Author: Cj B

Memorial Day.. So Far!

Ok, so Friday, the day was horrible for me.

First, the apartment was re-listed online for $100 a month more then I want to pay. Ugh. Second, and more distressing…. Dustin broke up with me.

[private] Hey,

Just wanted to chat with you a bit sometime soon. Just really wanted to let you know that I think one of the things that has been getting me down a bit lately is just how soon I started dating again. I dont think I was ready for it and I have felt really bad lately because when I date someone I want to give them my all and hang out with them a lot and the whole bit. Right now I just need some time to myself and to just hang out with friends and get myself to relax and calm down and get my work stuff situated. I think you are a fantastic guy whos really laid back and has his shit together, which is very rare these days. You guys are just a blast to hang out with and just like our friday night trips to the boom and such help me out a lot.

Me feeling this way has nothing to do with you at all, I just wanted to make sure you knew. I cant give you what I would like to and I dont want to hurt you. If you all still want to just hang out and be friends, you are the type of people I like to associate myself with and all. If you dont, that is just my fault for waiting too long to talk to you.

I know I should have talked to you about this in person but I knew I was going to be playing shoeffer all weekend for my friend and I wanted to be honest and not leave you hanging.

Anyhow write me back. I hope you are having a good day at work!  [/private]

Honestly, it made me quite sad. I was really looking forward to having someone good. Alas, he’s not ready. I hope that when the time comes, if I’ve not moved onto someone else, he’ll still be there. I really do like him…

I left work after getting that, I was too distraught to get anything else done.

I did get ahold of the apartment guy though and he said that he’s running my credit this weekend. So there should be no reason why I won’t get it. I should know by Tuesday.

We all went out to the Boom Friday night, Andrew made out with three randoms, including green shirt boy. 🙁 After that we all went over to these two guys hotel room, and stayed till like 4am. I didn’t get to bed till 5.

Today I came down to SD with Joel and Ryan. Right now we are waiting for these whores to get out of the hot tub so we can go use it before heading out for the night.

Adios.

Application IN!

So, I finially got the application for that place, and sent it in. That was one hell of a hassle in and of itself. After all the work I’ve put in to get this place, I HAD BETTER GET IT! One thing I don’t get though is why do the landlords think they have the right to know your bank account numbers, etc?! I mean, with all that information it would be VERY SIMPLE for them to drain your account of EVERY PENNY!

In other news… seems things with Dustin aren’t going to work out, and here I was hoping that things were on the right path… I haven’t heard squat from him since Saturday morning. He said he’d call me last night, and never did. I’m kinda sad about it. I was wanting to have “the talk” with him this week, see how things were going for him, tell him how I was feeling, and see where he wanted to take things. But I guess this is a good indication.

I guess it’s time to start looking again. 🙁 Maybe I’m just jumping to conclusions, honestly I hope I am.

I was supposed to write something about some NDA things here, but I can’t remember what they were about….

The stupid old man won american idol, WTF is up with that?

Not much else to report, adios.

Edit:// Ok, I just read about this on CNN: Congress passes funeral protest ban. Ok, I hate Fred Phelps as much as the next guy, but isn’t there something like freedom of assembly or some shit? How can they ban people from doing this. I think it’s stupid. Ugh, rights people, where are they going?!?! I didn’t see them passing fucking bans when they protests at Matthew Shepards funeral, where were they for that? Jackasses.

Hate! LANDLORDS!

I HATE THEM ALL!

I found this perfect place in Redondo Beach… I want it, I want it NOW!

But the Landlord is being a jackass! He only checks his voicemail like once a fucking day. He claims hes faxed me the damn application twice, but our fax machine never rings. But when I call the same number I’m giving him, it works just fine.

I want this place, I’m so frustrated with looking at apartments. I’m so over this shit.

I don’t understand why it’s SO FUCKING HARD to PAY PEOPLE MONEY!

I’m ready to write this guy a check for $2,400, why is he being so fucking difficult about it!

Private: Not Proud.

So. Saturday night, we didn’t just go to bed… We all had a threesome. Joel, Dustin and I.

I’m really not proud of it, but it was good/fun. Joel fucked me. I think he may have fucked Dustin as well, but I’m not sure? And Dustin can’t remeber. He was pretty drunk.

I really did not approve of this happening, but I was way to drunk at the time to stop it. I tried not to really do anything with Joel, but at one point he jumped over from beside Dustin to behind me, and before I knew it, his cock was up my ass.

I mainly just made out with Dustin a lot and gave him a hand job. I think at one poine I passed out for a while. SO I’m not really sure what happened in there.

Over all, it lasted like 3 hours though. I just hope this doesn’t make things wierd between us all.

I feel so dirty.