A Weekend Together

So I guess I’ll go ahead and write a quick update about our weekend.

Friday morning getting to see him was tons of fun again! I think the major thing that really kept me going through the day was having him back here… There’s no way I could have stayed up for 40 hours without something keeping me going! lol.

Breakfast was good, and we both decided that we liked Chicago. I thought it would be a nice place to live, though I don’t think I could live there for more then a few years, with all the snow/winter and stuff. I don’t know, I’ll have to wait and see how I like Cali first. I might end up wanting to live in the snow and stuff. Who knows really?

The aquarium was great, tons of fun! 😉 We made out in the underground thing, watching the dolphins and stuff, very cute.

The ride home was nice, and it was again good to have someone to hold their hand on the drive. I enjoy that. Though I got the notion that he doesn’t so much.

Friday night we got home, and after a bit of a make out session went to dinner, again good. Came home, and after everyone left, we ended up making love. It was so great to again have those feelings with him, and to make love with him. Ohhh so great. 😀

Saturday was good, as I stated in my other journal. Hot tubing was nice, and it’s always so much more fun with him in there… Drove back to Ames, I think we both wanted to do stuff, but I know I was just way to tired, so we didn’t do anything that night.

It’s kind of annoying the way things happen when he’s back, before he left, there was a large amount of kissing/making out before things ever happen, but now when he’s back, we always seem to be really rushed to get things done. And almost every time we turn making out, or just kissing into something more. When sometimes, I’d like to just lay there and kiss him, and hold him.

I guess it’s just going to happen though, we haven’t seen each other in so long, you’ve got to at least try to make up for everything that’s been missed, eh?

Sunday was a great day as well, we got a lot more time to just hang around with each other. Though we also did a lot of other things. I was glad that he finally got to meet my aunt too. And it was always so cute when he gets around a small child. So cute!

Sunday night, I had created a play list that I wanted to play for him, just 5 songs or so. So we went into the bedroom, and I started it up. He just kept talking, so finally I was like, “Shhh” And we just laid there and kissed.

Eventually the second to last song came on, “Leaving on a jet plane”. I figured if anything was going to make him cry, it’d be that song. And it sure did. I had no idea how much it would affect him. We laid there, and he cried through it all. And I laid there and held him, and felt like shit for making him cry so much. That’s not what I wanted to do. Then after it was over he was like, “Don’t let it play again.” And I just felt so bad, and I was also a bit mad at him for being so mean about it. I just want to lay there and listen to some romanticish songs that really exemplified the situation we were in. I was just annoyed about it all.

Anyways, after a while we ended up making love again. And it was again really nice. We tried in the shower, but that didn’t work. But then, it usually doesn’t. Moved from there to the living room, and made love in the papzan chair that I have. That was really nice. After a while, we moved into the bedroom, where he finished up. He came inside me again, and as always, it was a wonderful feeling. I wish we could do that every time. 🙂

Went to bed after that, and got up the next morning, drove to Chicago.

It was sad to see him go again. I cried a bit, and was really upset. I hate seeing him go. I also got a bit annoyed at him, because he didn’t cry, and it just made me really embarrassed to be crying. I’m over it now. But it did annoy me a bit that he didn’t cry.

I am very excited to see him again over Christmas break, and can’t wait to see him come down those stairs at the DM airport.

In other news though, I have no idea what to get him for our 6-month, or his b-day. I have the present for Christmas, though the more and more I think about it, the less and less I think he’ll like it/use it. So I don’t know what to do about that. IT’s very frustrating. I really want to get him something sweet, but I’ve mostly run out of ideas, or the ones that are left have already been done for him. Fucking previous boyfriends.

I’m also a bit worried because he said that he was thinking about getting me something that he made out to be fairly expensive. Which is something I REALLY don’t want. I don’t want him to spend more then like $20 or so. We both really need to save, and shouldn’t be spending our money on presents for each other.

And while we’re on the topic of presents, I was also a bit upset because he keeps rubbing it in that I don’t remember exactly when/what he gave me for our anniversaries. Now, I can see that he might be a bit upset that I don’t remember. But you know what. I really do try my hardest to remember everything he’s gotten me. There’s been so many wonderful gifts that it is hard at times, but given sometime to think about it, I could probably list everything he has gotten me. Anyways, in short, it just upsets me that he rubs it in that I can’t remember every little detail. Sorry that I don’t have as great a memory, but I can’t help that, I do my best.

Last Classes

Well, todays the last day of classes for me tell after break. Way exciting, I guess.

My MGMT 414 test was alright, I knew the essay questions, but went blank on one of them. And didn’t know the structures used in the different strategies, so I lost some major points, hopefully not to many for that though, because I did answer the other questions pretty good. I still felt bad though about not knowing the rest of it. I should have. 🙁

Work yesterday was fairly boring, I was working on some analysis stuff for things, I got some pretty cool stuff going, but it doesn’t work on our firewall logs, which is sad. It does however work on everything else, so now I just have to automate it. Hopefully that’ll be done on Friday.

