21:51:47 squall0112: stupid computer
21:51:59 blackc2004: Stupid computer user!
21:52:00 blackc2004: lol
21:52:29 squall0112: bah
21:52:38 blackc2004: I’ll BAH your ass!
21:52:55 squall0112: whatever
21:53:05 squall0112: so ive got a question.. what were your thoughts on what happened?
21:53:26 blackc2004: What do you mean?
21:53:54 squall0112: just what were your thoughts? like , dislike, etc?
21:55:05 blackc2004: I liked it, it was very nice.
21:55:09 blackc2004: u?
21:55:23 squall0112: im sure you know the answer to that
21:55:29 blackc2004: lol.
21:56:10 squall0112: but like beyond that, do you have any other thoughts?
21:58:18 blackc2004: I’m still undecided about a lot of things really. It was nice, but there’s still questions in my head, especially after what happened between Adam, James and I. I don’t want a reocurance of that because you are a much better friend then James, and I don’t want to fuck that up.
21:59:29 squall0112: yes of course
22:00:49 squall0112: do you feel like a mutual attraction betweeen all of us?
22:02:35 blackc2004: Yeah I feel that way.
22:04:10 squall0112: thats cool
22:04:33 squall0112: i just thought id ask since you never volunteer your opinion, mr. black!
22:04:39 blackc2004: I’m really confussed right now. Because I don’t know how you feel, Adam and I have talked about it.
22:04:48 squall0112: what about?
22:04:50 blackc2004: And I know what you’ve told Adam, but that’s not much.
22:05:02 blackc2004: About the whole thing. What are your feelings?
22:05:19 squall0112: i dont really know.. i mean i like both of you guys you know?
22:05:51 blackc2004: Yeah.
22:06:20 squall0112: what about you?
22:06:25 squall0112: its so confusing to me
22:07:22 blackc2004: Join the confusion club!
22:07:42 blackc2004: But I’m sure we’ll all work it out! We should just have another session in the “Trust Tub”
22:07:43 blackc2004: lol
22:08:01 squall0112: lol
22:08:16 squall0112: im just not sure i should allow myself to feel anything
22:08:23 blackc2004: Why not?
22:09:16 squall0112: b/c it will most likely lead to some form of heartbreak for me, b/c thats what always happens
22:10:30 blackc2004: Not just for you, for both of us as well. And I mean, when you go to Cali, there’s going to be heartbreak anyways. We’re all so very close now, it’s going to be really hard for the two of us when you leave!
22:11:26 squall0112: i know, and it makes leaving now such an extrememly tough decision
22:12:38 blackc2004: I don’t really think there is a decision to be made. You’re going to cali. Even if we have to drive you there, and kick you out of the truck! We’ll be sad, but that’s what you’re ALWAYS talking about wanting to do!
22:13:46 squall0112: yeah i know i know… and ill go
22:13:49 squall0112: but im gonna cry a lot!
22:13:58 blackc2004: You won’t be the only one!
22:14:14 squall0112: aww are you gonna cry?
22:14:42 blackc2004: Probably.
22:14:43 blackc2004: lol
22:15:56 squall0112: aww
22:17:17 squall0112: anyways onto something more lighthearted
22:17:21 blackc2004: lol
22:17:22 squall0112: i read a book in a day! wow!
22:17:36 blackc2004: What book? The Three Pigs?
22:17:44 squall0112: candide
22:17:49 squall0112: it was only 87 pages
22:18:00 blackc2004: So it was practically the three pigs.
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So this weekend much stuff happened. I don’t really know what to think of it all right now. It’s really brough the three of us (Adam, Andrew and I) closer together. Friday was normal, we didn’t really see Andrew. Saturday was odd.
It didn’t really start until late that night we went hot tubbing and many things were divulged. Such as that back in the day before we knew Andrew it was in fact ME who he was checking out everytime we saw him at Java Joes. YAY that was a total ego boost.
We also FINALLY talked about the whole situation with his feelings towards me, etc. So that was nice to finally find things out. Although I still want to know more. Just for another ego boost though. It’s so nice when other guys who I find to be MUCH more attractive then me tell me I’m hot. It’s just such a nice feeling.
