joel and his bf to coffee, hopefully that will go well. I’m really tired, so I don’t think that I will stay too longer though.

Adios!

Boy U!

So… Busy weekend it has been for me.

So Saturday I spent the morning doing laundry and running all those errands, I still didn’t get EVERYTHING that I wanted too, but ended up spending like $200. Blah. Damn needing to buy things!

Came home and cleaned up and that was like 4ish or so. Started talking to Austin and he kept flip-flopping on if he wanted to hang out or not. Looked like we weren’t, so I had a drink and just relaxed at home. About 8ish he decided that he wanted to hang out so he came over. He got a little drunk and I had some drinks and he ended up spending the night cause he couldn’t drive home.

Got up Sunday morning and I made him breakfast then he left cause Robert was coming over for a bike ride. He got there about 9:30 and we headed out to Top of the World. Got there and rode our bikes back up to my house. Total about 10 pretty easy miles really. The downhill was killed though because it was so rough! Drove him back to his car and then I came home and layed around the house for the rest of the day. Fell a sleepin in there somewhere and woke up about 7:30 or something.

Started talking to Austin and he wanted to go to Lucky’s (Aka Boy U). I was reluctant at first but decided it’d be fun to go. So he came over to my house about nine and we sat around and talked till Robert got there. Then we all headed out. I was DD. We got there and stood around the bar. Robert bought the first round of drikns which was nice of him. I had a Martini. 🙂 (This was at like 10pm, so there was plenty of time for it to get out of my system before driving home). Anyways, Felix joined us later and we all had a really good time. Robert apparetnly interrogated Austin about how he feels about me and what it is he wants out of me. Just as I suspsected he likes me a lot, but doesn’t want to commit to anyone.

I also went out dancing with Austin a little bit, which is a BIG thing for me considering Ive only ever danced before at Pride in DM one year with Andrew… That’s because we were at the Garden and the place was so PACKED watching the Drag show that you couldn’t help but dance. But I had a good time. I made him dance with Robert and Filx as well because I didn’t want to keep going out there as much as he did.

We left about 1ish and came home. Robert crashed on my couch and Austin in my bed.

I woke them both up at about 6:30 this morning and then dressed and came into work.

It looks like Austin WILL be coming camping with me this next weekend, which is exciting for me. I just have to decide where we’re going now. lol.

So that’s been my weekend. Adios all!

Good Day!

Wow, so yesterday was just such a great day for me…

So I got the good news, Work was crazy, so much stuff going on. Meetings back to back pretty much. I already had lots of meetings planned, however with the news that added 4 total meetings throughout the day. And one of the meetings, I was asked to go make a major programming change WHILE THEY WAITED, which just added so much more stress, thankfully I completed it in half the time they gave me! Then we had to bounce a server that is hosted up in SM, and when we did it didn’t come back up! So everything went to hell then. When I left they were still trying to find someone that had the right sort of cable to connect to the box and get it started back up. Blah.

Austin came over right after work, as he was already in the area doing an interview with a guy I set him up with. He said that it went well, but that he hated the guy. Which is funny because it’s true, the guy is nice, but he got on my nerves during the interview too. He says he might just take this job in DC if he gets the offer. That’d be sad to havea him leave since I’ve finially made a friend that seems worth keeping!

So he came over, we hung out here and talked about that for like an hour or two. Then we went out and got dinner, it’s really funny because we both seem to always order the same thing. We have a lot of strange things in common. I’m going to invite him camping next weekend. Dinner was good, then we went and rented some movies.. It was hard to pick some out because he has them all on xvid and stuff so we didn’t want to get one that he had, but we also didn’t want to drive back down to his place to get them all. Ended up gettind Duece Big, European one.. And then some scary movie. We watched that one first and it was more funny then scary, the point. Then we went hot tubbing and swimming which was fun! Everyone knows how much I love hot tubbing.

Came back here and we both changed back to our normal clothes then watched the Will & Grace from last night which was pretty funny. I like live tv, they should do more of them like that. lol. Then we cuddled and watched the other movie.. He fell asleep in my arms which was cute. So I woke him up and made him go home, which was about 11:00.

I think this is good, we both aren’t really looking for boyfriends, and we both have lots in common, so I see good things for this friendship. He has however grabbed my ass jokingly some. And I his, it’s very nice and firm. lol. It’ll suck though if he does move out to DC.

So, randomly Myke (we all remeber him right?) IMed me the other night as well. Very random, being the same fucking Myke, takes forever to respond, etc. What a wierdo.

AND lastly (on the topic of frineds), Andrew and I are apparently not friends anymore. He’s officially deleted me from his LJ friends list. Whatever jackass.

Today I have lots to do. I’m doing laundry now, then my bathroom needs a good scrubbing. Then I’ve got to go out shopping, I need the following:

Remainder of camping gear (Dutch oven, Cooler, etc).

New Glasses.

Fabric for pillows and pillow inserts.

Food!!

Incense (Which I can only find in one place in SJC).

Bike shopping.

Adios all.