Other then that, not much going on… I’m very tired right now, and just want to go to sleep. ::yawns::

Laters all.

AOL Disks!!

Every year we grow more and more dependent on the Internet. But would you know what to do if your connection suddenly went down?

No one knows when the Internet will fail. It could happen at any time, leaving you bereft of your e-mail, your sports scores, and your Blogs. Therefore, it’s important that you and your family has a contingency plan for just such an emergency. If your connection to Cyberspace were to ever get severed, you should at least be prepared. We have included a few key points that should assist you if that were to happen.

1. Panic!
An excited, agitated state will give you that heightened sense of awareness and will increase your thought processes allowing you to come up with rational solutions. Panic is just nature’s way of putting your body into over-drive. It’s a defense mechanism that gives you an edge when dealing with potentially harmful situations, such as a severed arm or the loss of your Internet.

2. Find A Telephone
Do you have access to a telephone line? Early computers connected to the Internet using a dial-up device along with a hardware device known as a “modem.” Since this technology is obsolete, it will be of no use to you. Instead, use your telephone to call your friends to see if their connection is also down, as you will have lost the ability to send an email or an instant message. You can also use a telephone to call 911, an emergency service that will first tell you to calm down, and then will send out specially-trained technicians to find the source of the Internet’s failure.

3. Use Your Back-Up Computer
It’s always good to have an emergency laptop handy, in case you need to harry over to a buddy’s place where the Net is still up. If there is still no Internet at that location, at the very least you could connect to a small network or LAN (Less-than Adequate Network). Laptops can also be placed on tables at coffeeshops, while you sit around with a latte, nervously waiting for your connection to be restored.

4. Install A Game
In emergency situations, installing a single-player computer game can occupy your down-time. While it won’t replace the adrenaline rush of intense networked multiplayer action provided by the Internet, a quick game of Sim City or Flight Simulator may distract you long enough for your connection to return.

5. Perform Routine Maintenance
While programs such as Norton Antivirus have removed most of the tedium of computer system maintenance, nothing could help pass the time faster than cleaning out your hard drive, emptying your cache, or organizing your celebrity fake porn collection. Take the time to stare at your screen while you perform a defragmentation. The time will literally fly while you barely notice your separation from the Internet.

6. Turn On A Television Or Radio
Televisions, strange boxes that sit in your parents’ living rooms, were once used to provide entertainment, long before DVDs and Playstations were invented. Televisions have the capability of broadcasting streaming information similar to the content on multimedia websites. With a “remote control,” a wireless device that is like a small one-handed keyboard, you may be able to surf a limited number of “channels,” while you deal with the loss of your connection. Unfortunately, television is only a one-way media.

In ancient times, radios were also used to entertain. A radio allowed you to listen to news, sports, and music, much the same way that you listen to live streaming audio on a Shoutcast server. Like the television, a radio will only have a limited selection of listening stations, and no video. Hopefully your separation from the Internet will be brief.

7. Read
People in pre-Internet times used to read “books” and “magazines”, written materials once created in printable format to pass the time. Some e-books are still available on paper, and may offer a short-term solution until your power is back and your broadband is restored. If reading is not an option, as a last resort, you may wish to try doing “chores,” or try your hand at cooking. While these activities cannot replace the Internet, they may be able to make the down-time a little more tolerable.

8. Go Outside
The idea of leaving your workstation may seem a little extreme, but you can perform errands that you normally get parents or spouses to do: grocery shopping, drycleaning, etc. Leaving your dorm room, basement, or above-garage apartment suite, may be risky, but again, the time may afford an effective distraction from your Internet woes. NOTE: Be careful to avoid the sun, because your pasty white skin will not be used to the exposure.

9. Spend Time With Your Spouse
Communicating with your wife or girlfriend may seem like a radical suggestion, but the time investment may offer long-term rewards. Spending any amount of time talking about your “relationship” may free up more Internet time for you later on, when your ADSL or Cable link to the World Wide Web has been restored. WARNING: These will probably be the longest hours of your life.

10. Use Your Emergency AOL Disk
If you find that your connection to the Internet is going to be longer than you can possibly stand, as a last resort, pull out an emergency AOL CD, the one with 910 free hours of connection to the AOL service. Take the CD in one hand…and slash it across your wrist! Suicide will probably be a better alternative than connecting to that service.

Hopefully some of these Internet alternatives will be able to assist you during an offline crisis. Emergency radio broadcasts will likely advise you of the state of the Internet and be able to predict when your bandwidth will be restored, but remember to have an emergency plan in case your digital detachment is longer than you expect

Huge Test

I have a huge test to be studying for. But I’m not really in the mood.

