July 20, 2001

july 20, [phil collins, " there’s a place for us"] ok well work

today was really cool. i was all drugged up on no-doz, and it was just funny

shit. about 3:30 adam called and said he was working tell 8, which is ok.

i was really hoping to have some time with him before tonight, but whatever.

it’s ok that he had to work, it also gives me time to get packed and shit.

i found out what’s wrong with my car. it’s going to cost like 3,000 to get

it fixed and it’s just not worth it to pay that much to have it fixed, so

now i’m fuckeed and have to find a new car. grrr. ok i’m out. i’ll be back

monday to update again.

July 19, 2001 #3

july 19, #3 [u2, "two hearts beat as one"] ok well my updates here

have been getting kinda lame lately. I dunno. i don’t think there’s really

any content to them. maybe it’s just me, maybe not. tonight at work sucked.

grrr. i won’t go into that, i have to be back there at 8 tomorrow morning.

i can’t wait tell 4. night all.

July 19, 2001 #2

july 19, #2 [david bowie, "boys keep swingin"] ok well so now that

some of the giddyness has worn off. So it was a really great night. we were

just standing there face to face, and we were talking. talking about how angie

was saying that if we didn’t kiss by friday she would make us. but it was

a really cool place, i was sitting on the hood of his car and we were holding

hands and our foreheads were touching, and yeah. great times. i just want

like that moment to be stuck in time. it was so great. but yeah, we were just

standing there and i knew what was going to happen, and i was so ready for

it. i was like omg. but then he did it and i was like, yes. i was so happy.

but i felt like kinda a dork. i dunno, but it was great. then we just hugged

there and i soooooo didn’t want to let him go, but he had to get going so

that he’d be home on time for his cerfew. damn cerfew. but we kissed again,

and he kissed me on the cheek and on the neck, and it was just so great. then

we hugged one last time and went out own ways to out cars. it was such a sad

thing. i can’t wait tell friday. yeah.

July 19, 2001

july 19, [ pearl jam, "redemption song"] ok so tonight, screw the

rest of the day, tonight, omg. after work i called adam and they were at the

dam, so i went there, well i got lost a few times, but i got there and he

was there with ang and nick, and yeah. well we went off and talked and ang

and nick left. and yeah, we just laid around on the ground cuddling. and yeah,

good times, well then, yeah we went up to his car cause it was time for him

to leave, and we just sat on his car talking some more, and then he moved

around in front of me and i was like, ok, i know whats going to happen, so

he just stood there and we talked. and then yeah, he leaned in and kissed

me. oh yeah ::smiles:: and then we just stood there and hugged for a minute

and then we kissed again, and he left. it was sooo great. it felt like hours.

omg, so that’s my day, my really perfect day.

July 17, 2001 #2

july 17, #2 [amber, "love one another"] well the store meeting

went ok i guess. the idiot area sup was there, being the idoit that he was.

the manager didn’t really say to much that i didn’t already know about. and

other things that other people were doing wrong that i was doing right, so

yeah. it’s now 4:21 and i should be calling people to get other type things

done, but i’m not really in the mood to. i know i have to get it done soon

though, so i’ll probably have to do it tomorrow. the car things still being

a bitch. i’ll have to call somewhere and take it in there. grr. more money

that i don’t have that has to be spent. i complained at the manager today

about not being on the payroll yet. grrr. she was like, well there’s nothing

i can do, and i was like, yes there is, you can yell at them tell they get

me on there. i also got the weekend off so i can go to the G&G’s and see

them. i guess my grandpa hasn’t been feeling to well lately, at least that’s

what my mom told me last night. he didn’t say anything when i talked to him

though, so yeah. i dunno. it’ll be good to see them anyhow. i still haven’t

talked to adam, and i’m kinda mad that i didn’t get to go to that meeting

today. i was really lookin forward to it. oh well. maybe i’ll go to that thing

tonight. if i ever find out what time it is. i have to go make supper now,

so laters all.