March 27, 2001

marh 27. ::sad:: so i didn’t get into SDSU like i was hoping

i would. so now if i don’t get into my other college i’ll be stuck at UNL

::shudders:: ya know i really don’t know why i go to gov class, we never learn

anything and it just always make me mad. ya know we’re doing that simulation

thing and today some twat introduced a bill that would make abortion first-degree

murder. now i don’t agree with abortion, but i think that if a women wants

one they should be allowed to get one. the governement should just stay the

hell out of that area. i’m not going any farther with this, cause i can ramble

on and on. so i’ll leave the boring shit out. lol. so a know i got that e-mail

from that guy, and last night he e-mailed me back and said to call him, so

i’m going to call him again tonight, lol. i dunno. AHH, i just want to fucking

scream, the programming people are so fucking stupid. we had this test right

and one of the questions was “Generally you open a file in the Form_Load

procedure” well since the answer is soooooo fucking FALSE, that’s what

i marked, but the bastards fucking counted that wrong because the fuckers

said “but in this class we do that” and i said, but you preach “in

the real world” so fucking much, and that’s NOT WHAT THEY FUCKING DO

IN THE FUCKING REAL WORLD! damnit. mother fuckers. so they i talked to my professor to try and get some sense fucking knoked into him and he’s like

“well i agree with you, but i didn’t write the test” well fuck if

you didn’t write the fucking test if you agree with me god damnit, you should

take the matter into your fuycking hands and fix the mother fucking questiong.

god fucking damnit. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. fuckers. i’m so fucking glad i’m

getting the hell out of htere, any fucking 2 year old could pass the classes

in this fucking place. and any 5 year old could fucking teach them. goddamnit.

ok, i feel better now. HA bastards I’ll fucking show them, here’s the e-mail

i just sent to the head of the department: I have a question

about one of the test questions. Number 9 says something along the lines of

“Generally you open a file in the Form_Load Procedure.” I answered false to

this question because you should not do this. You open the file just before

you need it and close it just after you are done with it, sometimes this is

in the Form_Load procedure, but in this case it didn’t say you were using

the file there. I talked to Jim McKeown and he said that he agreed with me

but that I needed to talk to you about getting the question fixed. This class

is big on preaching “in the real world” and “proper naming conventions.” I

know that in the “real world” they do not do this, and they “generally” open files just before using them and then close them right after they are done

using them. I also think that if you are going to push “proper naming conventions”

that you should also follow proper programming techniques such as this. I

would like for you to evaluate this question and possibly add the points back

to my test. I feel that had the question been worded differently such as “In

this class we generally…” then the answer would have been true, but in the

“real world” this is not the case. HA, bastards, i can’t wait to see

thier come back to that one. fuckers. HA stupid fuckers look at this e-mail

i just got from the head: Thanks for your clarification

of the test question. Since we are using this textbook for class, the textbook

indicates on page 379 “Opening and Closing Data Files” that “Generally, you

will open the file in the Form_Load procedure.” The question on the test was

taken from the author’s test bank. We don’t do an evaluation of each test

question based on real world application since many of our students have not

had any real world applications and are just trying to understand the concepts

in the chapter. They accept what the author states in the textbook as a beginning

concept to learn the material. Once they get out in the “real world”, they

understand “the real world” does things differently and doesn’t always follow

the textbook concepts. I have no problem at all giving you the point back,

but since I am not your instructor, you need to convince your instructor.

You have a very understanding instructor, so just approach him again. I also

sent this email to him. I don’t need to fix the question because based on

what the author states the question is T. If you feel based on “your” experience,

the question is F, just approach your instructor, and he has the authority

to give you the point back. We don’t usually change the answer to test questions

based on a student’s experience, but on the concepts that we are teaching

in the texbook. Thanks for your viewpoint. HA stupid fuck offs, i just

raised my grade on that test from a B to an A with that one fucking question,

::grins:: I’m going to keep that 110% i have in that fucking class if i have

to be pissy about every little fucking thing, ::grins mean like::

March 26, 2001

march 26. ok so yesterday afternoon i got an e-mail from this

guy in SF. so i replied to it, after a bit of nagging from danny, and then

i went to bed. well like after 20 minutes the phone rang and it was this guy.

i was like omg, omg, omg,omg. it was so funny. but we talked for like 30 minutes.

he seems pretty cool. he admits he’s a preppy, but hey, what the hell. lol.

he works at Wells-Fargo as a teller. He wanted me to come down to the bank

last night and talk to him. it was odd, but cool. i might go down next weekend.

lol. ok so i’m back, and my econ prof is totaly fucking insane, he didn’t

even show up for class today, he just left the tests there and had a note

for us on what to do. and of course his test was just totaly messed up. and

ya know what else, i’ve been so fucking messed up in the days lately. like

last night when i was talking to that guy, nathan. he was like so what time

do you have class tomorrow, so i looked and was like 9-10 and then later we

were talking and i was like i have to get up early tomorrow i have class at

7. and he was like, but i thought you siad 9-10. and i was like OHH yeah,

it’s monday not tuesday. but ya know what, this morning i got up and went

to my 7 class, forgetting that it was monday and not tuesday. oh well. lol.

it gave me more time to study for my econ test. so now ihave nothing to do

for the rest of the day. boring. i got this reallly cool skin for my computer,

it looks like Mac OS X. it’s really fucking cool. ya know if i had money i

would soooooooo buy one of those titanium laptops that apple has. they are so much cooler then anything that the windows

makers put out, and i could get more done with a mac anyday. and it would

only cost me $4,096.

that’s about what i paid for my computer that i have now. damnit, i wish my

pu’s would have listened to me. but they were like, no where not going to

shop for your computer, so i had to make a last minute buy for a computer

the week before i moved up here. and i got a damn HP, i HATE hp’s. really,

really hate them. they are evil.

