Liad Back Weekend

Well, this weekend has been really laid back. Which is exactly what I’ve kinda been wanting. I mean, I haven’t had a whole weekend to just do nothing since before Christmas. And sometimes you just need a weekend to do nothing…

And here, I’m using nothing in a very liberal term….

Because, Friday night I went out with Joel and Ryan to see V for Vendetta. It was an AMAZING movie. It had everything! Sex, drugs, death, blowing things up, love story, gay and lesbian themes, sci-fi. It was just great. Everyone should go see this movie.

It was also April fools, one of the best days of the year for the internet: April Fools everyone!

I also love it when people send out wonderful e-mails that say things like… “and kudos to Cj B for the…”. An e-mail with that got sent to the CEO, VP and some really high up people at our clients. Glad to know I’m doing something good at work.

Want to make a boy scout happy?

Give him a hot brownie

Hahaha

Saturday I got up late and lounged around the house, did some fun programming projects, and then went shopping. I went to the store to get food for the week…

1) A pound of lunch meat

2) Loaf of bread

3) Milk

(Yes that really is my grocery list for a week’s worth of food)

And I ended up walking out of there spending $50 after adding a toothbrush, some leatuce, and mouth wash to the list. How annoying.

After that I went up to Santa Ana and saw Nunsense. It was mildly amusing. There was this really hot gay boy in the audience though. Yum yum. They were all about audience participation too, which was a bit annoying.

Saturday night I hung out with this guy Jason. We went to Blockbuster to rent a movie and you would never guess who I ran into there……

The hookup boy! _AND_ his bf! Omg. He walked right past me twice and never even looked at me.. Damn he’s got one fine ass though. haha.

Anyways, we came back to my place and just hung out and watched a movie. He left here about 1 and I went to bed.

On Sunday, Robert, Mike and I all went on a hike on the Holy Jim Falls Trail. OMG, it was a mess.. First you’ve got to drive back on this dirt road with HUGE pot holes and shit. We were affriad our truck was going to get stuck, so we parked about half way and walked the rest. It was so crayz. There were rivers flowing over the road and all these people back in there 4 wheeling. It looked like SO MUCH Fun. And the boys were SO HOT.

Anyways, we hiked for like 3 hours, but never got to the falls. I think we missed it somewhere, who knows. On the way back home though we passed this Biker bar, and there was this REALLY hot blond boy riding a harley. Yum yum. God I’ve been so horny lately. haha.

Got back to my place and we all went out to eat at this place and picked a spot to go camping at the end of this month. I also sent out invites for the first Gamping Brunch so that way everyone can get to know each other and we can plan out the first trip. God it’s going to be so much fun! I really hope people actually come.

Sarah called me in there and we’re going to take a trip out to Las Vegas sometime. That’ll be really exciting for me cause I haven’t seen her in like a year! My aunt called to tell me about the Bank issue I had a while back, apparently there were only 20 people that got notified, but she still wasn’t able to track down what retailer it was that had the issue. So that’s sad. Who knows.

Spent the rest of the night just lounging around my place doing nothing. It was nice. I really enjoyed myself this weekend.

I got a random e-mail the other day from this place advertising a new site “like” myspace. It’s called. DickSpace. God. Why is there ANOTHER hookup site? Of course I signed up. haha.

Remember how I complained about The Streets a few days ago? Well I have found one song by them that I really love… It’s called “Dry your eyes”. You should all go to my myspace profile and listen to it.

