September 1, 2001

Sept 1

Tonight’s been really great. I went out with Adam, just me and him. I love

being with just him, we have so much to talk about really. We can almost

always find some random thing to talk about. I really love him to death.

I wish we could give a relationship another go. But like I’ve said before.

I know that’ll never happen or work again cause he’s so wraped up in other

people right now. We started the night by going downtown and we went to

this big ass parking garage and we talked about the future, what it holds

for us and where we think we’re going to go. We have this big plan to move

to AZ. I dunno if I’ve mentioned it before or not, but I really like it

and I hope that we can carry it out. We talked about it tonight, and I think

it’s feasable if everuthing keeps on track like it is right now. If all

goes to plan in 2004 Adam, Angie and I are moving to AZ. I really hope that

it works that way. After the parking garage there was much randomness and

walking places. About 9 or so we went back to Adam’s house and we were just

going to hang out there and talk and shit. Well we went there and his mom

and like entire fucking family showed up shortly after that. They hung out

there for a while, and then his familyish type people left, (they all took

pictures of me for some odd reason). But Melinda and Rob stayed in and that

fucked up our plans for the night. So we went back downtown and walked around,

there was some beerfest thing going on so there were lots of amusing drunk

people there. Then we came back to Ankeny and hung out and talked. Now I’m

here, wishing that we could be together one more time, give a relationship

one more shot at where ever it might go. Let life take me to where it should

and let me be happy. When I was with Adam I was so happy, when I’m with

Adam now, I’m happy. But when I was with him. That was the best time in

my life. The best.

This morning my mom and I went to UBS and we bought Dreamweaver 4, Fireworks

4, Flash 5, and Freehnad 10 for $250. That’s like $1,000 worth of software.

I was so happy. It’s bloody cool. I’m going to have to learn Flash and shit

now. But I’m loving Student Discounts on software.

Aug 31, 2001

Aug 31, [Me First And The Gimme Gimmes, "Stand By Me"]

I can’t WAIT for tonight, I get to see Adam, I’m so fucking happy.

Fateback is being a bitch, it won’t let me upload things that are more

then one directory deep, for example, I can’t upload anything in the /pics/People

dir because that’s two deep, but I can upload stuff to the /pics dir which

is only one deep. Fucking them. I e-mailed them and they said, "Use

our file manager." I don’t want to fucking us it damnit. I want to

FTP!

Aug 30, 2001

Aug 30, [Craig David, "Fill Me In"]

Ok, well today’s been one busy ass day again. I went to class this morning

at 8, that was boring, we had our first quiz, it was easy, it was just over

the sylubus, crazy man. Oh well. Then I went to work and there was like

no one there, so I went in a talked to my boss person, all I did today was

get netmeeting working with video, audio and a few other things to make

sure they all worked before next Tuesday when they have to use them in the

conference room. Then after that I went and researched on electronic whiteboards,

some of them are pretty damn cool things. After that I came back here and

went to my math 150 recitation thingy. OMG, that’s going to be one long

ass semester in there, I can’t understand a damn word the TA says, and he’s,

he’s just. ARG. I hate him already. Oh well.

I got my Krell e-mail today, that

brings the total up to 9 e-mail accounts I have to check daily. I should

just start forwarding things to one e-mail account, but I don’t really want

to do that cause then I don’t know where things are coming in from, like

right now, all my junk mail goes to comet, and all my personal mail to att.net

now work e-mail goes to krell and school e-mail goes to ISU. I like having

Outlook cause it just checks them all for me. I just wish I could find a

way to convert my outlook mailboxes into something that one of the POP programs

for LINUX can read. Damn M$.

