“I’m Coming”

So as I said this weekend has been TONS of fun!

Friday not much happened besides what I said in the journal, hung out at Java Joe’s, walked around and talked. Just good bonding times.

Seeing Adam really made me think though, I can’t wait tell I get out of this town that’s so small that I can’t even avoid an Ex-Bf. So annoying really. I’m surprised that we avoided him as much as we have so far. It also made me really happy that I did break up with him to take a chance with Andrew. So far that chance has turned out much better then ever imagined, and I’m so happy now, and so much happier then I have been in a long time. I did however feel bad because Andrew wanted to stop and talk to Colin (I think that’s his name), but I just kept walking because I didn’t want to stop and talk to Adam, which I knew would happen if we stopped.

Adam also updated and is yet again putting things out in the public eye that he shouldn’t be, and changing what he says in the public and just manipulating alot of things, it’s really annoying me.

Anyways, back to the good stuff that happened this weekend….

Saturday was by far the best day! We laid around watching movies, something I could do for HOURS with Drew Bear. It’s just so much fun, and we always pick good movies… Minus “Drift” lol.

That night we were hanging out at my house and making out on the couch, moved up to my room and more making out, eventually he ended up naked and I literally licked him from head to toe. Foreplay is so much fun! lol, I never knew what I was missing. Anyways, making out moved to Bj’s, and after a couple minutes he was like “I’m going to come” and I didn’t beleive him cause he always says that no one can ever make him come when he’s getting a bj. So I just kept going, and then all of a sudden, I got a mouth full of cum! I was like “WTF.” But I don’t really mind come, so it wasn’t that big of a deal. Although it is a big deal that I made him come with a BJ. This makes the third time I’ve made him come, so yeah. But the first with a bj, so that was just a fluke. I’m still sceptical. Who knows really.

Then he gave me a bj, and it was soooo good. Although we only had 15 minutes, so I had to finish myself to get done in time. I felt bad taking over from him, A) because I think it rude, and B) because it felt so good!

After that we cleaned up and then he went home.

Sunday we hung out again and the topic of the trip came up. Talking about it and thinking about how soon it’s coming up made me sad because I’m really going to miss him while he’s gone. I guess though it’ll be a good run through for when he leaves for college. I’m really not looking forward to that, I’m going to be Uber sad. :'(

I’m really not looking forward to him going to Cali. Our relationship is something that I’d like to see go on, it’s working out now, and I would hope that once he moves things will continue to work out. But Four months without him are going to be hard.

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SO this weekend was soooooooo great!

Friday night we walked around, and held hands, and scared breeders on the bridge. We yelled at everyone who stared out their window. And by yell, I Mean we did this crazydance thing and flipped them off lol. And Chris looked uber yummy! *slurp!*

It really says a lot to me that he isn’t afraid to hold hands in public, even though no one else likes it lol, it’s still cute!

Saturday was good, we didn’t really do a whole lot, layed around, he held me during the wall.

Now Sat night… ooh got a little crazy there, lol. After we got home from Dinner, we were just sitting around and making out cause… well just cause!

So we moved to his room upstairs b/c I hate the stupid couch downstairs, it was all slanty-like. Anyways, it was so heavenly that night, I don’t know why. Everyhing just felt SOOOO good. He took off all my clothes and literally licked me from head to toe. I was dying…. lol. We made out for a long time and then he headed down to Enfuego. ANd here’s where it gets crazy!!! He was giving me head and suddenly I was like “I AM GONNA HAVE AN ORGASM!!!!” Well I didn’t quite scream it like that but I did let him know, and then outta nowhere, I start shooting in his mouth. I couldn’t believe it!!! I was in shock the entire next day or two. I have NEVER EVER hardly even come close to cumming when I’ve been getting a BJ before. And Chris made me cum in seriously 2-3 minutes. That really says something. I know it sounds dirty and stuff, but it really means something that I can orgasm with him. At least in my mind!

Sunday was tons of fun as well. Holding hands in the Art Center, discussing what we liked and didn’t like, just looking at the art, talking about our futures what we want to do, how we both want to travel. Some of the art was so confusing, and it was really fun and interesting and intelletually stimulating to talk about it with Chris. To steal a line from Alannis, sometimes I do need “intellectual intercourse” and Chris gives it to me, which is just great. Hopefully we didn’t scare too many people lol.

