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Snow Plows of Ames

Haha.. Go check out Ramsey’s two posts for today:

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Oh, I want snow!

I had made a date with this guy last Thursday for Monday night. I called him yesterday morning to confirm. I get home from work and spend like 45 minutes getting ready and shit. Then as I’m walking out the door he calls to cancel. Stupid fuckers. Probably a good thing anyways, I’m not feeling very good.

I really want an A3 now… But I’m sure that will change 100 times before I actually buy a car! Mine is starting to eat oil like crazy though, so perhaps it’ll be sooner rather then later. I’ll have to admit I’ve been driving it a little harder then normal.

The A3 I want:

– Red w/ black leather

– Convenience Package

– Sport Package w/All Season Tires

– Audi Navigation Plus & Sound Package

– Open Sky System

– Rear Side Airbags

Comes out to $32,235, but carsdirect.com has it listed at just over $30k. And I found a used one in Oakland for just over $28k with all the options, and it only has like 2k miles.. Question is why are they selling it?

Two Iowa people called me out of the blue yesterday asking if I was back in town or when I was coming… Someone is spreading word that I want to come back. And yes, I know those two people did _NOT_ read about it here.

Awww.

Awww, I love susan.. So we just got off the phone. She was so full of advise and all this, “I’m worried about you and think about you all the time.” It was just so nice. Makes me feel good. She also said that I should get my ass back to Iowa, and all this. She’s so nice. 🙂

Umm, I was going to write about a bunch of other stuff, but now I’m not in the mood.

Goodbye Sweetheart. 🙂

Must be Spring Fever

Well, not much has really happened this weekend.

The guy I was supposed to go out with last night didn’t call till 9:30 and by then I had already made other plans.

Oceanside Marine boy called as well, but I didn’t really want to drive all the way down there and he didn’t want to come up here… Someone else called, but then they realized it was raining and decided they didn’t want to go out.

I ended up meeting up with this guy who I’ve been talking to online for a while. Went over to his house about 8:30ish and we watched Saved! and then Hard Rain. Both were very good movies.

The whole time he was very cuddly and shit, which wasn’t a big deal. He was kinda cute. But then once the second movie was over I said that I had to go home and he was like, “what, I invite you over and don’t even get to get off.”

He was being completely serious too. I told him no, and then he was like, “You don’t even wanna just jack off.” Ugh! Why are these boys so fucking stupid and annoying.

That whole situation got me thinking more about the question which had been posed to me earlier in the day. Hence the previous entry. I’m still wondering why I was posed that question though.

I got an e-mail from Andrew’s Mother as well.. It states: Can you call me one day at (xxx) xxx-xxxx during the day? Call collect. I need to talk to you. That’s the new house phone number. Please call collect, I’ll accept the carges. PLEASE CALL ME.

I’m fairly nervous about what she wants to talk to me about so badly. She’s a very blunt woman, which is good most of the time, but in the state I’m in, I don’t think I can handle her bluntness. I’m going to call her tomorrow on my way to work. It’ll be 9amish for her, so I think it should be fine.

In a week is Austin’s birthday… I returned his gift that I had gotten him. But it’s bothering me now thinking about the other plans I had come up with. I wish they would still be able to happen. But alas. Perhaps I can find someone else to do them with instead. At least that way I’ll get them done…. I hate the fact that I plan so much, it just leads to let downs, when they don’t happen.

Jenks has a boy now… I’ve known Jenky for 2 years now (maybe more? I remember mentioning an aniversary a while back, but I don’t remember which it was) and he’s always been so anti-relationship, anti-sex… It’s just so wierd to think of him being in one now. I wish him the best of luck.

It must be Spring Fever.

Why do I want it?

“You seemed pretty focused on finding the right one. How come you want it so badly”

I was asked that today….

Why do I want that so badly?

Because, I have love, lots of love to give to someone and I want to give it to them. I want someone to love me back. I want to know that when I’m having a bad day, there will always be someone there to say. “It’ll be alright” and to give me a hug. I want to know that in those special days, I’ll always have someone to share it with.

I like that on my birthdays, I don’t have to plan my own party. I want it because if I don’t feel like going out at night, it’s nice to know that there will always be someone there to cuddle up with. I want it for the nights when I do want to go out, so I don’t have to worry about making a fool of myself dancing. He’ll always love me, no matter how stupid I look.

I want it because I want to come home to someone to always say, “How was your day” and to have them ask me about mine.

I want it, because I don’t want to lay in an empty bed at night. Because I don’t want to have to worry about feeling alone.

I want it for nights like this… Where it’s pooring down rain, and I’d have someone to lay with and listen to the rain and talk for hours on end about nothing. I want it to have someone to lay on the roof of my house on those hot summer nights with and listen to the bugs and look at the stars and dream about what’s out there. I want it to have someone to play with in the snow and make snow angels at 2am and then come in and warm up next to a blazing fire and cuddle all night.

I want it, because I want to share my life with someone.

I want it for those small things in life.. The random cards at work, the flowers on your car, the surprises. I want it because my heart skips a beat everytime I see his name pop up on caller id.

I want it, to lay in bed at night and read with them by my side.

I want it, for those special days like Disneyland, the nights at Saylorville, the trip to New York, the many nights at Java Joe’s. I want it, so that I can have someone to plan those special trips with.

I want to love, and I want to be loved. That’s why I want it so badly.

“Can you be happy without a boyfriend”… I am happy without a boyfriend, but there is always another level of happyness, something that only that special someone can bring to you. Your friends can only be there so far. My heart will always be longing for that special someone.

Good night world.

Long Night

Wow that was one long ass night.

Lets see… Yesterday at work was ok… Nothing exciting as per usual. I’ve been working on this project, and someone else completed it before me.. It’s like, why were we both working on this? I meah of COURSE he was going to finish it before me beacuse he’s oracle trained, and I’m just guessing and leaning this shit as I go.

I feel like I’m not doing a very good job right now.

Whatever.. So I came home and hung out. Robert came over and picked me up at 6 and we went to the theaters and met Patrick there. We saw She’s the Man. And for being a total chick flick, it was really very funny and of course the hot boys did help! They had an amazing redo of the Mary Tyler Moore Theme song, “Love is all around”. I’ve been trying to buy it all morning on iTunes, but it keeps telling me the song has moved! Gah!

After that we went down to Laguna Beach and ate dinner at the Koffee Klatch… About 11 we headed over to the Boom and met up with two other people, who I can’t really remember their names right now. But we all had a really good time I had two long island ice teas and a jack and coke and a huge jack and coke at the Klatch.. So I was pretty wasted. And for some reason I was really in the mood to start a bar fight. If only a certian someone had shown up with. haha.

I also tipped the dancer and got a nice dance from him. The place was pretty dead. but there was this REALLY cute boy in a green shirt, sadly come to find out he had a boyfriend. 🙁 And the boy who was all over me last week was there too, and I kept trying to get his attention, but he was ignoring me this time… I shoulda just made a move.

Tonight I’m supposed to be going out with this guy. But I’m not sure I really want too. I’m getting so socially drained, and last time we hung out he tried making moves on me, and I’m really not in a mood to deal with that right now.

Ugh, and that’s life.