A Little Update

I’m just taking a quick little break here from programming my PHP thing of MIS 433. Very interesting stuff there. Good times.

The last couple days have been VERY long. Though today’s going by very fast. Which is really nice.

Yesterday was class as usual. The group had some problems on Tuesday night removing a foreign key in Oracle. So they were going to stay after and talk to the prof about it. I had to leave to meet up with Andrew at our scheduled time.

As I was driving there the group called me and said that we’d have to recreate all the tables to get it all to work right again. I was not happy about that. Since I wouldn’t be near a computer that day, I would have to do it this morning before the test. Which I was hoping to get to study that whole time. Eh, whatever.

So I drove to Andrew’s and we hung out there for a while. His mom was being very weird, and nice. Strange woman she is. We ate, I love eating at his house, they always have such yummy food. Though we usually eat the same things, either sandwhiches or pasta. Always good though! lol. After that we scanned some pics of his and then headed out to my house.

Oh, he got his hair cut and it’s so UBER cute… Why do I have such a HOT bf??

Got there, went swimming and then watched the Floods of ’93 movie. Since Andrew wasn’t here for that, and he wanted to see what it was all about. The movie wasn’t that good beacuse they re-used so much of the same footage. I know there was TONS more that they could have used. And I think my Uncle was in there too. But I’m not sure. I haven’t seen him in forever, but it did look like him. Very crazy. They left a lot of what happened out though, and focused mainly on the DM Water Works.

Let’s just say that it wasn’t worth the money.

Though it was sad to see all that again. And scary too because just today in the paper here in Ames there’s a big article about how the Skunk River is at flood stage now. Very scary.

After that we ate and then headed up to camp. It was good there. We didn’t have to walk around much, but they had cancelled the Tower show, which is sad because that should have been uber fun. And I’ve always wanted to see it. Since I worked at camp the year they started doing the tower show, I never did get to actually see what it was all about. The pool show that they’ve done in years past wasreally funny, so I expect that the tower show would be the same.

Shoemaker, Goat, Rissie, BaldBoy and a few others that I knew were on staff, and I was very scared of them recognizing me. Though I don’t think any of them did. Eventually the CampFire started and it was great. Not as good as some years past. But still good. IT had a Mr. Rogers theme, which was odd because we’ve never had a campfire like that. They did the Princess/Prince skit which is always GREAT! And it was even better because Rissie and Crazy did it, and they’re the only ones I’ve ever seen do it right. So great though! Andrew seemed to really enjoy it.

No songs though, that was sad.

After that the call out. It was really good as well, though the fires went out because the wood was wet. It’s always sad when that happens, because for a lot of people those are the only real bon-fires they’ll ever see. I wish that we hadn’t cut the size of them down though. They are much smaller now then what they used to be. We had to cut it down though because sometimes the Ashes would fly up into the Pole-Mans face and then he couldn’t sing. So it’s s saftey thing, but still. Big fires are fun!

I really wish that I could show someone the other ceremonies that happen later that night. But I can’t. 🙁

We left there about 10:00 and drove back to my place, sat in my drive way saying buy, I finally had to open my car door and just shove Andrew out and drive away. I really hate having to go back to Ames on Wed nights. I just want to stay there and hang out for the rest of the night.

Got home and went straight to bed.

Got up this morning at 7, showered, ate and then went to campus. Created those tables and then studied. I looked at the test online and it said that we could have tell 5 this evening to do it. So I was going to just go to class and spend that time doing the practice test, then go and do the actual test later that day, after I had had more time to study. However the prof had different plans, he did say we could do it later, but he preffered that we do it in class. So I did, and I didn’t do as well as I had wanted. I did do alright though, so that’s nice!

After that went and did a group meeting to work on databases some more. Then I rode to work. Which is where I am now, doing this and working very hard today. Lots of lines of PHP have been written and many more are to come. I’ll have to have someone massage my hands tonight.

