Is hitting hard now. Haven’t had the energy to really do anything all day. I was up all night thinking and being stupid.
Today family was over, I hated that. Although the highlight of the day was when Steven took his shirt off… UBER FUCKING HOT! Rarr at him. Although he brough some girl over today. It made me want to bring my boy over. Too bad he’s in the middle of the ocean.
I keep going through this state of hating Andrew right now, mostly because he’s getting to do something that I’ve always wanted to do, and never got the chance too. Yeah, I know I’ve done a lot in my life in the way of traveling. But I have always wanted to go on a cruise, now he is. It wasn’t bad untell I found out that the PU’s canceled the plans to Alaska. Fuckers. I’m still steaming about that. I will go on a trip this summer, with or without other people. And it’ll be the trip of a lifetime.
Anyways, family was over. Didn’t say hardly anything to any of them. I just don’t know what to say to them. They’re all fat farmers with big asses and bad hair/clothes/etc. Boy kept asking me if I had a Girlfriend. I just kept saying “No.” He does that at every fucking family event. So very annoying.
Depression sucks, and I’m going to get something for it. I really will! I just have to get up the ambition to actually call the place and make an appointment.
Must go do HW now, but I know I’ll just end up sitting in front of the TV.
andrew is STUPID. and i only say that b/c i too am jealous. and i miss my promdate.
I miss your promdate too!
::whines::
I want to hold him again, and see his big sexy smile! And I can’t wait to see this tanness that he talks of.
I don’t know how I’m going to handle when he goes off to NJ for a week! Too bad his dad’s going on an acutal vacation and not just Andrew going to NJ. Cause he said that if he weren’t going on an acutal vacation there would have been a possibility of me going with him to NJ, which would have been uber fun cause I’ve never been there. And I’m interested in knowing more about where he’s originated from! lol
Which brings up a good point, he said that the other day that no one ever asks him about NJ, and I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s because he always speaks so negativly of NJ, and his family there that people think it’s a sore subject and don’t want to hurt his feelings about NJ.
I do intend on asking him about it sometime though, not because he said something about it, but because I am interested in knowing about his past!
Anyways, before this turns into as acutal update, I’ll stop now!