In one single moment your whole life can turn ’round

I stand there for a minute starin’ straight into the ground

Lookin’ to the left slightly, then lookin’ back down

World feels like it’s caved in proper sorry frown

Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us

I can change and I can grow or we could adjust

The wicked thing about us is we always have trust

We can even have an open relationship, if you must

I look at her she stares almost straight back at me

But her eyes glaze over like she’s lookin’ straight through me

Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity

When they open up she’s lookin’ down at her feet

Dry your eyes mate

I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up

There’s plenty more fish in the sea

Dry your eyes mate

I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts

But you’ve got to walk away now

It’s over

So then I move my hand up from down by my side

It’s shakin’, my life is crashin’ before my eyes

Turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies

Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh

Cause I can’t imagine my life without you and me

There’s things I can’t imagine doin’, things I can’t imagine seein’

It weren’t supposed to be easy, surely

Please, please, I beg you please

She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested

She wraps her fingers round mine with the softness she’s blessed with

She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures

By pushin’ my hand away to my chest, from hers

Dry your eyes mate

I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up

There’s plenty more fish in the sea

Dry your eyes mate

I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts

But you’ve got to walk away now

It’s over

And I’m just standin’ there, I can’t say a word

Cause everythin’s just gone

I’ve got nothin’

Absolutely nothin’

Tryin’ to pull her close out of bare desperation

Put my arms around her tryin’ to change what she’s sayin’

Pull my head level with hers so she might engage in

Look into her eyes to make her listen again

I’m not gonna fuckin’, just fuckin’ leave it all now

Cause you said it’d be forever and that was your vow

And you’re gonna let our things simply crash and fall down

You’re well out of order now, this is well out of town

She pulls away, my arms are tightly clamped round her waist

Gently pushes me back and she looks at me straight

Turns around so she’s now got her back to my face

Takes one step forward, looks back, and then walks away

Dry your eyes mate

I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up

There’s plenty more fish in the sea

Dry your eyes mate

I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts

But you’ve got to walk away now

It’s over

I know in the past I’ve found it hard to say

Tellin’ you things, but not tellin’ straight

But the more I pull on your hand and say

The more you pull away

Dry your eyes mate

I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up

There’s plenty more fish in the sea

Dry your eyes mate

I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts

But you’ve got to walk away now.

How I Miss Him.

God.. You know, the week has been going really well. But yet, I still miss him so much.

I miss his calling me every day to just chat. I miss his showing up at my front door and just letting himself in. I miss just laying in his bed or my bed watching movies and cuddling.

I miss our conversations and our going out and doing things.

I miss having him sleep over and just being there.

I know he caused a lot of problems… But I still miss him, we had a lot of really great times too.

What happened to “We’re psydo-boyfriends already” and “I could just sleep here every night” and all that? What changed so much. :'( Why can’t we even talk any more.

Off to my day of work. Adios!

Going Well

Things over the last 2-3 weeks have really been looking up for me. I’m starting to feel much better about living here…

The hike yesterday was lots of fun although we didn’t get to the place that we originially wanted to go. That place had this waterfall apparently and whatever. We got really lost in this very hickish area of Orange County! Who knew that existed, but I felt right at home! haha. We ended up going down this very small one lane road that winded all up and over this area and found a nice little place to hike in Cleaveland (sp?) National Forest. It was fun, hot and my ass got a GREAT work out!

Got home from that about 4 and I took a nap. Woke up about 8 and called Robert, he too had just woken up so we both decided to shower and then meet up for dinner.

He got here a little after 9 and we headed up to H Marys where we met up with Patrick. Ate dinner and just hung out there talking and stuff. Robert gave the waiter his number and it was SO FUNNY, because the waiter came back to the table to ask which one of us was “Robert”. I’m really excited to see if he calls him or not. lol

There was also this really hot boy at the bar that they kept trying to get me to go talk too cause he was sitting there all alone, but I was too nervous. Patrick almost went and talked to him for me, but I wouldn’t let him.

We ended up leaving there about 12:30 and I came home and hung out for a while. Ended up going to bed about 3am.

Got up this morning at 11 and am doing laundry now. I have 8 loads! I really wish that I had a washer/dryer in my place instead of having to use the pay ones.

Anyways, like I said… Things have been going really good here in the last 2 weeks. I’ve met two really cool guys, who I hope I’ll contiune to hang out with.

Plus I’ve got a few other people who I’ve been hanging out with so that’s really looking up, I need to hang out with a few of them more though. I always suck at initializing “hangout” time, because I always feel like I’m interupting something.