I’m so glad though that today’s going by really fast. I can’t wait tell Friday to get to see my Drew Bear again!

I’m a little strapped for cash this month. I over spent while Andrew was on the trip (By about $62), and now only have $70 to last me though the 31st.

Speaking of money, we semi-discussed the flight plans for trips to EWR. I guess Andrew’s ticket is being paid for my his mom’s company, so she has no control over what he flys. Very sad, because that may mean I’ll have to fly there alone. I really don’t want to do that, because the whole point of this trip is to travel together. I won’t like that if that’s what happens. Though, I’m REALLY excited to get to go out there. We have a TON of stuff planned to do on the trip. And we’re leaveing Aug 12th. Good times!

I must be out now, this was supposed to be short!

And That’s My Life…

Firewall Schmiverwall

I hate firewalls. We got the new one here at work last Thursday and I haven’t been able to get it to work properly yet. It’s getting to be very annoying. I have it working now with a fake network, but that’s not how we want it to work, eventually, yeah we want it to do what I have it doing now, but not right now. Grrr.

Yesterday was good, work and the like. Nothing much really going on.

I called Angel back, but she didn’t answer. So I left a message. She called back late that night, I don’t know what time, but I didn’t hear my phone, so obviously didn’t answer. Left me a message saying she was packing to go out of town. I’ll call her back later though. At least I know she still knows I’m alive.

I didn’t really do anything last night besides talk to Andrew online. I should have been doing a ton of stuff while I was online, but I just didn’t feel like it. I haven’t been very motivated this week. Mainly I think because it’s the last week of classes and I don’t care anymore about this stupid class. It’s so fucking boring! Grrr.

I can’t wait untell tomorrow afternoon. I’ll only have 2 days of that horrid class left, and I’ll be hanging out with Andrew at his house. I think the plans are to meet up at his, hang out, go swimming, then camp. I’ve been thinking that maybe we’ll eat at camp that night. I’ll see how much it costs. I just think that it’d be semi-fun. I also need to pay for my OA membership. But I wouldn’t be able to do that tell about midnight and I want to be home long before then! lol.

I was bored today at work and was looking up the Dems running for pres. I think I like Dean out of them all the most. So I’ll probably vote for him. Though the election is still a LONG ways away, so it might change before then.

I’ve printed off a bunch of “A Little Mmm” and “Unbrand-America” posters and I’m going to go put them around campus tonight after my group meeting. It’ll be a long day today. According to my buddy list I’ve already been gone from my house for 10 hours, and by the time the group meeting is over and I get home, that’ll probably be about 13 or so. Great…

Why isn’t it Wed yet? ::ponders skipping class::

And that’s my life.

A Nice Massage

So this weekend was uber great getting to see Andrew again. It’s going to be so hard once school starts. I know that we’ll be able to keep in touch through phone/e-mail/aim. But that’s just not enough. I’m very worried about what’ll happen between us once the time comes though, relationship and friendship wise.

Waiting for him at the Airport I think was the hardest part of the week, that is after that part where he left. I was just very anxious to see him again. Just sitting there waiting for him to come walking down those stairs. It was very very nerveracking. I couldn’t wait any longer.

Once he got home we went and did all that stuff. Unfortunitally I got really annoyed at Outback. I didn’t want to, because I knew that Andrew liked going there. And I wanted to have a good time. I wanted Saturday to be a really good day. The original plans were to have lunch a Boston Market, which I have found out is no longer in DM. From there we were supposed to go out with Skinny and anyone else that wanted to see him that day, including Courtney and the like. And then go to Outback to have a nice dinner together.

Eh, Plans have to change, I guess. But anyways, I just got REALLY annoyed with the waitress there at Outback. Grrr.