Back to my house for randomnes, then we were cute the whole time at the drag show. Holding hands, singing, dancing etc… we are sooooo cute! Everyone should be jealous of what we have.

BS was fun, we talked about HS PE. So stupid (PE, not the talk) then we split. I didn’t want him to leave and I guess we stayed in my car and talked for a good 25 ish minutes or so before I’d let him leave. Then about 5 more at his car saying goodbye. We finally broke b/c it was cold. Geez, when it’s warm I don’t know how I’ll ever break away!

Speaking of warm, the house is freezing, but anyways.

A great weekend, my Topher is soooooo beautiful! And now that I get “more leeway” according to Mother, I should be able to spend more nights w/ him which I just love! He’s so warm, I love the feeling of his arms around me.
Well, he can read this now, and I BETTER have a private update for when I geth ome from work!

BREAK!
Current mood: chipper

Waiting On Hold…

So here I am at work waiting on hold, so I thought that I’d put in a quick update about the weekend while I have some time…

This has been an UBER UBER fun weekend and my abs hurt because of it.

Friday I worked all day and then went to B&N to wait up for Andrew. I read more of Kevin’s book… SOO good. Even if you’re not into computers, I still suggest you read it. Very eye opening about how much information you can get with so little time.

Anyways, met up with Andrew about 8ish, from there we went to Panera and had supper. It was really good, I do believe that I shall be going back there more often now. We sat there and talked for like an hour or so, and then went off to Downtown. Normal JJ’s stuff, talked to Josh, who didn’t know who I was. Talked about camping and Bortell’s. Very interesting.

Since we were both looking UBER fucking hot we decied to go and walk around, so we went to Nolan Plaza and hung out there, then just went and walked around some more. It was good times. Eventually had to go home, so we were walking past JJ’s and happened to see Adam, Scott, and crew. One on level it was good to _see_ Adam again, but it was still wierd seeing him around. Scott gave dirty looks, I smiled polietly and waved and we kept on walking.

Saturday I got up early and went and got my hair cut, then to Hy-VEe where it was BAD fucking busy. And I’d still like to know who’s bright ass idea it was to put the Mother’s day cards and the grad cards in the SAME FUCKING aisle. Grrr. I was not happy about that. Anyways, spent FAR to much money and got mother some cute flowers. Thought about getting a second one for something else, but decided against it. I wanted to put the last $50 of the money I had into Savings.

Needless to say that by the time Saturday was over, the $50 was down to $30, and I was going to keep that to get grad gifts, now that $30 is down to $3, and it’s going to a card. I guess people will be getting home made gifts for graduation this year. And next month no money over the $400 previously allocated will be spent.

Anyways, after that I went home. Andrew called about 12:30 and said that he was going to shower eat and would be over about 1:30. And he was. We watched “The Wall” very good movie. After it was over we just hung out for a while. Then I mentioned that I wanted to go to the Art Center in DM. It was like 4:30. We drove there and it was definitally closed. Fuckers.

Then this crazy guy tried to kill us, and he had the mini-van in on the plot. So scary. I was whiping my car around like a crazy and yeah, it was scary!

Anyways, since we didn’t have anything to do we called Beak, but she didn’t answer. So we drove downtown. There was a wedding going on, so we hung around that for a while, scaring the breeders. Then off to the library and just walking around. On the way back to the car, I had my arm around Andrew and we were walking and talking and these crazy black girls started up with thier ghetto shit. It was so wierd, then they came over and talked to us. We couldn’t tell if they liked us or hated us. Very odd really.

After that we called Beak like 2 more times and she STILL didn’t answer, so we headed over that way since it was like 6ish. Got to her place about 6:15 and sat out front and called her AGAIN, her car was there, but still no answer. Slut! So then off to the Dollar General where Andrew bought cards and the like. Called Beak yet AGAIN! And she finally answered. It was so funny too cause I was all ghetto and shit. Went over there picked them up and then off to Cheddars.

That was SOOO mcuh fucking fun! Slaming glass, pouring waitress, food, the lumberyard. All too much to remember. We were all laughing so hard. I’m sure that everyone there hated us by the time we left, which btw was 2.5 hours after we arrived. And we left an $18 tip. Crazyness.

Back to Beak’s where we hung out for just a bit and then Andrew and I went off to my house where we watched TV and hung out some more. So much fun!