A bit sad mostly, also a little upset.

I’m happy that thanksgiving is nearly here, and even more happy that Christmas is coming close behind it.

I got a second job today, $8.50 an hour, three days a week, 4 hours a shift. Not too shabby really. Though, I’ll probably end up hating it, just as everyone else that works there has. Whatever. I can deal I’m sure. It’ll be good to have additional income coming in.

Being home alone really sucks after having someone here. It’ll suck even more after Christmas break, since he’ll be here for much longer. Thank god graduation is almost here. I want to get out of here.

Someone from kumandgo.com was at my website today, as was someone from yale.edu. Exciting, I know.

Laters all.

3 Days, 12 Hours

So this weekend has consisted of over 24 hours worth of driving, over 1200 miles on my car, a 40 hour stretch of not sleeping, but best of all…

3 days and 12 hours of getting to see my Drew Bear again!!

Thursday, I got up about 6:30 AM, and that began 40 hours of being awake, went to my first two classes and then decided to skip the next one, so I headed home for the afternoon to sit around and attempt to nap some. Couldn’t nap, so I sat ar my computer and played with Karamba. Got it working, and it’s tons of fun. Though it seems to crash every couple hours. Very annoying. I’ll have to look into that more some other time.

As I was sitting around, I heard a knock on my door and was like, “Who the hell is that”…. So I went and answered it, and it was FLOWERS from my Drew Bear. Very exciting.

About 3, I headed back to campus for my last class, because the CEO of Hy-Vee was supposed to be there to speak, but for some reason he wasn’t. Very annoying.

From class it was back to my place, where I attempted to nap agagin. Though that didn’t work out too well. I spent most of the night watching TV, and stupid reality shit. Grr at that.

Started getting ready to leave about 10:30 that night, and was out the door at 11. I had brought along the Dell from work, so that I could have live navagation, and most of all, so that once we got into Chicago, we could easily find our way around, and find a place to eat when we got there at 5 am the next morning. I had had it plugged in all day long, to charge, but when I went to start it up, it only lasted about 10 minutes. So I was driving blind all the way to chicago….

Luckily I stopped at a C-store and there was a nice man there, who let me plug in the computer and get my directions to the airport. Which consistes of only three things.. I-80E to I-55N, then get off at Exit 286. So it was way easy to find. Traffic once I got into Chicago was amazingly bad for being 4:30 in the morning, but not NEAR as horrible as it was leaving Monday night. Got to the airport with just enough time to go potty before Andrew arrived.

I was very excited to see him, and as soon as I saw him pratically running towards me, my heart started beating really hard. We hugged and kissed there in the Airport and then went to try and find a place to eat. We couldn’t find anything close by (as in Perkins/Village-Inn), so decided to go drive around Chicago and see what we could find. Kinda got a bit lost, but it wasn’t too bad, found a hotel in downtownish Chicago, and went in and asked the lady at the desk where a good place for breakfast was… And also one that was OPEN at 6:30 in the morning.

She sent us to Nookies, which wasn’t the greatest… It was some Russian woman running it, and she was fairly rude to us. But only us, because she was very nice to everyone else that came in. Bitch. We got breakfast and then hung out there talking for about an hour. After that headed out to try and find out way back to the Aquarium.

Got really lost this time, and had no idea where we were. Though we did get to see some nice areas of the city, so that was fun. Chicago is really pretty. I’d like to live there for a bit. Probably not an extensive amount of time though. Finally found our way back to Lake Shore Drive, but couldn’t for the life of us figure out how the hell you were supposed to turn ONTO the street. Very crazy! Finally figured it out, but we were going the wrong way… Eventually got turned around and got to the aquarium, just as it was opening.

It cost $9 to park. 🙁 and $21 to get in. It was nice, though not worth the $21. I think just getting the City pass, if we had had time, would have been much more worth it though. I think we made it worth it though… If you know what I mean 😉

It was about noon when we broke from there and started the trek back home. That didn’t seem to take as long as the drive there, probably because I had someone’s hand to hold onto, and someone to talk with! 😀

Stopped a few times on the way back, nothing too exciting though. Got back to Ames and hung out at my apartment for just a few minutes then headed to Hickory Park. The wait was really long, so we all decided to go somewhere else. That was a bad idea. Should have just stayed there and waited. EVentually we all decided on Perkins, after vetoing Mexican and Pizza.

It seriously took like 40 minutes just to get our food at Perkins, Very annoying and our waiter was stupid. I swear. What is it with people!

After supper we went back to my place and just hung out for a while. Good times there. Then everyone broke and Andrew and I went to bed… Thus ending 40 hours of awakness.

Sautrday morning we got up, and hung out at my place, ate breakfast and then went to the Science center. It was pretty fun, much smaller then I remember. But still cool. It was worth the $5.50.