Saturday night though was very good. We went hot tubbing and then slept in the tent. I got a good fingering. And there were a few times where it felt like Enfuego’s head was in, but I don’t know for sure. I was very confused as to how far that should have gone. But it was really really great that night. REALLY great. Unfortunitally I couldn’t get a comfortable posistion for jacking us off, so Andrew finished both of us. He did a lot of extra work this weekend, so I’ll have to re-pay him for that! lol.

Sunday was really good to get to just hang out and spend time together. We had a good time at the book store, though I wish they would have had more books that I liked. And I wish they were more organized, or somehow easier to read the labels. My head hurts after a while of looking at things sideways. lol.

Oh, breakfast Sunday was really nice too. And he paid, thanks for that!

Sunday afternoon we went back to my house and I gave him the massage. That was really nice and romanticish I thought, though it could have been more so.

I also massaged his ass, and amazingly he let me access! Very good times, hopefully I’ll get access again sometime because I didn’t get to finish what I wanted too! 😛

Camp was great and it was so nice to have him come up with me. I really wish we would have had a little more time. And that we could have actually gone to the campfire. Whatever though, it was nice to be back up there.

Overall this has been a really really great weekend, and I’m so glad that my Drew Bear is back.

Only about 6 more weeks left together though, and that’s really sad. 🙁

I’m Not Done With That

Wow, so it’s been a long weekend and there’s lots to talk about…

First off, I’m not even going to waste my energy writing a response to the whole Adam thing. My Journal, I write what I want. Topics that were covered have a possibility of going here. Get over it.

Lets see.

Friday I went up to Perry, very early in the morning. I was supposed to meet up with my Aunt and Cousin, but when I got there there were a bunch of other people there as well. I guess my Aunt works with them, and they invited themselves to come up. She was very annoyed. We went to the parade and that was fun. There were some really hot CowBoys in it. Yummy. After that we went back to my aunts house, the stupid people followed. Spent some time there and then headed to the park where they were having this HUGE grill out. Beak accidentally ordered 4 tacos when she only wanted 2, but it worked out. Her and I just split them, they were Uber good and it was only $7 for the 4 tacos and a drink. I wish you could get that kind of food for that cheap elsewhere. We also ate a Funnel cake, so good!

From once we were done eating we walked around the park and all of us stared at the hot cowboys. lol. From there back to the Aunt’s house where we made ice cream, cookies and ate pis. All so very good!

Spent the rest of the evening just hanging out and talking and some small child came over. Oh, we also went and saw Legally Blonde 2. Very amusing movie.

Andrew called as well and we talked for a little bit. Didn’t talk very long because the Aunt and Cousin were throwing in strange comments. It was good to get to hear from him though I wasn’t expecting to get to talk to him until late Friday sometime. The Aunt really wants to meet him now. So we may have to take a quick trip to Perry sometime.

Finally went off to see fireworks about 9:30. Andrew called again while we were on the way there and we talked some more. Again it was short talk, but we talked about his fireworks. And about the plans for Saturday when he got home.

Fireworks for us were really good. It’s amazing that such a small town can put on such a good show really.

Once they were over about 10:30 I drove home and went to bed.

Saturday I was awaken by my phone ringing. At first I thought it was just the alarm going off, and since it was on the other side of the room, I was just going to leave it and let it stop on it’s own. I really didn’t need to be as early as I had set it and I was still very tired. But as I was more and more drug out of my sleep, I realized that it was actually the phone ringing. So I jumped up and answered it. It was Andrew and he was calling to let me know that his flight plans had changed yet again! He was still in SC and there was weather in Chicago. So the new plans were changed and he wouldn’t be in to DSM tell 4pm. I was so annoyed by that, because everything I had planned for the day was then ruined. But whatever, I’m sure that he was even more annoyed then I was. We talked a little bit about the whole situation and some more about the fireworks the night before. After a bit we got off the phone.

I went and showered and then decided to go swimming since I now had TONS of time before he got in. So that’s what I did from about 9:30 tell 12noon. Then from noon tell about 3ish I just sat around my house and did nothing. It was very boring.