Sunday was also a really good day! (Oh, this weekend felt like a MONTHS worth of good days!) I got up and went downstairs and was like “Happy Mothers day” blah blah blah. Then she was there for like 10 minutes and then they both (being the pu’s) got up and were like “We’re going to Menards, back in a few hours.” I was like, WTF, I planned on spending most of the day with you. Grrr. Anyways, I called Andrew up and we went off to the Art Center, because they were in fact open this time.

That was so much fun too. And the crazy old guy talked to us, and I just LOVE the art center because it brings out the architect in me. I just LOVE the new addition (Well it’s not really new, just the newer part of the building), I would totaly love to have that as my house!

From there it was back to Andrew’s house where his mom made us help move furniture, so odd. Then to the drag show, where slick performed. VETO! Overall though it was a good show. Then to JJ’s, then to BS (Where we were only going to get pie, but ended up eating food, and thus the last of my money) then back to Andrew’s where we departed ways. I got home about 10:30 last night, so tired! ::yawns::

Check back later for some picture highlights of the weekend. I only hope that the rest of the summer is as fun as this weekend was!

Holding Hands.

Gay boys and teenage girls have this much in common: both take a long time to get ready to go out, and both love going to malls.

In fact, malls have become the convergence point of modern America: brightly lit and often discounted melting pots of commerce, cash machines, and culture.

So imagine my surprise at my local mall recently, in suburban Des Moines, when I saw two 16-year-old boys walking around holding hands. Picking my jaw up off the floor, I looked around for a camera, thinking there must be a movie filming. But there was no camera. This was real life.

I shadowed them for a time, thinking they were, by example, making fun of gay people. But no – as I watched them move in and out of The Gap and Structure, I could tell the handholding was genuine, and I was awestruck at the simple act.

They were not alone, but were part of a group of teenagers, mixed male and female, including at least one obvious heterosexual pairing. They all laughed together, walked around together, made fun of each other, and shared both a common voice and common ground. It was a remarkable and moving sight, and one that I did not expect to see.

Wasn’t it just a few years ago that Matthew Shepard was tied to a fence post? And isn’t this the generation that is making Eminem a vastly popular hate-monger?

So many questions ran though my head: Was this an anomaly? Could it be some extended social science class project? Or have we been Will & Graced enough to break though some of the last barriers that separate the gay community from the straight community? Are incoming High School students now so comfortable being who they are that they will feel no need to politicize themselves for the cause? Is it simpler to “just do it” than to debate it forever?

There were other eyes following my two young men around the mall as well, especially those of older, married couples who did double takes [and in some cases , triple takes] at the sight of two 16-year-olds boys doing no more, or less, then they were doing themselves. I walked slowly and listened to some of the comments. They were not all positive, yet they were not all negative either. Said one sixty-ish woman to her husband, “It’s just like your brother. Let them be happy.”

Some people shook their heads as they walked by, while other stiffened and refused to look at all, but their eyes betrayed them. You could tell then had noticed and were unnerved by the sight. The boys themselves seemed oblivious to the ruckus they were causing by just holding hands, feeding each other ice cream at D.Q., or by holding up a leather jacket to one another to share opinions on it’s style.

I wondered if they faced persecution by anyone at their school, or if they surrounded themselves with this small group of friends who understand and are supportive. How do other boys react? Do their parents know their children are having a profound impact on people who cross their paths? And do these boys know what they may have to face in their future by being so completely honest in the present?

We hear how cool it is to be gay in high school these days, but in fact thiswas the first conclusive evidence I had seen to support that urban legend. Maybe it is true. I hope it is.

I lost the group somewhere near Sam Goody, where a sign announced that MTV was sponsoring a yearlong examination of hate crimes, urging their viewers’ acceptance of other races, religions, and preferences. And it occurred to me as I stood there in the mall, that we are at a pivotal moment in out times when a media outlet aimed at youth had the foresight to promote tolerance, and young people respond with simpler acts of kindness and affection for one another.

Having been around more teenagers in the last year then I had been for a few years had been quite enlightening for me, and in mostly a positive way. For some time I’ve been an advocate of the idea that the current generation of 16-year-olds is set to take a big step toward compassion for all lifestyles. Although we aren’t completely there yet, I’m happy to see that those steps have been taken out of a conceptual stage and into the malls of middle America-possibly. The most unlikely yet brilliant common battlefield of all.

–Thomas Long