June 30, 2001

june 30, [foreigner, "died in your arms tonight"] omg so the last

two days ahve been so great. well last night was the same as normal, hung

out with people then went to the loop. after we left thought there was alot

of excitment there. there were people there with baseball bats and such wanting

to beat people, i guess there were alot of police and shit there. it wasn’t

good i hear. but tonight, omg, tonight i’m in heaven again. well ang is leaving

for cali this morning at 3:30 in about 2 hours actually. but yeah. we went

to her house and it was just me and her and adam for a while, and we watched

movies then xak and vero showed up and we watched more movie and played other

various games. adam drew charictchers (sp) of everyone, he’s a good artisit.

i wish i could draw, then we left there about 10:30 and went to the loop.

ryan was there, the guy that hangs all over adam, and he was hangin all over

him and kissing him and shit, so we left to go to the bathroom at java joes,

we went there and adam was like, ok tonight you’re my bf, i was like, OMG

yes. lol. i can’t believe those words came out of his mouth, ya know i know

it’s just cause he wants ryan off him, but yeah. i was like, bu yeah. lol.

so we went back to the loop and shit and had a great time there, adam told

ryan that i was his bf and ryan i think got pissed about that cause he left

and didn’t say anything to him again the whole night. but yeah. i was happy.

adam’s so damn cute and funny and and and, omg yeah. i could actually date

him. i could.

June 28, 2001

june 28, [alanis morissette, "mary jane"] omg tonight’s been so

great. ang called here about 7, i was in the shower so my parents took a message

and came and got me out of the shower, i called her as i was getting dressed

and she was like, wanna come to church with me, and i was like, "ok"

thinking: ‘as long as i get to see adam’ lol. but yeah, i went there, it was

damn boring, just like church. some guy was there too and he was like, "lets

pray for our president" and i was like, hell no. he pissed me off. then

after that ang and i went to adams and picked him up. that was cool. then

we came back to my house and watched a movie, i didn’t really watch it that

much. i was more interested on what was on the couch next to me, ohh yeah.

adam is so cute. sooooooo cute. lol. i’ll have to see if ang can get a pic

of him or something. but ok, well ang had to go home at 11 cause her mom was

being a bitch, so after that adam and i went to the loop. that was cool ass

shit. we hung around there, lots of cute guys, but all way to femm for me.

there was this drag queen there that adam knows and he was hanging all over

adam and i was like, yeah, let me hang all over him for a while. but oh, i

did get to hold adam’s hand for a while, i was in heaven. lol. but adam and

i talked a while and had a nice conversation about stuff. it’s all cool. damn

he’s soooooooo cute and so nice too. i need a bf, i need one NOW.

June 24, 2001

june 24, [smashing pumpkins, "1979"] well tonight’s been really

great, it’s good to be home. about 6:30 or so xak showed up randomly then

we called angie, who was having some party at her house, so we went and got

her. it was wierd being at her house with all these people there. then we

went off to xaks apt. we started watching this movie, it’s called 8 1/2 women,

but then mandy and vero called and they came over. once they got there we

went back to angies house and my house so we could change then we went to

java joes, there was some concert type thing at the plaza so there were alot

of people there, alot of hot people even, hehe. after that we went to the

gay loop, more hot people. adam was there, that was cool, he’s damn fucking

cute. ya know, there’s all these people that i’d like to ask out, but i either

say, oh well they’re to cute for me and they’d never go out with me, and i

just drop it, or i’m just to afraid to ask them. and it just sucks. i’d really

like to ask people out, but i just don’t know how to go about it. yeah. i

suck at the whole asking out thing. but yeah, it was good seeing adam, then

there were other random people that were there, i didn’t know them, but they

knew xak and vero, and angie so yeah. then there was this guy, he just came

over to us and started introducing himself, he was david or something like

that, he apparently knew vero. but he was damn cute, and i swear i’ve seen

him somewhere before, but i just don’t know where. yeah, that’s life.

June 23, 2001

june 23, [live, "lighting crashes"] well it’s been a weird and

relaxing couple days. eagle bound olympics went great, we had a ton of people

and everything, so that was cool. i about lost my voice though yelling at

everyone. but yeah, i had fun. then i came home and went over to zachs, link

was there, and we watched some really fucked up movie when that was over we

all left. i got up about 7 the next morning cause we had a conference call

with a guy at penn state, after that call i’m not really wanting to go there

all that bad now. so i applied to ISU. yeah, it looks as though i’ll be going

there now, don’t you just love the way i am? one minute it’s one thing the

next it’s something completely different. yeah, i love it. then i just kinda

wasted the day here and shit and lsat night i went out with mandy, angie,

xak and this guy that angie knows named adam, he’s damn cute. hehe, but yeah,

that was great and it really got me thinking, so i said screw it and this

morning i checked my troop out of thier camp site and then turned in my resignation

letter to pete. he didn’t really say anything about it, just that it they

"didn’t want me to go" and yeah, so here i am, unemployed. yep.

i’ve got applications for places, and shit, so yep, we’ll see what happens.

May 25, 2001

may 25, #3 [u2, "sweetest thing"] ok well it’s 9:46 on a friday

night, i left here about 7 and went to java joes, hung out there for a bit,

went to the bathroom, really hot guy in there, majorly checking me out. nothing

came of that, lol. left there, walked through the sky walks some, nothing

realy going on there, so i went back to java joes and hung out tell like 8:45.

lots o hot guys, but nothing really goin on. so i left, drove through the

loop a few times, there was actually alot of people down there, but i just

kinda went though, got lost in des moines some, that was fun, then i headed

back towards ankeny, stopped at a gas station to get some pop and i ran into

ben from camp, god he’s so hot. we talked for a bit tell his mom yelled at

him to get moving, i was temped to ask ifhe wanted to hang out, but this is

his parents last weekend together, so i figured that wouldn’t be wise to do.

he’s not going to be at work on monday cause of it, so i figured he’d want

to spend the time with his parents. then i came back, and drove round ankey

looking for people. didn’t find anyone, jules was working, but i didn’t really

want to go into wal-mart and talk to him. so i just came home and here i am,

doing nothing. it sucks. i also talked to this

guy from grinnell, he seem pretty cool. he’s in training to be the manager

of a movie theater in grinnell and he also works at a radio station. yep.