Finally left and I drove to the airport. I was getting a bit queasy in my stomach because I was so excited that he was coming back. I got there about a half an hour early and sat there waiting for him to come down the stairs. It’s really really annoying that you can’t go wait by the terminal anymore. I hate it. I started to cry a couple times because I was thinking about when he leaves and how sad that’ll be. And then I’d be like, think happy thoughts, he’s coming back and then I’d cry some more because I missed him so.

By the time finally walked down the stairs I had gotten control of myself and wasn’t crying anymore. I saw him coming and picked up the flower that I had brought him and walked up to him. We hugged and kissed and then went off to get his luggage.

Which they lost.

We sat there in the airport for about 20 minutes waiting for them to try and find it. It was so so good to finally get to see him again.

Eventually we gave up waiting and drove back to his house, he unpacked a few things and then we drove to Mike’s house and hung out with him for a bit. It was good to get to see him again, and if I do say, he was looking mighty fine. Lol.

From his place we went to OutBack. I really dislike that place, but it was on our list of places to go, so I thought it would be nice to take Andrew there as a welcome back type thing, just a nice dinner just the two of us. And especially since my original plans had been fucked sine he was 5 hours late getting in, I thought it would be super nice.

On the way there Courtney called and Andrew invited her to come along with us. It wasn’t a big deal, he has been gone for a whole week and I’m sure that she wanted to see him to. We got to Outback and the wait was an hour, we sat and waited. Courtney showed up and we waited some more. Finally we got in. By that time I was semi-annoyed at a lot of little things. The waitress that we had though just really set me off and I was pissed for the rest of dinner. She was such a stupid bitch. I won’t even go into it.

After supper Andrew and I went back to my house, where we set up a tent and then went hot tubbing. It was really good to get in there after such a long day. Though it was a bit warm.

After that we went and slept in the tent. It was a good night for me, but it was raining and thundering all night so we really didn’t sleep all that well.

Got up early Sunday morning and went inside. Did a bunch of stuff and then went off. We were supposed to meet Mike for breakfast, but he never called us back, so we just went off on our own and had breakfast at Perkins on MH. From there we went to the half-price book store and spent a couple hours there. After that back to Mike’s place where we hung out for a while.

From there back to Andrew’s where we stayed tell 5:30ish. Found out that Andrew’s Step dad is an Eagle scout. Also a few annoyances there, but hopefully every thing’s taken care of. Drove from his place back to mine and I gave Andrew a massage. About 7:30 we left for camp.

The ride there was fun. I love those roads! Got there and gave Andrew the tour. Took him all over, even the COPE course and the Nature cabin. I’d like to take him down the trail of 101 steps. But we didn’t have time, and it’ll be in use on Wed when we go back up there. Finally campfire started but it was in the council ring. Which is very hard to sneek into. We were going to, but the staff was sitting right infront of the entry way, so I didn’t want to. Stupid me.

I felt really bad for dragging him up there and then not getting to show him the actual campfire. But I still had a good time, and I hope that he did to.

I finally got home about 10:45. I was uber tired and it was REALLY hot in my apartment.

Today has been pretty boring. I don’t care enough to write about it.

Angel called me while I was in class. So I’ll have to call her back to find out what she wanted.

Over all it was a very good weekend, and I’m SO happy that Andrew’s back! Can’t wait tell Wed, we’re going to hang out at his place and then swimming at mine and then back to CAMP!

Laters

Finally Thursday

Well, it’s FINALLY Thursday. After thinking that it was Thursday all week, it finally actually IS Thursday… And what a wastefull Thursday it is.

Andrew finally went and picked up his flowers yesterday and called me much later then I would have liked. But I’m very glad that he finally got them and that he likes them. He says that they are VERY pretty. I wish that I could actually get to see them now!