From there it was to the mall. Which has just lost all appeal to me. It’s just not as fun anymore to go there. Whatever, I guess that’s probably a good thing. Everything is just always the same, no matter how long you wait inbetween visits, it all seems to be the same everytime. Whatever.

Mall to Andrew’s where we hung out for a bit. I stole some more of thier old food, which is still amazingly good. lol. We didn’t really do much there, but get a movie and a few other things for him. It’s crazy that the house still looks the same as it did when they all left. lol. Well with the addition of rings in the toliets, and spider webs everywhere.

We left his house about 1:40 and I took him over to Wells Fargo, Dropped him off and then went back home. Hung out there and made cookies while he ate lunch with Ann H, and Court.

Andrew and Court came back to my place about 4:30 or so. Hung out for a bit and then Court left. Andrew and I watched the Simpsons, which was fun. I always enjoy them. About 6:30 or so, we went upstairs and made dinner, then headed out to downtown.

Got caught up on all the gossip, I really want to go to the strip club now, just to laugh at all the sluts… Apparetnly everyone in DM sleeps with EVERYONE else. And James Hamilton has had sex with like everyone in the state. What a whore.

Hung out there for a bit, then went back to my place. Hot tubbed and then back to Ames, where we both crashed about as soon as we set foot in the door.

Sunday we got up, ate a quick breakfast then I fixed Andrew’s PS emulator. He said I could have whatever I wanted for getting it fixed, but I never did… 🙁 Oh well. Once we were done with that, we headed over to my Aunts house.

The small child was there, and Andrew was so cute playing with it. He’s always really cute with kids, though he always says he doesn’t want any, and that he hates them.

We broke from there about 2ish, and came back to campus cause I wanted to go to the Design thing and then the Art Museum here. The Design thing was closed, and the Art thing wasn’t as exciting as I had hoped.

From there we went and rented a movie. I wanted something that was exciting/funny. He decided on “The Ring”. It was a very scary movie, though not as scary as he made it out to be. I really wouldn’t want to see it again.

Bryce and Jamie came over during that, once it was done, I made dinner. We all ate, then they broke quickly after that. Andrew and I watched the Simpsons, and then hung around my place for the rest of the night. Including a cry fest.

Monday morning, we got up. I really wanted him to come to my class with me, but we got up just as I heard the last bus that went to campus, so missed it. Opps.

Hung out for a while, got ready to go, ate breakfast. Watched Springer. Very amusing, two 19 year olds sleeping with a 50 something, who had REALLY long grey hair and only two teeth. It was supper gross. But funny all at the same time.

Once he was over, we broke and drove back to Chicago. Traffic was fairly annoying on the way there, a bit more construction then there was on Friday. Over all not too bad of a drive. We went into the airport and just sat around for about 20 minutes talking and saying goodbye. It’s always very sad to see him go again. It really doesn’t get any easier each time.

Around came 5:12pm, and he walked down the security lane, and I turned and walked to the parking garage. Thus ending 3 days and 12 hours of time together. And starting 40 days until we get to see each other again.

I left, crying and I’m sure the parking attendant thought I was crazy. Went out and turned the wrong way and in turning around no one would let me back into traffic. It was all horrible. Once I was finally out of Chicago which took tell 6pm, it rained the WHOLE way back to Des Moines. And I’m talking RAIN! Not just sprinkles, or rain, but RAIN RAIN RAIN!

Very annoying. Though I managed to average between 75-80mph the whole way back. I walked in my door right at 11pm. Called Andrew to say night, talked to him for a couple minutes and then went to bed.

Amazingly the hardest thing isn’t leaving him at the airport when he leaves, it’s coming back to an Empty house, and an empty bed after he leaves. I of course laid there in my empty bed and cried to sleep.

After only about 6 hours of sleep, my alarm went off and I had to get up and go to class. I was half asleep in class this morning. Good thing I was at least able to keep my eyes open, because he’s a big stickler about people sleeping in his class. You know the ones, that come up and ask you a question when they see that you are sleeping. Very annoying.

After that class I went to my second one, where I did sleep through most of it. From there I went and read my e-mail in Carver. I was just reading this one about a meeting that I have today from 12-1pm when the Fire alarms went off.

So I had to evacuate, and since I hadn’t fully read the e-mail. I headed to Durham to see what it was all about.

It was an e-mail about the Yucatan trip. So I went there at noon, and she talked and talked and talked about the trip, and then the last thing she did, she handed out letters that says, “Congradulations….” So YAY! I get to go to Mexico over spring break.

I’m WAY excited about that. And there’s a Gaysian in the group, so at least there’s family going! Plus there’s a guy that I know is going too, so it should be good.

Well, that’s about all for today.

Laters all!