We also found out that Andrew’s been having a fuck buddy lately. Which Adam got kind of defensive about.
After the hot tub, we went inside, like I said, and watched the porn. It was good time, we were all just laying on the couch, not really in any sexual position, but just laying there, it was nice. Then Adam started up with the lick elbow thing on Andrew, and before I knew it he was in the middle laying in my lap, with Adam doing the elbow thing and my hand on his dick, pretty much jacking him off through his pants. And he was holding my hands and stuff. It was just so nice, and romantic.
It wasn’t like, “Oh threesome, sex sex sex, I’m horny” and I hope that’s not how Andrew felt. It was more then that. Even though no one actually came, etc. But it was a good time. lol. Andrew makes the cutest faces when he’s being molested like that. Ohh, I could have just ate him all up!
After it all happened, I was all worried that things would get wierd. Adam and I talked about it, and a line for me was really crossed, but I guess in the long run that’ll be ok.
I just think that I feel bad because I told myself that NOTHING would EVER happen with Andrew and now things are starting to happen. Plus I feel like a big fat ass compared to him.
Anyways. Today was good cause things didn’t appear to be wierd and we all talked about it some. He felt it wa snice, and he really enjoyed everything that happened, which is again, something that I was concerened about cause he’s one to tell someone that it’s alright, and then go to someone else and say “MAN THAT WAS NASTY!”
Anyhow, Adam and I talked about it on the way home from the mall and decided that there wouldn’t be any restrictions on this like there was with James, and that if things happen, we’ll just let them happen. I expressed what I thought was alright to have happen, and he expressed what the thought (Basically he said that ANYTHING could happen and he’d be fine).
Anyways, that’s what’s going on. Really good weekend cause it’s FUCKING hot to see my bf and my best friend doing that shit. OH, such a turn on! I wonder if str8 people do that??
19:13:28 acersai: So then…talking to Andrew…
19:13:43 acersai: Just making sure all is well on the western front…
19:13:59 acersai: and it appears that he feels the same way I think we do…
19:14:09 blackc2004: Which is?
19:14:35 acersai: I don’t think he thought of any of this as harmles fooling around with no actual connection.
19:14:51 acersai: "I thought of it as a more than a threesome sex act, it was a threeway personal connection, in whch we all feel attracted to the others."
19:14:58 acersai: " And I guess if you don’t feel the same way, and you’re looking at this as harmless messing around, things could get messy."
19:15:09 acersai: SqUaLL0112 (7:14:18 PM): but yes, i know exactly what you are talking about!
19:15:10 acersai: SqUaLL0112 (7:14:31 PM): dont worry!!!
19:15:16 acersai: qUaLL0112 (7:14:47 PM): i already told you guys in the hot tub im in love with both of you
19:15:25 blackc2004: Awww, how cute!
19:15:53 acersai: SO I think he knows how I feel, and kind of how you feel (I assume you feel abo0ut the same as I do) and I think he reciprocates.
19:16:06 blackc2004: Well that’s good to know.
19:16:24 acersai: He sees this as three people attracted to eachother, and sharing a physical connection.
19:17:11 acersai: And I see no problem with that, assuming that’s exactly what it is, and all three parties fully agree.
19:17:23 blackc2004: Alright…. Now get to what felt the best, and what he didn’t like.
19:17:25 blackc2004:
19:17:27 blackc2004: lol
19:17:34 acersai: lol
19:17:40 acersai: I didn’t get that far.
19:17:51 blackc2004: What, are you done talking to him?
19:17:55 blackc2004: lol
19:18:05 acersai: He was concerned that you might be jealous or not ok with him letting me do that at first
19:18:09 acersai: Yes he went to eat.
19:18:15 blackc2004: Ahh
19:18:32 acersai: Anyway he wanted to may positivly sure that we weren’t weird, and assured me that he was great!
19:18:47 acersai: With you what happened last night just happened. Not planned, not icky, not "kinky".
19:18:53 acersai: Ok it was kinky but not in a "We’re doing a kinky naughty thing…" it was a "Aww this is nice" kinky
19:18:58 blackc2004: Well that’s good.