March 25, 2001

march 25. alright my econ prof has totaly lost it, first he’s

giving us a test on stuff that we’ve already had a test on. he claims that

chapter 4 wasn’t on the last test, but it was. and he won’t go back and look

at it. second he gave us this practire test and one of the questions is “according

to figure 7 … an increase in …” first there is no fucking figure

7, there’s figure 7.1, 7.2, 7.3. and they all deal with increases in different

things. wacko path. umm yeah other then that it’s been pretty boring here,

normal sunday shit. i felt like crap last night. i was just like really depresed

and shit. i don’t know. it was odd. i have other stuff to babble about, but

i don’t want to.

March 24, 2001

march 24. it’s to damn fucking early to be up. I’ve been so

exhausted lately, but yet i can’t sleep. i went to bed at like 10:30 last

night but didn’t get to sleep tell after 12 and then i woke up at 5 and couldn’t

get back to sleep. so yeah. it sucks. julian put up some great pics everyone must go look at them. i was laughing to hard,

lol. i was temped to go home this weekend and get some pics to scan in but

i didn’t. i don’t even know why i was temped i was just like, i should go

get some pics to scan in and such, but as youc an tell i didn’t lol. well it’s still early so not much going on here. i’m doing my laundry it’s in the

dryer now, lol. i’ll have to go get that soon. people better not steal my

clothes this time, damnit. i want my boxers back. bastard people. I’m back,

so no one stole my clothes, yay for that. but i’ve also been doing some research

on nathan, so i found that he was still going to JMS last year and got into

some honor bands, he would be in 9th grade this year at JHS but i haven’t

found anything to confirm that, i did though look up the last known phone

numbers i had for him and it shows that they still live at that address. i

also got danny to look up his aol account info and it appears that he still

has that so i went and got the aim names accociated with that account, none

of them have been on yet. i also went back trough my e-mails all 8398 of them.

i have one from each of his parents, the lastest one dated 12.20.99 so i went

back trough and looked up his parents aol accounts and the aim names accoiated

with them, his mom is currently on. i haven’t talked to her yet though. i

also found that i sent an e-mail to nathan on 1.21.01, but the last message

recieved from him was 5.24.99. i also found an old website that nathan made.

but it hasn’t been updated in well who knows how long, but a really long time.

damnit, why does it seem this always happens

March 23, 2001

march 23. so everyone has been asking me what my fantasy is

lately, gee i don’t know where they got that idea from, to ask me that is.

so last night i wrote a short story, about 3 pages, about my fantasy, and

it got me thinking. thinking about all the great times i had camping with

a freind, nathan. he was in scouts too, he was my ASPL, assistant senior patrol

leader. and as that we were always together, at meetings, on campouts, in

our free time, he spent many weekends camping at my house. every year at summer

camp we would share a tent, everytime the troop went camping we would share

a tent. great times. and then one day, he just kinda disapreared. his parent

said he was doing bad in school, so they just pulled him out of scouts, i

haven’t seen or heard from him in over a year now. we had some great times, like when we went winter camping with the troop,

it would always get really cold, so we would cuddle up next to each other

to keep warm, and when he stayed at my house, we would both sleep in my bed.

he was really cute too. i’ll explain the picture, we were out camping and had made a kite out

of paper, but we didn’t have any string to fly it with, so we got out a fishingpole

and flew the kite with that, it works really well actually, and for being

just a paper kite that thing went really high, lol. and like at summer camp

we would both go up and take showers together, and when we got back to the

tent, we would put up like a barrier or something and we would both change

on our own side, but one of us would always rip it down, it was a race to

see who could get dressed faster and who ever did, took down the towl that

seperated our ten side. we even went skinny dipping late one night in my pool,

cause he hadn’t brought swiming trunks, so we were just like well, it’s dark,

we’ve seen each other before. but yeah, it was just like, all of a sudden

his parents cut off all contact, they stopped calling, they wouldn’t return

phone calls from anyone in scouts. they just disapered. i really miss him,

we were close friends. i wonder what happened to him. last i heard his dad

was drinking a bit to much and was out of the country alot on work. nathan

was really depressed and they had him on a whole bunch of drugs, and he was

failing most of his classes, which i can’t really see, cause he was a really

smart kid. i would like to know what happened to him. just to know. ok so

i bet you’re asking what’s up with the underlining and shit, cause it’s really

hard to read things with underline. well in here somewhere is a link to my

story, i was to lazy to look up the code to make the unerlining go away, so

i just underlined the whole thing. but be warned that finding the link is

only half the battle. you’ll have to figure out the word processor that i

use. i know julian should be able to open it, cause he said a while back that

he uses the same one that i do. or at least he did. that might be to much

of a hint, so i’m going to shut up now. ok so

i do realize that it can be opened in more well known word things, but it’s

really messy, so yeah. ok update again, like five minutes later, so i realize

that abiword docs can be opened in IE too, so i guess if you find the link

you find the doc.