I’m so glad that today’s over, I get to see Adam tomorrow, I’m so fucking

happy. Oh speaking of Adam, the other day I posted some lyrics on my site

at the end of one of my posts, well usually if I put lyrics there, it’s

the lyrics from the song that I was listening to when I started the post,

well this time it wasn’t so I had to figure out what song it was, and I

just couldn’t fucking remember. It’s a great song, but I couldn’t remember

what it was called, so I called 105.1 and they didn’t know, so I knew it

had to be something they didn’t play that much. Savage Garden came to mind,

but just from the names of the songs that I had it didn’t look like any

of those. So I dug out my history in IE, and went back to that day, I found

the song, it was Savage Garden, "The Lover After Me." I love history.

hehe.

My roomie finally understands the concepts of vacums and other such things.

He turned the fan so that it faces inward. He got out of bed like midnight,

I think he thought I was asleep and wouldn’t hear him doing it, but I saw

him, and I was like, "THANK GOD." Cause it felt so good. Oh well.

I’ve been debating lately on a new storage scheme for my MP3’s. I’m getting

so many I need to start seperating them somehow. I’ve been thinking about

making a new folder for each artist/band and seperating them that way. That

would work, but it’s alot of work. I’ve also been thinking about seperating

them by music type, but then you get those dance remixes of regular songs,

and I’d like to have those with the regular song, and you get those songs

that I just don’t know what the hell they are. So if you have any good suggestions,

E-mail me or something, eh.

I need to read my Soc book. But I’m not really in the mood to do that.

I have all my other HW done for the week. I just hope that I don’t get anything

in my classes tomorrow. I know I won’t get anything in Math cause they would

have assinged that today. I might have something in English, but that shouldn’t

be to bad I wouldn’t think. Oh well.

Aug 29, 2001

Aug 29, [Alicia Keys, "Fallin’"]

Well it’s now noon and I’m done with classes, but I have a shit load of

HW to get done. I went to my Engl 105 class today and the prof comes in

and says, "I just found out 20 minutes ago that I teach this class."

I was like, oh good. So all she did was tell us wich books we needed, I

had to go buy another book, it was only 1.50 so that was cool. But then

we left. So then I went to Soc, I hung outside tell 9, but I never saw Vero,

so I just went on inside and he taught us. We talked about love and how

society teaches us to love. It was a pretty cool thing. Someone brought

up homosexuality too, and he talked about that for a bit. About how homosexuals

learn to love, and he essential said that we learn the same way as heterosexuals,

but we just love a different person. It’s been a pretty uneventful day,

I just can’t wait tell Friday. I want to go home so badly, well not really

home, I just want to see Adam really badly. I hope I don’t have much HW

to do over the weekend. I really don’t. I’m going to go get done what I

have now to do, laters.

Aug 29, 2001 #2

Aug 29, #2 [Star Wars, "Imperial March"]

Well tonight’s been bloody awesome. Vero, Julian, Ryan (I think that’s

his name), And I went to the alliance meeting, that was great times. I saw

like 4 other people that I knew, or have seen around before. One guy, I

can’t remember his name, but Julian thinks it’s Nathan, came over and talked

to us for a bit. [His name’s Tony] It was good times, lots of hot guys there,

hehe. That should be something that I’ll look forward to every week.

I got my HW done, I’m happy about that. And plus there’s only 2 more days

tell Friday. I can’t wait to get out of here this weekend. It should be

good times, well not really good times, but it’ll be good in the sense that

I’ll get to see Adam again. I miss him so much.

My roomie’s quite the twat, he doesn’t understand that when you have to

fan blowing air out of the room and the door shut it pretty much creates

a vacum in a sense, and that will stop air from moving, so you want the

door to be open so that it’ll provide a fresh air sorce to the room, well

everytime that I open the door he goes and closes it, Grrr. It annoys me.

He’s also kinda rude in the fact that I was listening to music earlier and

trying to study in the room, and he comes back from class and turns on his

TV, sits down and turns it up so much that it drowns out my music, now I

can study with music going, cause it’s something that you can hear, but

not listen to, well TV I can’t have going and study at the same time, even

if I can’t see it. So that just bothered me. I’m like, grrr. I had the music

on first go away.