19:18:59 blackc2004: lol
19:19:01 acersai: SqUaLL0112 (7:09:01 PM): for me it was "omg this is the best day of my life kinky" LOL
19:19:09 acersai: SO clearly he’s ok…
19:19:21 blackc2004: lol
19:19:54 acersai: And about my reaction to him and Joseph…and me not knowing why I reacted that way…
19:19:55 blackc2004: With you what happened last night just happened. Not planned, not icky, not "kinky".
19:19:56 acersai: SqUaLL0112 (7:06:26 PM): cause were so close it just feels like were all boyfriends maybe?
19:19:56 blackc2004: What?
19:20:14 blackc2004: Could be, eh.
19:20:24 acersai: What happened last night I didn’t feel was "kinky" or icky.
19:20:35 blackc2004: Ok
19:20:41 acersai: It wasn’t planned, like the thing with James.
19:20:56 acersai: I said that one was like, "Hye that could be fun…but with who? Hmm…James! He’s here already!"
19:21:02 blackc2004: Yes, cause that was going to be the nex question… Did you and Andrew plan it on the way there.
19:21:03 blackc2004: lol
19:21:09 blackc2004: lol
19:21:19 acersai: That’s what made that a kinky sexual act. Not a "Let’s share some intamacy"
19:21:26 acersai: Hell no!
19:21:32 blackc2004: ok
19:21:49 acersai: We didn’t even speak of ANYTHING like this till just a few minutes ago…up till now it just happened.
19:22:00 blackc2004: Gotchya.
I don’t know!
So it’s been a long time since I really updated. Actually a week on the dot! Anyways…
Last week wsa boring, on to the weekend!
Friday afternoon Adam came up here and we hung out. Went shopping at NorthGrand, such a boring mall. But we purchased Andrew these cute little boxer briefs, since he’s now obsessed with them. And the cute gay boi that checked us out was like, “Orange shirt, I remember seeing that somewhere else today.” So we talked for a couple minutes whilst he was checking us out.
After that we went to Bowling for Columbine. REALLY great movie I can’t wait tell it comes out on DVD or something. I must write a paper about it today so that I can turn it in tomorrow in class for extra credit.
After the movie we came back to my place had some fun and ate supper. Good times.
From there we headed downtown to meet up with Scott. Met him, hung out, more normal Java Joe’s type stuff. We ran into Andrew and some girl as well. Good times.
Saturday we got up early, well not that early, but still. Went off to meet up with Andrew and Jenny at the speech competition. We left that early which was sad cause we didn’t get to see girl perform, but jenny wanted a hat. So off it was to find hats. We searched and searched and searched, and FINALLY found on at Hot Topic, I think that’s where it was located. Anyways, she looked cute in it!
After we located the mysterious hat, Andrew and Girl went home and Adam and I went to B&N to read. I finished my book, and it was really sad ending. Good one though. Andrew met up with us there. From B&N we went to PC to get food and hang out at my house. It was like 6:00 by then. After food we went back to my house, hot tubbed, much secret divulging happened there. It’s now called the “Trust Tub” or something like that. What’s with all those, the HH, the TT, etc etc. lol Anyways, good times, even though there for a c ouple minutes there was much grumpyness going on in there!
After hot tubing we went inside watched some porn talked and hung out. Andrew left about 11:30.
Today we slept in a bit, but not by much. It was good though, we went to Ankeny hung out at Adam’s house, went to Best Buy to get cheap CD’s cause I’m almost out then to the mall where we AGAIN met up with Andrew. Shopped had a good time, sat around and talked. Washed Adam’s car, etc.
We departed ways about 4:30, Adam and I back to his house, Andrew back to his. I departed for Ames about 5:00, due to much bickering going on at Adam’s. Now I’m here and this update is done… Must go to the private updates and do one of those for this weekend, as it’s needed.
Laters!
One short…
But busy month.
The hook up, the make out, the sex, the breakup. All in one short little month.
It’s amazing what a difference one month can have in your life.
In other news. I must go back to campus soon. Fucking Profs!
And other news… I was installing something today and not paying any attention to it, when it popped up a little box, I just hit “OK” like so many people do, and it popped up another box saying “Did you read the last alert?” I was like, “HA, how cute!”
Anyways, I’ll update more later. I must go to campus now!