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September 1, 2001

Sept 1

Tonight’s been really great. I went out with Adam, just me and him. I love

being with just him, we have so much to talk about really. We can almost

always find some random thing to talk about. I really love him to death.

I wish we could give a relationship another go. But like I’ve said before.

I know that’ll never happen or work again cause he’s so wraped up in other

people right now. We started the night by going downtown and we went to

this big ass parking garage and we talked about the future, what it holds

for us and where we think we’re going to go. We have this big plan to move

to AZ. I dunno if I’ve mentioned it before or not, but I really like it

and I hope that we can carry it out. We talked about it tonight, and I think

it’s feasable if everuthing keeps on track like it is right now. If all

goes to plan in 2004 Adam, Angie and I are moving to AZ. I really hope that

it works that way. After the parking garage there was much randomness and

walking places. About 9 or so we went back to Adam’s house and we were just

going to hang out there and talk and shit. Well we went there and his mom

and like entire fucking family showed up shortly after that. They hung out

there for a while, and then his familyish type people left, (they all took

pictures of me for some odd reason). But Melinda and Rob stayed in and that

fucked up our plans for the night. So we went back downtown and walked around,

there was some beerfest thing going on so there were lots of amusing drunk

people there. Then we came back to Ankeny and hung out and talked. Now I’m

here, wishing that we could be together one more time, give a relationship

one more shot at where ever it might go. Let life take me to where it should

and let me be happy. When I was with Adam I was so happy, when I’m with

Adam now, I’m happy. But when I was with him. That was the best time in

my life. The best.

This morning my mom and I went to UBS and we bought Dreamweaver 4, Fireworks

4, Flash 5, and Freehnad 10 for $250. That’s like $1,000 worth of software.

I was so happy. It’s bloody cool. I’m going to have to learn Flash and shit

now. But I’m loving Student Discounts on software.

Aug 18, 2001

Aug 18, [New Radicals, "Someday We’ll Know"]

Ok well since fateback has been down the last couple days I’m going to

leave the last couple entrys up here.

The last couple days have been great, yet really sad at the same time.

I’ve spent alot of time with Adam and Angie. It’s been really great. Last

night we went to a concert with Adam and Tim’s band. There were some damn

hot guys there. It was a pretty good time, free food. And I got to see alot

of people from High School that I hadn’t seen in a while. After that we

went downtown, I missed my first two corners, so I just took the long ass

way around, we got there eventually. We were sitting on that brick wall

just across from Spagetti Works and these two random people walked up to

us. They started asking us where good places to hang out and drink were,

and then they asked if thier fake ID’s were good enough, it was crazy. Then

they offered for us to come back to thier hotel room. Crazy people. We talked

to them for a while, then it started POURING rain, I mean just out of the

middle of no where, it started pouring sheets of rain. It was cool, so we

ran back to Java Joe’s and got some coffee and shit.

We left there cause we had had enough of the live music in the last couple

days with the fair and all. So we left and went back to Angies house. Earlier

I had told Adam a story about the conversation I had with my parents. They

said something along the lives of, "With the life style you’ve choosen,

you’ll end up in a body bag by the time you’re 22." And when they said

it, it didn’t cross my mind at all, and I just put it off as something they

would say. I didn’t even think about it tell I told Adam the whole story,

and then it’s like, they really thinkn that, that I’m going to be dead by

the time I’m 22. So that really depressed me. Assholes. So at Angie’s we

all just talked and it was good times there. After we left there, Adam and

I went out and just drove around Ankeny and talked and did random stuff.

That was really nice to talk to him about things. We went back to his house

about 1 or so. I don’t remember how we got on the topic, but he wanted to

show me family pictures, which is cool. Cause I think I’m one of the few

people that’s amussed by such things. Well especially someone that I care

about, lol. So we sat around and looked at those for a while. It was nice

to just sit next to him on the couch again, and just hang out without any

tension. Good times last night, even though they were sad times.

I’ve only got a week tell school starts. One week. I still don’t know what

the hell I’m doing. I don’t know what’s going on this next week. I don’t

know when I’m moving, I don’t know jack shit. I just don’t know about anything.

I’m thinking tomorrow I’ll just sit down with the PU’s and talk to them

about everything. Or maybe tonight if I get home in time.

Aug 12, 2001 #2

Aug 12, #2 [Incubus, "I Miss You"]

"To see you when I wake up, is a gift I didn’t think could be real

To know that you feel the same, as I do, is a Three-fold utopian dream You

do something to me That I can’t explain So would I be out of line, If I

said I miss you. I see your picture, I smell your skin on, the empty pillow

next to mine You have only been gone ten days, but already I am wasting

away I know I’ll see you again Whether far or soon But I need you to know,

that I care And I miss you."

July 7, 2001 #2

july 7, #2 [bee gee’s, "you should be dancing"] ok so for those

of you that have been wondering what my family looks like, well here we go:

first a picture of just me, then

a picture of my parents and my brother, and here’s

two different pictures of the black

side of the family, and

here’s a picture of all the great grandchildren and our great grandma,

also known as GG. ok well that’s all that i have for now, laters all

July 6, 2001

july 6 [van halen, "can’t stop lovin’ you"] ok well tonight’s been

really cool. i went and hung out with jules and adam all day, we went and

did random things. yeah it was cool, then we came back to my house and spent

the time doing random journal things for adam, installing win2k on jules computer,

and yeah, just things. i have pictures of adam now, but i told him i wouldn’t

put those up for the public yet, cause he wants to do some touch up on them,

i think he’s cute in them, but he doesn’t like them, but then who does like

thier own pictures? so yeah. that was all good times. then adam and i talked

for a bit about this person that’s been e-mailing me and shit, and yeah. that

was good too. i really want to spend some time with just him, so we can talk

about stuff and like where we want to go with things, and also just to learn

about him, i don’t feel as though i really know him, but then i don’t and

i’d like some time to just get to know him. i’ve been kinda pushing him to

just like spend the night at my house and stuff cause i find people really

open up when they sleep out, have you ever had that, where you sleep in a

tent and you just really open up to the person you’re there with. yeah i know

that you’re all giving me strange looks, but try it. it works. it really does.

ok well i’m going to bed now cause i have to be up soon. night all