IE, last night I wanted to hang out with Jon, but just felt stupid asking him.. Then once I did, he said he decided he was going to go down to SD, so I felt stupid after I asked him. 🙁

But then I’m supposed to be doing lunch with Perry on Monday, so hopefully that’ll go well and I can add him to the cool people I’ve met recently list.

My Scopes today are fairly amusing:

Daily: You are probably more alluring than you realize as you transmit vibes that can capture others in your nets of illusion. Like the wizards of old, you can simply think yourself taller, smarter or prettier and magically, that is how you are perceived. Use this gift wisely.

Romantic: This week’s New Moon in the warrior planet’s home sign of Aries can give your love life another shot of rocket fuel. You’re hot and there’s no reason to hide it, so get out and get the attention you deserve.

Very interesting… 🙂 Perhaps I should schedule a few dates for this week. haha. I have my eye on one person I’d like to ask, but I’m very nervous about that one. I have a lot of good ideas right now about potential date scenes.. Not the typical dinner/movie thing. But those are reserved for people who I’m actually NERVOUS about the date for. Because that’s a sign that I like them to start with and hope that something will happen.

Not like most of them where I know it’s going to be a bust before it even happens. lol.

Anyways, first 3 loads are ready to rotate…

au revoir.

Second Plugin! (Auto_Link)

Yay! I just finished my second plugin for WordPress! 😀

This plugin takes a set of delimiters which are user specified and will do a google lookup and replace them with links.

IE: You’ve probably all noticed that I’ve been linking to the imdb.com site whenever I talk about a movie, etc. Well up till now I’ve been doing a manual lookup on all those things.

Well now.. All I have to do is [movie]She’s The Man[/movie].. And it will replace it with: She’s the man.

And since these are user definable, you can add more then that to it if you want, IE. I’ve added “Wiki” to mine, so I can do: [wiki]Newport Beach[/wiki] and it will do: Newport Beach

Fun, no?

You can download Auto_Link here.

Must be Spring Fever

Well, not much has really happened this weekend.

The guy I was supposed to go out with last night didn’t call till 9:30 and by then I had already made other plans.

Oceanside Marine boy called as well, but I didn’t really want to drive all the way down there and he didn’t want to come up here… Someone else called, but then they realized it was raining and decided they didn’t want to go out.

I ended up meeting up with this guy who I’ve been talking to online for a while. Went over to his house about 8:30ish and we watched Saved! and then Hard Rain. Both were very good movies.

The whole time he was very cuddly and shit, which wasn’t a big deal. He was kinda cute. But then once the second movie was over I said that I had to go home and he was like, “what, I invite you over and don’t even get to get off.”

He was being completely serious too. I told him no, and then he was like, “You don’t even wanna just jack off.” Ugh! Why are these boys so fucking stupid and annoying.

That whole situation got me thinking more about the question which had been posed to me earlier in the day. Hence the previous entry. I’m still wondering why I was posed that question though.

I got an e-mail from Andrew’s Mother as well.. It states: Can you call me one day at (xxx) xxx-xxxx during the day? Call collect. I need to talk to you. That’s the new house phone number. Please call collect, I’ll accept the carges. PLEASE CALL ME.

I’m fairly nervous about what she wants to talk to me about so badly. She’s a very blunt woman, which is good most of the time, but in the state I’m in, I don’t think I can handle her bluntness. I’m going to call her tomorrow on my way to work. It’ll be 9amish for her, so I think it should be fine.

In a week is Austin’s birthday… I returned his gift that I had gotten him. But it’s bothering me now thinking about the other plans I had come up with. I wish they would still be able to happen. But alas. Perhaps I can find someone else to do them with instead. At least that way I’ll get them done…. I hate the fact that I plan so much, it just leads to let downs, when they don’t happen.

Jenks has a boy now… I’ve known Jenky for 2 years now (maybe more? I remember mentioning an aniversary a while back, but I don’t remember which it was) and he’s always been so anti-relationship, anti-sex… It’s just so wierd to think of him being in one now. I wish him the best of luck.

It must be Spring Fever.