Last night we talked for like an hour and a half. Mostly about random things, but we also talked alot about the whole Homecoming fiasco, and lots of other fights that Adam and I had that Andrew was there for. It really got me thinking about that whole thing, and especially the whole night of homecoming. I should really have broken up with Adam many months before it actually happened. I was so unhappy in that relationship.

Today I went back and read all of September, Oct and Nov of my 2002 archives. And it really made me realize that I should really have broken up with him. I mean there were so many fights over such stupid things, and in the private entries from that time period you can really tell that I was very unhappy in the relationship. There’s a few in there where the private entries completly contridict the public ones. Just a sign of my trying to please Adam, since he had me whipped into constantly pleasing him. As the homecoming fiasco shows.

I wish that I could go back in time, and tell myself in September, when Mike suggested too, that I actually did talk to Andrew about things. Because in the end that’s what I really needed was someone to talk to about how I felt in the relationship, and someone to open my eyes to the fact that it wasn’t a good relationship.

And I know what everyone out there is thinking right now, that Andrew more or less convinced me that I wasn’t happy in the relationship. Because I know you all haven’t got that out of your heads yet that Andrew didn’t steal me from Adam.

I know that the advice he gave me was good, because after I thought about it and talked to other people about the same subjects, I got the same answers. That it was time to end the relationship with Adam. So Blah to all you fuck heads. Whatever.

I just had to get that all out after the talk last night. I also wish that I could go erase that whole Danny era out of my life. What a waste.

We just talked about a lot of other random things as well. But I don’t remember them. Oh, we talked about “The Thursday”… Ahh such confusing times.

I’m also contemplating adding a “Six Months Ago” thing, just like the one/two year. I thought it might be nice because private entries become public after about 6 months usually, so it’d be interesting to let people go back and read those. But at the same time, I don’t know if I really want people to. I know that hardly ANYONE reads my archives to go back and look for the privates, so why publicize  them.

Today has been good. I got up at 7 and did random stuff tell class. I really didn’t want to go to class, but whatever. I went and it was a total waste of time. I spent the whole class reading the old journal entries and getting pissed all over again, because I know I was right, and he wasn’t.

After class I came to work. We got our new firewall in today. I was kind of annoyed with that because the bitch gave it to Chris G and not me. Chris G is leaving here SOON, so why give him something like that. We know it’s going to take at least 2 months before it gets implemented (That’s the set time line as of now). So why give him new projects to get into the middle of and then have to hand it over to someone else? Really… Where’s the logic.

So Chris G left early though and I took it and have been playing with it for a while. I locked myself out of it once, but then remembered how to get back into it. Then for most of the day it was lost on the network and I couldn’t find it. That took me forever to get fixed. But I eventually did find it… Stupid machines getting lost in networks.

After that I fucked things up a lot and had to go buy a serial cable so that we could reset the thing to factory defaults. Did that and then put it away for the day. I don’t feel like breaking it any more. lol.

Andrew called me at some point today as well. I was very annoyed with the secretary because she didn’t even buzz me to make sure I was in my office before she transferred it. Whore. And I wasn’t in my office, but I heard my phone ringing and ran and caught it. We spend like 30 minutes talking about how his day was been and how his PU’s are being abusive to his little step brothers. And they really are abusive.

Then we talked about how his Dad’s buying the little kids tons of stuff and then won’t buy Andrew anything, and then also how his dad bitched at him about how much college is paying and apparently he seems to think Andrew has to come up with $10,000. And yeah, just really confussing and it pissed me off and made me sad that they’re putting Andrew though all this. He really doesn’t need the stress. From what I gather they’ve been saying that they would pay for college and now all of a sudden they want him to come up with $10,000. (Because apparently they’re only going to pay what it costs to put his elder sister thourgh college, which is totaly fair, you know… Sarcasm)

Whatever.

Tonight I’m going to go home and go swimming, then read books for the night. Tomorrow it’ll be an early morning to get up to Perry. Then Saturday I get to pick up Andrew.. I’m very excited for that!

I’m out…

Laters.